When I look into your beautiful emerald eyes
I can feel love reciprocated upon my heart
I can see a coastal sunset, easing all of our pains
A calm salty breeze ruffles your hair
As we cross the white sand, hand in hand
Serenity washes over our souls
Once lost, but found with each other

But then I step back
And I look at you not into you
And I see turmoil and pain
Stress and disturbance
Why can't you look into my eyes
And see the same as when I look into yours?

We love each other
More than words can ever express
Three simple words with such boundless meaning
I love you

Imprinted image of you, in all of your astonishing glory lays upon my heart

Life would ne'er hold such great meaning if you hadn't been a part of its journey
O'er the course of just over a year we've created an unbreakable bond
Very much so, you're the greatest addition to my life. I couldn't and wouldn't trade you for all the riches hidden within this earth
Emmanating such amazing warmth from your soul, I wish to forever bask in it like my own personal sun

You are the center of my universe, perhaps you truly are my sun beyond metaphor
Obscurity be gone! The clarity of the day leads my heart to yours, my hands to yours, and my smile to your eyes
Unconditionally my love for you, my goddess, remains swirling within my heart bringing about a myriad of emotions, all of which lead me to stand before you and say this much...

I love you

Days like these hurt your heart
Drown you with sorrows
And haunt you with many demons

Days like those a while ago were happy
Light on the heart
And marked by many laughs

But, there is commonplace between this opposites
I'm still sitting here
Loving you

Whether you be pained
Or laughing uncontrollably
I'll always be right here

There is no end to my love
Only a beginning
One that I will forever cherish

You are my sunshine
And I'll never leave your side
I love you, unconditionally

Watch my heart shatter into millions of tiny shards
Picking up the pieces
Gluing them back together with my tears
Back at your door in moments
I miss you

I'm not sure
If my days drag on forever
Or if they simply run into one another

I'm not sure
If my heart is numb
Or if I'm incapable of feeling for another

I'm not sure
If my soul is reclusive
Or if I myself am

I'm not sure
About much
Right now

But I am sure
About this
I still love you

Feed the parasites in my brain
Eating the bindings that hold me together
And watch as I fall
Deep
Deep
Deep
Deep
Into an insane abyss
Deeper
Where the only light there is
There isn't
Where the only logic allowed
Is illogical
Where the moon sings sweet lullabies
That I cannot hear or see
Does it really then?
Am I deaf/blind
Or is there nothing to see/hear?
Is this hole empty
Or is there so much that it implodes
Sending micro particles outward
Into the space that doesn't exist?

Blood sweat and eventually tears
Spilled upon waxed pine
For seemingly nothing

Hours upon hours
Weekends
Weekdays

It's all over
Time is taking its course
Leaving tonight behind

The end is always bitter
Yet the beginning is so sweet
I'll miss this forever

I'm learning Arabic
Unlocking the treasure
Of a million tales unheard
A look through different eyes
I'll post in Arabic
When I know it enough to write it

Please my darling let me lay
Lay forgotten and rusted
An old memory slipping away
Let me squander away my last breaths
Reciting to you my vows
Of undying affection
And then, in the last moments of my existence
Look me in the eyes
Take in the serenity of my death
And then understand that it is easier for me
As I pass through the final stages of hell
And finally wither till I was no more

Perhaps life does not exist
Tis just a dreary film shown in the heavens above
Showing the lessons of what to do
Or rather what not to do
When placed in Home

Perhaps life is not physical at all
What we touch and see is not there
Projections to end our fears
Of floating lonely in space

Perhaps life has no love
No gain or loss
Because it simply tis not real

Perhaps life isn't real
And neither are the feelings that come with it

But tis indeed, and I do love you

Lighting is just
It strikes with no prejudice
As it is reason
Carrying millenia of knowledge
But it is also fury
Its power unfathomable by man
And those that wander within its reach
Have an understanding for love
For it connects us in a bond of nugatory existence
In comparison to the timeless Nature
There are no borders where the lighting strikes
And we are all one underneath its glory

May infamy strike its curséd name
Maiming, mutilating, mundaning
As my battered body and tattered soul
Struggle to gain a foothold
Grasp at nothing for a breath
And wither with every passing moment

I have wished for solitude
But it was meant to be serene and silent
Not a deafening blare of desolation
I am alone, I am alone
It's me against the devil
And the devil is winning

I can feel his grip tightening on my mind
Idle for too long, yet equally active
The stench of despair curls around my nose
And curdles my blood like aging milk
Lethargic weeping plagues my day
And unmitigated fallacy my nights

We had grown so close, you and I
I could feel the blanket of depression lifting
The fog clearing, the sun shining
But whether it be an appetite for destruction
Or a fear of inevitably deeper attachment
You went away, far far away

You are my sunshine, my goddess
Why must you hide behind the storm?
Banish its painful treachery
Shed the scintillating beauty of your smile
Upon my dreary heart once more
I need your light

But that is only a wish amongst dreams
Has my destiny changed
Or is this the course I was meant to take?
I could care less at this early hour
Because I'm lonely today

Should I be forced to go
Many miles away from here
To never return
Look for me
I'll be there

Look for me in the evening sun
I'll be smiling down on you
Wishing I could come down
And shine my smile only to you

Look for me in the whispering wind
I'll be singing your name
Wishing I could be there
To sing it in your ears

Look for me in the tree
I'll be standing by your side
Forever and ever
Wishing I could hold you

Dear beautiful rose,

Day and night come and go seamlessly
because there is no differentiation of time.
Without you, there seems to be nothing more
than the drifting of a lonely soul through the universe.
With a faint acknowledgement that my life still exists
I fade into the warmly dark recesses of my thoughts.

These thoughts, however, are far from dark in their content.
Within my mind, enslaved by my longing heart,
I can clearly see you and me.
We walk together as if there was no pain, no struggle.
All that exists is love that is between us;
the love that I know remains but is captive to fear.

The darkness of these thoughts, then, comes from the explicit difference
between the movies of my mind and the painful reality.
Despite my falling into constant dreams,
I still hold hope for reality.
I know somewhere in that fearful beauty,
deep down where no normal eye can see,
you yearn for a reunion of our hands,
the renewed embrace of our loving souls.

Oh sweet mythical beauty
How I long to embrace you
Feel the surge of powerfully passionate emotion
As not only our two persons meet
But our two souls as well

Perhaps the days are growing fewer
Between now and reunition
But they drag on and on
With such monotony

Days fade to grey with pure amnesia
As my last clear memory is our last
The day you too faded
From my eye to my mind

But, you approach my eye once more
Eager yet timid
As I reach out and you take a step back
And I urge to you come forth
It's safe here with me
I promise you that
And I love you

It is rare to have your feelings be so greatly impacted
By a single person that you have only begun to know
But you feel like you have known forever
Like two souls have crossed paths in time
But have finally met in person

I fear it but girl I'm falling
I'm swimming in the baby blue of your eyes
Feeling the power of your heartbeat
Held so close to mind
But I still fear the fall
So much that I resist it
Because I've fallen before and the landing hurts
And still hurts me now
As I look into your soul
And know that I can't give you everything
Because it has already been given
But fear is petty in the face of love
So tell me now before you miss your chance
Will you take my hand
And forget the fall
And just dive in together?

Many moons have passed
Since I held you in my arms last...

And many more may come
Before I can hold again
But I will continue on to the marching drum
Until our love will rebegin

I have spent many nights
Looking upon the lonely moon
Taking in all the lights
Wishing to be with you soon

I know your heart has folded, retreated
Back within your castle of safe solitude
But my love for you cannot be deleted
It is true, it is of such great magnitude

No words could ever express it
I would wait for you for the rest of my days
But I know you'll come back, so I don't stress it
I will live until then through the haze

But come nightfall
My head turns to the starry sky
Watch the moon bring light to all
Wishing that I could hang my head so high

Many things have I learned
Compare to this patience
Many days my heart has yearned
Slowly fading away with decadence

Oh beautiful one, hold on
Many moons have passed
And it has been far too long
Since I've held you in my arms last...

Scarlet shining lakes surround the temple
The life of unnamed martyrs lay silent
The livelihood of millions, destroyed, vanquished
The gates of Hell opened, the wrath amongst us
A kid, youthful and playful
Lays still in a pile of millions
Another life ended senselessly
By a ridiculous spitting contest of thrones
One day, one day, maybe the wars will end
Maybe blood will no longer be shed
By our own hands. Maybe

I'm strong enough to stand
On my own two legs
But baby wouldn't it be grand
To stand on all fours
Mine and yours?

A sun set upon my heart
Driving me mad with unrequited love
I won't lie, it tore me apart
But now I stand before your smile
Oh baby won't you stay a while?

Forever could flash in front of our eyes
And it will be a spectacle
With you, nothing ever dies
Just me and you forevermore
Aren't ya ready to see what's in store?

I'm strong enough to stand
On my own two legs
But baby wouldn't it be grand
To stand on all fours
Mine and yours?

Philanthropic devotion of your tears
To my self-asserted sense of importance
To the wake of a vessel leaving port forever
And the mighty sun sets where I saw you last
On the horizon, without looking back

But I stand in desert sands
It is all a mirage yet I remain alone
And so even my imagination holds truth
Time and time again I find myself alone
Whilst you are surrounded by love and prosperity

But is it true that I have lost you to the changing tides
To the trade wind's mighty gust?
Have you set sail and left me here to perish
Alone and breaching insanity?
Am I merely imagining falsehood in reality?

A rolling landscape
So much distance
Between my past
And my future

Monogrammed televisions play
McDonalds commercials featuring
Justin Beiber who has the moves
Like a Syrian rebel

Oh look! The new reality...
TV show to delude the pain
Of a million starving children
Crying for your pleasure

I have a suit and a devil's tongue
Will I have your vote in the next
Slave auction? Please I promise
To not totally destroy your dream

But first; did you take a selfie?
Before you chambered the round
Did you even lift?
Or could you even?

I like sheep on my feet:
Ignorance is a warming peace
Until its a cold war
With an unknown enemy

Idiots don't like to be called idiots
But it's for the common ambiguity
When in Rome, we die together
Ashes to ashes dust to dust

i look into the glass
and see stains returned
amorphous, lacking definition
but a fire burns in the middle
passion and desire
consuming the image
and the mirror breaks

Blasphemous trees, arching above my head
Blasphemous trees, arching above my head
For which life doesn't represent
For which life doesn't represent
Life, arching above my trees
Blasphemous, for which doesn't represent?

Wilting flowers, drooping with death
Wilting flowers, drooping with death
I fear not this valley of sorrows
I fear not this valley of sorrows
I fear this valley of flowers
Drooping with sorrows, not death

End the abysmal monotony
End the abysmal monotony
Shed light upon the throne
Shed light upon the throne
Abysmal throne, shed light
Upon the end, the monotony


End the monotony of life
For which death, not sorrows,
Arching above wilting trees,
Doesn't represent fear; my blasphemous head!
I shed light with this drooping valley
Flowers upon the abysmal throne

Let the beat absolve your soul
Fall into the waves
Melancholy with its monotony fades away
The world becomes a crashing wave
That I ride every day

I yearn to feel your soft skin
Pressed against mine
A stroke of love
As I push your golden brown hair
Back, revealing your emerald eyes
To feel the tingle
Of your ruby lips parting
Making contact with mine
Erasing millennia of suffering
Washing all sorrow from my bones
To feel your soul
Lovingly embracing mine
Two people made for one another
Rejoicing in the freedom of now

Oh please, I nearly beg of you
Release this rusting binding of your past
Feel the rush of a free breeze
Caressing and shifting your sweet aroma
Fall as deep as you can
My arms await to catch you

My Love,

Let me gaze into your eyes
And reminisce in what can be
Years and years hand in hand

A smile blessed by an angel
While you sigh
And my heart falls

A sleepy head and a drifting voice
Where your beauty really shines
Through your messy hair

Let me take you
Take you with me and me with you
On this journey of life

Before the dawn when all is still
My mind races to and fro
Remembering our best of days
Dreaming that you lay beside  me
Watching the stars fade into the Orange glow

While you sleep so peacefully
Turmoil thrashes about
Within your lovely heart
I know you still love me
I can feel it

Why then, do you hide it?
There ought not be a single pain
Nor a single fear
Because I am here, arms fully extended
Awaiting you to fall into my  embrace

Just do it

Scream my name as I bury
This serrated blade deep within your flesh
Tearing all bindings that hold
Your physical being within itself
Until I reach your soul
And then I push the extra inch
Total death
But why would I scream my own name?

Strike down upon me with your scepter
Entrust in me the obedience of your ways
Light me the path to my paradise
Where there is no pain, no suffering, no poverty
Let me follow with your flock, My Shepard

Allow me to present myself before your throne
And bow down to your mighty power
I wish to wash your feet, although clean of filth
And sing praises to your holy name
Oh please allow me to do so, My King

Please oh faithful Shepard King
Have faith in me as I do in you
My path is meandering but headed towards grace
This I promise is true
Just grant me the peace and power to continue onward
My Lord, My King, My Shepard: Amen

White fluff drifting downwards
Slushy goo making the drive unreal
But a voice
Her sweet southern vocal
Fills my ears and heart
Twinkling eyes full of diamonds
While her smile
Outshines the moon
That familiar aroma
Of you levitates around my nose
Although not in my arms
Like you should be
You're right here beside me
And my soul is happy

My sweet goddess
You float in my heart
Carefree and beautifully
Crafted by the hand of God
He made you special
He wanted you to be
Far beyond angelic
And that, you are

Shadows projected upon mine dreary wall
Painting murals of death and betrayal
Dancin within the flicker of the waning moon
And the candle, slowly dripping its last wax
Yet the wick still remains
It's not a fuse; it burns too slowly for measurement
Truthfully not at all
But once the wax has eroded away
Leaving my wick bare to the world
It shall sing its songs of love and longing
To which you shy away
The youthful flame dies out to be lit again
Not today, not today
It's too cold for fire now

Never ceasing to shed light upon my dreary days, you're the sun to my sky, the flower to my garden
Endlessly loving and caring, feeling and seeing, you have the heart of an angel and the face of a goddess; divine duality
Vast degrees of beauty emanate from you, meet my eyes, and melt my heart
Early hours of my mornings are filled solely with thoughts of you such as this moment while I compose
Rarity, uniquity, you're one of a kind my rose. You hold a place in my heart that no other can hold simply because nobody else is vaguely comparable to you

A** lthough the earth is treacherous and destructive to your pristine beauty, I have great faith that you will remain purely innocent
Loneliness should never be felt by you for if you look to your side I will be there whether in spirit or in body
Olfactory senses tingle with delight as you draw near; your scent is one I have yet to forget
Never fear the night for I will stand guard with a lantern in hand: no demon shall trespass your glorious soul; even if the cost may be my life, I shall fight for you to my last breath and beyond
Every day I'm here with you, oh it is so so true look around, you're *never alone

The gravel beneath my tires
My heart pulsing
Blood throbbing through my veins
The green house on a hill in sight

The dogs barking as my door closes
I walk upon your wood porch to hear your voice
My heart skips a beat
As you leave your house

A night with you again
A night of many words
Most of which unsaid
But I could hear them

As I leave
I can smell you on my jacket
A smile crosses my face
As I go back in time

Write my name in blood on your walls
Bask in all its glory
Take it all in
Now burn your wall

You don't even deserve to see it
You deserve nothing
Other than to watch me and my goddess
And melt in your own envy

Blind my eye
Deafen my ear
Numb my soul
I wish to feel nothing anymore

Vultures pick at the carcass
Of who I was
I only know pain
That love
That happiness
Was just a short high
An addicting drug I can't give up

Sun setting, slowly drifting behind the mountains
The iridescent glow of July fades into night
Crickets chirping, fireflies buzzing about
Making the world around us our own
Little, secluded universe amongst nature

The creak of a chair swing, oscillating in rhythm
To the beats in our chest, the swirl in our hearts
As you collapse into my arms, like you always did
A little gray streak showing, glistening
The smell of your fresh brewed coffee invades
Delights my nose so used to the smell
And my eyes, peering into yours
Fifty long/short years from now
And I love you still

Leaping hurdles with ease, never looking back
The heart of a wanderer finding homestead
In the soul of a loving beauty
Who's been wronged by so many
Yet can still love so deeply
The awestruck glance you catch from me
Babe, that's never gonna change
You're gonna amazes every day without fail
That's you, purely amazing

And so when I close my eyes tonight
Know that's what I see
And I really can't wait
To grow old with you

One day
I fear
The last seed
Will be sowed

One day
I fear
The last back
Will be broken

One day
I fear
The last tear
Will have fallen

One day
I fear
Humanity's last breath
Will be taken

One day
I fear
We will have no one to blame
But ourselves

Open your eyes
And see me kneeling here
With an eager smile
And an anxious chuckle
See the nervous in my eyes
While I ask for your hand

Open your mind
Think past what is
And what was
Think to be what could be
You and me baby
You and me

But most importantly,
Open your heart
Lock the treasures within
No more
I know you worry
For their safety
But don't because baby
I'm right here and I'll never leave

Bleed
              Bleed
Drip Drip Drip
Let it all out
Bleed the pain
Do not feign
Its all real
Yet so surreal
Pain, goodbye

Don't be fooled by the place it is sent to be
This is no poem no somg nothing to dance to
This is a hope that someone may read and reply
Their thoughts on this thought of mine

Perhaps I should tell a story through sonnet
Of a man of youth battling love and lust
Of sorrow and joy
A man who is flippant, almost overly so
But is serious about matters of the heart
A journey nonetheless
Where he travels many worlds yet goes nowhere
A story of me and how my life has been
With a touch of hyperbolic flamboyance
Would you sit down and read and maybe enjoy
Said work assuming it has been well developed
Amd lacks the typos this probably has?

Fear'd desolation
Corrupting, painful despair
Erupts from the crypts of my mind
Yet flowers blossom within;
Sacred rebirth through turmoil

I feel your brown orbs scanning my skin
My heart gently skips a beat at the feelings of old
Long past when I thought you to be beautiful
When I thought you to be near angelic

However, days, months and years have passed
Since I heard your voice and cherished its sound
Now I silently applaud my feeling of deep disgust
For the heartless creature that you are

Although my heart skips and jumps
I no longer will feel pressure from your freely moving eyes
Only the pleasure in knowing that my love is far too grand
For you frail hands of blood stained glass to handle

You ripped my heart from my chest once
And I swore it would never happen again
At first it was difficult to say no
But it is now twice as much so to say yes