My heart


                         Once a caterpillar


Not yet grown

                      
                             But once it knew

Love


                           It grew


To be


                             A beautful butterfly


Fluttering



                           And fluttering


On it's way



                            Straight to you.

your lips,
painted the finest shade of crimson
gently tighten,
preventing the truth from pouring out

your eyes,
lined the smokiest tone of gray
slowly close,
shielding the pain from exposure

your collar bones,
protruding the way you always dreamed of
shy away,
covered by endless scarves

your vertebrae,
resembling the perforations of a page
sink down,
wrapped in layers of fabric

the measures taken
to hide the mess you've become
can't manage to speak louder
than the demons in your head

When achieving your dream becomes anxiety and failure becomes guilt, remember: it is okay to leave the pressure to find the passion.

2. You cannot force yourself to love that boy, even if he is perfect. It will only break his heart.

3. When the right boy enters your life, he will be far from perfection: a beautiful blonde mess even your band teacher labels a bad idea.

4. It is easy to be seduced by a picture-perfect image of success.

5. It is impossible to stay practical and balanced when falling in love. Ignore your mother’s advice and let yourself be swept away.

6. A high school diploma represents more than hard work and passing grades: in those four years, you grew into someone you can be proud of.

7. Treasure the present instead of waiting for the future.

8. Don't forget to be yourself even when you are changing.

9. Sometimes, you explode. Do not stop yourself from experience all the ugly emotions.

10. Never rush recovery.

11. Expectations don't always understand that healing takes time.

12. Trust this: you will be okay.

Life is the hardest thing to love though it is the worthiest. Even on those days when the sickness blinds you, life is beautiful. Even on those days when the temptation of kitchen knives and the pill bottle on the second shelf of your mother’s medicine cabinet pull you to pluck your pulse in perfect pizzacto, you must let life remind you: you are worth it.

The stars only glow when I close my eyes.
I'm only drowning deeper in my own self.
Because whenever I fall into this black hole, and the stars start to glow.
The things I left untold were only meant for you to know.
And when I give you my love, sweet dear, I will show you the things
no one has ever dared to know.
The stars only glow when I close my eyes.
If I had one I'd give you my soul.
Maybe I'm evil...

I miss you so much it hurts and I want to cry, and you know I don't cry, ever. I miss our friendship, how we used to laugh and goof around. How we smiled when we started dating. I loved knowing I was the reason for the smile on your face, it made me feel amazing. When we broke up, it was hard, on both of us. Then you told me that you wanted to marry me, you were so close to getting a ring. You said you knew the second we started dating, you wanted me all to yourself forever, you want to be my one and only. Then you hurt me, you took everything away from me. You forced yourself on me and you broke everything that I was. I don't miss you I now realize, I miss what we had, what we represented, true friendship, true love, true trust.....too bad you did what you did....I was going to say yes....

Because of what you did
Now I am a statistic.
Just another number.
I am now a survivor...
But this doesn't feel like I'm surviving.
This feels like I am drowning.