Feels like time is running out
Always starting over from the bottom
Focused on the top tired of being kept out
Not always where I belong trying to figure it out
Working twice as hard to barely come out even
Done what's right things don't turn out right
Made mistakes never hear the end of them
Far from perfect and no where near perfection
Learned and growing results are not showing
Happiness within is not enough struggle within is tough
Gave my all came up short crazy to come back for more
Work hard to shut them up not lettting up
they find an excuse to run their mouth
Tearing myself a part within changed my ways
Not falling back into bad habits or looking back

Lived my the rules gave up part of myself
Listened did what was asked feeling used
While others turn their back as I remain loyal
They ask me what's wrong so much bothers me but in the end it will work itself out
Everything I was told seem like a lie or no long valid
So many things changed for the better or worse just doesn't make sense anymore
Eating me alive the struggle inside can't hide it anymore
From friends to stranger someone I once knew
Different from how I remember you
From love to hate; our romance changed, how did we date
Trying to forgive but keep reliving the bad
I'd like to be friends come around sometimes it's best I distance myself stay away
Trying to stay together even though things around me are whatever
Because I'm different wearing the scarlet letters
But they don't bring me pain or shame
Being labeled doesn't hurt because I know my abilities and my worth
Years of hurt and crying out being ignored doesn't surprise me and become immune to isolation
Self destruction was my way of getting back at you but ruined myself more you could care less
Tried to help and save you but kept walking back into danger now we are complete strangers
I was the strength and mouth piece all you did was make me weak because I valued you turns out you're the one who's two faced
My love once grew for you now it's gone cold with time the betrayal fades old forgiveness has helped me grow
If you came back not sure what to say or how you'd act. Broken trust know better than to give you my back. The knife wound has healed but you broke my heart don't expect you to heal my spirit that still grows and will never go dull.

Music always took him away while he wrote
The beats and melodies set a tone that tapped into the heart
His soul felt free because he was able to express his emotions
Sometimes he felt alone but able to relation unlike most he could express himself be helpful
He was never about himself always wondering if others felt or going through similar emotions.
Sometimes he felt whole and things were right
Other times he felt shattered within and losing his grip on reality
The music and writing went together it felt more natural.
He asked his heart and let it have a moment
The mind trying to sync up with the body and soul
Find balance restore recharge from all the wildness that came from everywhere

As I grow older friends get married
Some have kids and start families
Sad how everyone grows a part
Some find success and achieve greatness
Others get lost and struggle with addiction
So many struggle with loss and change
Sometimes change is good others have a hard time with it
Divorce occur with failed trust or conflict of interest
Some have kids but don't see them and struggle to pride some as a single parent
Heartbreak takes time to heal overcome obstacles
Work is to survive others become workaholics to avoid the change that's hard to cope with
Or some try to drown out their sorrows using alcohol hoping to fill that hole so they can be whole feel complete

He went out on the town and dressed to impress he was usually an average Joe. He knew how to dress but worked with his hands and got ***** so wearing a suit was pointless. He would be confronted like he did something wrong. This criticism angered him since he dressed up for the occasion.
The person talking claimed to be better but didn't act like it. He was not impressed by material possessions it. He knew how to respect and treat people right. He don't care how much gold a person wore or how they dressed. He has personality character that surpassed wealth. His respect was warned not given. money is nice to have but it doesn't make you better
This guy with his fancy date, she was dram to his wealth while she got in his ear since he was not too smart and couldn't think for himself

As we grow up some of us are close
We grow a part but with family it's forever
Sometimes we get mad at one other
Other times we have nothing but love making memories
Use to being a unit other times we got on one anothers nerves
We pray for the best some can only get and achieve so much
Others have it all and continue to work for it
Cousins are best friends that make family closer
Uncles give advice even if you don't ask
Siblinigs make you strong most of the time arguing and fighting due to conflict of interest
When all is forgiven everything feels right the bond grows closer

Hearing a beat and my heart sings the melody
Music in my heart and soul
The family plays in a band
He loved the music while talented musicians cared more for the life style
Writing lyrics making riffs on his acoustic guitar
He heart wanted to tell stories
The mind would comprehend all those emotions
Use to travel on the road now a working adult
Feels like the world left him and moves on without him
Found love that ended due to lust
From friends to solo over broken trust
Bit his lip because his mouth led to trouble
Not saying much but all the pent up rage wants to come out
Life's not fair but most already know working through the struggle

Use to go out every Friday night
woke up drunk Saturday morning
Now I'm older life seems so boring
Another lustful one nighter to find love
A contiuning quest that never had a happy ending
All this brokeness comes together while writing
She showed me love one day the next it was over
Use to hang out fresh and new
things felt right got old and cruel
She loved when we cuddled
Hated to see me go now we don't see one another anymore

There was more world out there to explore
He has his skills and talent that went unnoticed
He was tired of being trapped when all he wanted was to be free
Always happy no one was happy for him
They only noticed when he made a mistake
He don't like how they tried to shake their heads
Trying working twice as hard to come out even
He prefer classy and sassy over sleezy and easy that usually came his way
Lived and learned grew all this happened shaping and helping him grow
He was already to go while his peeps where a no show so he had to go at it alone
He'd call them but no response their phone was in their hand
He got use to being ignored and not one to give into demands
If he returned the favor he'd be hate so he didn't play games just walked away to focus on what mattered

He felt normal, but everything around him was tiny. Other times he felt small and invisible like he didn't matter. He always wanted to belong doing extra to be accepted; eventually it would be short lived. He was a drifter someone; who would fill the void then leave on to a new location.
Always felt like something was missing part of different world loved all the wrong people. The more he wanted in the more he felt kept out. Once he stopped caring everything was not the same

He always saw good in others then all of a sudden they changed. The glow the twinkle was gone from them. He asked what was wrong they told him nothing. There was some kind of heartache or mental block keeping them from achieving their full potential. He would respect them but they would change their attitude towards him which became a problem.
He was a good friend to his peeps but once they got a partner or in trouble they'd vent he would listen eventually this loop would continue to be reocourring cycle. He would be the scapegoat goat and kept out. He understood people found love and would start relationships he got the vibe they were with the wrong person but that made them happy who was he to come between the happiness that's what their heart wanted.
They would no longer be friends grow apart sometimes unite but other times just lose contact.

He grew up with tough love and knew things didn't always have a happy end. Things went well then all of a sudden his world was turned upside down. Things didn't turn out in his favor so close too bad everything came up short. He wouldn't let detours or setback hold him back. Everyday a new plan, so he could move forward with his life. He'd count his wins but they were short lived, he learned more through the struggle with many life lessons filled with experience.

Been seeing things in a new light
Going strong be honorable doing what's right
Failed but learned so I can grow
Many encounters to gain experience
Not always going to be liked but love myself
Happy for you why can't you return the favor
Did my best aim for more not settling for less
So much disappointment from fake people
Only one keeping it real so much hate sent my way
Cut off negative vibes or dealing with negative people. Detoxing from all the fakeness
Truth and realness fills my heart
Maybe I don't belong; do my best to hang in survive the rush keeps me alive
Did extra came up short not the whipping boy anymore
I'd help you but you keep walking into danger
Blamed myself because I couldn't protect someone who mattered in my life
Now we grew apart doing our own thing

Made a witty remark seen as mean
Tried to be funny but someone got offended
Spoke my mind held it in finally getting it out
All the pent up frustration melted away
Nice to all the wrong people asking for the right
Not walking into the traps that trigger anger
Avoiding negative people sets me free
Told me never go against the family
The family usually gangs up against me
Cussed out by an aunt and grandma
The black sheep because I'm not a follower
Fighting to be an individual my own person
No matter how old I get they'll see me as a child
These emotions from a broken childhood
I've grown and out grew those feelings

Writing has become my voice and way to express myself lots of personal growth. I learned to communicate treat others right. I'm very hard working determined but I've crossed paths with people who had more going on but ungrateful. I have to work for mine give my all do twice as much to get by.
I've been freed from all the hurt and the vicious death grip. A failed relationship that bruiser my ego but it happened so I can grow. I was too stubborn to change because I don't like change. I had a go no where job I love but crossing paths with a lazy coworker would become a conflict of interest. I was beaten up and fired for calling this out on their laziness. Like I said I worked for mine why is this person getting  paid to do nothing. Iasked "why me" a good friend would say "why not you are meant for something great."
I held onto this doubt and what I felt not one who likes change but able to adjust and adapt to change.

Haven't been posting it's been a while
Not stressed out mind not racing for miles
Always in this routine breaking out
Have fun live life to the fullest for the fallen
Work too much giving my all they don't appreciate all I've done
Ready to walk away no need to stay
Did it because I said I would lots of delays but finally made it not settling on a whole new level
If I'm doing well no one notices; make a mistake everyone is watching
Writing dialog having fun saying the truth most are offended
They dish it out but can't take it
Returned the favor they point out the obvious most of the the time they are oblivious
Just because you did your way doesn't mean it's the only way
Mad at me no surprised what are you going to do ignore me not talk to me stuff I'm already use to.
Spoke up never said anything before, from making me out to be the villian now you're playing the victim

More to life then doing the same old bull
Everything so boring need stimulating and new
Not holding back even though my mouth gets me in trouble
Bounced back not staying down so many entitled talking like I owe them to be honest don't even know them
When I was with my friends you always hating assuming the worse
Now your dating with someone less but I don't care you can have my blessings

Getting older over all the cold shoulder
Moved on but you can't pull me back
Over the bad vibes from numb to being alive
Cut out the toxic don't need your negativity
Times are changing doesn't mean it's going to change my ways
Open to change willing to listen but not influence by others and beliefs that have not love or don't accept me

He always wanted to be part of a crowd
They always made him feel he wasn't welcome or allowed
Now he minds his own wants to be left alone
Once he got inside realized he wasn't missing anything
He wakes out thinking meant for something better
They bad mouth him but once he confronts them they deny it telling lies now playing the victim
Been here before moving forward sobered up not the same anymore
Who he was and who he has become don't mix them up

When I sobered up I found out who my true friends were. All the parties in the dark once the lights came on it was over. The music bass gave my heart emotions set the mood. Drinking made boring people interesting. The hardest part was making a connection. The fear of being alone but learned to enjoy my company be by myself. I found without alcohol I was not able to connect or relate. Found out if they are my crowd they are not my people.
Club life was fun but black out memories make it hard to remember. I loved the life but it didn't love me back. Being sober made it less appealing. Tried to do a good deed and be the DD it was not fun taking care of drunk idiots. Eventually stopped going out finding new ways to enjoy life

Today was a good day writing it all out so I can have inner peace. All the stress within melts away feel the good vibes increase. Doing better thank goodness summer is almost over this heat was burning me up. Spending time with my loved ones always fighting alone but part of going and trying to make it on your own. My prize possession use to be my phone. Doing my own thing trying to achieve greatness be grown.
Use to love being in the crowd now I'd rather be left alone
Emotions come out through the pen bleeds on the page
Overcome all the rage and hate finished the last page of this notebook so I can start another. New book new chapter same mental madness but not so obsessed not settling for less over all the labels useless protest.

Fought for it now it's gone lost it all
Do who I am anymore, need to find myself
Being lost wandering when I thought I found it all
Fake friends that bad mouth me we don't talk anymore
Lusting girls who be cheating placing blame because they can't be trusted
Owned up to my rights and wrong keep on going strong
Lost the girls who doesn't love me or want me
Mad because I found someone new she dont want me but don't want anyone else to have me
You moved on and I'm holding back too bad we know the failed out come no more tries
Being with you being together means lieing to ourselves
New jobs old job stuck in this transition been writing for years helped me grow over come my fears

Another night things feel right
Up late inspired to write not trying to fight
Another day feeling saved blessed everyday
Let my heart feel beating strong again
Inspired feeling the fire burn within
Over come sin refuse to let evil win
Bounce back all the haters trying to take me out
All that nonsense I can do without

Not giving up or holding back
Someone else others not use to how I act
Changed with age can't always be the same
Move ahead or left behind just minding my own
The days of change are to come
Growing up and showing up to make it

These have been confessions all these heavy burdens off my heart
From fighting to tired no longer wired
Gave up trying to please everyone eventually they hate me and bad mouth me
Got to know them or so I thought now they are pretending to be someone else
I've always been me they make me out to be the bad guy in their story
Never said anything behind their back to their face
They don't like my honesty I'm the first they will replace for a yes man
Showed you love over all the disrespect neglect blame me for your faults
Had to cut ties say good bye no need for the lies protecting a heart that cries
I forgive you while you hold a grudge judge everyone pointing a finger like a loaded gun.

Trying to change my vibe
so I can feel alive deep within
instead of dead inside revived
About the hustle trying to survive
Told me I couldn't been doing it for sometime
Help save others have a hard time saving myself
Find away not meant to stay onto the next
I use to be mad and angry but all the does is burn me up from the inside
Didn't like confrontation would run and hide
Honest and true some see it as deep and dark
Overcome so much onto new not sure where to start
Always wore my heart on my sleeve
Focused on being positive doing good deeds

Last write of the night they ask what bugs you most
When family talks bad about one another and can't get along
The intensity wrong the pride going strong but the family will survive
Once a best friend sad it came to an end over a chick that played everyone and even played herself
Said sorry so many times but it won't ever be right back in the days we use to be tight
Had to cut the cord for you treating me bad that doesn't make you right
Never forgiven or with your shady ways
I use to be self destructive set in my ways not like that anymore
No more bad habits trying to live instead of lose it all so much I worked for
Too bad I'm not dead inside from being around others who made me feel like a no body destine to become somebody
Friend to foe these bad vibes need to go no killing my good deeds over your negativity
Wanted something more do who you are anymore in your eyes I'm the bad guy in your story stop spreading lies
Admitted my wrong now your trying to shame me thought you were better now I stay away and whatever
Told myself grow do more for your life do better work with what you got adjust and adapt focused on pursuing a dream
It means everything to me and means nothing to you killer me off write me off use to be close now you pretend not to know me

Not one to complain if it's not in my favor I don't care
Keep working hard going strong do what's right not into empowering evil deeds
Not buying into the wicked not one to cheat to win
Not into the cheaters a bunch of man eaters
Golddigger who claim the prize but did nothing
They don't deserve to be their stealing the credit
No more lies or buying into them
Cut me out talk bad out me you'll regret it
You decided to oppose me don't ask me for a favor forget it
Worked hard and sick still fighting to make it to the end
Someone get praised for doing nothing
While I do as much as possible not even acknowledged

Don't know how much more I can go
In pain from the inside it bleeds out
Been going strong feels like everything around goes wrong
Staying calm while everyone gets worked up
Mind my mouth while many are just talk
Sick but keep working like it don't bug me
You cheated now you make me out to be the shady one
Talk bad about everything turns out you are worse off
Not waiting around because you are a no show
Or wasting my time because you are a lost cause
Told myself be great all you do is hate
Blame everyone since you can't own up
I may not be the one but I at least showed up
Talk like you're grown up but not doing it
Listen to your own advice instead of trying to control others
Talk big but once someone tells you you get **** hurt

Always in my head my mouth gets me in trouble
All these phonies dish it out but can't take it
I'm too honest can't keep holding back while they fake it
Not worthy of my time for not liking me you keep saying my name
Not interested in the games you play so stay away
Only when you need something you are nice
Half the time you talk like you are better
All your nonsense has me saying whatever
I'd rather write than fight helps me sleep better through the night
You spread lies and you're the one with all the bad vibes
Making others look bad is the only way you survive

A young child watch his parents be consumed
One on drugs while the other an alcoholic
Both with bad habits that would cause a broken home
The week would be fine and he dreaded the weekend
Pay day so this addictive cycle would take its toll on the family
People change under the influence a child watching these behaviors took away from childhood
Feeling useless and not able to help but blaming himself because of his parents even though he did nothing wrong
Worried for them made it hard to focus that he didn't like being home
He got involved with sports even though it was too expensive once season ended
He discovered the track challenged him to get those laps in
His best friend and him would go everyday being in high school self conscience even though all their life they had been heavy set
He jogged the track imagined him going somewhere better different outside his home town things never changed in his city
The more he worried the more he appreciated the track
At the end of the night he'd get home and knock out hard since when I didn't exercise it made sleep hard to do
He knew there was more out there and experienced it
Sharing his world with others wishing they could go see what his eyes saw
His world welcomed everyone even though it was hard for others to accept
He wanted to change the world make a difference but can't carry the burden of the world anymore
Dealing with his own demons that tormented him

Everyday is a fight to be heard to give my all
I don't complain and do what's asked
Being overlooked and ignored is frustrating
Not one to kiss *** but will bust my *** to get it done
My motto is don't leave it for the next guy be the guy
So many settle I'm one who believes, if you're not moving up or progressing why stay there
Being a sub has taught me doing the work makes you better
While some who have been there for years and let it go majority of the job is maintaining
Gave up on things to find my own label or no label I've been doing it
I've always been passionate about whatever I'm doing all in or nothing not one to waste time
People I valued and respected never took my thoughts into consideration so much rejection and dismissal.
I'm not one to **** someone's idea or dreams, I ask how or what can we do to make this happen. Become a reality make be a team player so many of my ideas taken and used being discredited.

Some days are bad most are better
Not letting bad habits over come the good deeds
Love family but some are all about their greed
Be with someone you love treats you right
Why settle for less when you deserve the best
Be with someone you love not use one another for selfish gain
Failed love can't be repaired the pain will strike a nerve
Words full of lies that mean nothing failed out you pretend everything is fine
Two world's collide instead of unite the after math only time will tell

Feeling trapped in my head so many make me think k onto over thinking.
I like my job but over being bounced around. I'd like to focus on what I love which is writing and jujitsu so many time conflicts and restrains that make me think and wonder.
I write all the time some tell me I'm good, while others criticize ripping me a new one. Some people like to get in your head ruin your inner peace because they are not happy with themselves. I'm one to help and encourage others, I use to want and help others; I'd rather be alone found comfort in my own company.
Took time out to figure it out, things don't feel right others try to contaminate your good vibes
Sometimes I want to write and post other times; I just save them, why write if you can't share.
I don't know sometimes, things pile up in my head. Writing is the only way to get it out, also podcasting, I love express myself that's why people get mad at me because I tell the truth lieing takes up too much, time and energy. I prefer to be straight up. Been a while trying to get back at it

Finally Friday made it through the week. Working hard to get it done earn what's mine. Been sick but pushing through. Critics trying to throw a monkey wrench in this machine. Things have been up and down but not shutting down. Deep in though not trying to change because someone is threatened.
Struggle is real not to fond of others telling me, what's best for my interest.

Someday are harder than others; I'm glad I made it through today
People will criticize but not look at themselves first
Trying to understand other mindsets is hard when you cannot make sense of the logic
In a new place mentally out of my comfort zone
Learning to communicate with people
who are set in their ways
I don't expect them to change
They do expect so much from me not always able to please everyone
but they do not accept everything about me feels like I'm being set up to fail

They told him he couldn't but he's been doing it
She waved and went out of her way to say hi
There was a mutual vibe between the two
He was brown and a hard worker very phyiscal to get the job done
She was blonde with blue eyes, her nuturing behavior because of her job
He no longer wanted the life he lived but wanted to move forward with him
She smiled young and innocent where he was older knew better but chose not to do right
He learned from him mistakes and didn't want to fall back into bad habits
He grew up with tough love and she was loved and had it easier
Most do the opposite of what they say, actions speak louder than words

Feeling drained
Heart pains
Just want to be done with today
Even though it's barely getting start
I'd rather write than argue and fight
Makes it easier for me to sleep at night
More on my mind closure is hard to find
Obsession drives me crazy feels like I'm going blind
Spoke the truth but seen as ruthless
On my own path viewed as a lost cause
Not a follower born to lead
Doing what I love not about money or greed
Had my ups but they come down
Had my towns they won't let me up
Sometimes things level out come out even is the gain

In my mind I find peace make sense of everything
I hate to fail but come up short
Try to stay on time and consistent with all the resistance
I'm getting older everyone feels more distant
All I do is listen to people who set me up to fail
All I want to do is make it and prevail
One to fight and Bite now all I do is tuck my tail
Not arguing with useless people who take me for granted
So numb I feel life less feel my soul leave my body
Mistake for dead emotionless in my head
Stare off into the distance block it out
The sounds around me becomes white noise
Feeling trapped can't escape over all the hate
Faced my fears no one knows wipe the tears
Smile like the hurt isn't there
Hide it all be strong for others
In the end it catches up you want to leave it behind
comes back not ready for the attack
Hard to breathe what's next
can't keep living of the same good deeds

Worked hard so I can forget my drama
Now work is full of insanity all the games
Never let things get to me over all the frustration
Something I once loved now the joy is gone
Been doing it for too long now it feels wrong
Time for a change need to turn the page
Look in the mirror white hairs starting to age
From working hard to get ahead
To feeling stuck and getting worked
Not the same over come this hurt and pain
Who I was vs who I've become still not done
Had a plan but faced many detours
Change it up to escape this insanity
So worked up in my mind want to yell
Scream real loud with all my being
Keep at it but had enough it's so tough
Once loved it all but don't want to do it anymore
Gave my all went ******* not what I want
Another uphill fight I'll never win, ready to walk away
Overlooked skipped over no need to stay
Walk with God I pray he helps me get through the day

Finished up the day, it feels late, but it's not
Trying to relax and stay calm
Back is locking up and the body glad to be in bed
Took pills for pain so it could ease up
Release the tension
Need to rest but wide awake deep in thought
Still hasn't happen yet the world feels blocked out
Rise above the people who slander my name
Trying to rest but restless thoughts

Not everyone you value feels the same
Not willing to think highly of you
You smile and love life to the fullest
They see you as a joke
while they soak in misery
Take advantage abuse your kindness
The mind is blind full of denial
A heart fueled with love
can rise above the wick
Dreaming made it hard to sleep
Lost in the fantasty not the reality

On my day off I wake up to work
but don't have to free for the day
So I lay in bed stare at the ceiling
Thinking deep in thought taking in the vibe
Focused on good things are not bad
Time to reflect and write it all down
Focus on my passion and things I love
Asking what my personal life needs
what needs to be done make time for it
Nice to relax after being in my head
Determined to finish get it done
Ready to be phyiscal give it all
but relaxing have some fun it's past due
Put on music enjoy the sounds
that take me away escape the work routine
Beats that remind me of my youth
A better time that made sense things changed
Can't stay the same forever most adjust and adapt

Need to wake up early can't sleep
Trying to relax everyone needs a favor
Helping others use to bring joy
So many rude and annoy
Hard to trust when it's broken
False promises believed another lie
Did my share too bad no one cares
Open and honest still treated unfairly
Better days sometimes unphased
others amazed not like the rest
I'd fight to stay but they let me go
Not my home best thing to do is disappear
Wandering alone was a fear got use to solitude
Been through so much over time
stayed humble with gratitude
Remain the same over the pain

Hard to sleep, deep in thought
coped with things never the same
My mind a place that is home
Inner peace within not interrupted
Writing late feels right, a cold peaceful night
The fan blows the cold breeze
The moonlight sets the tone
Not one to argue, writing has become my voice
Not always the hero in others story
Mind my mouth getting heat from others
Spoke my mind now it's time for the third degree
Worked hard made it fun time to let go
Over stayed the welcome can't do anything
Let go find something new full of promise
Hopefully it is true worthy of staying
Over bouncing around being a drifter
Different places that are not a fit another change
Random faces never the same bad with names
On the open road driving takes away the pain

Stared at the phone to see what time it is
Most stare waiting for a text or call
You can be close yet so disconnected
Bad communication leads to misunderstanding
Doing out own things keep us divided
Comeback together be United
Pick up where things left off
Getting older hair turns white and thining
From a wild youth to responsible adult
The dream makes sense while others laugh
See others like an equal but they don't value you
Random thoughts that come to mind
A job that pays well but not permanent
Been with all the wrong people
Some come others go without reason
Life is always changing like the season
Looking something real that feels right
I'd speak the words won't come out
Don't want to make a bad impression

Walked up to the receptionist filled out the paperwork. The fish tank making relaxing noises. Need to talk get these looping thoughts out my head break the cycle. Talked to friends but they have problems; that shadow mine, that are more important apparently.
Really bad at expressing myself usually direct and straight up.

Feeling the blood rush to my face
We had a cool team turns out you're using me
Only call when you need something
Half the time they don't bother
Tried to be helpful and be resourceful
Now you cut me and not bothering
Went the extra mile, now you're hating my style
Showed up, gave my all; once again drop the ball
I was one to save you but you keep walking into danger
Cut me off treat me like a stranger
Karma burns it will come back to you
Need my college degree all I get is the 3rd degree
Went out of my way, mistreated, no need to stay
Believe in signs, sounds like, I'm being written off
Not interested or the type I'll be alright
Writing to my favorite songs, music gives me power
Music gives me strength, my heart energized, by the soul could light up, grow
That moment time to shine make it happen
Another road block so close
Another detour to arrive
Made it to the end, still have yet to finish
so close yet so far at the end, starting over again
Tired, defeated crazy enough to comeback for me
Not trying to obsess made progress
The result take away from the win
so much for a victory the credit stripped away
Now it's time to start over do it again

Staring out the window trying to see my future
Thinking what steps I need to take so I can make it there
The cold breeze against my face, air so refreshing
With a pen in my hand and notebook on my lap
My room is my safe space made it a home
Other than in my head lost in my thoughts
Crazy when I'm out of my comfort zone
Not one to compare myself to others
Always seen as a threat minding my own
Most of the time I don't bother or care
Focused on life my own personal affairs
The vibes are shady the tension is suspenseful
Never said anything about you
Seems like you have so much to say about me
I don't remember asking why are you talking
Its all said behind my back not to my face
I'd take your opinion into consideration
Another fight in my head to write about

In the dark the music blasting loud
The beat fills my heart
The lyrics touch my soul
Starting to glow from within good vibes seep out
Music gives me strength to survive
Music helps me grow feel alive
Let's me know I'm not alone with my thoughts
Or the only one who feels this way
The struggle is real music gets me through the day
Says all the things I have trouble saying
I'd speak my mind, my mouth gets me in trouble
Been hurt and hurt others not my intention
Seen some stuff too crazy for me I had enough
Letting go is the hard part but you won't regret it
once you do you're free from the burden
Once you start, keep progressing, stop obsessing