I said I love you
so it must be true
I accept you
but your alway changing me
You claim to love me
And want to share me
But I refuse to share you
Only of you knew how your moods
Ruin my day everything you say
I'd rather get away than stay mad
I'd fix and help anyway I can
I can't change you imperfections or flaws
I accept you no need to change
I wish you'd accept me
Let me be the one who you once loved
Not some emotionless being you feel
Is not worthy of you and your love

Sometime you love someone
but can't be anything more
A strong bond between friends
value your friendship
relationships complicate things
There's a mutual love even better
respect for each other strong together
Trust and believe in one another
The vibes are strong feelings unit

I don't always say everything but I write everything. I'm glad to have a voice I'd like to speak up more but it helps my creative juices for my writing. I think of how I feel and what I'm thinking at the moment.
I always question my thoughts and feeling sometimes I say stuff I don't agree with but I feel it needed to be said that's where my mouth gets me in trouble. I always feel I need to got out of my way to prove myself but I need to do it for me and it has to be meaningful.
I got told I should get a girlfriend it's not going to set me straight or change things. I'd like to find love I had it once but it was a messy ending. It taught me to appreciate life. I never relied on anyone or expect much from anyone.
I like to write it gives my feelings and emotions feeling meaning that makes sense to me. My observations make great stories to tell my friends and the ppl who are willing to listen.

Good day watched movies
Getting through work woke up rested
I started writing more
Discovered my entries have potential
I need to find my way and style
Keeping to myself minding my own
Appreciating life no more being sad
Love all I have and ready to embrace the future
Im working on new projects
Bought so many books I need to start reading
Bouncing ideas im putting them in play

Thinking about life on my lunch
Hunger for adventure one day at a time
One day my time will come and shine
Focused on my task everyday working hard busting mine
In the end all will be fine
Only a matter of time
Not the same memories remain
Heal the broken no more pain
Hard to be normal use to insanity
Lost in a dream blurry reality

Love and lust seen as the same
Who do you trust
Use and abuse one another
Unfaithful to each other
No love just a love
Only emotions through the covers
Truth is none of it's real
Departed shared the feelingless Heart

He always wanted to write music
Shared those feelings letting go
Showed emotions not closed off
Opened up about those moments
Things that made him smile
People who hurt his heart
Put his thoughts on a poem
Talk about the things causing misery
Tears of joy wiping them away
Taking the bad letting it die within
Very close struggling to finish

Learning his lesson after being hurt
Scared to be with the wrong person
Been hurt not trying to hurt others
It came to an end now its too late
Not a debate cant change
How they feel mind is made up
A broken heart needs time to heal
Apologies no one is forgiven
Things won't change too proud
Remain the same too stubborn
Egos clash killing love no remorse
A dueling romance the final dance
Departing starting over again
Something new next chapter
After being treated cruel
Bettering yourself for the future
Learning from the past aftermath

Never wanted or claimed
Made his own way
At the bottom
Looking up saying one day
Trying to be more
Aiming for the top
One day be know for efforts
Hard work pays off pushing through
Missing everyone going solo
Staying strong hurting inside
Emotions hidden starting to show
Working through the bad
Hoping it turns out accordingly

His pain faded as he wrote
Filled each page with feelings
Coped with emotions passed moments
Always working missing out
Trying to enjoy life find true love
Live to the fullest take joy in the one
Called selfish for being selective
Always selfless putting others first
Took a time out always all in
They'd never approve he didn't bother
Living a private life others prying
An open book others had no interest
Walked away there was no going back
Didn't ask because they'd ruin his day
Spreading their misery they aren't happy

People set in their ways
You Ask them
What do they want improved
How can this be better
Questions no one asks
Trying to raise the bar
Everyone talks about change
But makes no effort to do so
Because it leads to more work
All the complaining it doesn't get done

Rumors spread he was suicidal
He's been living life to the fullest
Private with his relationship
Not knowing anything make it up
Assumed the worse about him
He had manners and formal
Talked about not talking about anyone
His presents rubbed others wrong
Minding his mouth staying quiet
Mostly his business by himself
Hard to trust since everyone gossips

Walked away the anger was draining
Frustrated with everything
Taking back some control
Lost himself trying to please others
Spoke up everyone got defensive
He went with the flow got *******
Always helping getting accepted
Never got helped back or expected it
Once he said No they turned on him
If he couldn't had a prior commitment
Made it seem he never contributed
Treated different tone changed
The tension overwhelming
Not faking everything is well
Pretending we are cool when its shady
If a favor wasn't honored

Working for it nothing is given
His aunt told him
"you weren't born rich, you have to work"
Trying to move up against the odd
Family his greatest supporter
Also the biggest critics full of hate
Broke free from the draining peeps
Stopped giving advice no one listens
Lent an ear tired of looping sad stories
Pursuing his goals towards success
Hoping to achieve them doing them

She told him he was the one
Let him go then got married
Talking about marriage for citizenship
Looking for love got lust broken trust
Gave respect with wasted time
Till something better came alone
It was over there was someone else
Quick to move while he regrouped
Messed around on a break kept it over
Can't be mad but did expect loyalty
Talking about getting back together
All these scenarios events playing out

Being the lead trust your skills
Able to do the job best of your abilities
Be an example be part of the team
Not make an example of others
Share and pass your knowledge
Teach everyone there's no excuse
Why it's not getting done
Being more consistent
Finishing strong efficiency

He went his own way
Made his own path
They kept him out
Didn't listen or care
How he felt expressed concern
All he did was look out
What he thought left annoyed
No one listened very irritating
Now they are in his area
His space feels violated
So much intrusive vibes
All imposition no one asked
Everyone talking about one another
Instead of focusing working hard
Comparing lifestyles be grateful
On what they need to be doing
Starting from nothing moving up
Working hard for everything

People mad since he had an opinion
Offended by his honesty told the truth
They had nothing on him
So she tried to turn everyone on him
Couldn't win alone making a fuss
Started a false narrative full of lies
For momentum to gain leverage
Manipulating others to gain control
Had nothing but thankful and grateful
They had it all still not happy
Miserable the blessings never enough
Being insulted gave him tough skin
Never talking about anyone
For not liking him since he disagreed
Hated him for being different
He was always the topic of discussion

He showed up giving his all
Trying to make a difference
Giving his all with limited time
Covering their *** expecting it done
Not caring about him or his schedule
Life outside of work his struggle
All the pain caused taking its toll
On other work relationships
Usually reliable loves the site
Now in an awkward situation
Made moves exploring new areas
Now stuck limited movement

Trying not to take it personal
Always working for more
Not settling for less made moves
Came up short running out of time
Doing as much possible with little time
On the outs but back in struggling
Helping out been in that spot before
Sad that burden is on someone else
Trying to be fair getting ******* over
Everyone talks about one another than each other
Expecting respect being disrespectful
Saying one thing but doing another
Pointing out others bad habits
While doing the same thing

Every word written
Knocking out the bad
Someone is always hating
No reason to be mad it's normal
Let them focus on being great
Told you you're no good
Turns out they are doing worse
Valuing life feeling worth more
While they care about money
It's never enough with the greed
Helping loved ones doing good deeds
From close to distant barely talking
Sobered up now trying to do right
You mad can't go without that fix
Two kids focused on those bad habits
Love them like my own be better
Get your head out of your ***
Listen for the popping sound
When you pull it out
Sat on the side lines pondering
Things seem to get worse overtime
People setting only for their gain
Not about the family selfish ways
Sad how they talk about everyone
No one is talking about them
Made it about them again

Dealing with so much losing yourself
Not in a good way paying dues
Having to hustle doing extra
No one is going to do it for you
Sacrificing things to be at work
Missing those athletic days
Older now not healing the same
Have to do extra to come out even
From having time to being the clock
Wanting to slow down its all fast pace
Mind goes numb feeling distracted
Body into work mode get it done
Tired at work ready for bed
Time for bed wide awake thinking
If all the possibilities and "what ifs?

Learning to love again been hurt
All these lies got old you're living one
Cheating trying to blame everyone
For your foul actions so much pride
Saying one thing doing the opposite
Actions louder than mumbled words
Doing bad trying to justify it right
Knocking the good twisting the truth
Had way more going on ruining it
Never enough treating it like less
Obsessed comparing live your life

Feeling like yourself not accepting defeat
After tough times overcoming heat
Make it through the week feeling beat
Growing older body is hurting
Focused on good with bad memories
Working hard under appreciated
Burnt out from giving it all
Got nothing more everything
Feels like a lost cause life on pause
Trying to change this mindset
So much going on hard to forget

He knew the truth honored it
Never given a chance took many risks
Going against the odds no one listened
No one believed in his skills
Thought he could do it
Got tired working the hardest
Giving his all seen as a rebel
Speaking up when no one else did
Stood alone while everyone followed
Asking questions not getting answers
Called a tyrant seen as delusional

Made out to be the bad guy
Doing more than the minimum
Changing it up not just showing up
Leaving it out there put it on the line
Doing the work that need to be done
Everyone easily offended making demands
Running their mouth fully flawed
Can't say anything making it personal
Twisting the narrative with hate
Judging others flaws to get an edge
Instead of bettering themselves

Sad how everyone changed
Hoping for the better it was worse
This life tough feeling like a curse
Helped they wouldn't do the same
So much frustration causing pain
Learning to trust no respect is gained
Talking about childhood moments
Letting it out not holding on
Feeling free able to talk about it
Not feeling trapped or restrained
Holding on for life don't want it to end
Starting over is hard doing is easy

Ready to pounce
Just needed a reason
Fuel to the burning fire
Already had it mind
Ready to tell others
Never listening ready to argue
Assuming they are in the right
Looking down rather than help up
If you're not doing favors kept out
Have to act or be a certain way
Denying yourself to be accepted
Not breaking up the fame
Divided from the pack
The black sheep looking in
Staying away doing his own thing
Tired of pretending it okay being dogged
Over the third degree feeling robbed
Making his own way happen in peace

Writing it down clarity of mind
Noble friends hard to find
Easier to let go no need to control
Took in the pain slowly immune
Bad memories remain okay with them
Use to being ignored not saying much
It's become normal staying away
Not going to stay or beg not wanted
Being a whole over being divided
Not giving up to be accepted
Not holding a grudge living
Doing things without hassle
Over all the terms and conditions

Being told it doesn't matter
At the bottom working harder
Doing more than the top
Don't want to lose anymore
Gave up too much from the wrong ppl
Doing everyone's job no respect
Insulted by harsh words
The nerve to ask for help
Need a favor the nerve of some
Taking on others loads of work
Not able to rest or relax
Trying to finish every second counts
Can't wait time or enjoy life
Twisted inside out feeling gutted
Yanked in different directions
Coming to terms not sure how to act
Not looking for reactions
Trying to respond what's going on
Say it where there's no hard feelings

Fighting to stay whole battle within
Crumbling under pressure the drama
Knees about to buckle overwhelming
Struggling to get by with life
Ready to quit give up at work
Around his kids found strength
Hid the misery smiled for them
Being able to provide made it right
Feeling worthy not wasteful with time
No time to be sad getting over the bad
Focused on the good being better

Writing after hours enjoyed the quiet night. The candle lit as adding a vibe
So much emotions unable to hide it all. It came out ****** expressions the tone set. Not taking crap from anyone denied by his peers. The rejected did bother all they cared about was his work. Always ignored majority of the time. Now a flood of violation imposing personal space because they wanted something.
All the disrespect became infuriating it because to take toll rants and tangents expressing himself

One day it will come back to those fakes. Making everyone deal with their work and burdens. Made them look brilliant as they dumped on everyone stealing the credit. Everyday another person placed in the spot the value fluctuating some times its easy other times complicated. Could be the lead no superior sees the potential but has no problem letting one do the work

He looked out the window
Wondered about his life
The betrayal he use to be fun
Too bad he's not the one
All the work not credit
Holding the place for someone else
Then quickly replaced by another
Failed friends formal lovers
Hard to trust moving on is a must
Heart crusted now protected
A screening process more selective
Missing everyone pursuing the dream
Over the one way love going forward
Making his own path rolling solo
His goals needed to be done alone
Others don't define him feeling excluded
Made a stand no going back
Didn't want to deny himself
Just to make happy it was sickening
Been rejected doesn't fit in
After adjustments left uncomfortable
Feeling right walking away

A cold lonely night
Kids out on the hunt
Trick or treat
Some dressed as characters
Masks and costumes
Knocking on doors for candy
Outside is dandy with fun
Pumpkins carved candles lit
Decor on every house and corner
Don't be scared flirting with fear
Monsters and ghouls are near
Pretend to be some fun
After tonight back to normal
Happy Halloween

He loved family someone was going through something
Everyone put up with it love faded
Minding his mouth it made things worse
Saying sorry was hard he was treated mean
Dealing with his feelings was like defusing a bomb
Rather than say sorry he moved on
Broken from the inside out
Didn't do wrong got attacked
Tired of arguing it was pointless
Fighting to be heard seen as the bad guy
Couldn't change their minds it was made up
The didn't respect him he stopped trying
He closed them out felt trapped inside
Wasn't going to force his way in
Not his way of life anymore
Drinking want fun all the depression
Hoping to meet someone
While settling for the wrong person
Stuck with manipulators taking him for granted
He loved family his space felt invaded
Not sure how to act and respond
Life's not hard but others complicate it
He was silent but loud in his head

Never thought they'd do it to you
The day come they had nothing on you
Trying to change how others seen him
It didn't bug him because he was use to being alone
Hard to open up his feelings would be used against him
Make out to be a joke while being serious
Hurt that the ones he valued made him feel useless
Looked out and got burned in the process
Hard to trust easier to disconnect than associate with anyone

Slander by his friends
Others expected the worse
Feeling like his name cursed
The failed love is the worse
Broken from his circle
Ventured out on his own
Once cared to fit in
Use to being left out
Excluded from the rest
Doing his best gave his all
On call waiting for the phone to ring
In his personal space needing a favor
Had an opinion judged for his differences
More personal attacks no one had his back
Gave so much and did as much as possible
Tired of feeling like it wasn't good enough
Or whatever he wanted would never happen
Come true right away living over pain
Good thoughts instead of dark memories
More UPs that downs over setback detours to get there

He looked out but some let their problems spill over on others
When he cared no one gave a ****
Now that he doesn't everyone fakes interest
They are worse as time progress
He stayed out after being pushed out
Only included at their best interest
They wanted to wipe him out
After he said NO or want able to make their plan work
It wasn't his job to do their work
He wasn't responsible for their happiness
As they tried to **** his joy he was thankful people did favors but hated when It was thrown in his face
When you don't get involved they include you. Before fighting to be included to be ignored

Some people lie and cheat
Never satisfied they get their way
Never listen to anyone
But have the nerve to complain
Money is tight borrowed never repaid
Some grow distant while others have no shame adding to the debt
Been down before never stole from anyone
How are you talking about people when you're worse off
A failed relationship with a child not sure if you're the father
So much confusion mixed emotions
Family wants to help but staying out

From having a team to doing it alone
The loyalty gone talked "being there"
Doing the work to make it better
Missing doesn't help anyone
Trying to make it better for everyone
All this team work talk working solo
Being proactive room to grow improve
Turning weaknesses into strengths
Can't rely on anyone lead by example
Focused on the work 8 hours in 5
One man doing 2 jobs in 1
Finish in a timely manner
Everyone expects so much
Don't want to fail being there helps
Counted out by the boss is insulting
Don't want to let anyone down
Hurt production hard to function
Body aches and sore maximum effort
Once a team player got burned hard
Looked out for others feeling betrayed
Now a rebel going solo getting it done
Use to being alone no longer afraid

Over a misunderstanding conflict occured. He didn't get his way his demeanor changed. Willing to bad mouth your character. make you out to be the bad guy since his life was in shambles. Sad how the respect went out the window from close to distant. The ties were cut family or not you don't try to expose a person because things aren't going your way.
Another scapegoat instead of owning up. More lies more betrayal and shady scandals going on. Better to walk away than be involved. Its heart breaking they say never again but its not the first or last time.
Neglecting responsibility making this appear worthless a lost cause. The value was gone meaningless not holding any value used it up then away with it onto the next.
Another reason to not get involved or care no remorse or sympathy.

Before you made it they dk you
Didn't bother to call on for favors
From friends to foes biggest haters
Trying to slander you
Because things are right with them
Fathers addicted to coke
Instead of showing their kids love
Blaming them born in the wrong life
Neglecting the child to party and drink
A sober coward in check
Liquid courage getting bold
After a few drinks loud disrespectful

He wanted to date but remembered his exes and women from the past. He coule never make them happy or they wanted all the perks of a relationship. Some tried to fix him and make him better for the next why not try to make it work since so much effort and time was invested. Learning to get to know a person is more important ***. Being around and living with a person was an eye opener people lived another life at home from work on a date was another part of the person but there's more to it.

He loved the wrong people
All they did was use him
Never happy for him
He worked hard all the time
It was never enough
They made it rough
It made him tough
Tired of being lied to
Speaking no one listening
Did his own thing
Use to being alone
He missed the good times
Now feels like its all bad
Someone is always arguing
Mad at one another
He prayed they got along
Drained not sure what to say
How to act or respond
He told the truth usually honest
Others triggered making it personal
After asking his opinion
Feeling set up to fail is the worse
Walked into the sabotage
Trying to rise and grow

Friends come and go like the seasons
Formal partners another fall out
Moved on never looked back
Break up hurt becoming immune
Opening up to the wrong people
Hoping they'd love you
Feel the same way back
Betrayal is the worse
More painful from family
Trying to make things right
Not going well feels wrong
Not empowering those
Who trash your name
Ignore your opinions
They can't hurt you
Its already been done
Never letting them do it again
Stayed away feels like they want
As they taunt and provoke you
Took the high road hard to speak
The mind ready to speak hard to focus
Like defusing a bomb imploding within
Trying not to react staying calm collected
A war in this head taking its toll
While the struggle battles hard

Trying to change older not the same
Losing joy things lost value
Bored with things that use to be fun
Afraid of losing what's left its all gone
Not much left trying to do what's right
Always writing to calm the voices
In this head an overthinking mind
Missing the old growing into the new
From fun to depressing not the same anymore
Wanting to be mentally stimulated
Growing old everyone fades away
No kids while some are having another
Haven't found love with the right one
Some married others now divorced
A broken promise too late to be honored
Friends become foes use to be bros
Over lusting women that never commit
Couples failing trying to make it work
Overcoming obstacles with true love
Some are sober addicted to love
Others drunk with lust wanting more

The friends become foes conflict over a disagreement. One said "NO" the other assumed. Then tried to make it personal because the demands weren't met. The overreaction would lead to an attitude that was crucial. The passive behavior made things worse. One talked about it the other held a grudge saying everything is okay but no one is talking. Everything died placed on hold peace was found. After taking the blame and processing both realizing its better to cut the cord both stubborn and proud. One had more drama than the other while one decided to not get involve anymore. the transition during the fall out was hard but things got easier over time. Breaking and destroying things never owning up is the worse kind of person to be around, it's always everyone. Violating peoples trust that's why no one bothers anymore. Pretending to be perfect with a drug addiction while being a functioning alcohol.

He was a rebel stood alone
Who listened to punk rock
Being the voice of reason
Usually too on the burdens
Everyone ran from or avoided
Spoke up someone was mad
Easily offended called on it
He held them accountable
While they blamed everyone
Wasn't easy to manipulate
Questioned the BS shook things up
Not always liked or a favorite
He was seen as a threat made a target
Going along not taking the nonsense
Doing what needed to be done
Didn't seek or need approval

His personal space violated
Ignored till a favor is needed
All the disrespect the nerve
If he didn't do favors
They wouldn't bother with him
It was never enough
Someone is always complaining
Burning people for selfish gains
A snake lurking pretending to care
Among hard working people
Leaching off everyone causing chaos