This isn't right.
I shouldn't be here..
What they're doing here can't be legal.
Confined in this room, walls of white,
I just pray i can sleep through the night.
But they're guarding the door, making sure i can't leave.
Is it really as bad as perceived?
I feel as though i'm on my death bed.. Will anyone grieve?

Denied any phone calls, not given proper rights.
When i open the door it's far from alright.
I'm in their clutches, trying to break free.
Why on earth is this happening to me?

Mentally broken and physically bruised.
On the verge of tears, what am i to do?
Forced to take medication but what is it for?
They're trying to **** me. Please open the door.

Looking back I guess life seemed better than it was.
But it will never be worth the torment.
I don't know where to find myself.
But I guess I'll always dwell.
I'm still just trapped in this shell.
In my personal layer of hell.
Everything that fills my days is making me sick.
So I guess until I figure it out I'll just be in remiss.

Trying to cope with my less than mediocre life.
When will things take a change for the better?
I know i said i'd avoid the knife.
But in a sea of words, i'm merely just a letter.
My existence is anything but a happy one.
I long to just feel good for a change.
But it feels as though everyone's done.
How can i be so alone, when there are so many who claim to care?
Yeah, you might have been the one.
And now i feel as though my being might as well be thin air.
Ignored by most.
Death feels so close.
I guess having a good life, friends, and a love, no i was never meant to have any of those.

Lost in my mind, I'm still running out of time.
Lost in life, and I'm aching to feel the blade of the knife.
Let the warm rush momentarily dissolve my fears.
But that never works, or stops the running tears.
Where do I go from here?
It's not like I have a home.
No one is near.
Maybe I should just pack up and go.
When the aching starts you find yourself wanting to numb the pain.
I'm not picky on how, it's not like I have anything to gain.
"Keep your head up" they'll say. And you do everything you can to believe them.
But when you're so alone they don't realize how much you need them.
Constantly feeling a sense of abandonment.
Maybe things would work out better if I weren't so ******* adamant.

Always feeling hated in this world.
I’m nothing but a stupid little girl.
I wish I could just be with you again.
But there’s no more hope I guess we’re both set to mend.
The end for me seems to be near.
I can barely feel anything but the streaming tears.
There’s nothing left but defeat.
Nothing left to do but self medicate and sleep.

Maybe i was never cut out for this life.
I keep finding myself wanting to feel the blade of the knife.
I guess for me it was just all about love.
But now i know i never was and never will be enough.
Yeah i know i just want everyone to be happy.
But i can't help but feel that it will never happen unless they do it without me.
Spent all this time trying to be a better me.
Only to find that i'm losing my sanity.
Now i'm left wondering if there's any hope?
Or should i make a noose and let myself hang from the rope.
Letting all my dreams wither away.
The ones who touched my heart, i'll hope to see them again someday.
So as i try my best to win the war with my mind,
I'll just wish that i'm not running out of time.

So while you wait in my head in any move I make next, I'll wonder why I still have my ******* ******* head.
It's only a matter of time until I only see red.
And everyone knows that you all deserve the most horrifically and excruciating deaths.
So while you daft imbecillic nymphotic wastes of skin, keep this conspiracy going while life is just dim witted grim.
I'll wonder why you all gave away what you all had within.
If you were all that valueless then what the **** is there left to win?
The mess is a pit of fire and you drag and push people to their mercilessly torturous doom, because it's the good hearted or pure you all want to consume.
So while you all act like parasites feeding on life, I'll just try to find a way to save my daughter while I get the job done right of taking my life and never again seeing any one body in or on any plane of existence in any ******* ******* point in time.

Walking this road alone,
I'm getting so ******* cold.
Chasing the highs to get away from the lows.
Where this path will take me, no one knows.
Aching for the touch of another.
Just lay here with me under the covers.
But i should warn you, you shouldn't get too close.
I'm so ******* broken and all i have is hope.
Can't escape being used.
Only wishing for this world to show me some truth.
Always searching for the life of my dreams.
But everyone's out to get me, or so it seems.
I'm just walking around with love in my heart.
Hoping again that i won't fall apart.
If only I could show someone the way it needs to be.
Not just for me, but for them to embrace the love i want them to need.
But i'm drifting away into these negative thoughts.
Trying to make sure my body, and my mind don't rot.
I know i'll always be afraid of dying alone.
So i'll keep dreaming of the one who will help me find home.

Maybe I just have to accept that feeling constant pain is normal for me.
Maybe it's just in the cards that they never want me like I want them.
I guess I'll just have to find a way to smile through the loneliness.
Breathe on with this weight on my chest.
Forget about the rest.
but it's hard to do when all you wanna do is end it all.
No more wondering if things will work out.
No more wishing for everything to be okay.
No more searching for a soul who can help you forget about your miserable reality.
But I guess that's life.
And even though you may be broken or even shattered, that doesn't mean you should quit.
Even if you do feel hopeless, there will always be hope.

All life seems to be is merciless destinies.
All of you people power trip and fill your greed.
There's nothing left of my sanity.
All you people care about is your vanity.
What does it matter what skin your in?
It's just a merciless doom for your lust filled sins.

The days are getting longer.
It's not just that summer's coming, it's the loneliness that's engulfing my being.
I know it's too late, but that doesn't keep me from wanting to change all of this. But i feel like i'm slowly drowning in quicksand.
How do i get out of this pit?
Every time i try to move i get lower.
How far till i hit the bottom?
I think i've already been there.
Am i sinking deeper? Or finally finding my way out?
Either way i know i need to find the strength to do this for myself, by myself.
Because all that's left are ghosts and blurry memories of old lovers, friends, and the ones i was too afraid to let in.
But you haunt me the most.
Why does everything always lead back to you?
Maybe you were the light that was trying to guide me to safety.
Or maybe you were to lead me to tragedy.
Only one thing is certain, and that is my soul is searching for yours.
Whether you're my next savior, or the devil in disguise.
Something inside just won't let the memories die.

When you're flirting with death it's hard to realize what's really going on.
Yeah i'm trying to be strong.
But everything i do and say is wrong.
You had a place in my heart but i thought you were deceiving me.
Now nothing pleases me.
Walking down this barren road.
Trying to mend my heart of stone.
It seems i only feel for those who can save me.
But i'm unwanted in this reality.
I wrote beautiful words for you,
but erased them in fear for what you would say or do.
Yeah i think i still feel for you.
But i try to distract myself because i don't know if you want me in the room.
Maybe i'm not cut out for this.
I fall too hard and try to resist.
It's a pathetic fallacy how you made my heart sing.
If i could i would give your heart wings.
But i'm too weak.
Maybe i'm in too deep.
Or am i?
When all you try to do is forget the good.
It's hard to focus on the things you should.
Yeah your smile and words melted my wounds and shards.
But i feel like happiness is too far.
I craved your touch as well as your presence.
Now i'm left pondering on the essence.
Are you really what i need?
It seems like it to me, or so it seems.
But i'm caught up in the negativity,
oh what i would give for this to all be just a bad dream.
But you made the sun shine, even though we both know i'm running out of time.
And even though i know i'm hopeless, i'll still be happy if i have you by my side.

Trying my hardest not to think about the end.
But there's no hope for me, no hope to mend.
Unwanted everywhere i go.
Why the **** do i have so much hope?
I guess i just need to let go.
Of everything, and not let my feelings show.

I was on the brink of entering the valley of darkness.
I lay there screaming your name as they were trying to revive me.
Everything went dark.
All but the memories of you.
I slipped into the unknown for a few moments, and awoke to the people who had been working to keep me here.
Question after question, I had no recollection.
When i was finally released they wanted to erase you from my mind, from my reality.
It seemed they had succeeded.
Maybe time isn't on my side, but i remember enough to miss your presence from my life.

How do I get up and get out of this pit?
I’m running out of places to sit.
It feels like a never ending downwards spiral.
There is no denial.
The masquerade won’t let me break free.
If only I could just see, the beauty in life but there is none around me.

Spent so many nights alone and I'm just longing for another's touch.
Not that type of placebo affect when you're stuck in an alcohol fuelled haze.
No.
Although that may be what I'm used to, I'm left here craving something real.
The souls that once made my heart sing have forgotten my touch.
But that's just my fate.
Maybe I was never meant to feel so deeply.
But now that I've had it I'm left trying to find a soul that craves me as much as I crave them.
But when it happens, it never lasts long.
They were my music, nothing was wrong.
Only passion was flowing through my veins, and I hope for them it was the same.
I know it hurts now, but I'd rather feel pain than be numb.
I know I'm nothing special, hell i'm the bottom of the barrel.
But if you feel it too, I promise I would do anything for you.

Maybe it's the loneliness that's ******* me up.
Or maybe it's the fact that i'll never be good enough.
All these passersby, making their way through these blurry nights.
Is this how it's supposed to be?
It's just my fate it seems.
Walking around with my heart on my sleeve is harder than it seems.
Dodging every bullet to try not to break again.
I'll try my best to make it past these bends.
As i keep my eyes glued to the floor to hide my reflection.
While i'm searching for my sense of direction.

Finding hope in improbable places.
I guess I should start doing up my laces.
Get ready to run, hopefully the destination is near.
Because what's coming and going is mostly fear.
Have I really stumbled upon some true friends?
I don't know for sure but I'm starting to mend.
Not as focused on all of what's shattered me.
I just hope I don't fade away completely.
And now it seems I have more hope than before.
While I'm hoping that they won't close the door.
It's thanks to them that I'm not dead on the floor.
How could I ever ask for more?

I am no one.
I am nothing.
Is this what misery brings?
I can still feel the sting.
So how can I go on?
Everything I do and say is wrong.
And I’m not that strong.
Falling apart at the seams.
My only escape is my dreams.
Even if they are mostly nightmares.
I want to find love but no one cares.
So why don’t I fashion a dare?
Can I get my life back?
Or all the things I lack?
Maybe tomorrow I’ll be able to breathe.
Until then I’ll be hiding in my sleep.

The pain comes and goes, but this time feels worse.
I don't know where I'm headed but I can't help but feel cursed.
It feels as though I'm stuck at rock bottom.
Will I ever find my way? This is becoming a problem.
Feeling like a waste of space.
I wish I could pick myself up because I know this isn't the case.
So I'll keep on trying to find someone to love.
But deep down I don't know if I'm enough.

It seems I'm destined to be an outcast.
Why can't anything ever last?
I'm probably just too focused on the past.
I feel like I'm ready to make this breathe my last.
But the reality of it is that I don't wanna die.
I'm just so ******* sick of fake friends and lies.
I know that giving up is pathetic.
But lately I've been feeling the opposite of copacetic.
But when you're always left wandering alone,
You start losing hope for ever finding home.
I wanna get up and live the life of my dreams.
I don't need much just use your key.
Searching for someone to unlock my heart.
But it seems again I'm falling apart.
What makes this time different is I'm a little bit stronger.
So I'll get up again and try a little bit longer.

Wasting all my time drowning in these bottles.
Hoping for a chance to start all over again.
Stomaching the bitter taste to forget what i'll never get back.
But forgetting is easier said than done.
And darling, i'm a wreck.
Just waiting for a chance to redeem myself.
Get out of this place, and start a better life.
Forget the pills, forget the knife.
Death is no salvation.
Just an easy way out for the ones who just can't take it.
So what's left for me?
I guess time will tell.
And in that time i'll try not to fully immerse my being in the poison that surrounds me.

It seems as though my emotions are making their great escape.
Believe me when i say i've tried to turn the page.
But there's nothing of value deep inside this rib cage.
Do people really feel this empty at such a young age?
What's to come if you can never fully immerse yourself in it?
Even when things are imminent, you find yourself wishing your feelings were infinite.
For years my new normal has been stuck in rock bottom.
But now that seems to be less of a problem.
Oh dear god what i would give to just be me again.
To feel like i've been taken apart piece by piece is the last thing i wanted when i set my mind to mend.
So where is the silver lining?
I guess i could just blame it all on bad timing.
I just wish trying to be me again wasn't so **** tiring.

Looking back I know you never deserved that.
Why was I so awful?
You were the light in a dark room.
And I was the gloom.
I wish that wasn’t true.
But there’s nothing I can do but try to make amends.
And hope for you to find a better love than I could have ever been.

It seems like everyone's out to get me.
This doesn't make any sense to me.
People passing through for a short while i call them friends.
Little do i know that's not what i am to them.
Never been more lonely.
And this place still doesn't feel like home to me.
Well i guess i was always meant to be alone.
And sadly my heart is turning to stone.
But when i'm left alone with my thoughts,
I'm always searching for a way to change the plot.
I don't know what to do, i'm wasting all my time.
Left expressing myself with all these stupid rhymes.
I want to break free from my mindless ways.
Get up, get out, and find a change of pace.
Everything's so hard when you have no friends.
So i'm taking the time to try to mend.
My mind, heart and soul aren't in the best shape.
So why is my world still filled with so much hate?

Trying to escape being "that girl."
I guess after the numbing stops, you begin to feel how empty and alone you are.
How do you let yourself get used time after time?
How do you signify your value, after being devalued for so ******* long?
I guess I've tainted my heart and soul.
But that doesn't stop me from wanting to try it all again.
I know I'm not anyone's first choice.
**** I'm probably nowhere to be found in their thoughts, but being "that girl" can do that to you.
So why do you let them walk all over you?
Stop letting them give you false hope.
Stop feeding into the ******* of one night stands that you know are to come and go.
You may not believe in yourself, but every living soul on this earth has a purpose.
Maybe you'll never find anyone you have a strong connection with.
Maybe your friends will continue to come and go.
But you're worth more than you think.
So get out into the world and make something of yourself, whether it be far or near, you have to try.

And I'm slipping back into thinking about you again.
It kills me that I can't get you out of my head.
You were a paradise I never thought I'd get a taste of.
Why did it end?
I know you got busy.
Maybe it was all in the timing.
Maybe I was never really good enough for you.
I was lost in you.
And maybe you were just stringing me along.
But I can't get over how perfect we were.
How perfect you were.
Your brown eyes devoured my innocence.
Allowing me to dance in the fire of our burning desire.
How naive I was to think I could have stayed with you longer.
Long nights of love and laughter was the epitome of our essence.
Yeah I guess you ****** me up.
But I'll never forgive myself for staying here without you.
I know you never meant to hurt me, or maybe you did.
But my heart and soul has never craved anything more.
And if I were to cross your path again, I'd simply smile because you were the best of me.

And to be honest, i don't even know what i'd say if we crossed paths.
But your smile is etched into my mind.
Your words are still guiding me to safety.
And i'm still left searching for a soul as lovely as yours,
While i'm stuck drowning cold and alone.
And to be honest, i don't think i'll ever find anyone like you.
That's why i'm left clinging to our memories.
No, i don't regret what we had.
And even though my fate was sealed with you, i do regret not leaving this life behind for you.
And to be honest, i feel pathetic for wanting you after all of this time.
But you were the best i had the pleasure of almost calling mine.
A small glimpse of heaven, in a miserable wasteland i call life.
You showed me how love is supposed to be, and to be honest, that's why you're stuck in my mind.

Longing to feel deaths cold embrace.
I miss the days of a pure smile on my face.
So I guess now I’m just counting the days.
But I can’t help but want to get out of this place.
No friendly faces far or near.
I miss the running of tears.
How does everything keep changing.
It’s not something I can find myself embracing.
So why does my mind continue to keep racing?
It’s everyone else’s time I’m wasting.
What is this bitter feeling that keeps chasing me.
I feel undeserving of love, is there a key?

Fear is around every corner.
And maybe it always was.
Maybe that's why I made myself forget.
Maybe that's why I was so easily convinced of everything.
Well there's no one I can turn to anymore.
And I just want to give up.
I just need to love and be loved.
But in the back of my mind I'm still not sure if it'll be enough.
There's no saving me.
But I wish I could have been smarter.
And not allowed anyone to dictate my life.
When all I ever needed was a lover.

So here i am, writing about you again at 4:00 am.
These days i can't go more than a few minutes without wishing i was by your side.
I keep finding myself trying to drown our memories with whatever i can stomach.
But it's never enough.
You left a scar on my heart, and the only way to heal it is to rid myself of this earth, because i know you won't come back again.
Even though your absence is eating me alive.
I don't think you realize that you were my saviour.
God knows i'm not ready to leave.
But he also knows i'm too weak to make it any further without you.
It's such a cliche that with or without you, i'm either mentally dead, or on my way to that grave.
Will i ever find my saving grace?
You stole my heart without any intent of loving me.
Oh dear god, how i long to love the way i wish to be wanted.
But now i'm on my way to the hell you hoped for.
And i will always be sorry.

Another day getting dragged through the dirt.
I guess this is life, but somehow it doesn't really hurt.
The masquerade is plotting against me.
And i've lost most hope to finding a key.
I'm struggling to get out of this pit.
And i'm running out of places to sit.
So where do i go to change the plot?
I guess this game is more complicated than i thought.
I guess i don't feel all that distraught.
But my mind, body and soul have gone through enough to want out.
Even if i am filled with mostly doubt.
I guess sooner or later i'll need to decipher a new route.
So in these passing days i'll try to be happy.
And try not to fade away as i bring myself to safety.

The loneliness is creeping back in.
And the negative energy seems to be filling me up to the brim.
Why the **** did i have to have so much hope.
I should have known it would have only been a matter of time until i choke.
You made me see how beautiful it can be to feel something.
But you walked away like everything was nothing.
Maybe i was blind, maybe you knew the game you wanted to play.
Every aspect of my life feels like a sick charade.
Deception around every corner and everyones in on the play.
I'm so sick of getting caught up in the middle of everyones games.
I guess i'm stuck overthinking because you won't let me back in.
But i know i would be happier if you would just talk to me again.

It feels as though I've reached the end.
All that hoping and wishing but I still didn't mend.
All I ever wanted was to be by your side.
Until I realized that it was all a lie.
I've been chasing after a love that I'm not sure exists.
I don't want to die, not like this I'll wish.
But baby I'm a loner and for me it's not in the cards.
So I'll keep trying to be the best me hopefully the destination isn't too far.
And if I really have reached the end,
I'll just hope that this never happens to anyone again.

How i miss the comfort of the warm tears streaming down my face.
To know that it's okay to feel sometimes.
But my heart is more tainted than before.
My soul seems to be burning out.
My mind is reaching it's limits in comprehending the feelings.
What am i feeling?
For the past few days i've felt like i'm burning under my skin.
But why?
I guess i'm just lovesick, and not the good kind.
God how did i let my life come to this.
I don't even know when i started burning out.
But it feels like there's no turning back, and i'm living in my own personal hell.

So much confusion, I hope it’s all a delusion.
Can’t even get lost in thought, I know it’s the truth that I always sought.
But now things are getting hazy. And life can seem a little crazy.
But I guess my whole life I’ve been stuck in a day dream.

As i drag what's left of my soul through what i call life,
I can't help but feel numb to the touch. **** this isn't right.
And i can't help but feel trapped in a world with no friends.
If only i could start over, somewhere new, because there's no hope to mend.
So i keep starting over every day as best as i can.
But nothing ever works, i really need to divise a new plan.
But how can you think of a new plan when you really have nothing?
I don't think it matters how you look at it, and no i was never bluffing.
I guess the only thing i can do is continue to drown my sorrows.
Because in what i call my life, everything so far has been borrowed.

If we are born whole, why do i feel as though i've been taken apart piece by piece?
Like a flower whose petals have been torn, just to figure out if he loves you.
Why is my soul still left roaming the earth looking for something real?
When will i find where i fit into this chaos?
When people rearrange your pieces, it's hard to see who you really are.
But should you dwell on who you are?
Or embrace who you are only to mould who you should be?
There is no right answer.
You just need to get up and get out.
What you seek will find you in the end.
You can't sit around waiting for your life to change.
Be the change.

I read the words, but coming from me nothing is ever poetic.
I'm at the bottom, feeling a little less than copacetic.
I'm on the brink of packing up and leaving.
I don't know if it's just me, but this life seems a little too deceiving.
Where do you go when you've lost your hopes and dreams?
Lately my world has been falling apart at the seams.
Hope comes, and just as easily dissipates.
Maybe i'd have more drive if it weren't my life at stake.
So what am i even hoping for?
I'm not sure, there are no open doors.
Maybe it's not hope that's brought into question.
Maybe it's my thoughts or actions or my lack of recollection.
How do i get up when it's all smoke and mirrors?
I guess i'm just inferior because my life seems so unclear.
So i'll keep the bottle close while i gather up my hopes.
As i try to keep on going, hoping i don't choke.

Stuck with this disorder, I might as well be trapped in a corner.
What would happen if I could change my fate?
Would there be hope for a better day?
I just wish I could find a way for all of this to change.
Maybe then I wouldn’t be stuck being a slave to their game.

Lace your fingers between mine and maybe we won’t have to hide.
When we kiss will we get frozen in time?
I just need to find someone who will stay by my side.
And we can walk among the sunrise to feel more alive.
Can we get lost in a brighter hue?
I just want to feel something true.
Because I’m sick of feeling blue and not knowing what to do.
So until he finds my side, I’ll try not to hide and wait for his warm embrace to maybe change my fate.

Feeling trapped.
Trying to gain all the things that i lack.
I miss your sweet embrace.
But darling, i know i'm too late.
I don't even know if i feel like the real me.
I'm trying everything i can, do you hear my plea?
Unwanted in every room.
How did this reality become true?
What happened to having a family and friends?
I don't know if i'll ever mend.
Moving forward only feeling like a burden.
Fearing the day they'll close the curtain.
But i want to get out of the place i'm in.
Find your warm gaze again, even though our love may be a sin.
Was it ever love?
Or just a trance you had me in?
Whatever our fate may be, you never really leave my mind.
I just wish you wanted me the way i want you.
But i guess there's just not enough time to get you back on my side.
Were you ever on my side in the first place?
Whatever the truth is, i guess it's just not my fate.
I just wish you knew how much you mean to me.
I'm sitting here losing my sanity.
Trying to figure out what went wrong.
I guess it was just in the cards.
Who knew life without you would be this hard.
But i hope you find happiness in everything you do.
You were my everything, i'm just sorry i couldn't make your dreams come true.

Is the door shut for good again?
I really hope we can make it past this bend.
But it seems like you may have severed our ties.
Everything is turning back into stormy skies.
I don’t really wanna hide.
But it’s all I can do if you won’t let me stay by your side.
Trying to escape the crashing tide.
I just wish you were mine.
But something tells me if there’s even a chance it’ll be harder this time.
I’ll just hope that if this is the end we both turn out fine.

My untimely and brutal demise seems to be reaching its time.
At least I have you by my side.
i don’t want to fade away into the night.
But living the rest of my life is too out of sight.
I never thought things would reach this height.
But I guess I’ll have to come to terms with my life.

The minutes are starting to feel like hours.
I feel stuck and I don't know where I'm headed.
If only I could feel something other than this horrendous nothingness.
I don't know what to think anymore.
But I know you were never mine.
And maybe that's why I can accept that you're not here.
I feel like it's too late for me, and maybe I'm right.
But if everyone's happy I just might be okay with that.

All this hoping and wishing, but I'm still at the bottom.
How do I get up?
I know I need to get up.
Am I still sinking?
Do I need someone to pull me out?
I'm not like any of them.
Maybe that's what makes it so hard.
Maybe if I was more like them I could find my way, any way.
Who am I?
I'm not sure I know anymore.
I'm not sure I ever knew.
Where am I headed?
I need to find a light.
I'm stuck in a daydream.
And not the good kind.

Sometimes i'm left pondering the afterlife. Is death a sentence? or a new beginning? Some say your beliefs play a pretty big role. But how will you know when you're about to pay the toll? It feels like i'm already dead. I know i shouldn't give up, but my mind won't give it a rest. **** it's such a mess. For my friends i really did only want the best. Maybe some souls just get lost on their paths, by beggars, liars and thieves making others plea. Plea for the things that should be a natural manifestation. I'm falling apart at the seams, so i guess i'll just stare at the constellations. In a place so full of beauty and wonder, how could i have let them dull me so? I guess i'll never know. So as i try to think of a way to get the twinkle back in my eyes, i'll try to cheer up and stop thinking of ways to die.

Although i only briefly remember the evil i cast upon you,
I'm still left sitting here wishing i could make things right.
So much is unclear, and i'm left wondering if it's true.
I just hope i didn't ruin too many of your nights.
So in our silence i'll hope that you're getting to where you need to be.
And hoping that you're alright.

Torn between getting up, and giving up.
These memories are crippling.
The lack of closure is unbearable.
Trapped.
Thinking about the "what if's".
Lost.
Just hoping that you might come back, even just for a moment.
Stunned.
By the fact that all of this happened, and i never really knew what was going on.
Just hoping that one day, maybe we'll meet again.
You carry my heart in your pocket whether you know it or not.
It took me putting together the pieces of the past to figure out who had it myself.
But we live in different worlds.
You're nowhere to be found.
And the only way i know how to get my heart back is to make myself hate you.
But i can't.
Despite the lack of time we had together, and even though i couldn't see it at the time, you were the best thing that's ever happened to me.
You opened my eyes, and let my true colours shine.
If only we had more time.

Let the tears run down.
Try not to drown.
I wanted to be there for you.
But I’m a mess, what else could I do?
You make everything look so easy.
And the thought of being without you makes me feel somewhat queezy.
Life just keeps kicking me down.
I hope you’re doing better without me around.
You were just like my favourite sweater.
Always comforting, no matter the weather.
But you’re gone and all I can do is cry.
I can’t say that I don’t want to die.
So just promise me that in our silence, you’ll do more than me and that is just survive.