All I ever wanted to do
Was write poems
On you with my lips,
But I'll never get the chance to
Because you don't want to feel my touch.

Watch,
   as I become everything you want me to be.
Listen,
   and maybe you could hear me crying at night.
Watch,
   as I finally become perfect in your eyes.
Listen,
   and you might hear me finally rip in two,
Between who I should be and who I am.

And now that I think of it,
The deed was not so hard done.
Given the conditions,
Given how perfectly it was laid out.

He hurt you, but he cannot hurt anyone else now.
He cannot ruin another young child's life and he can never reach down the pants of anyone again.

Call me mad, call me crazy, but I have done what no one was prepared to do.
I listened to her and I became livid.
What he had done, what he had said.
His actions and what he told her to say,
How he told her to 'keep quiet',
'It's a game.'

Now tell me old man,
Are you laughing as I watch above you,
scarlet streams travelling down your neck and soaking the mattress beneath you?
Do you think it's a game,
Awakening to a knife at your person,
millimeters away from taking whatever air you have left in you?

Now you can laugh no more,
You cannot hurt anyone again.
While the blood oozes in the sheets and you lay there dull,
Shadows cast themselves across your face
And I find myself also wishing that you are ******.

And now, I must clean up. Or better yet,
I will stay here. I will sit here until someone comes to check on you.
And then they will see the scene and I will not need to confess,
I will not plead not guilty.
The deed was done by me and I am not afraid for whatever comes next.
I am not afraid of the consequences,
They can do whatever they must.
I will tell them of what you've done.
I will tell them why I did what I did,
And I will not apologize for taking what was left of the miserable life you had.

Whoever told you that life would be easy is lying to you,

But if they also told you that life is meaningless,

That's a lie, too.

Let's write a story, you and I,
In words and touches and looks and kisses
Let's fill the pages
Of this book of wishes.
Can we dance across the words of the pages we make
And love in the corners of every paragraph break?

Doubt me all you want.
Worry all you want.
Fragility does not mean weakness,
You are my strength.
I feel better when you care than if you would not.

how does it feel to be this cold?

so much now
that not even
the raging flame
of your self hatred
can keep you warm anymore

Hello
Hey
What's up
I miss you
I love you
I love you so much
I love you
I miss you
What's up
Hey
Hello
...Goodbye

Hello goodbye,
You're early this time.
Wasn't it just yesterday when I last saw you?

One word,
A thousand diagnoses,
And every fear in the dark world.

But every possibility,
A thousand ways to help,
And one truth:

We will find a way.

I wish
That we could talk like we
Used to
But you do
Your own thing
And you don't think about me
Anymore

Hello again,
Little one

It's been five whole years now,
Can you believe?

How time passes with the falling of each leaf,

How I always got to love you
But we never got to meet?

I get sad sometimes,
Thinking of your little feet

The way you might have cried so much
That I would never sleep

But it's that time of year again, little one
And once again, I weep

Because you are the greatest love
I never got to keep.

If I were to die,
I'd want my life to end in fire.
Because if ice were to take me
I would not feel the warmth of your love engulfing me.

Happy, happy, sad,
What?
Happy, happy, sad,
****.
Happy, happy, sad,
How?
I'm happy, happy, sad now.

I know.
It doesn't matter how many times you say
'It's alright'
or
'You can do it'
Because I've heard the words before
But I've seen that look in your eyes.
I know you don't really think I can do it.
I know that it comes easier to you.
I just don't know how to tell you that I really don't care,
And that I'm only pretending.
How about I tell you what 1+1 is instead?