The moments that changed his life
His brother murdered in cold blood
Watching one of his own place in the grave
Betrayed by his best friend that moved in on his girl
A friend he seen as a brother bad mouthing his character
The girl he loved lusting around
Seeing her with someone else
Ate his soul alive drained his good
Hurting trying to infect others with that misery
He let it die with him starting over learning to love again
Years of feeling nothing trying to get right with God
Walked away from a meaningless life
Pursuing a meaningful life with purpose

Too strong showing no emotions
Those feelings going numb
So much betrayal from the deceitful
He couldn't look at them anymore
Never the same there's no going back
On a lonely journey chasing a dream
Healing from trembling aches within
They made him out to be a nobody
Tarnished his rep without redemption
He didn't defend himself or he was guilty
Walked away from lies because he knew the truth and what he wanted
Tired of being buried alive just trying to live be an individual without others trying to bring him down. Like if it's their call or like their say matters

They believed in him he didn't always believe in himself. He looked in the mirror an older man with white hair. Asking what's his purpose trying to find meaning in his life. Things came and went with the season. Something's he fought for things he thought was worth it. while he let go of the damaged beyond repair trying to understand learn from the crazy by being better

Letting it go feeling it flow away
The pain fades over the years
Numbness gains feeling
Pouring it out on the sand
Taken away by the tide
Washed away feeling natural
The ocean wind cleansing the soul
Wet sand in toes free feet breathing
Recharged away from work
Break through the routine

He wanted to be someone else since everyone else had a problem with him. All he wanted was to be himself be left alone helping others feeling excluded because he didn't want what everyone had or wanted. Making him feel like he was a threat to anyone he came in contact with.
Asking "what's wrong with me" "why is he like this" but he didn't say, or do anything wrong. They came at him sour and twisted. He didn't need or have much but thankful for what he had. While they had everything still complaining, making others feel bad by pointing out their flaws. It didn't make sense he couldn't wrap his mind around things.

He admired her beauty but wasn't sure if this friendship could be more. If he made his move it might make things awkward and end a good thing. He was known for letting his feelings get the best of him. He got emotional felt foolish and weak thinking he was an equal but no where on the level.
He was a private person seen as a bad guy because he didn't take crap from no one. He spoke up it felt like the world was against him. If he bit his tongue it would feel like the world would walk all over him.
His love was heavy and deep but his hurt was stronger empowering him to keep pursuing greatness move forward.

He worked harder than everyone
All they did was cause heat with hate
Throw shade causing a dilemma
All he wanted was to master his craft
Stay out of all the scandalous politics
Made up rules full of corruption
Contradicting double standards
Focused on the work with pride
Not saying anything words get twisted
Clear mind head on his shoulders
Getting older no time for games
Not causing others pain staying strong
Walking away from toxic peeps
Washing away the past breaking free
A cleansed heart from tough love

Don't use people or take advantage of them.
I appreciate others respect their differences.
Willing to listen to problems and provide a solution.
I can't always vent but pour my heart into my notebook.
The only way I can feel get in touch with myself.
Helps me cope figure it out do what's best.
I've learned to move forward not stay **** in transition. Sometimes it's beyond my control so work with what I got and make the most of things.
Not afraid to grow and learn keep putting forth an effort. Might come up short but determined for more pursuing greatness

Watching them grow avoiding the drama always on the go. Always a private person no one needs to know or tell my business. Don't like being responsible for others since they are quick to blame than own up.
He walked away as they act like they pushed him out. Made him out to be the bad guy to justify their cruelty. Making it one sided it's always about him never what they did.
He let them run their mouth it would eventually end up in their mouth. He left and not looking back let go of those feeling he use to hoarder away.

Bearing the heart and soul
Hoping to grow into much more
Baring the heart to be human
Denying emotions is the worse
Being different such a curse
Not meant to fit in striving forward
Found peace in silence solitude
Use to feel stuck slowly moving
Learned from all the betrayal
Working harder to get better
Fell out trying to bounce back
It was over long ago they left me
It was over once I couldn't be me
Busted open heart flowing
Everyday healing and growing

Seeing old peeps and new peers
An old life adjusting to the new life
Asking and wondering all possibilities
What if it could happen right for once
Why hasn't it gone down way past due
A good time left with past memories
Years of hiding in the back for peace
Brought to the front on the rise
Opened eyes to see opportunity
Taking risks new chances
Full of change turn the page

Trying to be normal made out to be a monster
Lost in the crowd found in his writing
Brothers act like strangers not talking
A sister holding a grudge never forgiven
Being right in an ugly world
Children being neglected
Uneducated opinions being spoken

Finding inspiration to write
Thankful for ideas those moments
Getting inspired to put out work
Deep from within not holding back
Pursuing a dream setting new goals
New standards honoring the original
Turn the negative into positive vibes
Learning open to grow into more
Lost in the process feeling productive
Made changes without toxic influence
Trying to be better improve over time
Over being misunderstood treated bad

Stop enabling feeding their bad habits
It's hard to quit addiction with others
Avoiding people who drink
Can't be around it anymore
Not into drugs seen peers consumed
Some can't live without it
Unable to function without the fix
Bad habits uniting a friendship
Without toxic traits where's the bond
Could they coexist get along sober

Never one to fit in or belong
Kept out for not knowing Spanish
Held to another standard
While everything is in chaos
Said sorry it's never enough
Changed behavior over the years
Haunted by the past not there
Not the same person as before
Forgiving easier than forgetting
Life lessons over regretting

Finding passion in the ink
Emotions in the pages
Thoughts flowing coping with peace
Not carrying others burdens
Staying out use to being kept out
Not worth the fight would rather be writing
Too many imposing instead of informing
Educate instead of discrimination
Trying to understand not give into demands
Seeing others as an equal being respectful
Not empowering wild ideals
Keeping up original morals

A nobody working behind the scenes
Working with a somebody
Remembering the glory days
Working harder Than before
They dk him or what he can do
Rose above the lies cutting ties
Proving them wrong not boxed in
Lots of self-improvement with growth
Not part of the rumors drifting away
From close to complete strangers
Fought for them stood by their side
Now against you attacking strong
Taking the blame in the name of love
Opened to change new mindset
Everyone remained the same negative

We have the same blood not the same
Seeing opportunities rising up
Blaming others and manipulation
Taking charge of others so much deceit
Forming an evil pack with a common rival
Judging everyone instead of talking it out
Holding a grudge acting like you're right clearly in the wrong
Staying strong an ego to feed
No one is saying your name
Talking about important manners

So much on the mind staying pro
Focused on the work double time
Don't care for titles or politics
Work hard or harder take some pride
Please stop talking step it up
Sizing everyone up wasting time
Ain't no one bothering with you
Bad attitude no right to be rude
Pretending to care being petty
Everyone sees through the act
Talking down on everyone
Now your surprised others spoke up
Provoking others the tabs adding up
Thinking there's no consequence
Now playing victim heres the receipt
Sneaking up others are doing the work
Not doing any work the never to criticize

In silence reading a good trying to educate himself. Thought others would teach him but had to do it himself. Taking in the info trying to process apply things to life. Lots of repetition wanting it more because they told him he couldn't do it.
Said it couldn't be done but he's been doing it without excuses. The things he loved brought him hurt so he tried to find what he loved doing things for the wrong reason trying to make them right.

The argument looping in the mind
How things should be said
Doesn't come out accordingly
Outside x factors changing things up
Asking is it worth it does it matter
Judges minds are made up not a debate
Proving yourself doesn't matter
Impossible to redeem ones self
Proving them wrong things aren't right
From close to stranger more heat
Fake attitudes the danger cut so deep
Dk how to act won't let one another be
One with the grudge sorry is not enough
Other trying to change dying with bad habits
The frustration taking it's toll breaking out of this death grip

He loved his family but didn't like them trying to tell him how to live his life. Especially they didn't have their stuff together.
He didn't have kids so he could go out with no curfew. Being single could be lonely but he had the freedom to date and see anyone he wanted.
Anything he did seemed to bug them. He had a type who knew skin tone would be a factor but old family traditions they wouldn't approval.
All he did was work he wanted a life outside of that before he'd work hard and they'd make him feel like it was a waste of time
Now he's working hard and actually getting props and the credit he deserves. He was cutting people he didn't agree but still respected them. While those opposers made everything personal because they can't debate so they slander his character.
He missed them but didn't belong he thought he made a mistake but things are better and feeling right. It's better than expecting the worse.
He was honest with people while they through lies in his path. Becoming detours because they needed to be the center of attention. He walked away and minded his mouth one of the best moves

Being the voice of reason
Everything changing a new season
Thankful for the old times
Blessed with the new crew
Finally got props from the team
Usually working hard feeling pointless
Mentoring others that want to learn
Trying to help constructive criticism
Being pushed by corrupt leadership
Years of being used finally rising up
Learning everything possible
Can't wait around on anyone
From behind the scenes to a lead
Taking charge since no one wants it

He woke up early it was dark out. Drove out to the lake picked a spot. Put bait on his hook and cast out his line into the water. He waited for a fish to bite. He put on music through his ear buds and waiting for a tug so that he could reel it in. Taking in the scene staying calm trying to relax.
Thinking about life how he could've done things differently. How he could improve thinking too much staying positive that a fish would snap and tug biting the bate.
Sitting in the darkness as the like came out lighting up the day. He watched his reel that was locked in place then a light tug would get stronger rattling the pole. He began to feel it in slow not fighting since it might snap his line. He resistance began to lighten up reeling it in he could see the fish circling reeling it in closer pulling it out of the water grabbing it by the mouth. Glad to make the catch taking the light and hook out of the fish mouth then quick to release it back into the water.
A catch made such a rewarding positive day. The mind rejuvenated and emotional satisfaction after a day on the lake.

Working hard years of going unnoticed. Others taking his credit using him as a work horse. Being ignored set aside by gossipers who do thing but talking like they do everything. Not caring to argue or debate anymore.
Things are changing they are giving him his props. It was unexpected but a rewarding feeling. Glad change was occurring in everyone's favor. Instead of feeding into useless egos. The team was united on the same page instead of divided.

Closed his eyes seeing it in his head
Growing thankful for the mentors
Some believe in your skills work ethic
One on your side feeling secure
Others deny your efforts against you
Ignoring the drama working harder
Chasing a dream means everything
Setting goals making them count
Tell your story set the standards high
Breaking through being denied
Trying to survive being kept out

Didn't want it anymore burnt out
Found inspiration within the struggle
Young and dumb to knowing better
It all matters hard to pick and choose
Family love is tough growing strong
Meant to be something more
Forgiving yourself not living in regret
Older and wiser staying humble
Taking the lead role no one wants
Use to take the heat rising above it all
Taking on challenges never back down
Respect the process grow into greatness

When you don't care for the hype
Then a cross over occurs the blurred lines
Making what you love toxic internal struggle
It was already a love hate relationship
Trying to understand but this kept changing
Making it more complicated no longer making sense
Thinking it might get better but keeps getting worse
Being set up to fail trying to grasp success
Trying to heal in a place that cause the illness
The crowds never happy or it's never good enough
Burnt out and frustrated from all the criticism
Giving your all not getting anything in return
All those promises turn out to be lies
Agreeing but no intentions of honoring their word
Saying one thing but doing another
Staying humble while scumbags gloat
Doing the work while complainers Debate for a place than work for it

Can't stay stuck on the moment
Everything changed ready or not
Sometimes you don't want it to end
Other times it's over with no say
Rocky roads and failed friendships
Hurting one another giving one another space
Over time now strangers dk one each other
Everyone changes over a period of time
Things fade away over the years
Not doing that anymore or know that life
Not wearing a label from the past
Cleaned up the act not going back
Wanted to fix it make it work
Hard to do when it's one sided
Always the bad guy not playing the role anymore
Not giving up peace to please others
Stepping aside waiting on others
That don't share a dream or goal to achieve

He saved up to by a bike be free on the road. The wind in his face a warm breeze a helmet with his go pro recording the ride. Wearing his biker jacket in case he slides out his skin won't scrap on the gravel road.
Away from all the arguing and judgement. He loved his family but never felt like he belonged.
Treated different and excluded. Tired of everyone's tough love excluded held to another standard. After a while he walked away tired of setting himself up for failure feeling disappointed. he wanted them to be happy but he wasn't responsible for their life or providing it to them

She told him I could've had you
Too bad it never happened
When he wanted her she had a bf
He was always single living life
Feeling everything yanked around
He wanted to be complete
Searching for cope and peace
The time he was in a relationship
She kissed him on the cheek
He was confused about love
Never had her  love but wanted her
Didn't know how to feel he has someone
It was unfair he remained faithful to his current love
Even though his chance for forbidden love came back around
He tried to stay the same so much change
Everything was different never the same
Still single no children never been married
Some friends had children and married
While others got divorced the young love failed them

The mind playing tricks on him. All the love for her was gone denying a huge part of himself. He didn't need judges in his life. He was his worse critic dieing inside trying to survive the internal struggle. Memories fading flashbacks going dimming into the darkness.
Everything changed walking through the crazy things are better now. Kept his head up when all he wanted to do was keep it down all those burdens crushing the heart he wore on his sleeve.
He was called crazy for showing emotion. Got lost in his feelings trying to help others. Made out to be an *** for not speaking up or saying anything. Lost in his thoughts made out to be delusional.

He was tired of hiding his skills and talent because he didn't like anyone talking about him or being the center of attention. No matter what he did others were threatened by him still coming at him sour. Lots of twisted people trying to bring him down with them. They saw good in him but didn't want him doing better than them

He remembered living out of his bag on the road and on the go. Never had a place to call him. He left home at a young age hated being home and babysitting taking on others responsibility. He was told by his mother get a life so he set out into the world to be someone make something of his life
He came up short did all the things he hated. He cleaned up his act after hitting rock bottom picking up where he left off starting again. Praying he'd make it, do it right this time around.
Times have changed but so did he. Growing not stuck in those traumatic years. Rising up being told no made him want it more. Doing it while they said it couldn't be done. Meant to be somebody years of being treated like a nobody.

He hated running his pace was slow he felt like he could walk faster. With his cousin going around the block twice trying to maintain the same pace.
It wasn't a race he remembered the days when he would jog 5 miles everyday he was a teenager now an older man in his late 30s. Deep breaths trying to not let up and finish strong. Avoiding the sun because when he tanned he got dark right away.
He didn't care for the summer heat trying to stay hydrated in the garage training with his cousin doing pad work pushing one another to the limit bringing out the best in one another.
He was glad to be on this journey pursue next level ventures. Use to training seeing it as his big event. His cousin would be able do it. Very talented and young with lots of skills and heart that made a difference. They shared a dream but he let the politics of the sport bother him and hold back.

Feeling the vibe down with the best
At the Mike about to spit a line
Clear this mind of others insanity
Down for mine someone always mad
Straight up with the truth (freedom)
So many fueled by hatred (consumed)
Forgiving everyone seeing good in others
Regret walking egg shells
Bad egos acting bold miserable infecting others
Trying to take all your credit
Starting to regret it being nice
Holding back taking the heat
Biting this tongue not my life or problem

Everything you did got washed off
Added some character gave it flare
All of a sudden everyone is divided
Everything growing new ideas
Some want the same old thing not open to change
Character rose above the main
Reset everything saying it was a dream
Waking up saying it never happened
Using people for likes and subscribers
Once things look good cut off talent
Act like you're the genius master mind
Tried to cross promote only in it for yourself

Woke up sore from training and cardio he wanted to get back to doing it slowly work for it. He wasn't use to it or sure he'd get back to those crazy obsessed dazes.
Older now not stressing over body image all he wanted was for his clothes to not fit so tight or snug. He lacked a social life that would soon consume him distracting him from his training.
Dieting was key but hard since he was an emotional eater his job was demanding he was on the go making time. finding balance was the hard part.

In his room writing letting it all out not holding on making room for things that matter. Focused on writing a book making jokes not taking life too serious.
His quit on the people that taunted him and brought out the worse in him. They cursed his name and thought less of him since he wasn't a follower. He'd rather do his own thing than be told what to do by peers who don't value him or his efforts.

He put grew it having a brew taking in the scene. Out of place not sure where he belonged or fit in. He has a crush on the bartender but didn't make his move he wanted to be financially stable so he could match efforts. By the time he secured the job she ended up with someone else.
They talked she gave him relationship advice since he was single. He felt a connection but did miss his chance and moment. His love life was slim pickings as he got older. The dating pool is like a shallow puddle of mud.
Everyday he thought about it so many missed chances and opportunities. People had luggage personal issues and kids from a previous commitments that weighed them down.
He wanted to start a new with them but stuck on the old a head strong mind set that refused to change.

She told him why didn't you ever ask me out? He was puzzled and never knew that was an option. He didn't consider it since the guys she dated was nothing like him.
He didn't cross that boundary line. He didn't date close friends or within his circle of peers. He didn't date friends family members or exes of people he hung out with.
This would anger them and they would distance themselves. Mad holding a grudge if the friendship failed how could it be a relationship. He had a hard time opening up since his feelings would be used against him. Staying single because his emotions would get the best of him. Dating was fun at the beginning it was easier to get physical than get to know a person.

He was over it his words being twisted. It's not what he was saying tired of false narratives. Because he spoke up they thought they could slander his character. He had his opinion to them it was no big deal but trying to use it against him.
They insult him and expect him to be okay with that. He had an opinion now everything turns into a personal attack. He stopped acknowledging them because the disrespect was only getting worse. He was definitely over one sided arguments making him out to be the crazy one.
Not going to give up on himself or compromise his efforts just to make people happy. They'd never be happy for him so why bother.

Things bugged so he didn't do it anymore
Now he feels to old to do anything
Trying to relax more to life than work
Changing up the routine no one to hang
Always on a different schedule
Hard to make plans no communication
He did his own thing tired of waiting
Feeling depressed it didn't happen right away
It made sense others didn't get it
Everyone confused didn't understand
Not given a fair chance just there
Excluded looking in not meant to stay
Pushing through rise to the next level

He turned away not wanting to argue
Tired of fighting nothing changed
Put his down and focused on his work
Didn't want others to see him bad think less of him
He thought highly of those who knocked him
Going where he felt valued for himself
Instead of useless and unwelcomed
His opinion mattered actually heard
Not a place holder but belonging at the table

He saw her in his future clouded judgement
She had other plans went on without him
Everything he wanted with her
She did it with someone else
Sitting in the dark composing himself
Tomorrow will be a better day
Missing his family not taking on egos
Learned who not to be conflicted attitudes
Instead of being inspired to do better

He was late but made there eventually
Years of being told no wanting it
Being insulted told other wise
No one believed in him
Head down plowed through
Broken heart finally heals
Learning to love again over the hurt
Starting with ones self respect
Left to chase the dream in the works
Came back to nothing only wiser
Emotional damage gaining strength
Expecting things to change
He grew mentally and physically
Everything remained the same

Hell prolly get called weird for walking up to a girl. Introducing himself and asking if he could take her out possibly get her number. The rejection would prolly hurt but he'd rather know than keep thinking about it. All the possible factors and outcomes but once it's put into play everything will work itself all those unanswered questions would be answered.

Putting on his favorite playlist
Songs that inspired him to be better
Got him motivated on his walk
He was able to relate and connect
Years of being ignored and excluded
He forgave people but kept a distance
Everything was one sided unfair
All he did was give everyone was hard
Being different was easy to be alone
A struggle fitting in to be pushed out
Felt like shutting down exhausted
Against the grain so much pain
Some days full of energy going well
Other days feeling drained getting by
Time flies by where the day went
Some never ending wanting it to end

Hung with an old coworker pretending to be an adult figure quick to tell him what he's doing wrong. Pointing out his flaws bringing up topics from the past. He escaped there was no going back it was over that chapter of his life.
Bringing up the old lead a guy who didn't do anything but pawn his work out on others. Then take the credit like he did it pretending to be a somebody over a job title that made him useless.
He transferred moved onto a new location. He didn't care for drama so he was alone. Blessed thankful he was financially well off.
He tried to put himself first but wasn't conceited about it. He knew people didn't like him. He didn't say anything and still got hatred if he spoke his mind everyone was ******.
Trying to meet his social obligations a year after being exclude it got easy for him to be alone.