They treated him like an idiot he was nice and they took it for granted. He could only do so much writing. Stay home because of the pandemic. Trying to be safe and respectful while so many rude people ruin his day. He ignores them but they spread their toxic in his direction.
Once he speaks up or says something hes the bad guy. Its the worse feeling they'll bully him or provoke him once he confronts them they are quick to play the victim. Its infuriating how its a one sided only their way or no way quick to torment others.

He never cut them off they chose to leave or hold a grudge. He had a hard time, he never fit in always growing can't stay the same anymore. He wished them the best he didn't want to hold them back. Answering to all the wrong people he felt like they'd knock his efforts it was never good enough even though he gave his all. He failed came up short but never quit or gave up took a break after being broken inside.

He went out with family everyone made a fun. All he did was work and home no life outside of that it bugs him how they judged him for trying to live life. He wasn't married or didn't have kids.
He paid his rent and was being responsible even though work bored him. All he did was write on his down time. If he didn't train with his cousin he kept to himself. He loved sports but when the world shutdown. He didn't know what to do. He got lost in his thoughts it drove him insane. He tried to be a better person while everyone got worse with their problems and burdens imposing their frustration on others.

Trying to belong fit in was hard for him. He didn't give anyone crap and took crap from no one. He hid a broken heart after being rejected all he wanted was to be himself. He felt like quitting and giving up but all his life was a fight to be heard to be understood. Hes been denied opportunity but worked harder. Overlooked because he didn't want to **** up or brown nose to move up.
He was tired one sided friendships so they called him a rebel he got use to being alone. He had been betrayed by people he considered family and his family was the worse. He loved them but he refused to compromise himself.

He was getting older and it stressed him out he had white hairs. Some people looked through him and never took him serious he knew things but had to dumb himself down and hide who he was to get by. Writing was his way to vent get it off his chest. He gave up what he loved to work to be responsible. He wondered if he still had it. Challenging himself to better but road blocks detours distraction hard to stay focused.

Not use to hanging out most work and have no social life. While some are married or have kids forced to grow most of all being responsible for their own. Got use to not making plans someone always flakes out or cancels. I was nice to have lunch with a cousin everyone is growing up some more determined than others. While some are just going through the motions. It's good to change it up break the cycle get out of the routine.

He spoke his mind they called him crazy. He had an opinion since he didn't always agree. They made him out to be the black sheep for not going along.
They tried to slander him beat him in numbers. Turns out they'd turn on everyone because they couldn't control or get their way. Telling people how to live their life; how to act, who to be. Couldn't they just be happy for people.
Rather than vilify everyone for being different for their efforts belittling everyone because they think their way of life is righteous. Looking down on family like if they did favors but quick to impose an opinion no one asked for.

They were threatened by his way of life. How he seen the world. They wanted him to be someone he wasn't. He never wanted or expected anything he went with out. Now they talk act like they treated him like one of them. He's not like or will never be one of them.
It sickened him he was ready to start his own traditions cut ties because they were cutting him deep. He went numb couldn't be himself taking the thrill out of life. He couldn't move on it would give them a reason to talk.
He was educated they judged me making him feel bad for wanting more but working for it. He was open to change while everyone stayed the same. This was his family image how his enemies treated him

The argument played out in his head the anger. He was use to everyone being a jerkface what's different what changed. After his grandfather died the world seem more miserable than ever he lost his joy. Things didn't make sense so much change trying to stay away. They thought he was gay for having style criticized him for being educated. He was doing what he loved they told him he wasn't good enough. All it did was **** him off and inconvenience him.
He respected their time as they wasted his. He had to walk egg shells while he tolerated their nonsense. He wanted his life back he squatted to compose himself and took too long to get back up.

He had it all once he lost it everyone was gone disappeared. Rebuilding yourself a process to figure out what you want. Asking what does it mean how did it end up here.

He didn't get how people moved on right away quick to replace an old love. It's puzzling for him. He knew married people who go divorced things are not what they appear. In a loveless relationship where cheating ia allowed. Why would anyone want to share their loved one. Before they'd fight for one another. Now they gave up on what they had.
He said he loved her and ahe was quick to replace him. She loved him but he didn't feel the same way back. He didn't force it and things didn't feel right or natural. He knew her secrets she asked why he never tried. He never knew it was an option or if the thought crossed his mind.

He observed so much and saw through everyone's act. They'd drain his energy with their bad vibes overthinking being quiet. He gets he didn't have to share because they showed no interest, his life wasn't important. He was an open book they kept closing it and setting it aside. They latched on to the problems they caused making them seem important when all it did was burden them.
He lost a lot over time, he failed but kept trying. Fell hard able bounced back from all the insanity.

He did it before dk why are doubting
Doing it more than most not afraid
Worked for his knew what it took
Sad how family is most judgemental
He didn't worry what they did
They're adults that's their business
Anything he did caused them conflict
Mostly minding himself staying away
They criticized ran their mouth
He wasn't taking it or listening
He'd talk no one showed interest
Everyone wanted him to stop to hear
What they had to say for their
Like it would help him
Opposed for taking a stance
Hated for questioning their ways
Not a followed or giving into demands

They made him feel bad for working out. All they did was criticize him but they did nothing. He once valued them but had to put his guard up. He did all the giving all they did was expect. Only when they needed something he became a thought.
After being ignored and treated different he stayed in his lane they smothered him with their nonsense controlling ways. He gained more confidence called the BS in the end they'd ignore him or make him out to have a problem.
Never once did they think their attitude or behavior was a factor. He was admit his wrongs he hated how he had to walk egg shells to be considered. He did favors now they are talking and bad mouthing.

Sad to see everyone go away
Everyone getting older part of life
Tired of being rushed to matter
Never been materialistic
Be a good person hope the right people appreciate you and your efforts

He was over the lies and manipulation. He cut the cord. He didn't care that they had kids or got married. He was annoyed that they made out anything he did to be a bad thing. He never talked about anyone but they always had stuff to say behind his back. He respected them enough to say it to their face. Most of the time; he ignored everyone, and minded his business; most of all his mouth.
He was pushed out for being singles; he hated to be around couples. All they did was argue make things awkward. Then because of their bad communication blamed him. He was frazzled, how is so called friends; called him family then cut him off; what a way to treat family.
He warned his friend about her past, but love conquers all, so it didn't matter; what he said, or what he thought. His chapter ended he faded out and went away a lone rebel on his way.

Never been into material possessions. Had it all lost it all starting over it hard. Learning to maintain focus what needs to be done to get by. Finding balance to be able to work in that dream instead of putting everything else first. Thr transition is always hard because unexpected delays occur.
Always distracted easier to help others than to say what you want and come up with a strategy. Always asking what if or why not easier to do than think its the perfect plan and it will all fall I to place.

He would argue and say the truth everyone got mad. It was a struggle for him to be heard. Everyone acts like their social circle matters or contributes. They did nothing for him once he made his own moves they had the nerve to be mad.
They are not responsible for him and will never be happy for him. They never gave him his props and tried to shadow his success because they owned a home. Like if their opinion mattered more or meant anything to him.
He didn't kiss *** but worked hard busting his *** for what he has. He refused to lower himself to be liked and accepted. He was too old to play games be labeled and boxed in. In the end they didn't care they used him and got what they wanted.
They never called unless they wanted something. If they expected anything from him he did favors but never expected anything in return. They mad him mad and sad he minded his mouth and business but their BS kept coming in his direction.

Down time is weird he felt like he needed to be doing something getting things done. Use to a routine when all he wanted was to be free feeling lost and isolated from things.
His sleep patterns were jacked up over the changes. He didn't like being responsible for others but it all fell on his lap.
All the anger and frustration took its toll on his confidence. He wanted to be there to help they left him hanging. Now that he made other arrangements they decided to need him ruining his plans

He always put others first once he talked about making moves and moving on they'd turn on him. He did what they wanted but needed to do it his way. It always led to conflict and fall outs because of conflict of interest. He was use to being the bad guy because everyone has to be right never admitting their wrongs.
He was done always for them they shook him down. If he ever asked for help or a favor they'd treat him like a nobody after. Made him feel useless and invisible. While they sponged and leeched doing all the things they told him not to do.

He wasn't scared he didn't care what they did. All they did was ignore him try to make him do and be someone he was not. When he spoke up stood his ground they hated him.
When he went along part of him died inside and he hated himself because he wasn't like then, all the lowering to be like and accepted it all gor old. They never changed most of all never be happy for him. Family hit hard hurt him the most with silly standards they weren't even living up to. He wasn't two faced to pick and choose when to care.

He love training who knew the kid he trained didn't want to do it. He felt heart broken and felt he lost it all. Everything taken away hitting rock bottom. Thinking of a plan how to bounce back. Open to learn grow so many detours and setback.
He put others first don't always know what to do with himself. Writing was all he had it numbed him took his pain and anxiety away.
He stepped up when no one else would. Always trying to do and be better while coming up short.

He couldn't grasp it and it didn't make sense he was working hard getting by while others are given everything and ungrateful. It was eating at him all the hatred and disrespect that came his way. He minded his mouth most of all his business.

Everything came to a halt now he's helping family. Not use to being home always working doing something. Writing helped maintain insanity put things in to perspective dhe to a series of unfortunate events.
Never about money and treated people. Always doing favors never expecting anything in return the moment you aren't able to, they treat you different. Act like you've never been there the whole time. Its the worse feeling after helping them and never took a cent.
Made time to be there to help them now they put you on the outside looking in. Waited on deck to claim the wrong make it right. Moved on now they try to tell you when they wanted nothing to do with you.
Thinking they care but only when its at their own selfish benefit. Then send you packing.

He wasn't one to judge anyone, he was trying to better his situation. Fix himself since He seen and been through stuff. He didn't use or take advantage of anyone to get there. He was always working for his learning to say what he wanted. He got tired of going with the flow because it never ended well. In the end felt robbed and cheated by everything. Provoked by people he valued that made him feel worthless.
Came up short on those effort. Tried and did more since no one else cared or put forth any effort.
Once he spoke up or called them on their action they would try to blame or give an attitude because they got caught. He might've looked busy but did observe the situation.

He was tired another fight wasn't the same over all the physical and mental pain. Taking a time out changing it up. Making the most of the moment and situation.
So much change doing it all over not the same. Feels like a lost cause made it have value now it's worthless. Always looking in from the outside. once on the inside he wanted out. Never going to change he was stripped down not himself with anyone. So many made him out to be someone he's not.

Big on being yourself some try to box you in change you because they arent happy with themselves. Those people are fake pretending to be someone they are not. They can't beat you one one so they talk about you get Every one to hate you because they are useless alone.
I question their logic because they always get their way even if it means hurting or ******* people. I've learned to not empower these kind of people. So many times it's about them with hidden agendas.

Everyday a fight to be heard
A struggle to be seen as an equal
Being kept out and silenced
An internal struggle within
A loud mind a quiet mouth
Words flow out with emotions
A way of expression able to feel
That love was an addiction
All the hurt is healing up
Found inner peace and closure
Learned to go with out
Not be included
Do your own thing
Its okay to be alone

Always been into hard work saying it will pay so many road blocks and detours but chasing a dream. Its the worse when you try and it never turns out in my head of accordingly. Building off the experience learning from the encounter. Thought this would work didn't want a boss but a team to make film and get my scripts/sketches made.
Always open to creative ideas trying to make them a reality. Never seen as an equal but working twice as hard.

Wanted to write stories talking about the struggle. Internal conflict trying to resolve it all. Always taking on the world other peoples frustration hiding behind it so hard to open up. Always seeing good in others over trusting. Always protecting them but they are quick to blame others than own up. He made jokes at the wrong time tried to see good with the bad.
His opinion was ignored or shut down now they expect him to go along with their madness. He preferred to be alone they called him rebel because he wasn't one of them and didn't care to be one of them. He got along with everyone; he didn't respect people who talked behind his back. If they said it to his face, it might've ****** him off but he appreciated the person for it.
As he listened to music looking for inspiration but learned to live life and share stories. Even with the condition everyone has been through everyone has a problem or going through something.

Quick to close of this heart
The cruel world falling apart
Starting over once again
Another wicked chapter ends
From hurt to glory the healing begun
Another wild journey to pursue
Everything has changed turn the page
Things fades with time wise with age
The unsung hero story needs to be told
A loving heart never gets old
Open to new growing with experience
Each encounter building character

All these fears because of others
Worried about their judgement
Always talking bad on others
Expecting others to change
While remaining the same
Over come this pain suffering within
More hurt from annoying people
Writing the narrative adds a tone
Doesn't change the reality
A beat up ego toughening up
Pride swallowed a dry mouth
Choking making it hard to breathe

A sore body stiff joints
Pushing through an older body
Mentally blocking out the bad
Physically going through the motions
He missed them but they are gone
He's not going back to them
They are never returning to him
He let go fear free accepted
Alone is the way to be pain free
Found closure with his thoughts
His heart cages to heal
Soon to be set free be himself
That's all he truly wanted out life
Be happy with out consequence
Not answer to others for his efforts

Fight to stay alive to be heard
Everyday a life or death situation
Hard to live pursue the dream
Dead inside become immune to toxic
Trying to escape hate give into faith
Others trying to dictate your fate
Pouring it into the universe
See what comeback this way
Energy levels draining slow
Good vibes positivity on the rise

Fighting for change everything remains the same. So much struggle hard to gain. Always coming up short, don't care for the politics. Been focused on the work lost inside the project. Writing to stay sane so much injustice double standards seen and treated differently.

Learned to do what makes you happy so many double standards. Most expect results if you don't prove yourself; they don't care about what you feel or think. It's sad how they are quick to judge than understand. Your situation or what you've been through just to come out even by barely getting by.
After a while you stay away.

The worse part about positing is someone will think. I'm talking about them looking for ways to hold a grudge. Sorry they have a guilty conscience. The family is the worse trying to pick a fight they'll try to turn everyone against you.
For showing feelings having emotions getting older can't keep holding all that anger and frustration in. It all comes out eventually. Sad to deal with that but it helps you grow and gain to be a stronger person.

Still working for it, doesn't mean, it's not going to happen. Would rather earn it than let it be given or handed out. Working for that promotion fixing the struggle within. Not arguing with people, who use judge and put forth no effort.
They try to cast a shadow but they can't full the light. They may have it all but no one owes them. Applauding their efforts don't knock everyone for trying to achieve their goals. Trying to make their dream a reality. No one needs your opinion to go through to make it to the next level.
Usually running on anger, but coped dealing with all this over being self destructive. Finding faith that's the only way even though it's tough a hard walk life style to live by. Praying trusting in God cant do this alone anymore physically and emotionally drained.

Writing about equality and fairness
Not for me but for those that feel lost
Alone in those tormenting emotions
Dealing with people is hard
Who tried to knock you for it
What's worse is when its family
Your close friends fake to your face
Talking behind your back
You respect them to tell them straight up

Each punch thrown
Every kicked landed
All the chaos fades away
The white noise bring peace
Pushing through the insanity
Pushing yourself to be better
Bring out your best everytime
Bring out the best in others
All the personal growth a gain
The experience with rich lessons
Brings out confidence

He was annoyed he'd let them know to see if they were interested. No one seemed to care or show any interest. Then when he would do it they would try to lay a guilt trip.
He got upset with their antics because if it was a role switch he would've said yes or no. None of this making them feel like he was causing conflicts in their schedule. It wasn't his fault or fair with him they demanded answers after a while he got tired of explaining himself. Now they are trying to make him out to be the troublemaker before he embraced it now he walks away from it all.

Tired of all the hazing the only one who toughed it out went through it all. Made more effort to be kept out feeling like, he didn't matter, or belong. Asking himself, "why did he stay," they obviously didn't like him, and he didn't always agree with how things were handled. Another made up standard to live up to when they didn't have it together.
He had another life before they crossed paths they can't take credit for him and all his efforts. They can't tell him, how to feel, or think.
They dk what's going on in his head. He may not argue, say much but refused to let them take advantage of his kindness. Once he spoke up that's when everyone kept him out. Before they'd taunt him, let him think, he could be one of them. He was okay and moved on. No reason to stay felt it wasn't worth it anymore.

Niko went to the bar and chatted it up with the bartender Penelope. They talked about dating and she wanted to help him come up with a solution. He would find out she had a be.
He would sit at the bar and talk without having a drink his sobriety was key. He made mistakes and hurt people not being intoxicated kept him from being a wild one.
Penelope was a beautiful girl a caring person. Niko was not use to pretty girls showing concern she was nice on the eyes and easy to talk with. She appreciated his honesty he said some funny stuff that was true.
He told her that he wanted to take her out once he got full time at his current job. It never happened and that opportunity to ask her out was gone. Things didn't line up or turn out the way Niko planned it.

He had down time so he would get lost in books and writing those things made him laugh and smile. He wasn't afraid to be alone but he was feeling betrayed used up then they were done and wanted nothing to do with him. He was willing to go the extra mile make it easy for himself. Doing a job no one wanted because of the rough area. He took pride in his work everything changed and was different a whole new world and vibe.

He never said anything to them because all they did was talk about everyone. He never talked about anyone, if he has something to say he would said it to their face. They want everyone to chang, but never want to change themselves. He knew he wasn't perfect, so he never said anything about anyone.
He loved them but kept a distance since they wanted him to alter himself. He was over the fact they would pick and choose when to accept him. He went through change they dk his history or back story. He just wanted to be accepted for him out respect for his elders he kept his mouth shut.

They'll never own up or take responsibility for their actions. He knew how they made him felt so he cut the cord. They'd try to tell him to grow up than understand or try to make sense of the chaos they caused.
He respected people not material possessions.
It didn't mean you had say or control over people for owning a home. Everyone is a hard working adult trying to get by they don't need you twisting their arms for money. Half the time everyone is on the **** list. Because they don't listen to your made up standards you're not even living up to.

He was use to being hated because they'd rather knock/exclude since he wasn't a follower, or in check like everyone else. They'd never accept him because he had an option. He was tired of taking their crap in silence when he speaks up they make him out to be a villain for not being part of their scheme.
All terms and conditions got annoying if you asked them they would act like you're ruining their life or plotting against them. While they cant win alone so they gain numbers trying to turn everyone against you for not caring.
After showing interest and still kept out there was no reason to stay it wasn't worth it anymore. He moved on the more he stayed away the worse they got. If he made a mistake it would be held against him. If they made a error they'd expect you to turn a blind eye over all the double standards.

He loved her she didn't feel the same way back. When he seen her with another guy is destroyed him he felt unworthy. The betrayal was on a whole other level. He didn't fight because she never belong to him when he moved on she'd come back. It really messed with his mind. She told him he was a good friend then got into a relationship. She claimed to love him now that she's married he wanted to be friends now he gets why he can't be connected to couples. The frustration and complication.

He wrote about what bigger him and how ir made him feel. He worked hard and came up short. He had to come up with a better plan back to the drawing board.
He wasn't afraid to try most of all he hated feeling like it was a waste of time. He gave them his all in the end it wasn't good enough. He would ask what he did wrong or how could he improve always open to learn and grow.
He changed for himself so many wanted him to be someone he's not or be the old him. He had grown there was no going back. He hated feeling stuck just trying to level up get to the next level.

Feel censored can't be
Blocked out from true emotions
All that's right feels wrong
The story being told grow old
Not holding a grudge
Friendships end grow apart
Don't care to be tied down
Single life no need for a wife
Not a parent of kids can't afford
Angered to hear others negative words
Talk comes from someone else
Power packed come backs
Moving forward not going back