Satan is
a *****
with her snore on tour
she's makin
all the magazines

Poems that have
been written by me
very few people enjoy

poems that i read
aloud
seem to do well

the inflection of
voice
the mannerisms
body movement
****** expression

a cold page
never could breathe
life
into a poem
with the same
lust
beauty
hatred
pain
or
love
that the spoken word
is able to create
simply
by appearing
with a piece of writing

using the entire body
you are
born with
inspires
thousands of
perceptions
based on a few
*******
words

watch the eyes
the feet
the hands
brows
sweat

Hear the voice
how the love and
hate rise and
fall
in a single word

dream of your past
lie to your future

read aloud
or *******
with that written word
clutched inside
your palms
all the cold page needed
to find warmth
has always been
YOU
Still
it needs
more.
ALL OF YOU

does it take
more than  
tears and microphones
scare me
the eyeballs
the breath


my mirror
scares me more
i think my dog
needs to ****

i need a drink

Should i
break the egg
or make sure
the world hatches?

Either way
shells
are broken...

Play your 3 favorite
Albums
Throw in another
play it backwards

All together
you will
love it

cheerz!!!
try it

The moon is so
alone
how can such beauty
stand
rise
fall?
do the stars cheer her on
with tips
does the black night
inspire her to keep glowing...

She makes me sad
the sun drownes out her glow
not me.
I will always keep her shining

We were *******
she nodded out

I ****** off on her eyelids
closed

the next day her boyfriend
came
to pick her
up

"looks like the sandman paid you
a visit"
he exclaimed as he helped her
pry her eyelids
open

hold your head high
right now's all you got
blow a kiss to forever
close the bars
don't get caught

Her lust would be
Filthy
If it wasn't so
pure

She picked me up
A little surprised

You know i could write
a book about your eyes
I'd rather whisper poems
between your thighs

"Juan Carlos Windycock",
they say to me
"why must you ****
at your own
*****"?

"because they are in the way
of my ****".

HAHAHAHAHA

we were *******
you nodded out

i ****** off
on your
eyelids
closed

your boyfriend
picked you up
the next morning

"the sandman paid
you a visit"!
he
exclaimed
as he helped
you pry
your eyes
open

A million broken pieces
make up who i am
you have the glue
the hard part is
finding the fragments

Deciding if i should
give them to you
hoping the super glue holds
hoping we can find all the pieces

Fighting the fear
that you may shatter them furthur
Fighting the fear
that your glue
may not hold
them together
Fighting the fear
that the sum of
all my broken fragments
may not be something
you would want to keep
Fighting the fear
that even i
won't want to keep
the finished project
we have spent
so much time and effort
putting back together again

Her passion would be
  Filthy
If it weren't
  So pure

THE BARS ARE ALWAYS OPEN
EXCEPT FOR WHEN THEY'RE CLOSED
THE DRUNK TANK SPINS IN CIRCLES
YOUR FREEDOM COMES AND GOES

i frequent the bars
       dumpsters
and graveyards
       i like the graveyards
best
        you cant beat the
conversation

great distance
as i climb up
from my mind
into my soul

the prayers of
mystery
dispense
our withered garden
benign
intense

lonesome sun
strains vast
solitude of
reason
below our feet
groans lifes
cruel treason

absent light
of ravens cloak
mournful  shrouds
loss of self

oblivions bliss
'hath serpent coaxed
from open fist
a viscous hiss

stomach growls
for cushioned death
empty howls
reptilian  breath

each cell defines
synaptic binds
in curt expression
apathys agression

bloodless ghost-men
writhe in mulch
enraptured fear
'neath velvelt gulch

blood scarlet river
flows sardonic giver

restless nights
can leave you tired
restful ones are uninspired

bring forth the sunlight
to less taken trails
the darkness lurks
insilken veils

unbroken
beaten
painful solace
kindred heart
singed
blackened
lawless

candle drips
an angels
lips

radiance
a jeweled eye glints

heartbeatbloodflow
hard and fast

the moments now
don't let it pass

floating through
a clear nights sky
the souls aligned
of you and i

you caress my heart
with words
soft spoken

you mend
my heart
like it was never
broken

more bad poems i will write
tomorrow

the sunrise is biting my eyes

sweet golden love
o you coo like a dove
it's in my heart
still your legs
just won't part

i now have your faith
i know you feel safe
why was it again
that you wanted to wait

you know that i'm surgin
to be no longer a ******

my drops of fertility
must be released
only then can my hormones
be at true peace

i caress your bust
it fills me with lust
but i can't go no further
down boy
you heard her

o halogen light with CD
and cassette holder
how your ribs they envelop
a promise of symphony
as you stand tall and straight
like a guard at the gate
you relieve all my troubles
with your blinding light bubbles
you brighten my day
keep the shadows away
though your color is lightless
you make me so nightless
your a wiry lifeline
steals perception of time
how quick the hours fly by
i'll never know
top of your glow
to the tip of my toe
your electric insides
could frizzle the tides
and your mental effect...
well...
it gives me good rides

sweet liquor how you ease me pain
give me comfort and ill refrain
tantalize me tastebuds as i **** you down
into me gullet
i wear no frown
you have good ideas
only awful advice
if it weren't for you
i'd always think twice
your gifts may be comfort
courage and seed
still if it weren't for you i'd not be in such need
in troubles i seem motionless...
then you come in
i need no psychiatrist
just a bottle of gin
sometime i shiver but you keep me warm
with your stench on my breath
i can weather the storm
when i'm good and drunk
i still tuck myself in
jesus did drink for the now and again...

the girl who dances
with sunbeams in her hair

she smells the flowers
she sees the air

she lives life
without pain or strife

some say "thoughtless"
some say "dumb"

yet in my thoughts
i have conceited
without her love
the worlds depleted

she knows the way
to eternal life
not through pain not through strife
through the sunbeams
in her hair
only love can take us there

as i walk along the golden hillsides
their dried up grasses swaying in the summer wind
i notice the moon peaking through the branches
below is a shimmering clear water stream
i am the only witness to plum blossoms
as they caress the waters skin
chirp of crickets gently drifts like razor blades through the air
a group of deer out for an evening feast
they look at me as if to say
"who are you, you empty beast"?
i respond by saying
"i am he who dances friendless in the blowing air"
leaving not a trace
i was never there

The bars had opened just that morning
turned him loose again
he wandered blindly down the street
just lookin for a friend

The tombstones filled with empty graves
were drinking in the park
so he sat  to quench his thirst
and lingered well past dark

THE BARS ARE ALWAYS OPEN
EXCEPT FOR WHEN THEY'RE CLOSED
THE DRUNK TANK SPINS IN CIRCLES
YOUR FREEDOM COMES AND GOES

All the barkeeps know his name
they've tossed him out before
so he cracks a pint in silence
next to the corner store

He's drank with everyone in town
they all pay for his drinks
a legend to both young and old
at least thats what he thinks

THE BARS ARE ALWAYS OPEN
EXCEPT FOR WHEN THEY'RE CLOSED
THE DRUNK TANK SPINS IN CIRCLES
YOUR FREEDOM COMES AND GOES

The rising sun must weigh a ton
pins him to the ground
inside his skull a screaming hell
that never makes a sound

He always smells like whiskey wether
day or if it's night
a bottle stashed inside his coat
the daydream goes allright

he lives a dream thats long since passed
he toasts to a full cup
the nightmare there when he awakes
he simply drinks it up

THE BARS ARE ALWAYS OPEN
EXCEPT FOR WHEN THEY'RE CLOSED
THE DRUNK TANK SPINS IN CIRCLES
YOUR FREEDOM COMES AND GOES

I try to understand
to make our world shine bright
don't push away in anger
lets keep tending the light

It hurts when you put me down
I'm already on the ground
I'm not the father of your son
I have always hoped to be one

When you belittle me
it sends fire into my veins
by eternal love we're bound
our heartbeats make one sound

I hate to see you sad
hate it when you make me mad
you are the reason life is beautiful
dont make me feel alone

all my hopes and dreams are you
and me forever
no one could come close
don't burn my heart like you burned the toast

when you try to rise above me
makes me wonder if you love me
we are on the same plain
my words are not in vain

your love has saved my life
soon i hope you'll be my wife
i would never leave you
i never would decieve you

My heart is fully open to you
please let me in and trust me
don't cry over pains not real
I truly love you
Thats how i pray you feel

if dreams are born of brain waves and thin air…
and every dream is a prayer
every prayer is a penance
every penance a stone
in the foundation of life

ain't it funny
how brain waves
and thin air
can become stones
and stones can turn brain waves
into thin air…

there's bars on the sky
razor wire around the moon
each star under lock and key

every eruption of laughter
seems forced
running from something
toward nothing

i can see my shadow
on the other side
of the fence
dancing in freedom
he waves hello
as i wave goodbye

"RUN"
i tell him
"YOU CAN MAKE IT"!
still he follows me across the yard
and back inside...

you promised me
       FOREVER
your watch must have broke

Eternity
        can go **** itself
I only want to be
         inside you
RIGHT NOW...

Our world defines
     Infinity
by defying definition

The endless crux
       All into nothing
Nothing to everything

Birth
    and god
and death
   Unending

Limitless in it's reach
       only finite in our
Perception

Each life condemned
perpetuates the eternal

with no beginning
   never stopping
flowing through life
      and without it

Casting shadows
         With light

Like true faith
      Springs from
Self doubt

Creating eternity
       Destroying creation

You promised me forever
       Your watch must have broke

Eternity
       Can go **** itself
I only want to be inside you
        RIGHT NOW

i was livin like a joker
i was hidin from the king
i was sleepin with the queen
who was still wearin his ring

i was bettin like an ace
on the queen not losin face
gettin cleaned out by the king
better pick up my **** pace

i was runnin with the queen
like a joker out the scene
as the king tails behind us
lord i hope that he don't find us

livin large just like a king
with a stolen diamond ring
and the joker pourin drinks
as the queen stares off and thinks

now the queen is showin signs
a new a ace is on the rise
so i put all in once more
like a joker hit the floor

now i'm dreamin of the queen
and the king i once had been
with a twinkle in my eye
like an ace it's time to fly

now the king he sits and grins
cuz ya know he always wins
as the diamond rings change hands
ace toasts to foreign lands

cuz the queen sticks with the ***
and the ace is always hot
while the joker drowns his sorrow
the king drinks to tomorrow.

i walk alone through the deserted sleeping city
the fog carries me away from and toward nothing
streetlights flicker in the distance
wounded memories coursing through my veins
naked heart bleeding in the moonlight

and the only thing love has given me
is a name for my misery

lonely shadow disappears in darkness
vacant surreal the world around me dreams
like a caged madman my heart pounds...screaming
stray dog hobbles past doesn't even see me
silent city speaks volumes...empty sorrow
winos sleeping every doorway... final nightmare
neon lights humming tired rhythm to my footsteps

and the only thing love has given me
is a name for my misery

the dawn yawns slowly hovering between worlds
bloodshot sun reveals hidden vagrants
last nights howling oblivion is shattered
slowly replaced by morality of morning
skyscrapers rub their weary eyes
i retreat to darkness as daylight burns the shadows
the final stars melt slowly into hearsay

and the only thing love has given me
is a name for my misery...

lust was in her eyes so blue
did things good girls just won't do
with that wicked glance
made your **** hard in your pants

she was her own *** show
let everybody know
what she was thirsting for
desire burning in her core

your perfume lingers in the air
i reach for you but you're not there
pull back the sheets and blindly stare
cold pillows laced with strands of hair

she don't **** around like some
only hopes you'll make her ***
she'll wake up the neighbors
as she's layin down the favors

always up when she goes down
then she grinds her hips around
her hair tangled and naughty
as sweat glistens off her body

your perfume lingers in the air
i reach for you but you're not there
pull back the sheets and blindly stare
cold pillows laced with strands of hair

fingernails down your back
better than a hit of smack
her flesh ripples with passion
howl and moan in rhythmic fashion

she screams and gyrates one more time
giving reason to your rhyme
carnal pleasure she defines
like an ****** that blinds

your perfume lingers in the air
i reach for you but you're not there
pull back the sheets and blindly stare
cold pillows laced with strands of hair

always pushing one step further
is this *** or is it ******
leave you gasping as you shake
both get off like a **** earthquake

the world around stops turning
lying there in blissful burning
the myth takes human form
as all night she keeps you warm

your perfume lingers in the air
i reach for you but you're not there
pull back the sheets and blindly stare
cold pillows laced with strands of hair

shadows dance across the wall
as your bodies rise and fall
she feels you deep inside
ebb and flow she rides the tide

you stare into her eyes
as the sun begins to rise
a smile begins to creep
then your grinning in your sleep

your perfume lingers in the air
i reach for you but you're not there
pull back the sheets and blindly stare
cold pillows laced with strands of hair

it's heels to heaven
when you fall on your face

heels to heaven
when you livin fast paced

with her legs in the air
she's heels to heaven right there

got her heels to heaven
draped in pink underware

when her fierce moans find god
it's heels to heaven for shore

when you leave 'fore she wakes
it's heels to heaven once more

livin on borrowed times'
heels to heaven i know

with death hot on your trail
just one speed you can go

when the cops snap on them cuffs
heels to heaven ain't fun

bustin through prison walls
heels to heaven must run

when life's worth dyin for
heels to heaven means war

but when we make love
it's heels to heaven encore

it's heels to heaven
in the tequila sunrise

just like heels to heaven
as she spreads them thick thighs

got my heels to heaven
when i go to cop

heels to heaven
when i know i can't stop

heels to heaven
and i'll never get well

with my heels to heaven
RUNNIN STRAIGHT INTO HELL...

if you get lost would i find you here?
if i mapped the course maybe you could steer?
if the tires blew flat would you hitch without me?
i could fix 'em if you didn't doubt me.
if the battery dies what would you do?
i could push start it
but not without you.
if the brakes don't work how fast ya go?
gun through yellow?
or e-brake to slow?
fingers crossed
just barely made it
laugh at death as we evade it
your chariot awaits my dear
if you get lost would i find you here?

i was there with the locked up free
they stared straight through the bars at me
the gate was open
no one had to stay
they spoke of church in exchange for food
lights out with 50 smelly-*** bad moods
i saw it superseded rude
so, i walked down and ate the trash
i had no church
no shame
no cash
the garlic bread was free
the sweet rolls weren't for me
so, i walked back down to the dead-soul church
to find a name i could besmirch
with lust, debauch, an empty purse
she told me she had her own room and bath
we tried to pull one on the *****
said that we were legal hitched
she asked for proof and I.D.
we didn't have a thing
that ended our sad little fling
goody gumdrops ain't gonna get my ring
grab my gear as i walk i sing
i know the words to everything
if i happen to forget
i'll make up better ones you'll bet
raised my sign and i raised my thumb
hoped a car was gonna come
sat there in the Yakima heat
sign propped up next to my feet
a nice redneck stopped and said
"have a seat"
he was welfare office bound
i was just a broke road-hound
waited for him in the shade
told him jokes for smokes
he made a good trade
got dropped off at an angry sunning truck-stop
flew my sign
one eye out for cops
a white guy in a small red car
pulled up and said
"i'll go that far"
soon we broke down on the road
i was sure my luck would soon implode
instead we put our heads on think
we woulda fixed the kitchen sink
but waters last to beer when i drink
we got some bolts and ******* 'em on
before we knew it we were gone
he got a smile
i got this song
then we hit Seattle like a ****
nothins' right if ya don't know wrong
NOTHINS' RIGHT IF YA DON'T KNOW WRONG

She picked me up
A little surprised
Ya know...I could write a book about your eyes
I'd rather whisper poems
Between your thighs

I hold my love in summer morning heat
She breathes placidly alive
Purple hum of death
Glazed and empty eyes

I knew her electric nights
We could have conquered the world
All I wanted was to be inside her

Now she's hollow
I feel too empty to
**** a CORPSE

It's New Years Eve
I'm stuck in jail
Ain't poplin bottles
Ain't got no bail

Got a whole lotta wishes
That may not come true
Got a whole lotta dreams
One's about you

The club may be jumping
But i'm locking down
I'm hitting my rack as you hitting the town

C.O. doin count as
As you count the year in
Still my sentence ain't done
As the new year begins

I wish I was out
Getting loud
Stupid dumb
Not reading paper back books
Waitin for chow to come

Christmas has passed
Thanksgiving too
Halloween behind bars
Wearin jailhouse blues

So push them tables together
For that top-ramen feast
Ya know it ain't perfect
I'm with my homies at least

As you chase the moon down
On this ******-up night
Raise your glasses to me
Party till the daylight

Hold your head high
Right now's all you got
Blow a kiss to forever
Close the bars
Don't get caught

I was flirting with the moon last night
Illuminated blackness in the star-drop light
Immaculate drifts of rainstorm skies
All fragments of perception
Unite within your eyes

found myself on a greyhound bus
travelin far from all that muss
them lonely hearts
them angry cops
them vacant eyes
them burned out shops
that dark cold city sure ain't pretty
too many jail cells
too many private hells
too many bloodshot mornings
too many deaf eared warnings
not enough to keep me here
not enough of that free beer
never enough  dope to shoot
not enough  in pirate loot
not enough warm pillow dreams
no thread left to sew my seams
not enough to keep believing
not enough...
i think i'm leaving

just too manny worn out souls
count my toes to count the holes
run down
on empty
gotta get my fill
lookin for another pint to spill
sippin on some stolen *****
i got nothin left to lose
sleepin under concrete bridges
shivering and cold as fridges
chipped teeth and blood stains on my shirt
Aww hell i'm fine
it didn't hurt

spare change for whiskey
root beer chase
and hopes to get between her lace
first kisses and them pretty lies
crumble into last goodbyes
the laughter fades
the raindrops burn
on open road the wheels turn
i got two thumbs
i'll level one
and i'll ride off into the sun...

LIFE IS PURPLE
       BLACK
AND RED
EMBRACE THE
       SOUL
DEFY THE HEAD

The moon forsakes the sky above
In it's place an empty grave
The orphaned stars now hide from view
Like all the gifts I never gave

The ocean trembles to the shore
Whispers lightly to the sands
Of life and death and seven seas
And it's own blood stained hands

No one has ever felt like you
Beyond a dream I couldn't find
Swallowed by the briny depths
I gladly lost my mind

My final breath has long since passed
Pain of flesh subsides
I follow you through bliss into
The lonely silent tides

The only thing love has given me...
Is a name for my misery...

A star thats long since dead and gone
A heartbeat in the womb
What's never been and ceased to be
A long forgotten tomb

A raven flying through the night
A fire that never dries
The teardrops ragged symphony
Glass breaking in your eyes
Glass breaking in your eyes...

The only thing love has given me...
A name for my misery...

As I remember her now
It seems so long ago
We were both so **** young
How could I know
That she was the beast
Yet she was beauty too
Cast her black spell
What the **** could I do?

She brought me out of the rain
Made me her brand new toy
Tryin to ******* her dad
With her ****** boy
I'm not sure what she saw
When she was lookin at me
Whatever it was
Was just fantasy

I was real and broken
On the edge and alone
She was lookin for trouble
That's how I was known
She was bored with her life
I was scared of my own
Tryin to clean up
On that red methadone

She kept me in wine
She kept me in dope
She let me inside
Filled my problems with hope
Then she begged for my flaws
I finally caved in
We were playing a game
That I knew you cant win

Right then our sun set
Nevermore to return
Just the sparkle and fade
Of the needles cold burn
By the time that she saw
This game was her life
There was no road back home
The truth cut like a knife
Which she then pulled on me
As the pain became real
Now she needed the drugs
Or thats all she could feel

She needed me too
Like 'dope man' needs a gun
So she crippled my will
To make sure I don't run
She tortured my heart
Cuz she'd cut out her own
Still she didn't want me
Just to be not alone
Stockholm syndrome ain't love
But the poison was strong
We were both so **** scared
Held hostage too long

Now I wish I could say
That the moral is clear
I only feel mad
I believed my own fear
Learned a lot about life
What not to do
Never thought I would live
Somehow made it through

It takes two to dance
Two to give a lie power
Two to make a heart break
Two to turn a love sour

I want to believe
Our intentions were pure
The world drenched in filth
Victimized me and her
Regrets pile up
Resentment runs deep
While I look back and wish
Your heart I could keep
Mines tattered and torn
I know yours is too
Sometimes when I can't sleep
I still think about you

Cast blame all you want
It may even be true
But please stop hating me
Forgive yourself too.