With pictures on the wall reminding you of good times. Pondering and wondering what happened to the good time? You are older and wiser before you told yourself you'd never get old it's a state of mind. New friends old friends everything changes even if you want it or not.
Those photos tell stories moments you wish one can recreate live all over again and some you just glad they happened moved on to the next. Treasured moments by the heart some cycle stuck on a loop in the mind, the memories fresh like the day it happened. Sometimes the hardest part is taking down those photos you stare at them and it takes you back. Question the outcome sadly you can't change those events. Some forgive you and move on others hold a grudge and cut you out of their life. While some create families and start a life with their one true love. Some it happens right away others live and will eventually settle down. Photos show how far you gone from young to old, from thin to thick. A time when you were single the beginning of love some are during a tough time but you smile through it all.

Pictures on the wall
Moments trapped in time
Memories wishing that could be relived
Youth better times from the current reality
Time that won't be left behind in the mind
Events on the day pictures remind
Some with departed friends
Others with formal lovers
Better times different living
Places that won't be forgotten
Photos of the past think about how fast time passes

My 1st piercing was my ears
I pierced one brow but it fell out
Then I got my other brow pierced
I thought it would be cool
The cartilage on my ears
I holes in my face
The needles pierce my skin
Another added character to my ****** features
It's a rush it separated me from the bunch
Not trying to be normal
Dace so unique makes you think
Wonder who and what I'm about
I doubt you know
Only ppl I trust I show
Let the in my heart
Find out what I'm truly about

Never considerate about my thoughts how I feel
Now you're reconsidering my hard work efforts
Overlooked now being looked for opportunity
Been ready sitting on the back burner
Learned to be sure of myself better than not know
Showing more emotions instead of waiting about to go off
Not listening to teens not listening to Thor who have a vote of no confidence
All the haters hate them self trying to make me feel the same way
I don't do that anymore stop trying to bring me down with you
Fighting in this struggle too my hypocrites talking please shut up stop talking
Sometimes you can't make it move aside be inspired by the ppl moving up
Stop hating trying to keep them back
Mad because they found someone should've treated them right or they wouldn't be with someone else

I don't want to mess this up doing wrong won't make it right
Feelings so strong to focus is hard not trying to fight
Over the double standards I'm enslaved at the heart
While you roam free work through frustration that's crushing me down
Giving it to god not losing faith or being consumed by hate
Your past shouldn't control your future break the vice grip
Start over new something worth while not wasting time
Once its out  everything will be fine

Happy for change even though things are beyond my control
Over the heartache feeling like me again
True friends stay while fakes bs comes to an end
Im learning to mind my mouth since my crazy thinking is too much for others.
Everyone set in their ways respect my choices
My mouth gets me in trouble so I cant voice my opinion.

The day you find love
You share because it means the world
The day love ends
You place your heart in your pocket
Keep it safe never let it get hurt
Protect what is damaged
The pocket full of change
Money that can't buy love
The place that keeps your things safe
You keep it in the place you remember
One day you release love from the pocket
Hopefully the one true love wil embrace
The love you have to offer
Most of all willing to give

Writing makes my heart race
Clears my mind so I won't overthink
I'd rather do that than drink
Not crying over the ex focused on what's next
Working hard to reach my goals
Stay consistent in the gym be better physically
Speak the truth for change over all the lies
Work to move up that's hard when they are cutting higher opportunity.
Living straight edge lifestyle too many consumed by burdens living with guilt
I'm not perfect but I'd rather do it right over learning from mistakes
Healing scars from those life lessons
Do it already stop thinking and obsessing

Feed off the good
Poisoned by the bad
Push the mind to see it be it
It flows through the blood
The taste bittersweet
Keeps you on those feet
Pleasure of making wrong into right
Darkness fades with the light
Mind of your own
Time has passed we all have grown

Writing is all I have I fear being like my mom and dad
My frustration come with hurt and getting close
The hurt in my voice denying my feelings
Being strong messed up no more wrong
Life is not hard only when others are complicated
Sick to my stomahe body aches full of pain
Dk what to do headache and stress hard to focus
I worry because I care I feel things should be set right instead of unfar
Unaware of how I feel put you 1st even when you're  down
You mess up my day but that's okay we grown strong together

Be honest no need to lie
Don't care doesn't mean there's no understanding
No out put demands results
Taken risks filled with failure
Use what's given
Play the cards dealt
No real emotions felt
Wonder what its like
Walk in those shoes
Not your path to be walking
Feel for others lack of sympathy
Try to relate not your fate
Dont let others inspire hate

You want to leave but no where to go
All your friends have grown
Some married no time for the single life
Others have kids with more responsibility
Reaching out to old faces that are now older
Unted at youth divided with time
Remember those days and wild moments
Before life took off everyone focused on their situation
Some have more others barely getting by
The struggle some love more than one
While others are learning to love and alone
Use to go out now not bothering anymore
Life changed sober but not over just begun

Things are better doesn't mean I'm right
Changed my ways others won't let me forget those bad
Focused on today not looking back at tbe past
I respect others decisions don't judge me for mine
Quit drinking not giving life to demons and guilt
Can't wait for it I need to go out there take control
All my time effort everything I worked hard for
I know it sounds greedy but I want more
Bad knee but working through the pain
Get back on the mat a formal place I called home
Set out to be the best not pursing less

Burnt out making a point
Draw a blank
Not sure what to make
Of the situations
Not my issues but should have a say
Wonder if the opinion is valid
Strong enough to be heard
Take a point make it to that level
Or left out not important enough for the conclusion
I'll talk anyway inspire perspective
Fresh new angles that click
Makes sense or makes things work
Others can't handle diversity

That moment you know it's wrong and try to make it right
The fight that can make or break your world
The struggle within deep the fear of hurt equals pain
Took its toll no going back not holding on
Focused on the future start a new chapter once it ends
Never the same even if you have it your all
Somethings come and go without reason
Life can change come and go like the seasons
Dream big empty emotions turn nothing into something more

A night at the bar
I don't drink
So I found my way to the pool room
Keep my hands busy shooting pool
Frame then break the *****
Hit one in to decide
Stripes or solid
Angle the shot
Apply the right amount of pressure
Hit in the solids work to isolate the 8 ball
Once you hit it in you win
Play for fun not about the hustle
Play a few rounds win or lose
keep the game fun
Playing a drunk
Excuses why they stunk
Pool ques and blue chalk
Leave your mark on the loser

Everyday is a new day can't complain sooner or later I'll get it right
Been working for mine telling myself everything will be fine
Some days are out of wack but see it as a comeback
Other times it's about maintaining keep going strong
Others point out your flaws when you gave your all but did nothing wrong
Been doing what I love for years so I've been happy
Annoyed others can be rude treat one another so ******
Full of trust most mistake love for lust a failed crush gone sour
From feeling great over dealing with all the hate
From dark to light overcome the fear of night
Hard to express but never settle for less
Focused on the future not looking back at the past
Fought for them to stay but the fled
Now you let go why are they coming back
After betrayal not sure how to act but things will never be the same
Lots of growth overcome the pain writing keeps me sane

He spent the weekend watching prowrestling since he had no friends and not close with his siblings. He enjoyed the art form, the story telling, he got lost in entertainment. He wondered if he could make it in that world, he was in his late 30s trying to find his place in life.
He did train MMA but didn't have time because he had to earn a living. He did love to write it helped him sleep and come to terms at night. So many what ifs and if he could on his mind.  He trained but an injury kept him back a bad knee and tweaked back; did cause him limits as he got older, he learned to listen to his body. He wonder if he had it since he dug down deep to see if he had that potential.
He had been beaten in a street fight with a broken spirit and deflated ego. He had a hard time bouncing back building up his confidence and courage. He had been down so many people judged overlooked him. He was determined to prove them wrong.

A friend would come for him asking for advice. His co-worker was engaged about to call it off. His co-worker asked him; "how do I get my ring back from my ex?" We broke up and I do not want her to have the ring I gave her. His co-worker in such a tough situation. Hard to help when you know nothing about relationships especially engagement. So he gave it a shot doing his best to help come up with a solution so the ring could be returned. He would tell him to tell his ex fiancee that smeagle would like the ring back because she was unworthy of the ring. His co-worker would look at him like he was no help but it was a start to getting the ring

Time is flying doing great
Feels like I should be doin more
Asking what more do I need to do
So I can be there its my life always concern
Striving and surviving hoping to arrive in that place
They call it a dream or insanity but I call it destiny
Wake up get it done something much more
Never too late alway thought id be great
Tell the story clear the mnd
No more anger leading around the blind
I've been clearing out all the bad
Only involved with the good
If your doi.g bad keep me out stay away

My wild side shows through my writing
I think of all the possibilities and hope for a great out come
Something's you never expect happens
You think you know a person next moment you barely know them
Never emotionally invest in someone unless the person meets you half way
Tired of putting my life on hold and waiting
Once I'm back on track ill attend to all those loose ends and secure myself
Protect and move forward for the better
More to achieve new worlds to see and be apart of and experience do it right this time around no room for mistakes

Things are better most of the time whatever
Free from the past no looking back not where I'm at no going back
From young and dumb to older wiser forgave myself no one but me could do that for myself.
Counting my blessings breaking free from misery goodbye to negativity being me who I'm meant to be
Love so many but alone best way to go
Cut me out but I'll be fine doing my thing your opinion don't mean anything if you ain't helping me. I'd be close but you me away now stay better off anyway. Glory hounds taking all the credit don't need to be praised just need to be done.
Not hurting anyone or trying get hurt live in peace not fall back into bad habits. Cleaned up my act not the same sad how bad memories remain

Sometimes being in the zone you miss out what's going on around you. usually in work mode today when in thinking this is the same I can be doing more and be else where enjoying life.
Such a small world my coworker knows a few people from the high school I attended. Mentioning people from the past and what was. Times have changed don't recall names and barely remember faces people age and don't look the same. Not the same person I remember. How life can change a person.
How can they call you selfish when you always give saying no one time plus they forget all the other times you went out of your way to help them. How you treat people reflects you but no one sees how those people reflect on him. Doing more stuff that makes you laugh and smile matters. It gives you more satisfaction and gratification saying you did it and I did if myself for myself for once. One of the best feeling ever trying to fit in doesn't sound right it's better to stand out be your own being not follow the blind especially since you know better; choose to be righteous and do good things. They can do wrong cheat it will comeback to them in the end so don't worry about those who mistreat you or take you for granted.

Like my style it's freedom
Don't things right this time around
Given a chance to move up
No more staying down being consumed by the ground
Training finding my way back to what I love and work my *** off to be fit
Get in the gym cut up quick
Write and type my ideas
My ideals change hoping to make it be a better everything
Something to work towards achieve my goals
Find happiness find the thing that means everything lost get it all back

Another sleepless night up late
Reading so my eyes could get tired
But my mind began to wander so I started writing
The air from the fan circling the cold
Deep in thought fed up would complain
But no one is listening ***** not being heard
The quiet while the rest of the world slumbers
Alone in solitude thinking how to change
While the rest of the world remains the same
Over being judged and fighting for a spot
Being replaced by someone to fill the void but they don't have my heart or care like I do
Been broken and disappointed all I want to do is feel and heal
Hard to focus gave my all it wasn't enough tired of thinking I did something wrong.
Hard to breathe feels like I'm fading away when all I want is to exist and belong

Keep your head up don't let up
Things will change get better
Change my life in the form of word
They fly away with the bird
The great escape keep working don't fight fate
One day love your soul mate
find love that would be great
Lost in those eye lost in the truth
no more living in denial
Sleep good at night
Things feel right only getting better
Work for a living giving back
You have no right telling others how to act
Make a joke get a laugh not random remark

In the dark to set the mood
Silence is soothing find peace within
Too many cycling thoughts the mind goes clear
The pain fades the body begins to rest
Closed eyelids taking deep breaths
savoring the moment cleansing within
Time alone so one can grow
Stress melts away it begins to show
Behind the scenes enjoys being alone
Not just another face blending with the crowd
Spoke soft be the impact of truth so loud
Stares in a day's not buying into the hyped of phase
Thought different from the rest not part of the craze
Not one to ***** frustration tolerance levels runs out

Its another holiday doesnt feel like much
Got invited to go out but dont like to be around ppl who drink
Its awkward being the sober one in a social circle where eveyone is intoxicated
They feel bad for not drinking I dont like to feel obligated to others
I dont expect much of others but they demand the world of me
I like to be alone i gather my thoughts not sure how to process others twisted thoughts and point of views. Over those who claim to be one way but act another.
I try to have confidence in others but they let me down over being setback and disappointed. I have to be responsible for me not others. If I ever become a parent that kid will be my world
School for my degree work to pay my way through jujitsu so I cant prep my mind and body to be tough. I hope to one day find someone who loves me for me until tjen im focused on being bettter its in the works

I think of call but know its better to stay away
Focused on work and ways to get my bills paid
Meet new hard to replace you with someone new
Only if you knew what I went through to overcome you when I didn't want to do so
Now I'm keeping busy working so much sometimes I get dizzy
Lots of new but your no where to be found
Always will to share with others doing things because I can not because I have to
Hoping to move up find opportunity to take me somewhere better
I'm clearing my mind doing what needs to be done
I don't drink so I seen as no fun
Sleep deprived still on the go others will never know

They asked why don't you post so much anymore. It ***** to have critics who knock you for your efforts. My mistake was listening and letting them have their way. I always write but do it in private getting lost in my own little world my thoughts.
Being called weird for being different didn't stop me or get till me but attacking what I love was the worse thing a person can do.
It is my escape my outlet because I'm usually the ear that listens to others helping with their troubles. I give advice but not always heard. I'm loyal and true if you are a good person. If you are doing shady stuff I want no part of that and distant myself. It ***** having stuff to say and how one to share it with. You can do it on the internet but who isn't doing it. Writing had been a major part of life dk what life would be without it.

All I have is writing and pro wrestling I've watched since I was a child. I watch it till this day. Others deny it but I stand tall. I never tried to do it because I'm too short and don't like to fall on the ground. I've always wanted to be the champ win the title represent the company.
On my mind is being the best achieving greatness. I see myself as the face but others will oppose me making me the heel they love to hate and boo.
I don't want to win the title and carry it around I'd be a defending champ.
I love the sport and would like to grow within or make it better make others comeback and want more out of the product. Too many times others burn out fur to short attention spans.

It's around prom time so I thought I'd share my prom night experience. Getting a date failed I had for possiblities who ever said yes would've been my date. I went stag hung out with my best friend and his date
On the way to the prom we got lost so we missed majority of it. The prom was at some mansion after prom we stayed at a hotel. I drank a few and passed out. Now the story has a twist the date my friend had didnt workout but ended up having another night with his dates friend.
She had to drop off her date do that's how these two ended up hooking up.
I hung with this girl who didn't have a date she out drank me and passed out. The next morning was awkward my best friend and the new hook up were busy so I had to wait to go home.
I went home all of shame hung o er and no action but I was in HS I didn't expect much

Domes weak over powers strong
But strength puts weak to shame
Write on this page part if a community
Write on other pages it feels like a confess
I never gave up on love it's just not true
Haven't found the right one young love
Protect the heart show them you care
even if they arent listening
I'm alway believing in good when times are bad
I don't get hurt when I feel sad
I've coped over these emotions
I don't want to feel or be that way anymore
I've hurt the one I love but I caused it
She hurt me but I made it worse
Too many opposer want me to fail
Time and time again I've proved them wrong

I love prowrestling I know it's fake but it takes me away from reality sometimes things don't go right. It lets me forget everything. So much action and corny story lines if they are good you follow them if they **** you at least get a decent match out of it. Pro wrestling has characters and gimmicks, the mainstream has lots of marketing promotions. Then there's the indies a smaller promotion that's sometimes better. You have wrestlers you've never seen or heard of but don't let their size full you they can do amazing stuff too. Then there are masked wrestler aka luchadores usually Mexican wrestlers and they are high flyers taking risks like diving of the top rope or through the ropes.
I'd like to write for them it would be awesome to have a build up a back story for the matches to more interesting.

So much good energy overwhelming
I love the world I've seen
The window view
I grew to know
The things experience
They have no idea
Like a rocker on the road
Don't have a place to call home
Thoughts coming from the dome
Protecting my thought
Happiness can't be bought
You are who you are
not what others thought
Peel through the layers find the truth

Woke up rested ready to do my thing
Excited this week is over
Like the idea of back to back days off
Thinking of movies to buy for my collection
Minding my business doing what makes me happy
Im glad to be outta the gunk
Not living in denial being with someone who deserve me
I want the best and to be one of the best
Taking care of myself not giving up on myself because some insecure girl didnt want
Its her losss not looking back
One day be with the right girl
someone who appreciates me
Be patient and stop looking
My mind is clear focused on writing
Getting into my workout
These may not be serious to others but everything to me
Im debating on a jog while i write
Plus I work in a few

Sad how people claim to hate you but keeping tabs. They tell you, you changed but that's part of life. Be the talked about not the one talking. So many hate you but some how they need a favor. When you're not doing favors they act like you've never done anything. Not trying to argue or fight. They never believed in you once you made it they cling into like if they made you great when all they did was hate riding your coat tail. All you want to do is succeed all they do is set you up to fail but deep down no quit or surrender. Keep doing what needs to be done because it's right. No need to pretend don't like me stay away dealing with your fakeness was of time and waste of the day. Please go away no need for you to stay. Better off with out don't need you or your doubt.

Loving a person is hard
Feeling weak and vulnerable
Especially when you dk them
Those looks shine with an ugly heart
A lovable personality goes farther
Thought you knew mind playing tricks
Turns out you're wrong but in love
Judgement is clouded wanted to be loved
You made them out to be someone they are not

Writing in the break room everyone decides to be social on this day. Trying to be social everyone is busy. The day could be so random surprising the out come. Liked his new location the people say hi and know his name. His other job feeling like an outsider looking in trying to relate.
Not always understood a worker someone giving his all. Even if they liked him or not. Plenty of years to work not waiting to retire.
Around bad leads leading by example working every cent nothing is given. Looking out for others being selfless learned to cope with the process what's going on taking situations. Do more than most not settling for less.

New plans and ideas to rise up. From the bottom to the top spoke up tired of being silent. Knowing having an opinion causes enemies instead of bringing gaps. Not taking the crap anymore took a stand even if it meant being alone.
Hard to sleep with "what if" on the mind? Asking "when?" And is it truly worth it. So many ideas the heart dk how to feel or what to think anymore this mind racing on the redline.

Been doing good, tired of feeling like I don't match up.
Been giving my all, sometimes I burn out no time for myself
Keep coming back for more
Struggling to survive
Struggling to get by without my thoughts consuming me
Trying to not let my emotions get the best of me
The problem is I care too much and will give my all and much more
Find away nothing can keep me down or turn me away
Might cut some slack but not turning my back
Hanging in my room trying to figure it out
Writing is the only way to get it out
Held back but not one to knock others
Pick them out help them be better

Keep trying to come out ahead
Barely ending up even so over the shame
So much internal pain, bad memories remain
Grew up poor trying to move up to the next level
Fixing my car feels like I can only get so far
Showed up to work doing extra, no one take pride in their work
They been there so long just collecting
Waiting to reitre, they BS so much, want to get away
Keep working hard make me out to be a ****
They don't care, mad my efforts make them look bad
Part timer working twice as hard to get hired
All the fulltimer take pride in being a part time worker
Everyone wants a job, no one wants to work
If stuff goes wrong probably be the first one fired
Bite my lip, smile; do what I'm told
All the talk scandalous lies are getting old
Years of looking up while all this is going down
Seen myself there but not going away
Anxious to try somewhere new, pay cuts and more struggle
Keep telling myself; I'll get through it, it's no deal
Some days those tears build up, refuse to shedd them
Asking for help no one is listening
Wondering when my time will come
Use to be fun don't want to do it anymore
So much on my mind I'd like to crack the code
So I can live life, be on the right path
Over being told NO another detour
Taking me no where, no where near, I'd like to be
Fell hard, failed, keep learning from the lesson

We maybe blood but we are not family
You steal from family and blame everyone
Own up for your wrong doing
Running your mouth, your actions don't match up
With someone you don't love, you ***** gold digger
You claim to hate me, why do you keep saying my name
I avoid you to keep the peace minding my mouth
Once I speak the truth, your mouth shuts
You are weak pretending to be tough
Made my point now you can take your knife from my back
I apologized not forgiven, treated you right
Treat me worse than the rest like I owe you something
You owe it to yourself get out their and earn it
Stop piggy backing, riding someone else's glory
I hate that we fight but you have bad social skills
I'm trying to understand, but you make it personal, attack with curse words
You cry play the victim,  when you keep provoking
You demand respect with your disrespectful mouth
Turns out your are chaos pretending to be innocent
So many empower your stubborn ways
Once someone challenges your way
You become passive with aggression, attack in a group
You can't do it alone, not saying much when you are alone
Being the outcast, found comfort in being alone
Not like you; no way, shape or form
Don't think we are a like I've done way more
I owned up to my mistakes and learned from failing
Your entitlement, disrespect will get you, no where.

Laying in the darkness the clock reading 5:00
Woke up not interested in getting out of bed
The body and mind not on the same page
Mentally ready for the day, rise and grind
Physically not ready, work demands hard labor
A moment to compose to take on the day
The body wants more time for rest
Someday are easy, others can be difficult
Sometimes showing up is not enough
Mentally tough others can make it rough
Sleepy days turn into restless nights
Naps to recharge do more bad than good

Woke up grabbed a pen, a notebook pad
Trying to come up with inspiration
Anxious to inspire others to be great
Able to relate not everyone is alone
These thoughts hard deep from with
Not sure it should be said
Others think the same hiding within the pain
Letting go, pushing it out, focus on getting out of this situation
Struggle is meant to be conquered
Don't hold onto the past like a trophy
The past is over stop collecting bad moments
Stop holding onto the past make new moments
Not everything, everyone shapes defines a being
All the negativity, can be better without
Not trying to trigger, make anyone mad
Life stuck in transition time for a new position
Scared of the unknown stuck on the past
Attached to what's familiar not fond of change
Change always occurs no say or control anymore

Took the leap jumped without hesitation
Free falling the hard wind against my face
The deep hole consumes the bodys pain
My soul clears out of heart, skips a beat
The adrenaline surfacing becomes immune
Fight to survive, facing death with no fear
The tension strong feed off the vibe
Forces spreading setting a tone
If one things feels wrong, all feels lost
In mid air, no one knows, care to understand
Free falling the trying to resist
Life flashing before your eyes
A fist made tight, easing up can mean it's over
The body reacts, this can be the end
Something within wakes up; revived not over yet

The roaring thunder in the distance
Flashing lightening in the sky rain clouds
Rain pouring hard sounds like the showers on
The smell of wet dirt soaked in rain drops
Rainy days set the mood live in the moment
Calls for a cup of hot chocolate with a good book
A cold night so fresh making it easy to rest
Grab a blanket stare out the window fall a sleep
Sweet dreams filled with peace overcome it all

In the car from the street to a dirt road
The street leveled and calm more common
while the man made roads uneven and narrow
Speeding up a steep hill not sure it the top is leveled
The fear seape through the pores
So many scary thoughts racing in my mind
Going to the top the car losing traction
Not sure what's on the other side over a cliff
The tires kicking up dirt while a dust cloud follows
My heart gets a rush from the adrenaline
Hand holds onto the hand rail for dear life
Another steep drop overcome the fear
Cousin drives while I sit shotgun testing his vehicle against mother nature
watching the road up ahead being extra eyes
All new and fun another experience to enjoy
I toxicated by the thrill seeking adventure
Overdosed being an adrenaline ******
Nice change in routine something exciting and different for a change

Always writing, the thoughts flow
Not use to the words being spoken
Never bass in the voice, flat and soft
One to talk, no reason to yell to be heard
The words come out low, important to project
Always listening to others advice
Asked for guidance got no response
Found away, it's wrong decide to speak up
No one asked all of a sudden something to say
Consideration return the favor trying to help
Stubborn mindset blocks out other perspective
Writing is expression only way to be heard
Find feelings emotions in every word
Flying free wild bird, escape this cage
See the world meant to be heard

Those toxic ways are not love
Laying next to a stranger
Not knowing who you are
What you've become is no longer fun
This lust will never amount to love
Forcing broken failed love
The respect gone amounts to nothing
Trust will never be whole only divided
Loathing one another's presents
Not able to be in the same room
No communication just arguments
Sick of the lies nothing was real
Easier to hate each passionately
Instead of making the wrong right
No terms or conditions more problem
Easier to stay away the only solution