nevermind
nevermind i won't write about death
ill just sit here
in the laundry mat
feeling sick
feeling anxious
listening to stupid music
watching football
missing something
missing someone
needing someone
needing something
a better hope
a better tomorrow
a better today
something honest
someone true
something right
someone left

Looks a little uglier
A little more strung out
A lot more stressed
A lot different
Not sure If it's better
Not sure if it's worse
I just see myself different

get up
just kidding keep sleeping
skip your first class
skip your second class
you know what, just don't get out of bed today
ly still all day
don't think
don't move
don't speak
you listen to me
i am your body
i am your heart
you hear me
the way i sound right now
the way i feel in your palms
thats me
this is us
we are unified
i am here
i am not leaving
learn to live with me
take more pills
sleep more hours
listen to more music
no matter what you do i will still be here
i will be here until you are no longer
i will be here until you do not want me to be here anymore
until you act
until you take control
until you want to be you
you will have nothing until you decide what you want to make us
we are you
you are me
now,
lets get to class.

The scratch on my arm reminds me of who I am.
It keeps me humbled when I'm having fun.
It's the reminder I need to keep me safe.
To keep me normal.
I enjoy it

I need a friend
Or a helping hand
Someone to lead me
To feed me
Otherwise this addiction will soon take control

Coming soon into my arms
I hear the bells and whistles charms
Ringing to me singing to me clinging to me,
Is the one so proudly gay
Floating down the street in her blue sundress and white sneakers,
I can see her now
As if it weren't all a dream

Lightening flashing in the sky
And long before the crack of thunder sounds
It's white light illuminates the sky,
The same way I hope to fall in love with you ophillia.