i guess it was my fault
you breached the line between
skin and 375 degrees
i tried so hard to be good
why did i care
it hurt
you got what you came for:
me inside out my pain
you left me in the sheets
where i cried for weeks

i hate everything i do
no matter how many times you tell me
shut up he convinces me
none of this is real
i know you're messed up but it's ok
i (don't) like your screaming
even if it hurts
i really am your *******
your sucker

"This is going to **** us."
"So? That never stopped us before."

staring at the snow
falling slowly
pink noses
and frozen toes
i see visions
of our coffins
side by side

They end their flight
one by one---
crows at dusk.