....I could hold your hands
Hug you
Have conversations with you

....I could go out with you
Kiss you
Have amazing moments with you

....Those are the things we can do and
....I can thank the stars for it

Would you say I'd be happy if i pick my own choices?
Would you say I'd be happy if i walk my own road?
You would, wouldnt You?
Then why is it that the lane i travel feels alone?

There are things that i really want
That is out of reach
I've felt it too many times
Times where i got desperate
Many times that i learned
To be excited to those people who got what i wanted
Cause watching them experiencing it, just somewhat feels good

Im out of ink
Im out of battery
And i cannot write one poetry
Atleast after this

Twas my last color of hope
Twas my last energy of will
One can say recharge
One can say reprint

But what is passion
Without the captain's certainty
What is passion
When one gives up about its own

Nothing

One day,
When dust and ashes becomes us
And all there's left is a house made of memories
I hope i'd see you
In a life after the end.

As tasteless as the words may seem
Just put some sweet compliments in it
Dash some bitter poetry with it
To get that bitter-sweet talks to it

Savor every letters
As read back and forth
Be filled with it's extensive use
And relish every spoken truths

Sprinkle a lot of emotions
And spread those feelings widely
That will surely give a kick,
A taste
A punch
A spice of one's spoken poetry

And so i screamed back at the sky
As it roared the heaviest rain
Tell me, was it all a lie?

The moment he looked me in the eye?
Was it all a joke?
'Cause all im feeling now is goodbye

Was i running for a race
Bound to lose in disgrace

Will that kiss be the death of me
Bedridden inside an empty yard of grave?

I yander
I ponder
To your mind
Full of wonder

Three dots
Corresponding to what im about to say
...
...
...
...
I actually have nothing to say
Bye.

I have fallen for you
I have...
I have fallen for a lie

I lost you
And finding you
Is like getting back to all i suffered
But in the end
I found something
Me.

And Somehow that was all i ever wanted.
It was everything

How can i find someone better than you
When i know no one can ever compare
I crave your skin, i miss your scent
So much that it hurts

It hurts.....
to imagine your pillowdent on another's
It hurts.....
to see you swiftly replace me with another
It hurts.....
to have loved you more than i should have

But there is nothing left to be done
It hurts......
But i have to accept that you are now gone, happier with someone

I hate you! For holding my hands!
I hate you! For the tender kisses!
I hate you! For whispering me promises
I hate you! For reaching my core
For stealing my heart!
For convincing me with sweet lies!
For gazing through my innocent eyes!

I've never been hurt this way,
This much
This time
Of all my entire life

I hate you!
I loved you!
I..... still love you.....

A poet is nothing without poetry
But poetry are nothing without readers
Which means
Mines are nothing

As i lay in the solid ground
The black angel whispered
The words are murmured
My tear drops waiting it's last

I've seen beauty in the light
Healed the pain i have longed suffer
That was the lightest
My soul has ever felt

My breath was running
And i was catching it's presence
I was getting tired of drinking
These winds of life

Then i have reminisced these frames
Decorated with such joy and moments
So i whispered to the angel
Bring me back to where my destiny's rooted

Someday,
I'll eventually find the courage
To burn this bridge between us

And I'll watch you crumble
Before my very own eyes
As my heart witness you drown
In a pool of tears
I wasted

Trust takes time to build
Like a pile of a 20 meter bricks
But if you throw your betrayal at it
You will watch it fall
It may stack up again
Only this time it's 15 meters shorter

Swords, surrendered
Will, outpowered
Questions? Unanswered
Purpose? Lost

I saw a star
A wishing star
It was far but i reached it
I grabbed it and caged it
I forced out the light, the magic, the tales hidden behind it
A wish to be captive, only then i can be stopped
A wish for the healing
A wish for the best
A wish for this desperation to stop
only then i can rest
Only then i can sleep

I saw a star
It was quite far
Falling from the sky
With it's blinding light form afar

Now that I've grown, i came into realization that there were really no monsters under my bed. Just above it.

Sometimes
A one's fragrance
And
A one's presence
Is what we need
To get to start working again

And so i sneaked
To the garden of promises


Hearing the restless winds
Shout every moment witnessed
The stolen touch of our lips
The hidden moments of our actions

All the times i ponder in the garden
Was reasoned with love and happiness
The memories of sweet talks
And endless nights

But now, this time
The sun finally rises
All the promises were drifted
As the coldest wind
Touch the heart of once loved

The siren were loud
But stubborn was i
I never listened

So the consequences
Left by stupidity
Will be faced with guilt and regret

Once happy
Now in despair


And so i left
To the so called "garden of promises"

Sometimes, i wonder
Which star could you be
Then i looked at you
And realized
You are actually my star.

As we were facing the coldest winter
I had the warmest heart

Another season of winter has come

Now, mine's as cold as the season

I always thought freedom is losing you
Instead all i feel now is imprisonment

Bars would be the series of my mistakes in a life i have chosen, a life i thought would be bliss without you, i was wrong.

If words expresses what i feel, those words would spell i miss you.

I regret having a memory of letting you go, i wish it's still me and you

A radiant
A beauty
A passion
For the many

Shine me blessing
With the reflection
Of everlasting

Staring at a pitch black ceiling,
Wondering
If i risk and lose it all,
Such eerie feeling

I can no longer bleed my mind
The blood has run, no sign of cure
The red has splattered, the passion painted the shore
It was beautiful, but it was over

I searched within the chamber for clues
I found myself trapped in a prison blue
But nonetheless the deadline is due, im done masking the face. The ***** has loosened through

I tried to write a million letter
I tried to write a thousand words
But all there really is, are a bunch of cover ups to disguise the emptiness of an insomiac mind roaming inside the door of the witching hours.

I like stars and moon
I like planets and universe
I like rocks and stardust
I like universe and the cosmo
Most importantly i like you
Because i created all those
When im with you