They’re back again.
The visions in my head,
The ones of blood.
Of my blood.
Puddles.
On the floor of my room.
Porcelain eyes are watching.
Staring at the mess I've made.
Scarlet threads on my wrists and neck are unraveling,
The color draining from my body.
Painful from your eyes,
Peaceful from mine.
Stress and worry are gone.
Never to be seen from my eyes again,
For my eyes can no longer see.

I just don't understand.

How can you be so blind?
How can you not see,
The answers you need to find,
Are encrusted within the heart of me

I don't understand

How can you not see my crystal clear love,
To hear the words I have been screaming,
But it seems this wish,
Will only be granted when I am dreaming

I don't understand.

I don't want to sob, I don't want to cry
But it feels like I a piece of me is missing,
I feel like I will soon die,
I can no longer take it

I don't understand

These tears I can no longer shed,
My heart can no longer be broken,
So when I lay dead,
Remember these words I have spoken

Why do I have to tell you I'm not okay
for you to make time for me
Can't you just let it happen?
Why do I have to crumble
Before you even stumble
Onto the idea that I need you
I'm not asking for much
I don't want your 100% attention as such
I just want to feel wanted
Is that too much to ask
You said you'd always be by my side
I wanted to get better I really tried
You choose to ignore the signs of my decay
And sit and wait for the day
Just before it's too late
Why do I have to wait
Before you help me when I'm in this state