Nervous about asking her out
Rehearsing in his head
Never came out accordingly
Mouthing his thoughts & ideas
Preparing for this moment
Where are we going
Let's talk open up to each other
Get to know go one another
Could this be more interested
Will we be friends the aftermath
If it doesn't amount to anything
Trying to get out of the friend zone
Analyzed every perspective
Seen all the possibilities play out

In my head my safe place
Smile on my face because it's real
Be alone in my comfort zone
My cozy warm bed to relax
Pen in my hand feels right
Ink my thoughts on the page
Friends come and go like seasons
Emotionally detached from toxic
All the people I love go away
I want them to stay with me
Don't want to be in the way
Let them go prayed to be reunited
They'd come back be the same
Keep going strong memories remain
Pick up where we left off

Remember those time
We spent together
Your smile a tender kiss
My ear against your heart
While you hug me tight
I can hear you breathe
Your heart skips a best
You opened up got deep
Always honest with you
Loyal to you no reason to cheat
Please don't lie or lead me on
My heart is always protected
Opened up to you please be true

The photos on the wall
Told a story triggered memories
Worlds came together
Others fell apart for a reason
New beginnings focused
Opened my mouth full of hope
Everything came crashing down
Had my plans but derailed by others
Will find a way still determined
The flame will continue to burn
Been stopped down and out
There's a better world out there
Then reality would strike me hard
Stood tall kept pushing against the bad
Trucking forward to do good be better
Wasn't ready but made an effort
Wanted it more than the rest tired of settling
The oldest set the bar no one stepped up
Went into the world lived for me
Love home but it's never going to change

Did my thing got no support
Stood tall on my own nothing but hate
Always happy for others
Got made fun of but kept focused
Told I ****** and been doing it more
Every win was mine thankful
Appreciate everyone who helped me
Ruined the moment seen as a lost
Been proving people wrong
Not a cheater accused of being one
Earned my way not a thief acting righteous
Kept my mouth shut seen as a snob
Opened my mouth always the bad guy
Not using people taking them for granted
I'm not afraid to lose or back down
Been ganged up on talked about
I walk away doing what I love
Stayed away from negative people
Settling my goals trying to achieve them
My dreams will become the reality

Single over being with the wrong person
Rolling solo trusted all the wrong people
My perception on others has been twisted
Trust broken respect lost in the process
No longer wasting time on drama
Use to care got over being ignored
Only a family member when favors are needed
Minding my own most of all my mouth
Love you, don't agree with what you've become
I respect your life choices but you're a bully
Talk big once you get checked, you play the victim
Earning my way, you ride someones coat tail
Not afraid to fail life's always a struggle
Look down on me, don't have to explain
Done way more nothing to prove
I have less but I'm happy not materialistic
You have it all, still knocking others
Make rules and quick to break them
No say, or control over my life, staying away

Woke up to the smell of warm Thanksgiving
The feast would begin soon enough
Seeing family without an argument or fight
Praying everything goes right for once
The aunt who talks politics to ruin the night
The drinks are fowing alcohol loosens lips
So much food to go around share a warm meal
Stuff your face full of grace at a steady pace
Family from out of town happy they are around
The meal with the works full of fixings
Filled with flavors that taste like heaven
Savor the flavor of every item on the plate
The food is great and a dish a full stomach
Loosen thosee pants full of delicious food
Now it's all over in the mood for a nap
Thanksgiving left over and I'm okay with that

Thankful for all those that want the best
Supportive and wish me great success
Who don't quick on me when I feel like giving up
Pick me up when I'm down to be better
Those who judge me assume the worse
Prove them wrong not fueled by hate
Not talking bad focused on being more
Glad for those hard lessons full of growth
All the disrespect made me be a better person
Traditions changed still polite full of manners
Respect myself take pride in what I'm doing

He sees them together in his head
In public he is whatever
He doesn't want to seem desperate
Not sure how to express himself
She might like him back
Or say you are a "good friend"
Will things get be awkward
Between the two connected not close
Things come to an end
Wish it got better now it's worse

Gave advice wasted time
Ignored blinded by ignorance
Love denied rejected by bad habits
The emotions should come natural not forced
Put out love even if it means getting hurt
Shaking thoughts are hard, you love a person
The worse is you're hooked, they take advantage

Changing the mindset is difficult
Moving forward sounds awesome
Back to the old and original is safe
Hard to change when it's all you know
Remember the better times can't go back
Fear of the unknown overwhelmed with thoughts
Never know what's gonna happen next
Change is always occuring, don't get comfortable
Be open to opportunities, pray for blessings
Scared that it's taking longer than expected

He wondered where the time went
Thought he had time felt rushed
Trying to stay modern so inconsistent
Social media lies over the click bait
Sick of all the stolen content
Use to manipulate others for likes
Attention seeking not giving in
Over hyped of talk that's pointless
It ends up leading to disappointment
All that talk no one backs it up
Caught up in lies acting legit
Losing respect and interest
More into honor and integrity
Tired of feeling lied to and cheated

Walk down stairs to hear the morning gossip
Everyone talks about one another
Eventually eat my breakfast head back up stairs
Waking up physically to start the day
Mentally composing my thoughts
Want to be involved with family
Learned it's best to stay away
Do my own thing find my own way
Makes it easy to leave than stay
Things are great no one cares ignored
Once something goes wrong everyone notices
Keep that head up even when times are tough
Just wanted belong feel apart of something
Without giving up part of myself
A huge price to pay to be accepted
Be a member of the group not be criticized
Not be used or taken forgranted

Stood in the wind avoiding the air

The fighters edge with fury
Trained to get good focused on condition
Others train to hurt be aggressive
No regards for others
A punch thrown with power missed
A punch with technique connects better
So much to learn work on
Bring it all together for the big event
Months of cradio so much hate for it
Cardio is a fighters best friend
Throwing punches taking punches
Kicking bags swelled shins tender muscles
Dieting to make weight so much discipline
Starving for success sacrifice for the price
Win by knock out or tko want more
The opponent stares in your eyes
Show no emotions hide your feelings
They are a road block in the path to greatness
Need to move them not let them hold you back
Never leave the decision in the judges hands
Keep remembering what you've done
What it takes to get there not accepting failure
Comeback for more new plan each round
Keep your ground not going down
Not the time to miss this opportunity
They are rare being there is not enough
Conetender not a fake or pretender

Music opens my mind
Using my imagination to remember
Songs take me to a better time
When life seemed simple made sense
The song I first kissed a girl to in my heart
Music taps into that moment great memories
Music on the track a second home
While training found motivation
Driving home with music blaring
My first slow dance in a college dorm
Fun songs at a kick back drinking with friends
All these moments are golden
Atreasure within the heart

The love should grow be much more
Don't like to hold back be you and trust
When you love someone tell the truth
If you lie why waste time with a person
Stay loyal and true no reason to cheat
Communicate that's the key and important
Do your part, trust, respect, your partner
Go into the world earn your share
Build a dynasty together a better future
Share goals open up with one another
Go the distance think long term
If it's a one nighter don't expect much to happen
Got to be more than about ***
Mental and physical stimulation to connection

Writing at night the ideas flow
Hard to sleep it makes it easier
With music the world feels right
Lost in my thoughts not arguing
Trying not to fight lost in thoughts
Human not an emotionless machine
Being tough means blocking it out
Ignoring emotions like I have none
Over being influenced by the wrong people
Saying NO listening to my heart
Focused on doing what feels right
Things I love that give my soul peace

Lay in bed I see your face
Staring back at mine
Not sure what to say
Like this moment
Don't want it to end
The smile on your face
Makes me do the same
Those big eyes locked on mine
Too good to be true
Can't stop thinking of you
Are we destined to cross paths
Is this fate or am I too late

Deep down my soul grows
Feel my heart flow
Tap into Whats inside
Nothing to hide open to the truth
Laughed more full of smiles
Trying find what I'm looking for
Went many miles couldn't find it
The questions I seek solutions for
Still no answers in the wrong places

My worse critic in the mirror
Did my best, gave my all
Took pride in my work
Start over analyzing
Noticed something is not right
Missed one thing feel shame
Came up short, keep thinking about it
Hope no one notices
Feels like I did something wrong
Thinking too much overwhelmed
Praying for my moment to happen
Stuff I should be doing and extra

Home sick came back
Seen things that make me sick
Worked hard got ignore
While the lazy got praised
Love my family hate being hazed
Talking smack shocked
I have a comeback with reaction
Get the crowd on my side
Just because I mind my mouth
Not taking anyone's crap
Respectful to others who try to run me
Don't get mad beat you at your game
When I do it better flipping jokes
I'm mindful of others feelings
While they have no regard for anyone

They chose not to do the work
Mad someone is showing them up
Some want it more than others
Instead of talking backing it up
Do the work stop talking
Instead of making excuses
No one to blame but yourself
No short cuts or hand outs
Everything is earned worked for
The results matter in the end
More than how you feel
What you think no one cares
Till you're done finished with the task
Made it to the next level
Keep recreating building up

Mixed emotions some days
Thinking too much runs me down
Other days we coexsist with one another
My emotions are my strength weaken me
The heart means well the brain conflicts
Just do without thought or hesitation
Many trusts fall into love proves me wrong
She would complain about her BF
I'd hear her problems
She swore to be better
Her heartached but kept going back
She knew he was wrong for her
Her good friend loved talking to her
Even if it was her problems
The connection that brought them closer
She could never be single
It's hard to not love her charm
She always belonged to someone else
He cared for her deeply from a distance
She made bad choices but respected them
He always lovered her unconditionally
Saw through her bold front when she hurt

Writing helps me clear my chest
Sometimes I feel ways that don't make sense
Explore emotions and feelings to be human
Set the bar no one took a risk
Open to change others stay the same
Don't expect anything gave my all
Turns out they want everything given
Remained loyal got cheated and played
Didn't want me around anymore
Expected me to be faithful
Didn't want anyone to have me
Not waiting around time to move on
Gave you my time it was denied
Started to talk with someone new
All of a sudden you became territorial
From rejecting public display of affection
We use to be close dk you anymore
With someone new don't ruin this for me
You know I'd pick you wanted your love
you would never pick me I'm not an option
Should've made me a priority, I'm okay you left
Helped me grow when with you I felt weak
Found new strength to start over
Love again meet someone new
Be friends first get to know a person
*** is fun but it's complicated lust
Thoughts of you hard to over come
Learned to trust protect my heart
Not give it to anyone useless
There's a connection something long term
Unless it's real something more

When you make it there's no going back
Stepped up did big things no one cared
Believed in myself kept going forward
Told my ideas are crazy made sense to me
Stood my ground seen as a traitor
Spoke up made the bad guy had my voice
Going against the family left out alone
Because I wanted more refused to settle
A better life than before wanted change
Listened to my elders, never seen as an adult
Not giving up on myself to be accepted
Denying who I am to be liked
Tired of people telling me to change
While they remain the same doing worse
Responsible for my life most of all happiness

Don't want to leave my bed
Around people out of my head
Older now and know better
Not many friends my age
I'd hang with the younger crowd
Already drank enough they dk any better
Those party days are over not fun anymore
Staying sober no need to pretend
Same crowd in the dark DJ plays the same set
Same clothes from last week hopefully washed
Hoping no one notices the same old thing
Don't need a drink to speak my mind
While they are drunk deciding to be social
Finally acknowledge my presents
Not looking for attention or lust
The scene use to be fun but got old

Different people
Different worlds
With one common connection
Worked hard doing my own thing
Family complicates things
My heart will always grow for them
They might annoy me
The time together gives me life

He met her after a break up
The guy she was with ended it
She was a gem a golden smile
Those eyes bright would flow tears
It's the like the world went dark
The street light would only shine on her
She sat there annoyed frustrated
Most of all upset over the turn of events
He would work up the courage
Checked up on her see if she's okay
She sat on a park bench
Playing with her hair
Before he approached her
He took a deep breath and went for it
He said, ,"hi are you okay?'
She said "no"
He would ask if she wanted coffee
She said are you asking me out?
He would respond with,
I asked if you wanted coffee?
He would sit beside her on the bench
She smirked at him
He replied it's no smile an effort made

Thinking of change
Could feel it within
Not meant to live that life
Focused on being better
Determined to do more
Feel the soul not the mouth
The heart crave adventure
Over the same routine
Tired of hiding the calls
Need to make time
Fueled for a journey
Times running out
Back into the world
Can't wait around anymore

Talking with an old friend
Give life to an old connection
After years of being separated
Different lives from one another
Remember the good times
Let go of the bad for the better
Hard to fall in love without trust
No one can be loyal to only one
True with respect for another
Lost values need to be found
Gave a heart to be denied
Rejection means move onto better
Not worth staying to fight for a place
Especially when you do not belong

Onto of the mountain
Looking down on the scenery
The nature so beautiful hard to believe
The taste of fresh green outdoors
The moist dirt aroma in the air
Freshness cleanesing everywhere
Natural vibes come to life
Birds chants echo in the distance
The ruffle of leafs in the wind
Rippled on the water reflection
Call of the wild sounds synch
The perfect place to observe to think

Not use to being alone
Always had a close friend
With common interest
Being alone is more common
Alone with thoughts of change
An honest mouth says less with age
Wandering eyes that focus on truth
A loving heart broken due to lust
Broken trust cannot repair shattered love

They told you NO
It made you work hard
Give your all get to the next level
Being yourself is easy going strong
Others pretend to be someone else
They'll gang up on you flipping it
Running solo not afraid left alone
Seen the trash talkers alone
Not making eye contact in the wrong
They aren't saying anything now
No one cracks jokes going for insults
Now they are mad it got switched up
Online putting on a show
In front of the camera turns on the act

Being made fun of gets old
You laugh it off take it
After a while
They call it crazy
That's just normal
Taking the insults
Hidden in humor
Not a joke this is life
Like to laugh smile
Not at others pain
Be an example
Not make example of others

Hit rock bottom
The car blew a head gasket
Got beat up at work
A lazy co-worker vengeance
Brought down others
Bullied many not taking it anymore
Fired for standing tall
Took a beating not the first
Life is a marathon trying to last
No one expects to fight at work
Alone with a swelled face
Looking in the mirror deformed
Hid the shame from the world
The pain fades away with time
Depressed not settling for less

The dream became a nightmare
That look in her eyes full of revenge
Her hatred for me the stuff she did
Blamed myself feel responsible
Never an us about you
Tried to be fair craziness everywhere
Learned to listen, stopped talking
Mouth said things, no going back

Spoke the truth, agenda meant well
Opened up how I feel
Not about being right
Just wanted you to know
Hope you don't see things differently
Or think less of the the situation
Given the upper hand
Not looking for a power struggle
Feel empowered not weak
Been years since we hung together
See us having a drink while socializing
Talking about life the outcome
Turn of events how far we've come

Single because been with the wrong
Not looking trying to enjoy life
Grow as a person a late bloomer
Probably got cheated on didn't notice
Focused on friendships over relationship
Told the truth mouth caused trouble
Couldnt be a good bf too much criticism
Heart was not emotionally invested
Lost track of use to thinking for one
Seen as selfish everything new
Thinking for two use to being solo
Tried hard never good enough
Hung in there things got tough
Soon is was over tried being friends
Things never changed went away
Distance gave growing space
Soon the emotions would fade
Found someone new replaced the old
To get over the past put it to an end

Heart on a sleeve
Bleeding out with emotions not issues
The emo is the hurt on the shirt
Deep emotions that make sense
Write it down no need for tissues
She kissed me once on the cheek
My mind wants to know more
Not one to make a move
Fear of her thinking less
Worse not feeling the same way
To the point of no return

Lost in the moment
Right before the eyes
Makes the soul come alive
All night wide awake
Over thinking the day
Set in a loop on replay
Already going strong
Not finished so much more
Rise above overcome
A place reminded of a familar face

Prayed for this moment
Wished it would come true
The moment has come
Hard to breathe
Full of excitement
Taste of adrenaline
Emotions within at ease
Walked up dressed to impress
The night was young
Wild thoughts playing in mind

Eyes locked emotionally charged
Nothing into something more
Friend to strangers dangerous vibes
Mysterious full of true love to give
The other lusting not taking it serious
Deep slumber on his arm
Till it went numb tingling sensation
Emotions are deep feels so real
Happiness making it hard to sleep
All that would change
Next chapter turn the page
Already know the outcome
Things changed never the same

Woke up lost
Asking for purpose
A mind that likes to wander
Needed a path to walk away
Some type of guidance to arrive
Praying for direction to be found
A calling full of purpose
Meaning to a heart full of soul
Going forward not sure where
Anywhere that makes sense
Feels right noticable to the eyes
A place of comfort close to home

A conflict of interest
Both have different agendas
Never going to see eye to eye
Not accepting one another's differences
Best thing to do is depart
Do your thing and I'll do mine
You talk loud doesn't make you right
Your words don't hurt
So you influence the crowds perspective
A tyrant when others don't follow
Not one to **** up or brown nose
Mouth keeps disrespecting others
Now left alone still attacking others
Making everyone out to be the problem
No one asked for your opinion
When people ask you say nothing
Expect everything from everyone
Give nothing and demand heavily
Everyone turns their back fades away
From United to divided the world you created
Stop trying to dictate others life's and live yours

After a health scare
A life lesson is learned
The heart wants to fight
The mind says slow down
Sitting in the doctors office
So many expensive tests
Scared to know the results
Overworked rested is needed
Not sure if being the best
Will continue strong
Know the limitations of the body
Not one to hold back
Rise and grind ready for more
Time changes everything

Worked harder than most
Still overlooked
The frustration bubbles within
More effort than the full timers
Still determined to make it
Now anti-establishment walked away
Use to be a YES man learned to say NO
Money doesn't by happiness
Doing what you love is rewarding
Making time is hard
Trying to be responsible

Thoughts are flowing
Anxious about love
No escaping the struggle
Pursuing the passion
Loyal to the truth what's real
Not bothering with the fake
Make it to the next level
Learn from the past
Focused on the future
Living in the moment
Focused be present

In a room full of people
Still alone with deep thoughts
The white noise cancels out sound
Body feels the tenderness
A blank stare emotionless
Numb to the world clutter
The antihero of the story
Played by the rules
Broke them as well
Did the right thing
Helped bad people in need
Later they would blame him
Betray his trust knife his back
He spoke great of others
While they make him out to be evil