The more you nag
The more I want to leave
Our relatonship has a snag
It's been that way for weeks
You want more of me
I want to break free
And not be like you
Rather be more like me
I want to scream
You have me do everything
I'm not a slave to your needs
But you'll have me sink to you disease
I don't want to go that way
I'd rather be over there today
In a place where I'm wanted
And can be myself
Not what you'll have me to be
If only you could see
How much you're pushing me away
And all I want to do is be myself today

The sun scorched my face
As I mowed a friend's lawn
I must of felt in place
I really didn't feel like a pawn
I had an unselfish motive
It was to be of help
I knew she wasn't able to
So I mowed the green grass
And my selfish side was at
Peace at last for the time being
I thought of someone else for today
And my selfishness went away
My selfishness that has me down
But for today it isn't so noticeable
And it put a smile on my face
Knowing I was of service today

Feeling so out of place
Don't know what to think
It's so easy to give up
And bring about the hate
The ugliness I feel within
I just want to smash this mirror
It's been telling me lies for so many years
Nothing is making much sense
I try so very hard to be considerate
But everything seems too real
I get agitated too quickly
And think too much on how I feel
I don't want to say goodbye
And leave things as they are
If only I could change my mind
And make love come crashing down from afar
I wouldn't be where I'm at
And I wouldn't have to wish upon a star

Why are you so upset with me
Is it something I said or did
It seems like I put my foot in my mouth
Everyday like I don't even care
But I do care and want you to be happy
I want the very best for you
Our love seems like it is fading
I don't understand it anymore
It was once like a mountain breeze
Strong and not taken lightly
Now as years has gone by
It seems like raindrops in our head
Always a storm brewing within our home
I don't want it to end this way
But if I have to go then I will
I don't want you to be miserable anymore
And it seems like the sight of me puts you on edge
Where did our love for each other go
Has it just faded into the night sky
Darkness taking over our very being
And we can't find nothing to agree upon
We struggle to make it another day
I surely don't want it to end this way
But if I gave to leave to make you happy then I will
But my eyes will be filled with a lot of tears
And as I take my last step out of our home
I'll shall forever be missing you

Hello there
Am I going crazy
Or are we all just animals
Prey or predator
Depending on our mood
I know for myself I can be prey
To words and actions of others
I also can be the predator
Out to get you and yours
Everything you hold dear
I shall be waiting over there
You might not make out what is clear
And soon you shall have a lot of fear
Driving you crazy until the very end
Lost in a field of your own tears
Bloodstained by the hatchet in your head
All because of what you ******* said

The beauty lies within
And seemingly outside the realm
Of unexpected experiences
It is there I find hope
A better way of life
By looking back into my past
And realizing it wasn't worth it
But sometimes it was a happy
Medium to a place I like to call darkness

Note to self:
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Am I here for
Just to die
Just to wither away
Into nothingness
Is it that bleak
Isn't there any beauty
Or is it all darkness
Trying to smother me
Taking it's pain of mine
And killing the things worth while
In life, this ******* up life
That has brainwashed my mind
I read this and that
Trying to find hope
But all I find is disaster
And with it comes torture
Trying to mold me in such a way
But I try not to let it get to me
What I am is so confused
So i write about that confusion
I read about the confusion
So find some meaning
I have found mine
It's in the pen I pick up
And squibble magic on paper
I read the magic of others
And I can relate
Put it on paper
And let imagination spark
And write about life
The ***** little things
That plagues our minds
Speak the truth
And find some meaning
It all begins with you
And the letters within