i guess it was my fault
you breached the line between
skin and 375 degrees
i tried so hard to be good
why did i care
it hurt
you got what you came for:
me inside out my pain
you left me in the sheets
where i cried for weeks

i hate everything i do
no matter how many times you tell me
shut up he convinces me
none of this is real
i know you're messed up but it's ok
i (don't) like your screaming
even if it hurts
i really am your *******
your sucker

staring at the snow
falling slowly
pink noses
and frozen toes
i see visions
of our coffins
side by side

i just want to be loved
eternally infinitely endlessly and painlessly
i want your entire being and i want it to belong to me
matches made in heaven and hell to be fused as one
sew your heart to mine and sew your wrists to my own never alone

why do things have to be
distorted
clarity is matching fragments
of broken glass
a rarity

want to darken my soul
well that was done a long time ago
but doesn't mean you should go
we can still live dangerously
even when i promise
"i'll be safe" "It's okay"
and we do it anyway
i break a thousand times
and you say that you don't mind
i smile too, but i do