We tried

We tried so hard
But together we are toxic
We are like a red apple and a green one
We live in each others worlds
We know each other perfectly
But our difference is so big that being toxic is the only cure  

I guess that flaw lies in ourselves
Intertwining it with our good
Feeding off of the negative
And projecting the bad
Our flaw must be something we can’t go without

Trust
Its trust
Our flaw is we trust each other more than ourselves
We rely on each other for happiness
hoping for a better outcome each time we come round
It's not the first and for sure not the last
Our so called love is too strong for that  

“We promise to work on ourselves”
That's something…
We promised  to each other
We promised  to ourselves
We promised to those around us
We promised…
Yet the motivation I cant seem to find
Its you all along
You are my motivation..
I promise myself I will keep this promise

I am now working on myself
I am not toxic
I am healing
I trust myself
I can keep promises

Lazy…
His one “bad” habit
He doesn’t do school work out of school
yet he has straight A’s
He hates getting out of bed in the morning
yet always makes it on time
But when it comes down to her he tries
He tries to shows her love
Even when she doesn’t want it
He respects her wishes
Even if it hurts his own feelings
He prays that she comes around
So his heart won't hurt
But she's just as lazy
And doesn’t care about him
And his burning heart

Humble….
The one thing to humble him is a…. certain person
Million of girls chasing after him
but this one he choose to be stuck on
She pulls on his heartstrings by ignoring his messages
And dodges him in the halls
Chooses friends over him any day
For everything they may desire
He cherishes the little love he gets
But it's clearly not enough
He write a paragraph as she write a sentence
He buys a gift, she gives a thank you
He waves her down, she turns her back
It’s so one sided yet he won't leave
His eyes swell and his voice cracks
As lies slip from her lips over and over again
He tries to compose himself for me yet I always notice the change
Its small but there, underlining with every word he says
The puffy eyes and breaking voice
The shaking of the camera
Being put on pause for what he thinks is an answer
He asks for this and that to make him feel better
But what he wants is… advice
Advice on what to do, advice on how to make it better
Advice on how to make them stay
But what he doesn’t want to hear is the truth
It’s that he must stray away

that girl is..
SHES LOUD
she never knows how to shut up
SHES UGLY
she is  trying to hard to hid it but still
SHES IN MATURE
shes acts like we are 6th grade
SHES ANNOYING
she doesn't know how to stop  
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Hi, im kenz and im that girl

"your words cut deeper than a knife"
they truly do...
lies slip out of your mouth easier than telling the truth
months of telling you my personal business
all for it to backfire on me
I let my walls down
I guess that is my fault

"useless"
"annoying"
"*****"
"ugly"
Constant thoughts running through my head.
The lost of one friendship spiraled
and now its tons.
one after another
name calling and bullying have become common
when its me its ok
lies after lies have unrevealed  themselves
months upon months of fake friendships
down the drain.

I stand big and mighty.
Indeed I do,
know I'm just a small little mouse,
in this house for two.
Missing you everyday,
without our kids that are gone to play.
Lonely I am,
and I know you are too.
well see you soon love
I so love you