Hey love
Write me a song
Tell me about when the hard times are gone
Sing me a lullaby about true love and being free
Whisper in my ear "I'll always love you, baby"
Call me your princess and call me your girl,
I want you to know that you'll always be my world.
So I should sing a song about you, about us
About everything we went through,
About every little lust,
About every fallen tear and about every little doubt
I love you no matter what,
I loved you before, I still love you now.

Don't you care if I am ******?
Wouldn't you care if I got ticked?
Tell me you'd care if I just dropped dead
Tell me you want to just lay in bed.
Tell me you love me and tell me you care,
Tell me that you wanna take me anywhere.
I wanna know, is this some kind of dare?
Please don't hurt me, it's too much to bear.

I heard this song today and it reminds me of us,
I'm such a fool for you.
I don't know if you'll ever truly see what you mean to me
Or what I put myself through for you.
Sometimes I wish there was a guardian angel to go behind my back and tell you all the things I do for you,
Because I think you should know,
I think the world should know what I'm willing to do,
Because I'm such a fool for you.

Hello friends,
Or friends I once knew,
How are you?

I wish I could reach out,
But the words won't come-
I'm long past seeing the light of the sun

All the people close to me
I can count on one hand
I forgot everyone else via my own command.

For that I apologize,
Sometimes I miss you guys.
And sometimes I wonder where you are and what you're doing with your lives.

Surely you're doing better than me,
Who can't find the words to say
Or the ***** to even begin speaking,

Perhaps you miss me, perhaps not.
For this is up to you,
All I can say now is that
You're friends that I'm glad I once knew.

How can I admit that
I've been lonely all this time?
Trying to forget your face
When it's burned into my mind.
How could I have known
I'd be unable to let you go?
So tell me then, please,
Is your heart really made of stone?

Is it okay if I hold your hand as we walk down this lonely street?
It's cold and there are only a few lights,
Please, I'm scared.

I cannot apologize enough for what I'm to do in the upcoming weeks.
For leaving you,
Ignoring you.

I am sad because his year has brought me so much, brought me you.
But my head will not let me keep you.
I must let go, for I am afraid.

Beyond, in fact.

I am terrified.
That this year will trap me.
That I will have no idea who I am.

But little will I know,

I am no one without you.

Roses and sunshine and trees and light.
Who could I be?
Why, I'm Life.

Normalcy and happiness, and hardships and strife.
Look, it's me.
I'm still Life.

Anxiety and fear, going under the knife.
I'm still here.
It's just me, Life...

Alcohol and drugs, addiction gone rife.
I'm so tired of this job...
I don't want to be Life.

Then let me take over,
It'll be alright.
Settle down there,
Find yourself a wife.
You're so overworked,
Aren't you, Life?

Yes, I am,
And who might you be?
Why do you bear me such empathy?

My name is Death,
And I've been watching you.
Since day one,
I've seen all that you've been through.
So here I am to say,
It's my turn.
I hope that's okay.

Let me think it through, first.
Let me think of what to do, first.
Should I take a day,
Or continue my work and stay?
Hmmm...

I must say,
A break's long overdue.
Tell you what, Death,
I'll give this one to you.
Do a good job, now,
And don't play the fife.
Sound it once,
You'll end all life.

*Good, then, Life.
Saunter off now,
Waste not a day.
Want not a week?
Then have it your way.
I will not play the fife,
But I won't spare my scythe,
Good day, then friend.
Take your leave, then, Life

There is a fire within him
And there are sparks to light it
They only have to get hot enough
To finally ignite it.

But I am told my heart is cold
And I will never warm him
There's ice in me that grows so fast
I know that I should warn him.

I want to feel an emotion that's not there,
Some kind of empowerment like you'd hear in an indie song.
I want to feel like someone who can do anything,
I want to feel like I can fly
But there's only my lead feet holding me to the ground,
I won't ever reach the high blue.
And that's okay because some people are meant to stay where they are, right?
I'll never see those baby blues again and that's okay,
Because those baby blues turned into a dull gray,
Dominated by wide black traps
And all the colors of the sky cannot enter them.
I'll never hold those rough hands again but that's alright because they're meant to hold a burning pipe of thick, sweet smoke.
They're meant to work and grip and live a life never meant for them.
I'll never feel that warmth again because it's not there, is it?
It's been long replaced by a hatred for something that you could not control.
Where were we so many years ago?

Long time, no see
Little monster I set free
Terror rampant on the earth,
And I set loose a banshee

The lock is stuck,
And I've lost the key
I became something
That I should never be

Not at least,
What thought was me
But a freak, a beast
On a homicidal spree

Sprawling through the mud,
Crawling on my knees
I ask for any redemption
I beg for any relief

Save me from myself, I cry
Hang me from the trees
Anything, oh anything
To finally feel at peace

You said you still liked me
But that you didn't know if you could still trust me.

And you said that you were sorry
But you still got up and left me.

You said you didn't know what to say
When I only mentioned his name.

But he was just a friend,  
And you are still my love,

Never had I cheated,  
I'd never given up.

I know that trying to save you
May have cost me dearly.

But there is so much more to love
Than loving your looks clearly.

There is so much more to trust
Than only feeling lust.

And there is so much more to you
Than I ever thought before.

You've been broken,  you've been bruised,
You need me but I need you more.

I know that trust is earned,
And patience must be learned,

But dear, look at my face,
Your trust in me won't be misplaced.

It's been so long,
Hello old friend
Writing me a song
In your crimson red
Reminding me of sunsets
And destructive fire,
Of sparkling garnets
And dying poinsettias
Oh how I missed you
But that's a total lie
I was so much better
Without you in my life
Now look what I've done
Hurting myself again
Waiting for all this crimson
To be washed away by the rain.

I want to be profound,
But I fear I won't be around
Long enough.

And the next thing I know,
A car door slams outside.
Someone knocks on the front door
And then they walk inside,
But before they do, they ask if I'm here.
My heart is racing in a second-
What if it's you?
But then I see them
And my eyes take a second to adjust
And to see who it really is.
I hoped- I really hoped-
Maybe it was you.
But it wasn't
And I have to return to my waiting sit on the couch
Wait, I stood up that fast?
Wasn't I sitting before?
And before I knew it,
The waiting started again.

And here I am,
Once again screaming out
But I fear that no one
Can hear me.
What if
They just don't care
Anymore?

Forget about them,
For they are lost,
Cuffs, cuffs,
Girl, you too are lost.

Forget about them,
For they are gone,
Drugs, drugs,
Last cards have been drawn.

Once again, it comes again,
Chase away the hunger with cigarettes
And don't give in

I watch the numbers bob up and down,
A water park of emotion
And I feel that I will drown

Watering myself like a plant,
I need only sunshine and water and that's it,
And I wish I could stop but I can't

Every day the numbers get smaller
I start to feel so little
But the demon in me grows taller

My mom loves having 'skinny kids,'
Never mind my health
I just have to see my ribs

I think I'm cursed

It got into my head,

It's never been worse

I won't eat until I'm dead.

You went through a 'little phase'
And you wore perfume to school.
You thought you got stupid
And you wore nail polish too.
You became something different
And got lost in the fume.
You and I lost touch,
And one became two.


You thought you were in love
But you only knew one thing.
You thought it was lust
But then it started to sting.
You had no idea
When they started to sing,
That the someone you 'loved'
Was part of another fling.

And you thought that you'd lost
You thought you were insane.
You did a bunch of bad stuff
And you lost your way.
I know that you cried
As the blood left your veins.
But I'm here to tell you
That I'm not going away.

I ******* miss you
I just wanna kiss you
But you're not around
Haunting like a ghost upon the grounds
Of my mind
And I can't find you
To remind you
What it was like to love me
What it was like to be happy
And I hope you know
That I know
We can never be what we were
And that's okay

We weren't meant to be anyway

I don't quite understand why you like pain the way you do.
I guess that's why I was never afraid of hurting you.
But I got smart and I eventually realized
The pain you liked wasn't what I was giving.
The pain you like is how you hurt those girls
The pain you like is the way that they cry
When you leave them stranded and all alone.

I need a short time away from you.
Maybe only two days, no talking.
As hard as it is to say,
And hard it may be to admit,
But my day starts and ends with you.
Because of this, I get nothing done.
Not even missing assignments.

There is a place where
I go to clear my conscience
But I can not stay.
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The winds will blow new
But the sky remains the same
Time and time again.

I will be fine
I am alright.
Don't worry about me
Sweet dreams, good night

I thought I knew what it was like to love you.
I had no idea that it would be a back and forth chase of happiness and anger.
I didn't know I would be upset as much as I am content.
I wish I knew how much fun it would be, and how much pain it would cause.
I wish I would have known that you would be the best worst thing to walk into my life.
I thought it would be easy and then I tried to justify how hard it was.
I know the pain is worth it.
I know the cold gets warmer.
I know my eyes will adjust to the darkness.
I know that you are a permanence to me,
And for you, my love, I am everything.

you are so evil
that grotesque grin upon your face
sends me into a fit of rage

give up your act
******* child,
you've got no idea, do you?

what was poured into you
the time someone else wasted
just to be thrown away

oh, you'd rather not
wouldn't you
admit that you don't know as much as you think

because then you'd be accountable
look me in the eye
and tell me you love me

just like you once did
i'd feel your touch
cold as ice

cold as it was from the beginning
when you held me
like you were reaching for someone far away

and when i could never reach back with the same hand
you ran
so fast and so far

i'm not sure you even existed
in the first
place

Stories,
Told in one word.
It might be someone's world
In that single word.
Each letter is a lifetime,
Each syllable a chapter;
That one word
Open to one thousand emotions.

If you are evil,
Then I am an angel.

If you are no good,
Then I am a saint.

If you are fragile,
Then I am stone.

If you are weak,
Then I will be your strength.

I cannot find the motivation,
And I do not have the will.
I know that one can find what they need when they need it
But this is all I've ever had.

They tell me I'm not a C student.
And they say that I have the brains.
They say that I have the potential to be something-
Do something-
Greater.
They tell me that it'll be okay,
They tell me it'll be alright.
But I don't feel alright,
I never feel alright.

I never feel alive,
I never feel like there's a why
But a why not?

Why shouldn't I be what they tell me not to be?
Why shouldn't I become what everyone despises?
Maybe then they would actually see me how I see myself.

Maybe then I wouldn't need to explain why I feel the way that I feel
Or maybe I wouldn't have to explain that I even feel that way in the first place.
Maybe they would just see.

I think they could - I hope that they could -
See what I see.

oh, please take me away,
i cant live with all this pain

find me a new home
somewhere to call my own
somewhere i'll be alone

without your memory to haunt me
let me GO already!!!

take me me back to a time
when i didn't call you mine
and have me walk the other way!!

could you have existed without me
or were we destined to be this way?

let me go,
let me go,
let him go!!!!!!

let him go

I get high on your words
And drunk on your skin,

I want to drown in your sheets
And I want you in my dreams.

I hope you get drunk when you're dreaming of me,
Because I want to be your drug-induced fantasy.

Do you get high off my scent?
Breathe me in till you can't and then do it again?

How about when we touch,
Do I travel through your veins?

Heat me up in a spoon and take me again
Say you have control but you're trapped in my chains.

Fill your lungs with my nicotine lips,
Dance with the devil and my gasoline hips.

I want you helpless for my inhalant kisses,
Want you desperate for those tweaker blisses.

I want that adrenaline flowing through
You need that high like I need you.

Can you taste the smoke on my tongue?
You loved all the tablets even though they stung.

Dissolving the sadness in the back of your throat
You tasted me once and you got strung.

I think this is too much for me
Having to know the person I am becoming

Who is she, I wonder

A wild and carefree bird,
Waltzing with the wind?

A bright and daring fire,
Who warms those around her?

As fluid as the creek
And just as stubborn?

Or she could possibly be

Like a glittering earthen crystal
Hardened by pressure?

But oh what it would be
to know even a little of me

Babe if I asked you then
Where you saw us in four years,
Would you be satisfied
With where we are now?

I want it,
But now I'm on a leash.
I am stuck on a string
That only reaches so far.
I'm hanging from a rope
That's just above your head.
And although you say you can wait,
I know it will be hard.
I can't chase the voices away.
I can't hold you while you cry.
I can't take your face in my hands and look into your eyes and tell you to calm down.
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry I glued myself into where I am with industrial adhesive.
I tied a chain around myself and gave someone else the key to a lock made of the strongest steel on earth.
But I know one day I can break free.
And then we can be you and me.

I know there will be a day when you realize you don't need me anymore.
I know you will grow and get stronger,
I know you can live without me.
I know the voices will go away and you won't need me to chase them away anymore.
And that's okay.

When in eight days
My body is my own
And I will be consumed by fire.
Smoke is curling in the air
And burning with desire.
Demons chase but stop at the porch
When I turn the latch on the door
Of this house,
This hole-in-the-wall place that I call home.
The place where I am never alone.
The place where you are
In the late of night
Listening to music
Are you alright?
We are nailed,
We are glued,
You're stuck to me, I'm stuck to you.
I shall be my own
My free
And you will be beside me
When I almost scream
Because there's a needle under my skin
And there's blood on the sheets
That you just washed but you swear it's okay
Because that's what you do for someone you love
Don't give up on me
Don't give up on us.

I'll lump you in with all the good ones and the bad ones,
The cute and the ugly
And the moons and the suns.
I'll lump you in with all my dreams and fears,
My woes and my joys
And my calmness and unrest.

I know you'll make me sick but you will also cure me,
And I know that you're bad, but you're also good for me.
I know that you might get sad, but I will make you happy,
I know that I'll get mad but I hope you can forgive me.

I may soon forget the name and the face,
I may even forget the existence,
But I will never,
I can never,
Forget the stormy-blue sky
That resides in your eyes.