I remember all the feelings like a fluttering memory of a past dream
Distant, vague, filled with longing
I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped
I would of given my life to be everything you need
But it wasn't enough to make you see
The endless pain in hiding all the flaws
you couldn't take away the pain
these cracks in my mask
Somehow you never thought to ask
How to cease this ache
There's no way

I'm not immortal...
my head aches from ache..
A sourceless cower
I sit inside my head...

not a tear...not a tear...
the fear subsided
for now a year...
and finally the conclusion is here...

I'm lost..I'm weary
I'm not as close, not nearly..
I'm farther than I started...
backtracked to nowhere

You were the last smile I remember...
the last place when we were together.
I knew who I was then...
but now I begin again...

I lost myself in you
Love, magic and blissful caress..
how could I compete...
a time beyond time..
ineffable, defying my breath...

Soon after, cold after...
the happily ever after
the laugher... died into tears..
and soon the tears..
dripped in the silence.

But the time never begun once more..
You walked and time followed
the shut, the ache..everything misplaced...

Now one year later, I sit rather jaded..
mystified at why I cannot seem to be...
Everything that was supposed to happen..
has turned me..
into nothing...
give me back to me.

Don't worry baby,
It won't hurt, you croon.
But it does,
every time.
And each time after, I will flee.
Scamper into the darkness,
barefooted,
bruised,
bewildered.
Every time,
I'll trip and claw my way,
over branches,
through the dirt.
But baby, "I love you."
You'll say.
And for some reason,
My broken feet,
limp and hobble their way,
right back to you.
I tremble in the wake of your love.
It won't hurt baby.
But baby, it always does.