The water glisten like crystal
As dragonflies dance to the music of the surf
A symphony of sound emanates from this quiet section on earth
Adam lays in the shadow of the coconut tree, listening
A splash in the distance distracts his attention
Eve emerges from the sweet blue water
Her basket full of fish
Swinging her hips in a coquetish way
Adam catches his breath
Her beauty confusing his senses
Leaving him defenseless
Its time, whipers the serpent
Taste the fruit she so wantonly offers

She sits alone in her room
Restricted, feeling like a tomb

Longing to belong

Her heart  beats a lonely tune
Consume by the unfolding nature of life 

Her soul crumbles opening another crack in the lullabies

People are not meant to live in isolation

Just close your eyes

Love should feel like you're floating on a cloud of blue
Or is that just a bunch of Hullabaloo
We are brain washed to believe
Is it worth the time to be pursued

Cinderella, sleeping beauty and all the gang
Who's the fairest in the land
Us girls learned it first hand
Sitting on the laps of our grande dames

Fantasy was taught to be real
Illusion turns out to be a raw  deal
We are a new breed
Applauded and encouraged to succeed
Put away those fairy tales
And say hello to the 21st  century female

Can you hear me
Can you see me
I am flying
I am smiling

We traveled through the universe
On our magic carpet
Weaving a taspstry of tales
Leaving explosions of urban myths in our wake

Can you feel me
Can you touch
I am trying
I am dying

We've fallen down the rabbit hole
The heat stirs our souls
Our destination still unknown
Strangers in this foreign time zone

Can you hold me
Can you love me
I am sinking
I am disappearing

We have come to the end of the earth
Buried in death, lies and rebirth
So long to the fairytales and lullabies

She sits
Outwardly calm and cool
Flahes from her past  forcing long repressed emotions to bubble and escape
A tear trickles down her cheek
Unnoticed

Decisions made
Consequences and regrets
Uncontrollable but livable
Except for the child

Thirty-five years of self punishment
One decision made from fear
Changing her life

He found her

I lay in bed
My heart as heavy as lead
Breathe , in and out
Tomorrow will come, there is no doubt

Brokenness, soulfulness, woefulness

Today, the sun has risen
Such a contradiction
Darkness  surrounding
Leaving the story unwritten

Ferociousness, outspokeness, emotionless

Yesterday, looking for a do over
Constantly looking over ones shoulder
Trying to remember
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

Sleep eludes this tortured soul
Words, phrases and faces
Everything taking its toll

Look  I miss you a ton
Although it seems like we just begun
This affair will be my undone

It's not just the ***,  which is on a level all its own
Makes me feel like I'm King on a throne

But I miss the 'you get me' part even more

The thing is I ain't strong enough or whatever to handle the deception .
Eventually we'll have  to deal with the pain of rejection

We are playing with nuclear bombs with the potential to destabilize a lot of lives
I don't think I'd survive

The guilt is eating me alive

Dear mother of mine
You have done it again
You have  crossed the line
You believe you've been kind
But this is part of your grand design

Holier-than-thou you pretend to be
A sinner your false persona hides
Judgement day will be your demise
With all your lies it shouldn't come as a surprise

Asking for forgiveness
Is your ace up your sleeve
But only if your believe

When it's time to say goodbye
Heaven is where you will think you'll reside
But we know where you will lie

We all write about loneliness
And we all can empathize
But it is as unique to each of us as is a snowflake

It causes us all to ache
From a place in our soul that doesn't recognize the light of day
We wrap it up and keep it safe as our personal dossier

Colorless skies and lack luster eyes
We all seek the spectacular
Shooting stars, full moons and the first taste of champagne

We have been there, done that but don't seem to be able to hang on
We all want the same thing
To Love, to be loved and most of all to belong

Loneliness is such a complex experience
Existing even when surrounded by brilliance
Regardless if you are in a marriage, relationships, families and successful career.

At the end of the day,  it's a social and physical pain we all seem to be able to endure

The sun glistens
And the ice on the trees shine
While the church bells send a haunting chime
Lost in the glory of the apmasphere
She wraps her arms tighter around herself sensing he was near
She knows the end is ineviable
And unquestionable
These are the risk you take as a spy
You know, being the bad guy
She slips behind the building hoping for a moment of reflection
Believing in reincarnation
Another day and another time we will be reunited
Our love song rewritten
The gunefire echos off the wall of the building
Feeling the sharp pain piercing
Never lettings go of the one piece of hope for another tomorrow

It's hard to accept that we are
          not in control of what our heart feels

                      However

        We are solely responsible for our               action

Knowledge of the hearts wants can be used to manipulated and destroy

                        play safe

Babe it's been a long day
Let's say we go straight to bed
Where we can lose ourselves in each other
Where I can lay my hand on your heart to re energize my soul
Where we can gaze out the bedroom window,  watching the stars sing their twinkling lullaby
Where frozen licorice  and pizza is the meal of the day
Where we can listen to Radiolab weave stories and science into sound
Where we can hear all about the Galapolas and feel like we are there.
Where sleep will eventual takes us to another day

she lays her head down to sleep
                 wincing in pain
      from the bruise on her cheek
              what is she to do
           constant looks of pity
                    sadness
                  even anger
   worse than saying she had cancer
        how much can she endure
             she made a promise
             never to be broken
               unconditional love
           so many questions
                so many lies
   how do you betray your blood
            a part of your body
                  your soul
                 your child
          an angel in your eyes
          the devil in disguise
             uncontrollable
                  violent
   no longer can she keep silent

I am a moth to your flame
                 But if it's all the same
         I wish that you would refrain

                   I'm all out of love
To many times have I been disposed of
        Even though we fit like a glove

                     What's next
                  I'm so perplexed
                      But babe
           I'm a moth to your flame

I hung my head, I hung my head
I looked down and all I saw was red

I walk along the outer rim of the atmosphere
Reveling in the beauty of the frontier
I hung my head, I hung my head

I lay me down in a feather bed
I saw the brilliance of the sunrise
Dew drops on the wings of a dragonfly
I hung my head, I hung my head

I taste the sugar of lead
The poisonous white solid used to **** the mighty Mohamed
I hung my head, I hung my head

I see the children and the underfed
And I wonder

I hung my head, I hung my head

All I want for Christmas is

YOU



I miss you

He woke well before dawn
Pulling his husky body from the warm comforts of his bed
Today is the day, hard decisions need to be made
He settles in, whisky on the rocks, and his trusted amigo, Henry the  Hummingbird
The list is long, so he checks it twice
There was Jinxxed for Life,  Mina Steele and Richard Barnes.
Lexi Smith and can't forget Wolfspirit with his beautiful lyric
S Creeker and the enchanted soul of Ember Eravescent
News blaring from the radio temporarily distracting him from the task at hand
Just Melz and Wordvango
Whatever happened to the Samantha's, Joseph's and the Vicki's.
Blue eyes dancing reflecting "R" crinkling at the humour of Hank Helman
They've all been naughty for sure
Nice, that would be such a bore
Cheers to the world of poetry and all its glory

Want to be extrodinary
               Not ordinary
Want to be the one with the brain
           Not some plain Jane
Wrap me up and tie me down
Last seen fleeing in a wedding gown
          Confused, where to go
Break the string to the puppet show
Want to be me
                  Not one of three
Want to dance
            Not be dismissed at first glance
Break free and run wild
Dare to break the rules
              Play pool and be a fool
Continental shelf in of oneself,  remember yourself

She thought this would be easy
Fun to be sure
Exciting and dangerous
Naturally of course

The *** was amazing
At all times of the day
In backseats and parking lots
Oh what a treat

Time moved forward
And things got close
Feelings came into play
And everything changed

Thoughts of running away
Uruguay sounded cool
Fantasy would be fulfilled

Reality hit hard
Decisions where made
Sadness and emptyness
The new flavour of the day

A taste she's remembers well

she wanders the halls
searching unsatisfactory
amongst the coterie
no where to be found
surrounded by the drunk
and the profound
hesitation with sadness
realization with brokenness
left with nothing
but empty promises
she should have know
promises are always broken

Are you lonesome
Tonight
Do you miss me
Like a moth
To the light
Your smile
Shows me the way
To you
Though,
It was all child's play
I feel so foolish
I fell for your words
Like an actor
In a theatre
For the absurd
So easily replaced
Somebody new
To take my place
Always knew
The time would come
But
Just wish.....

I always liked nice things
Didn't understand why, just knew I wanted to live like princesses or kings
I realized at a young age that no one was gonna get them for me but me
Started babysitting children as many as three
Got a retail job at sixteen
Figured out quickly life was just a smoke screen
Been working ever since
Thought I'd found my prince
I tried so hard to believe
But I was deceived
At twenty two decided to go back to post secondary school .
I worked two jobs,  and lived on my own.
Ventured out to the combat zone
Have drive and ambition
Things that are admired in men but
Feared and condemned in women
I now live in a beautiful home,  drive a luxury vechile and have a high paying job
After all these years I still like the finer things in life
But I have realized the one and only thing I have ever wanted was to belong

Dreams
Unique images, ideas  and emotions
All kinds of notions
They are frightening and exciting
Magical, adventurous and  ******.
Taken so casual
Completely uncontrollable
But oh so enjoyable

Day dreaming or night dreams
No matter what the theme
An escape from reality
To a place where morality doesn't exist

A cigar smoking **** star
Or a multi million dollar secret agent
Imagination sets the pace

Here, in my room slightly displaced
Can't seem to fight the rat race
Sadness spreading like a toxin in my bloodstream
I close my eyes in anticipation of the next dream

Peppermint Palace and Lollipop Heaven
Beautiful and breathtaking as Aurora Borealis
Fairy Princess doing the nasty with the Bridge Trolls
Everybody watching them from the fish bowl
Love, throws you around like a Raggedy Ann
Making believe you're happy but falling apart like Peter Pan
Magical land, imaginary friends
Transcend,  and resent
Emerald necklace dangling from the Ice Empress
Life is a roller coaster ride
Enjoy like Jekyll and Hyde
Forever crossing the Great Divide

Your smile lights up my world
The sweetness of a hummingbird
Leaving me weak and unnerved

Those eyes, blue as the sea and sky
Breathtaking in your tux and bow tie
Lost in the night of Shanghai

Indulge me, ****** me, encourage me
Lead me down the path of audaciousness
Raising hell, leaving nothing but a shell
Waking to the sound of church bells
In my own private cell

Nothing looks familiar but everything looks the same
And there you stand, fair game
Looking at me, lost in the emerald of my eyes and the innocence of my  smile

Love me, hug me, kiss me.

If it's to be
It's up to me

Everything in me wants to flee
To the top of the tress
Where I can live and be free

Connect with nature
Be a baker, teacher or a Sergeant major
Rule the kingdom
With baby Lincoln and a trio of fearsome pilgrims

Swing from branch to beach
The sand, the water and the sea
Is this where I'm meant to be
Siting under a coconut tree drinking Chablis

Sunning with sea creatures
Feeling like a cheater
The heat and the sun
Making this a home run

Knowing it's where I'm meant to be
Me and all my heart is set free

Babe please don't cry
I hate to have to say good bye
This was not the plan
We were to only play not stay

Now is not our time
I am not yours and you are not mine
Two souls like ours are destined to withstand the wars
Our time will come and we will open the doors

You are my breath, my light
Nothing is black and white
I will forever know you
Now you are gone and I have to stay
Go out, get laid, pretending not to be afraid

To see you again, feel your breath on my neck
Your lips caressing the inside of my thigh
Wrapped in your arms at sunrise
To look into those dazzling blue eyes

I've been around and  I've seen it all
Next we will meet at the popcorn ball
Please babe do not cry
I promise this is not our last goodbye

A baby cries with pain
Left alone with no one to provide comfort
Nowhere to turn without hearing the  screams of anguish
The heat from the explosions choking
Fighting in the name of God and religion
This is not what I had planned
How could things have gone so far off track
Men women children
The scene scorching horrific images to the minds memory
What needs to be done to right the wrongs
Return the balance of nature to its true form
Do I start over or continue to watch and cry
No one truly believes,  I hardly believe
The ashes cool leaving a warm haze.
The survivors desberately seeking for everything but praying for anything
The  child is heard
****** hands reach into the chaos and
lift the child from the debris
The air goes still as all stare in awe
Smiles spread across their faces
Memories of devistation already starting to fade
The process of rebirth has begun

I know you saw me
So why do you pretend you didn't

I know you get my texts
So why don't you respond

I know I keep you calm
So why do you resist

I know I make you laugh
So why do you cry

I know you said no strings
So why tie me up so tight

I know you love me
So why do you deny

I know
Why don't you

Angels in the sky
They tell no lies
Angels in the night
Have inner light

No one to protect her
No angels for the lost
Between two world
Nowhere to cross

Wandering with no escape
Good or evil, a changing shape
Draw to the man in the cape
Motioning to the landscape

Choices to be made
Hopefully coming with aid
All debts have been paid
Praying she hasn't been played

Turning to the left, turning to the right
Into the hazy night with a sense of delight
Realizing one angel that was not quite white
Her guardian angel, her chance for a rewrite

Please say something but do not mock
So many questions but they can't be right
I've lost the key,  and now I'm locked

Feeling so small I can barely crawl
Nobody notices the broken doll
Discarded like yesterday's news
Beleive me I feel every bruise

The deal was no strings
But never believed it would become a boxing ring
Verbal jabs and mental stabs
Ending with evidence in a lab

For now, I say, goodbye
I promise I won't cry
Although I now know it was all a lie

Tomorrow will be a new day
And memories will fade away

Dreams filled with knights in shining armour
Her cheeks flushed, she lets out a soft groan
As she realizes she's woken up alone

A princess roaming aimlessly
Her wings broken and tattered
Can you see my strength even though I am weak
She wants to be special and unique

She stretches,  everything hurts
Loneliness causing such intense pain
That nothing seems to be the same but his old shirt

All around her the walls are white
This being her twelfth night
How many more must she endure
Or is this just a slight detour

Watching the stars knowing that they will answer her plea
16 more days and she will be set free
 A life without wings, princess and kings

The day has arrived.
The cold wind whistle, the land is bare and everything feels contrived.
A girl broken, fragile as a leaf in fall.
Damaged but promised.

Borded and no place to go.
Lonely, defeated and feeling so low.
The clouds are telling  a similar story.
Laying out a laundry list of woes.

The air is rich and fragrant.
A crooked little smile on her face.
She can't help herself as the sun fills her with grace.

Venturing out for the first time.
Load music, beautiful people everywhere.
Surrounded by all her partners in crime.
Spinning, dancing with laughter completely unaware.

He's at least 10 years younger.
An unusual flutter.
So beautiful, so strong and hard
He wants her but her bodyguards say no.

But she follows her heart.
Anticipation almost parelizing.
That first touch neutralizing.
Fast and furious, slow passionate.
Completely off the charts.

Behind doors and on roof tops.
Everywhere anytime, non stop.
Her innocent excitement increases.
A new cocktail of chemicals releases.
Lust, sweet delectable lust.
So happy and content

New attitude, a new her

Forever remembered

Every day all day
All I think about is getting laid
Perhaps I should look at getting paid
But I'm afraid
My human parents had me spaid

The silence is deafening
Hours go by with no reply  
Trembling  
Then a big surprise
Time to say goodbye          
Outside all calm and collective          
Inside, I must confess, depressed    
I had fallen hard and fast  
Should have known it wouldn't last
No defense against a breach of trust                         
But one must learn to adjust          
In time there will be no regrets
But for now no more duets
Then at some point it will be released as cosmic dust

She feels such an ache that it takes every ounce in her to breathe.  
The ground opening up  for her from beneath.

Questioning the reason for her existence. How am I impacting the world around me?
What do I do that makes a difference?

She catches a glimpse of herself in a store window.
Seeing a girl, a woman, a wife, a mother
Is this what I'm meant to be?  
But who am I to disagree.

Realizing that she,  being herself, is a true hero.      
  
The ground closes, a bounce returns to her step as she continues her journey
Knowing that she and only she can decide her fate without having to be carried out on a gurney      
                
We are all beautiful in our own freakness Learn to revel in our uniqueness.

When we first met                          
I knew we were meant to be a set  
A pair, a duo, a duplet    
                      
Chemistry and energy  is our aura
Looking styling in our fedoras

Flirting and singing, sending off sparks of true blue                    
Our meeting a real coup,  straight out of a mystery by  Nancy Drew                        
                                    ­                        
You add peace and subtract sorrow  
My head as clear as the sky on top of Mount Kilimanjaro
I will love you until there is no tomorrow

You are my friend, my partner, my life
I don't want any disagreement or strife
Just fun, entertainment and rife

Always and forever.

Soulmate.          
Found too late.                        
You already have a mate.
Our eyes meet from across the street.  
Instinctively knowing we were meant to meet.                                    
You feel entirely whole, healed and intact.                                        
You cross, closing the divide.
Both of you knowing this cannot be denied.    
Right there in the middle of the road.
You touch and the air explodes.  
Eyes locked, all life's experiences communicated.
A soft smile, a nod and a goodbye.      
Another time another July.

A child is born and we rejoice        
Happy there was a choice.
A new mother quickly forgets the pain of birth
As all great things in life come from our earth.
The child grows and the changes become apparent                  
Transparent to all but the parents.    
How did they not see their jewel, the star in their eyes, was different from all the other little guys
Their angel was the devil in disguise.
No hope of winning a Nobel Prize, they decide to baptize.
Dressed in white  surrounded by friends
They celebrate the rebirth of the end.

Alarm ringing
Pitter patter of little feet
Orange juice, aroma of coffee, burnt toast and butter
Pigtails, sundresses, baseball cap and shorts

Children playing, water splashing
Scraped knees and band-aids
Smell of fresh cut grass and lavender
Warm summer breeze
Picnic lunches and napping in hammocks

Mothers calling, children running
Hot dogs and hamburgers
Corn on the cob, watermelon
In and out in a half hour

Tag, kick the can, hide and seek
Fire flies and mason jars  
S'mores,  camp fires, scary stories
Sunset, red sky at night.

Bubble bath and baby powder    
Onesies, quiet time
Bedtime reading and nightly prayers
Warm bed and sweet dreams

Hello, are you there?
Why do I feel so all alone when I can still feel you, smell you?
Every day I'm asked,  how are you?  You know with that sad. ".R "    
Can they not see the haze that surrounds me?
Your haze.          
When I go to bed at night I can feel you, my body recognizing your touch, I shiver, sending goosebumps  down my spine.
Your scent emanates from my pillow, lulling me into a false sense of security
How long has it been?
A day, a week, a month, a year.        
Time has no boundaries.      
You're not a figment of my imagination.
I know you're there,  you promised you would never leave me.  
You promised.
I miss you.
Please find a way to come back to me

She wears it around her neck on a chain. Safe in the only home it's known, smug between her *******.
A key to her first diary, where she wrote about her hopes and her dreams. About her love for the boy down the street and about how she lost her virginity and cried for a week.        
A key to her trousseau, holding warmth from the blankets and linens,  practicality from the dishware,  love from  the Shakespeare poems and long awaited hope from the yellowing lace.  
A key to her first home, with the white picket fence and the swing set in the back. Where her children would grow up, where laughter would ring and loneliness would echo in the halls                
A key to her favorite jewelry box, with the diamond earrings and macaroni necklace.  The discarded ring that she had to ask for and that never quite fit  
He knows the key is there, he's seen it for 3 decades.  He knows the devastation that is in store if he uses it.
Its the key to open her heart.

He sits, he listens, he watches
As the children play. 1,2 buckle my shoe.
They are completely unaware of the man in the white suit.
He whispers, tell me something funny
Laughter explodes and is caught by the breeze of a warm summer day
3, 4 shut the door, as he whispers, tell me something sweet
A young boy steal his first kiss
5, 6 pick up sticks, as he whispers, tell me anything.                                        
Children's voices raise as they play, completely unaware of the man in the white suit as he sits and listens and               watches.

What if I never left Montreal?
Would this be in French
What if I married the first man who asked?                            
Would I have children or grandchildren
What if I went to university when I originally planned?
Would I have a different career
What if I had said no?                      
Would I have remained pure              
What if I had been born first?
Would I be loved more
What if I had been born a man?
Would I be more successful
What if I'd never been born?