I want this to work
I want you to be a permanent person in my life
I want you to change me to be better, I want to learn from you while loving you with every piece of me, I also want to receive the same amount of love right back

But what I don't want is to be the only one trying,
Being the only one wanting this to be something you don't want it to be
I don't wanna swim out in the middle of the ocean with you in this relationship only to be left alone to drown in the middle of it.

The moment you let people's opinions about you hurt your feelings
Just know that your giving them full control over you and the way you feel about yourself.

He didn't understand why I liked storms
But what he never realized is that
Everytime he left me
I felt like one

I'm the white spaces between every single word.

Somedays I'm perfectly fine
I can smile for a full 24 hours without letting the thought of you ruin me

But somedays....
I breakdown and scream to the deepest darkest part of the universe asking the world why can't I have you?

I loved you, you saved me
but with you I always felt the need to look over my shoulder

I loved him more
Because with him, I felt safe enough to fall asleep in his arms
I felt no need to look over my shoulder.

No matter if it's
guilt, anger, love, loss or betrayal.
Change is never easy
We fight to hold on and we fight to let go.