You used to be my best friend, even though I wasn't yours.
I knew you only cared about you,
But I had
No one else.
In the movie that was life
I was only an extra
When I refused to accept that, we grew apart.
I made a conscious decision
To cut you out of my life.
And so did you.
I thought we could still be friendly.
Exchange a hello, or maybe only a smile, when passing each other in the street.
You didn't.
You walked straight by me.
Like I was air.
Like I was nothing.

I'm caged.
The present doesn't belong to me.
But the future does.
In the future I’ll be free
If I ***** it up
I’m *******
And I’ll hate myself forever.

crows struggling to escape
crushing the atmosphere
trying to find happiness and cheer

dropping rocks into the blaring ocean
breaking the silence
being swallowed by the waves motion

Dancing in the rain
Blinded by reflected sunlight
For one moment feeling absolutely free

I’m ten years old
Standing in snow
Looking up at the night sky
Waiting for snowflakes to reach my head
I want to sparkle too

Thoughts of you spam my mind
I try, but fail to concentrate
On anything but you

Every song is about you
Every book is about you
Every film is about you

My eyes are missiles
Automatically targeting you
My ears are malfunctioning hearing aids
Blocking out everything but your voice  

Every dream is about you
Every day is about you
My life is about you
It's all about you

If you ever asked me what I thought of you
I would tell you
I would tell you I’m obsessed with you
I dream about you every night
And every day
I write poems about you
I post them online
And hope that someone will like them
So I’ll feel less like a loser
I would say it like it was a joke
Dripping with sarcasm
‘Cause sometimes the best lie is the truth