A fiddle playing maid wearing a clown outfit
Challenged me to a game of black jack
Where the stakes were steaks
A t-bone I did desire
But the iced tea was spilled
How rude!
So I left the maid for a bell
Trying to get my wonderful meat
But I ended up with bacon
Given from the devil himself

This aching in the heart really he no cure... I guess I'm always going to be alone no matter how much I try not to be.
It's something broken in my soul, and that's something nobody can ever cure...

Writing myself off as a goner
I had done too much damage
There was so much destruction
It could never be restored

My walls collapsed FLAT!
Not collapsed, in ruins
Not collapsed, in pieces
But collapsed FLAT!

My army was slain
Because they were
All on the wall
When it toppled

Oh boy!
This is going to be
A very long fight
And I'm out of army

You don't see the light
until you're plunged
into the darkness.

You don't feel the calm
until you're in
the tempest.

You don't feel whole
until you're
breaking.

Somehow I've stopped writing to be me
I tried to be a better writer and I lost myself
Tried to drown out all the pain and love
Tried to replace it with form and correctness
I got a bit out of whack with my muse
No longer will that happen, I promise
Guess this is all I got right now. Glad to be back.

For someone who craves darkness
For someone who lives in shadows
I sure am terrified of the dark...

My dear big sis! How I love you so much!
Your words always bring warmth to my heart
Your care always brings a smile to my face
Even in my tears, you hold me up
Even with my fears, you show me the light at the end of the tunnel

You're always here when I need you, and I'm so blessed you're in my life
I know you're hurting right now, but you aren't alone
We all love you so so much, and we'll never let you stay down
No matter what your sorrows, you'll never walk them alone.

Plus, it can always be worse. You could always end up being a ****** thermometer tester... (yes, that's a real job) :)