I have fallen for you
I have...
I have fallen for a lie

a dark deadly poison
created by desperation
fooled by the minds illusions
caused by the greatest delusions
anger once peace
filled with blood
and catastrophic events
a brute, once a man
paid the debt of a life time
the heart once whole
now buried together with it's pieces
those pieces were seeds
of a man's becoming
watered by every teardrops
caused by his one and only sadness
a decision who he thought could repair
an action out of despair
in the end it was a mistake of an unforgiving consequences
once a blind, now wide awake
and all he can see are regrets of tommorow

Trick or Treat!
I never had to choose
You just offered them both
Who am i to refuse?
When i needed you most

A trickster at midnight
A treater in daylight
Im just a dog
Loyal to a termite

Would you say I'd be happy if i pick my own choices?
Would you say I'd be happy if i walk my own road?
You would, wouldnt You?
Then why is it that the lane i travel feels alone?

I'd fly to the highest sky
Dive to the deepest sea
Just to stray away from cages

But no matter how high or how deep i would go

Chains will always hold me

The chain of anxiety will always drain every ounce of my confidence

The chain of sadness kills what's happy inside me

The chain of depression whispers darkness around me

The chain of confusion doubts the real person within me

And the chain that will forever hold me, the chain of existential crisis

These chains that hold me will drag me to my cage.
The prison i created for me, locks a small voice deep inside me.

And it will never be free unless i have the courage to weld the key

I lost you
And finding you
Is like getting back to all i suffered
But in the end
I found something
Me.

And Somehow that was all i ever wanted.
It was everything

As tasteless as the words may seem
Just put some sweet compliments in it
Dash some bitter poetry with it
To get that bitter-sweet talks to it

Savor every letters
As read back and forth
Be filled with it's extensive use
And relish every spoken truths

Sprinkle a lot of emotions
And spread those feelings widely
That will surely give a kick,
A taste
A punch
A spice of one's spoken poetry

Swords, surrendered
Will, outpowered
Questions? Unanswered
Purpose? Lost

Trust takes time to build
Like a pile of a 20 meter bricks
But if you throw your betrayal at it
You will watch it fall
It may stack up again
Only this time it's 15 meters shorter

I saw a star
A wishing star
It was far but i reached it
I grabbed it and caged it
I forced out the light, the magic, the tales hidden behind it
A wish to be captive, only then i can be stopped
A wish for the healing
A wish for the best
A wish for this desperation to stop
only then i can rest
Only then i can sleep

I saw a star
It was quite far
Falling from the sky
With it's blinding light form afar

I hate you! For holding my hands!
I hate you! For the tender kisses!
I hate you! For whispering me promises
I hate you! For reaching my core
For stealing my heart!
For convincing me with sweet lies!
For gazing through my innocent eyes!

I've never been hurt this way,
This much
This time
Of all my entire life

I hate you!
I loved you!
I..... still love you.....

A poet is nothing without poetry
But poetry are nothing without readers
Which means
Mines are nothing

I yander
I ponder
To your mind
Full of wonder

Sometimes
A one's fragrance
And
A one's presence
Is what we need
To get to start working again

One day,
When dust and ashes becomes us
And all there's left is a house made of memories
I hope i'd see you
In a life after the end.

Sometimes, i wonder
Which star could you be
Then i looked at you
And realized
You are actually my star.

And so i screamed back at the sky
As it roared the heaviest rain
Tell me, was it all a lie?

The moment he looked me in the eye?
Was it all a joke?
'Cause all im feeling now is goodbye

Was i running for a race
Bound to lose in disgrace

Will that kiss be the death of me
Bedridden inside an empty yard of grave?

I like stars and moon
I like planets and universe
I like rocks and stardust
I like universe and the cosmo
Most importantly i like you
Because i created all those
When im with you

And so i sneaked
To the garden of promises


Hearing the restless winds
Shout every moment witnessed
The stolen touch of our lips
The hidden moments of our actions

All the times i ponder in the garden
Was reasoned with love and happiness
The memories of sweet talks
And endless nights

But now, this time
The sun finally rises
All the promises were drifted
As the coldest wind
Touch the heart of once loved

The siren were loud
But stubborn was i
I never listened

So the consequences
Left by stupidity
Will be faced with guilt and regret

Once happy
Now in despair


And so i left
To the so called "garden of promises"

As we were facing the coldest winter
I had the warmest heart

Another season of winter has come

Now, mine's as cold as the season

Three dots
Corresponding to what im about to say
...
...
...
...
I actually have nothing to say
Bye.

A radiant
A beauty
A passion
For the many

Shine me blessing
With the reflection
Of everlasting

As i lay in the solid ground
The black angel whispered
The words are murmured
My tear drops waiting it's last

I've seen beauty in the light
Healed the pain i have longed suffer
That was the lightest
My soul has ever felt

My breath was running
And i was catching it's presence
I was getting tired of drinking
These winds of life

Then i have reminisced these frames
Decorated with such joy and moments
So i whispered to the angel
Bring me back to where my destiny's rooted

Someday,
I'll eventually find the courage
To burn this bridge between us

And I'll watch you crumble
Before my very own eyes
As my heart witness you drown
In a pool of tears
I wasted

How can i find someone better than you
When i know no one can ever compare
I crave your skin, i miss your scent
So much that it hurts

It hurts.....
to imagine your pillowdent on another's
It hurts.....
to see you swiftly replace me with another
It hurts.....
to have loved you more than i should have

But there is nothing left to be done
It hurts......
But i have to accept that you are now gone, happier with someone

Now that I've grown, i came into realization that there were really no monsters under my bed. Just above it.

I always thought freedom is losing you
Instead all i feel now is imprisonment

Bars would be the series of my mistakes in a life i have chosen, a life i thought would be bliss without you, i was wrong.

If words expresses what i feel, those words would spell i miss you.

I regret having a memory of letting you go, i wish it's still me and you