you don't understand
and that's okay
i’d rather you didn't

i am a mistake
i am a mistake and now, unwillingly, my thumbprint, my identity, my existence, is smeared on the world
corrupting it
disrupting it
i know i wasn’t meant to be
i know i’ve disturbed all that was and all that will be with every breath i take
i know
i'm sorry

i just keep telling myself to
breathe, but i dont want to
do that anymore
either.

please hold on
even when i dont
and tell me i will be ok
even when i wont

the walls are up—
you can feel them. your
fingers
graze at their temperament.

ouch, you caught a nick.
so your blood begins to
tric
       kle

and you watch
as your feet begin to
turn that shade of red.
they leave

tracks
as you pace,
you scream,
THIS ISN’T WHAT I WANTED! but

what did you want, my dear?
i’m afraid
those walls
didn’t build

themselves.

You know what I hate ?
I hate when you make me laugh,
I hate when you read my mind,
I hate when you talk to me,
I hate when you stare at me,
I hate when you lie,
I hate when you get jealous,
I hate the way you touch,
I hate the day we met,
I hate when you call my name,
I hate that you're a stupid,
I hate that you're the same,
I hate that I am with you,
I hate that I am for you,
I hate not even so close,
I hate not even at all,
I hate,
Really hate,
That,
I love you !!!