And the next thing I know,
A car door slams outside.
Someone knocks on the front door
And then they walk inside,
But before they do, they ask if I'm here.
My heart is racing in a second-
What if it's you?
But then I see them
And my eyes take a second to adjust
And to see who it really is.
I hoped- I really hoped-
Maybe it was you.
But it wasn't
And I have to return to my waiting sit on the couch
Wait, I stood up that fast?
Wasn't I sitting before?
And before I knew it,
The waiting started again.

There is a fire within him
And there are sparks to light it
They only have to get hot enough
To finally ignite it.

But I am told my heart is cold
And I will never warm him
There's ice in me that grows so fast
I know that I should warn him.

Apologies for the boredom
The snooze-dom
The lack of presence.
I'm not all here
I'm not all there,
Sometimes it feels like I'm not all anywhere.

Forget about them,
For they are lost,
Cuffs, cuffs,
Girl, you too are lost.

Forget about them,
For they are gone,
Drugs, drugs,
Last cards have been drawn.