One last Goodbye,
All I ask is to smell your perfume again.
The last thing I remember is smelling your hair and your breathe it was so warm, I could feel the cold through the cracked door.
I think about this over and over, we were such distant lovers.
Always trying to get back
to those stairs
in the apartment complex
where we kissed for the first time.

You always would hang your keys on the nail,
I miss the sound of them falling off the nail and on to the ground.
sometimes it would happen for no apparent reason.
but those keys are no where to be found.

The only places I see and smell you
are in my Lucid Dreams
where we're still together.

Another ***** driver
Another way to unloosen the screws in my wall
I loosened up just enough
Enough to see the light through the crack in my door
I let you see just enough
Then the door closed
You knocked on it until your knuckles bleed
But you will never see me again.
Keep knocking
Keep wanting me to open that door again.

My fingers twisted as my palms
Landed flat on the sides of your waste
They danced and danced around the lining of your jeans. They danced all the way threw the loop holes
Finding a way
To figure out your zipper
They got lost fumbled the button
And lost track In the sound
Clisp
Crisp
Zip
Zip
Your lips
Found the way to my neck
I fumbled your pants
They fell
Slightly just enough
For me to see your dragon fly tattoo

I think I’m good now
Smelling the ocean and picking up shells
I’ll be by the flow of the water
Kissing and licking the salt off my hands
I love it seaside
I love the sun sparkling on the top of the water
I can’t wait to hear that sound
The sound of the water gasping for air as my toes suffocate the sand
California
How I miss you
Will I see you again....

I’ve always found boredom to be the creator of genius.
As I sit back and think about how boring life can get.
I stir my tiny pink straw in my cocktail and wonder how infused I am to this habit of putting the key into my ignition starting my car and driving to work.
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to put my key into my ignition and drive my car into a gas station demolishing everything in its path.
The boredom would sure to be gone in the flames.
I would sure like to stir up some **** today.
To get punched in the face and see my blood.
But I will probably just lay in bed and wonder what it feels like to get hurt.
It’s been awhile since I tried to destroy myself.
I’ve been so bored taking it easy
Not getting into trouble
Has trouble forgot I existed?!

I could be anywhere
I choose to
Be
Here
Smiling as you
Sleep
After having to many drinks

If all the stars stopped shinning your smile would brighten up the sky. If Gravity was no longer a thing you would hold me down on earth. If the birds stopped singing and the world went quiet our hearts would play the sweetest melody.