Ironatmosphere

Ironatmosphere Jan 2014

Orange

You left me broken on the floor
Pieces spread everywhere
Hiding in the dust
You never even bothered
to clean up
The pieces of my fading soul that had splashed the carpet orange

Ironatmosphere Jan 2014

oblivion

Imagine being an astronaut
It’s one of the scariest things I can imagine
Floating around in outer space
A space that is as close to infinite anything can ever be
Imagine drifting out
Becoming lost
In the oblivion

Ironatmosphere Jan 2014

CO2

You look at me with a hint of recognition in your eyes
You think maybe we’ve had a class together or played the same sport
Or maybe I am the girl who lived in that house down the road
You know I look familiar
You have seen me before
I look slightly different from everybody else
That’s why you recognize me
But you don’t remember me
I am like the painting you have walked past a thousand times
Without stopping
Never really having looked at it
I am like the carbon dioxide in the air around you
I am there
But I am INVISIBLE to you
I mean NOTHING to you
Even though you once meant EVERYTHING to me

Ironatmosphere Jan 2014

HA HA ...

Why does it crack you up?
Is the idea of
Someone
Loving
Me
So preposterous
That you can’t keep that laughter of yours
From spilling out of your mouth like poisoned arrows?

Ironatmosphere Jan 2014

Never Look Back

Someday I will leave this town
And I will never look back
Someday I will forget the place where I grew up
The place where I was born
Someday I won’t even remember its name
I will never look back
I will never tack a second glance
The broken memories will fade
Like old photographs
And I will never look back

Ironatmosphere Jan 2014

I am

I am my own best friend
And my worst enemy
I love myself more than anybody else loves me
But I also hate myself more than anybody else could hate me
I am the gardener who helps me grow
But I am also the inconsiderate ******* who tramples me down
Without even looking back

Ironatmosphere Jan 2014

Dear K

I feel happy for you two, I do.
But not happy enough to want to stare at you for two hours straight
Waiting
While you hug and play with each other’s hair.
I don’t need to be reminded that I am alone,
That nobody wants me,
In the most painful way possible.
I see what you have
And I want it.
So,
The next time you ask me to go for a walk
Please, just wait till you can bear to leave each other’s arms,
So I don’t have to stand there
Waiting and watching,
While my life gets shorter and shorter,
Constantly reminded that
Nobody wants me.
Nobody
At
All.

31 december 2013