An open heart like a book
Wandering mind with desires
Bright glowing souls cannot dull
An aging body changing with time
Positive in a negative environments
Stronger most choose to be weak
An honest mouth silenced by lies
Odds in denial against the truth

Lost in the craft of writing
Another rough draft
A never ending process
Too many details or not enough
Lost in thoughts endless emotions
Personal thoughts within come out
Things told as a child
Older now somethings
Dont matter anymore
The line between good and bad
All is blurred full of confusion
After asking questions
Mostly observant to behavior
Listening to whats being said
Hard to believe a lie and trust

Thoughts floating around
Never comes out as visioned
Driven to be much more
Writing things that are not said
Feelings from observing others actions
Said so much others get mad
Strong and silent called stuck up

Done way more
Everyday is the same
A boring routine
Use to be addicted to adrenaline
An adrenaline ****** Such a rush
So much broken trust
Can't be restored or fixed
Not falling for the same old tricks
Remembered the good
Forgetting the bad
All things changed
Apologized not forgiven
Moved onto better

Able to relate somedays
Disconnected from the past
Focused on being great
Traumatized by the ex
Asking what's next?
Striving to survive
Feeling fully alive
Positive vibes revived
Optimistic thoughts inside out

Holding back fully tempted
The words won't come out
Thoughts play out in the head
Moment has come feeling of guilt
What if it's a mistake
Things will change drastically
Hopefully for the better
Emotions get the best of
Making it worse took a risk
Things not the same after

Grew up around domestic violence
Not letting emotions get the better of
Feelings of hurt not expressing
All the compromise for others
Toxic people causing problems
Looked out for others with troubles
Now all alone hard to connect
Forgiving is hard so much betrayal
Never forgiven multiple apologies
Some trauma hard to shake
Can only take so much
Push to the limit crashing down
Buried under all the chaos

Clear the mind able to relax
Fill blank pages with words
Seeds the world as a stage
A welcoming smile on faces
Laughter fuels the soul
Interaction causing reaction
Kind ears open to listen to others
A heart to give with passion

Approached the Mic center stage
Lights so bright the world looks dark
Feels right for once not disturb
Guilt free telling a joke
A room filled with laughter
Better than a room with silence
Lost in thought escaped another maze
The mind twisted and layered

Always reaching out
Making effort to stay connected
Valued and appreciated friends
Told them straight up
Face to face out of respect
Another two face more neglect
Slandering behind the back
Another ignored called
Phone in hand with a death grip
A text with no response
Loud with words
not saying them

From youth to elderly
From wide awake to always tired
Flexible joints now cracks and pops
Dark hair turns white with some grays
Late nights with the night owl
Now an early bird rising with the sun shine

She entered the classroom
Her first day of school
So young it was all new
Imaginary friends fade away
New friends to develop
Social skills grow as a person
Be a good person to others
Polite well mannered
Full of life innocent
Filled with joy life's begun
New friends to grow with
Another lesson learned
Made it through the day
Time to go home from school
Till the next day another class

A trip to the aquarium
Stuck in traffic but made it
Near the beach a refreshing night
First time for all a fun event
kids admire with amazement
The underwater creatures
Swim gracefully in the water
Finesse movements seen by all

A well know mind full of ideas
Burning out From both ends
About the moment from within
Always put others first so much love
Introduced them to one another
In a relationship now cut off the world
Forgot about friendship old always true
Onto to the future something new
Happy for the two onto better
Only if they knew kept up with today
Mindset stuck on the past

Couldnt make her happy
Never one to make it better
Tried to help things go worse
She was stuck on an ex
Blind to the world of change
Love surrounding her always
She prefered tainted unpure love
No consideration for others
Not one willing to change for anyone

Going crazy over her way
She never knew what she wanted
Constantly changing her mind
So much inconsistency in the world
Broken from the  shattered past
Destroying the future of hope
He asked her out she said no way
Now with another random lover
He thought he knew her heart and soul
Misled by the the phony act

He waited for the call
It never happened
He became anxious
Not always chosen first
Only got the job by default
Gave his all gained nothing
Burnt out going strong for days
Making the most of the situation

Bought a lotto ticket
Hoping his luck would change
Always working hard for his own
Nothing came free everything has a price
Use to be close became detached
Change so drastic lost control
Feelings overwhelmingly dramatic
Came back for more can't get enough
Don't want to miss anything
Hoping to live and gain experience
From the encounter of life moments

Not like the rest called a rebel
Been called other names by worse
Give it all even if it's not enough
Over come the struggles faced
The struggle within the hardest battle
Feels one way not the reality
Thought to be genuine seen as toxic
Twisted ideals made up by others
Been doing it for sometime
Others saying it couldn't be done
Don't believe the lies or listen to excuses

Told not to lie be open and honest
But none one seems to like the truth
Why are they mad for being caught up
Caught up in a lie, easier to be truthful
Don't like being lied to cant be honest
Why lie to others expect the truth
Never made any sense at all

Everyone will be okay
Everything will be alright
Another day to get it done
Somedays have some fun
Not stress worry or care
Be careless with no regret
Dream big without doubt
Always pretending it's real
Anxious for it all to come true
Haven't give up still striving
Working behind the scenes
Finding peace within it all

The heat beat down on him
A scorching sun in the summer
Thinking of ways to improve
Stared out into the distance
Hoping it would come together
The right path a sense of direction
Made many mistakes learned the lesson
A mouth full of truth no one listening
Made decisions not many choice
A clear mind blocked out negative voices
Staying sober avoiding rooms with alcohol
Walking alone cut off toxic people
Set in their ways not open to change
Good vibes away from over dramatic attitudes

Not responsible for others happiness
****** personalities knocking others
Irrelevant trying to use others
To feel important secure about themselves
Like animals ready to pouch on victims
Quick to judge others but don't have it together
One with a cheating partner blaming the world
The other quick to speak before thinking

In the city of Corona
A hometown to the heart
Now a small town to over populated
Relocating north side of town to South
More overpriced housing lost values
So much destruction to the origins
Abandoning the old community
Use to traditional norms from childhood
While new concepts don't make sense

Lots of thoughts flowing
Some feel right make sense
Others race driven by insanity
Things are well feeling at ease
Something is missing dk what
Seeking closure faced fears
New drama from people
Cut them off forna reason
Same old thing not going back

He stared in the mirror
After a warm refreshing shower
The steam left him sweaty
Detoxing out of the pores
Talking to himself about life
Once a young man to an older gent
Same face different person with time
Baby face reflection full of youth
Now wise with graying scruff

Anxiety make the world seem dark
Like no one cares about anything
The world against your differences
Hard to breathe with a racing mind
Ready to crash an burn taking the pain away
Not fond of change drastically destructive
Loss of control the mind playing tricks
Break away from the cage free in the mind
Broken chains scars remain
Memories lose value fade away
Heal from the past stay humble
Not grow old within show remorse
Live life to the fullest instead of being cold
The future full of new moment to rejoice
Against the voice of doubt that's holding back
Not the first or the last panic attack
Head down plow forward no going back

Lost the edge in his head overthinking
Thinks too much once it comes out
Watered down through the cycle once again
Always had nice things to say about others
While others slandered his name
He'd ask out a girl talks of staying single
The following week she found another lover
Her lustful ways came between friends
A three way kiss that would ruin a relationship
He drank loved to be intoxicated masking misery
While the druggies looked down on his way
Double standards meaning one is less of two evils
Multiple apologies no forgiveness
Only a never ending grudge to be right
Most do wrong trying to justify the act
One moves on but reminded of a broken time
Like a medal of shame stuck in the same era
Never able to forget stuck living in regret

The silence causing peace
A whispering chill breeze
Moist in the refreshing air
Causing comfort setting a mood
Voices go quiet in the moment
Pain eases up able to relax
Escaped the worries feeling free
Connecting within feels right
Able to rest over night sleep tight

Talk the problems
Write it down on the page
How it made you feel
What you did to be better
Prepare for next time
Prevent this from happening again
The thought process everywhere
Seen one way happened another
Feels one way not going right
Alternative ending a different outcome
Results are not turning out as visioned

Doing his job avoiding the drama
Headphones in ears blocking it out
Sweaty from the bike ride to work
Keeping it clean part of the assignment
Listening to a mixed play list with jams
Another funny story on the podcast
Laughing and smiling making a joke
Sterilize the steel killing germs
Wiping and dusting for dust bunnies
Thinks about writing with nothing to say
Whatever comes to mind things are fine

Over being know for an old habit
Not about that life anymore
This shadow can't keep the the light out
Let go off all the frustration from within
Trying to prevail get to the next level
Did more than most not settling to fail
Hardest worker in the room good attitude
Busting and hustling making moves
A few off days usually in the groove

Been going strong all summer
Glad for the three day weekend
Sleep in late still plan for day
The summer heat go away
Year round heat needs to give
Always one sided giving all in
Gave the best stuck with less
Expected more got the worse
Not surprised more disappointments
Thought of another outcome
Trying to hard got nothing
Said nothing got taken for granted
Spoke up someone is always mad

Use to be in shape got hate
Listened to those haters
Comfy in this skin
Now they are annoyed still
Anything done is never enough
Nothing going on with them
So they critic others
Times are tough
Made it through
Make the most of it
Moving up others don't like it
They've been stuck going no where
Most don't like change
Especially if it's not in their favor

Not writing with anger
Or from the past moments
Seeking experience by living
New encounter for fun stories
A journeys full of adventure
Single responsible for happiness
Can't blame ones self for others
Not blaming others for the outcome
Use to run scarred now standing tall
Took on the numbers now the only one

Wide awake read a few sections
Turned the page to the next chapter
Books bought with money earned
Many efforts go unrewarded
The unsung hero of the day
Finding love in passion within
Others don't understand different
Quick to dismiss not willing to try
Styles don't always clash determined
One might make it sooner than the other
Sooner or later sacrifice will be worth it
Hard work makes things easier
With time things will get better

The sound of weights
Click and clack of dumbbells
Body going through the motions
Light to heavy muscle tense up
Down slow then explore up
Music blasting in ears
Blocking out the world
Some workouts are enjoyed
While others full of agony
Range of motion limited
Pushing through finish strong
Bars bouncing after powerlifting
Form and technique over heavy lifting
Breaking a sweat shirt soaking wet
Water for hydration quench the thirst

Favorite shows became classics
New music from teenage years
Now considered oldies on the radio
Discontinued toys now collectibles
Clothes from the 90s seen as retro
Change always forgets the old
Replaced by new left with memories
Originals get a reboot never the same
Altered for modern generations

She faked a smile as the crossed paths
In a bad relationship for years
Never able to walk away
He was single hoping for the one
Still single the one of many
Being friends since high school
One wanted more than the other
He pursued a career came up short
She became a mother her life changed
Both had plans that turned out differently
Crossed paths again from friends to strangers
Starting over new find new common ground
Would they remain the same friends with a crush

Seeking closure and peace over things
The mind stuck in a loop
Another never ending cycle
Desire for change can't fix the past
Trying to be better for the future
Said love you too soon things got ruined
Never said the words but showed love
From going well to complicated wanting to run
Willing to stay no more reason or purpose
Moving on ripping away the painful agony
Unlearned behavior reshaped emotions
Physical love confused with lust
Time to heal away from broken trust
To mend shattered pieces of heart
Find love for self once again
The real thing no need to pretend
Or make excuses to justify things failed

By the mic thinking what to say
Dividing personal life and feelings
Inform the listener and stay positive
Upbeat set a tone so much has occured
A way with words how to speak
Have an opinion most of all have fun
Talk about what you're passionate about
Things that make you laugh and smile
Be open with a heart not fake or phony
This show is a voice a cheap form of therapy

Never belonged always looking in
Once inside learned not missing anything
Kept out for being short part of traits
Who knew there was a height requirement
Skin shouldn't matter but it's a factor
Not the right skinned tone who knew
A few pounds influenced others opinions
More judgement for things that make a person
Race should not a factor playing many roles
Multiple challenges ahead for all
Everyone wants to make it be the best
The game plan in the mind the seed is planted
Ready to make it happen by taking action
More determined than others
Made the most of the situation
Everyone wants to make to the end
Stay true and loyal within to ones self

Went through hell and back
Not sure if it's worth doing it again
A sore and tender body from it all
Mind full of crazy thoughts
Trying make sense of them all
Faced many obstacles some worthy
Others a waste of time pointless
Felt annoyed with frustration
After all the efforts made to help
Gave an opinion that got dismissed
Looked out for a friend got ignored
Stood tall hung on really wanted out
Made the most of things that went wrong
Tried to make it better for all not happy
While mentally fading away ready to escape
Went forward never looked or went back

Shed a tear pain relieved
Worried about the wrong
Time to focus on the right
With time things got better
Defused the hate with love
Never too late to do great