They use to be good friends both developed feelings and the other acted on them. Two different personalities one social and the other closed off.
The line between friendship and relationship was blurred one wanted more the other did not feel the same. As time pasted life set them apart one got married and the other responsible trying to become established.
They talk but things will never be the same while things felt like an old routine. Why go back to a failed outcome expecting things to change. He was single and she was married he denied his feelings while she poured out here. This was wrong and he knew so he would cut all ties from friends to strangers. She had more going on and he was doing his own thing. She told him he was the one who got away but that is impossible because she got married. Her husband was not fond of the friendship but it was a spike that caused a mild wedge. He didn't want to ruin things so he went away. She would call and text but he ignored her. She didn't like it and knew he did not belong because her marriage was more important. Eventually they moved on to together while he was forgotten on his own path pursuing his goals and dreams hoping to one day find new love.

Been a hermit not going out of my way at work
Been talking to girls but not consistant
Not trying to hear drama ppls sad stories and drama ruin my day
Ive been reading and writing feels like something is missing
Tired of being a victim of others frustrations
If I dont say anything others assume im mad
Sometimes iI take time for myself its overwhelming
Others tell me their struggle and i wish i could help sometimes i cant do anything
Awesome ppl consumed with emotions that are left from a previous relationship
Or not taking risks pursue the dream
It ***** to be going in another direction
Instead of being on the path youd like to be on
Its never too far it doesn't hurt to try

The unsung hero continues to do what's right
Always honest and it makes others not like him
His heart meant well with no hidden agendas
He helped the elderly held doors, respectful, mild manner values that are lost in today's society
They thanked him for his efforts but he was just doing his job. He thanked them for the appreciation
He respected the women he encountered even though most did not know their value and settled for less he'd help them if they were in danger most walked into the burning fire
He backed up his friends when most left him hanging he felt disrespected but forgave them
He never did anything from people while others his lies and disappeared when they were up to no good
He never seen them differently or judged them but if he made a mistake they threw the book at him
He stood by his word and honored it if he made promises
Was always there and reliable even when they would send him packing once the assignment was over
He lived and learned from the experience thankful even though things didn't turn out accordingly he did learn something new from every encounter

It was a cold chilling night, able to hear creatures brewing in the night. The tension so intense the world stood still. The man of the night would come out fight crime. Make the world safe a better place. Protect those being attacked by evil. The moonlight lights the way.
The neighborhood once peace and calm now it's invaded by criminals selling drugs and changing the way of life with their wicked ways. Change is not always for the better. The town is crumbling most are whatever drifting from the origins. Good doesn't always win but fight the good fight. So much has changed over night.

That good night kiss
I really do miss
Made it easy for me to sleep
Now a days I'm a creep
Waking up next to her made my morning
Now I sleep on life is boring
I might not know love
But have many love stories
They are the past but in my heart historic stories with rich history
Going home **** because she's not there
The reason I looked forward to going home
Not seeing you name or hearing your voice on the phone

Moved up to the next level
Still on the bottom
Aiming for the top
Proving myself all the time
Doing it for me not anyone else

Dressed for the weather because it's going to be a hot day but don't want to get sunburned. Hiking is a morning or afternoon actitivity it's crazy for me to do mid day. Hiking trails are different from trails most rode a mountain bike I preferred a stunt bike. Pumping hard and hauling ***. The turns and paths so narrow and sharp.

I give my all in all I do
Tired of being judged I take care of myself
Give my even if others don't think its enough
Over the big ******* in the face
I'm respect even though others do me wrong
Be my friend when I need you not at your convience
Over all ppl opposing I bust my *** for respect earning my place showing I belong
Sick of others failed relationships being a fear
I won't commit unless its worth my time
Over hearing problems that continue to worse when solutions have been provided
I've accepted certain ppl won't accept me or see me the same
I prefer to be more overless working hard for progress
The results will come out of the process
I've made changes and sacriced over all the selfish ppl
Making me a target because they are a routine
I'm not giving up or letting up back to the basics

Dressed to go not sure what to say
The courage to do so will power over comes all
Wearing my best wish things look how I imagined
Staying calm not getting my hopes up
Not sure if this opportunity is mine given a chance
Not sure what to make of these emotions
Uncertain but hoping to make this come true
Out and down for too long need this to comeback
Feeling left out dead inside with this I could rise to new levels regain all that is missing and lost
Save up rebuild for the future let it be more than I could possibly see
Thankful for change always helping others
Always one to stick my neck out
In time I shall find out

Not to fond of the holidays thanksgiving a time to be around family but year around no one gets along or talks unless favors are needed. Can't eat turkey because being allergic just means eat ham. Don't really have traditions but a sister is making the notion that we should start our own traditional feast. Not too fond of the ideas being forced to interact with brothers that make everything person but claim it's a joke. Once you return the favor they can not dish what they serve. Love family but not like them and never felt like one of them. Blood doesn't make you family because close friends treat you like you belong and matter.
Christmas is a time for family as well but not expecting gifts or giving them out. Usually go with and aunt or best friend never feels like anyone is into the season. After these times are over life goes back to normal. Where family doesn't talk or impose their ways. Not close to anyone because being my own person means much. No awkward conversations about being single or talking about my personal life with a stranger. Like privacy but being able to feel safe when expressing my thoughts instead of everything being used against me for some useless argument that has nothing to do with me because not empowering that nonsense walking away makes it easier then having to encounter misconduct by family that in their mind is seen as looking out.

Almost time to go be on my way home soon. Working hard to get paid possibly have it made. Talked to an old friend the true ones things never end. Making plans for a trip have been fishing since I was a in twenties. Never caught any fish but did catch a buzz.
You wait to catch fish and get lost with your thoughts. The wind and scenery tell you stories the more you observe.

Things are taken or walk away
I believe on day
Theyll find there way back
Sometimes things happen
before you're ready
If not maybe next time
Things happen when times are tough
Good enough but never enough
Love might be great career detoured
Or love failed money is great
Keep trucking don't lose hope
Everything you hoped for falls into place
Live on your own or live like will
And it shall go accordingly
Take time make time

My mind is occupied with thoughts of you
My heart skips a beat when we speak
I don't want to ***** this up
I only wnt to do right by your side
Being loyal and share the truth
I don't want to hurt or hurt you
You're always on my mind
Do you feel the same
Things keep us apart but everything feels right
I love every minute we spend together
Make the world brighter when we are together

Working the night shift mind on over drive
Work hard to survive thinking what to write up most of the night.
Thinking what to say the next time we see one another.
I hope I'm the one not just some other fling.
I like when you share everything on your mind
happy to hear what you say
You smile makes my day
I get excited when you say hey

No more broken within feelings
Lacking empathy for others
Able to look in the mirror and say looking good
Im proud of mt efforts others might try to kick me down but im not staying down
Im smiling because the world ***** but im awesome
I laugh because I have a sense of humor others dont appreciate
Im glad to have an honest grandma shes so honest it hilarious ive never laughed so hard in my life
Hanging with my cousin his parents threw him out hes an outcast like me thats we get along so well.
Not dating because its not for me I love women but they dont love themselves so they dont have time for me since they are figuring it out
Im enjoying my books its fresh perspective hoping to find my writing style I feel something is missing
The gym is my escape Im getting my body back I chunked up working on my gut and soft core

I don't latch onto other or use ppl
If I really want it I go all out
Not afraid to try failure becomes less
Overcome many obstacles
Not afraid to come up short
Pushing forward to break through
Overcome tough times pursuing glory
Be a better person even when others are goin wrong
Be more for yourself instead of impressing others
Dare to be different and great change what you dislike
One thing leads to another keep working through the pain
Overcome the shame soetimes you have no control or say

Everyone seeks true love some find it and succeed
While others fail trying to find their other half
Trying to connect or relate to another person
Everyone wants love but not everyone knows how to show it
Being there or giving your all is not enough
Some grow together while others grow a part
Healing a broken heart blinds people
Focused on what was instead of living in the moment
Craving to be love when its all around
shutting down all that's new refusing to let go of the old
Missing someone who has moved on
being stuck in a moment that heart desires
With time it burns out like fueless fires
The mind and heart always resist and conflict with another
Blind on being a lover and being loved
Stay true and loyal one day finding the one
The right one is the one worth fighting for

Writing has been therapy able to express without judgement. Have an opinion without others knocking you for being different. They expect so much but give so little. Thankful for the people who appreciate you even though you'd been through, so much to be where you are at.
Not always forced to commitment because it's not always what it's made out to be anymore. Ready for a career change starting over at the bottom ***** but being stuck in the transition is the worse

Use to love the idea of us but it's only about you. Said I love you can't deny these feelings for you. It's hard to move on, but you're quick to replace find someone new.
Sober minded not intoxicated by the manipulation. Came to terms even if denying you means tearing off a part of myself. Able to be a whole walking alone growing strong less thoughts of you. A feeble lie that use to believe was true. Forgiving within not being so cruel over a bad decision.

From the heart feeling, and seeing the truth. Moments in time lost in the transition writing takes the stress away. A sweet escape from the reality that doesn't coordinate with these emotions. Dealing with the internal struggle moments that passed. wasn't living in the moment had no clue what was going on. Mind missing loved ones that are going some have passed till we meet again. While other times women wedge and bad communication misunderstanding one another holding a grudge. Divided never going to be friends or reunited.

Watching it happen and go down. Need to get it done adding more to the to-do list than crossing stuff off the list. So much progress no long settling for less. Never visualized till now instead of listening to people saying otherwise. Asking this heart what's next when it happen all go according to plan.

Been told never get comfortable always rushing and missing out. More to life than work things never turned out as planned but make the most of everything. Earned every cent. Passion for writing the only time emotions can come out and shine. Show feelings without doubt, or regret sharing. It's hard to trust others feel safe because they'll try to get the best of you.

Not wishing bad on others or inflicting this frustration. Let it go in writing its toxic been holding on for too long. Use to be confident years of attacks and criticism feeling insecure. Not one to doubt others but do struggle trying to be more.
Being smart hiding it is the worse feeling. Lowering yourself to be like and accepted is the worse. Pretending to be dumb, and down playing the ego lots of doubt and regret.

Hate this feeling trapped inside, so many hidden emotions within surfacing. Everyone is struggling going through something. Frustrations going through the motions all stag tones flat lining. Not sure how to feel or what to think anymore. Stay safe, wear a mask.
Writing more can't talk to anyone so-called friends MIA. Thankful to be working getting paid. Some days are better than others; easier to make it through the shift. Lifting your spirit give it to God and pray.

Talking to this screen everything is going to be alright. Life is a fight put this guard down took a beating wasn't ready, things change when you're on defense. Fire back with some offense. Looking in the mirror overcome these fears. Release from these burdens while writing. Free to express it all get it out of this system.

Why is it when you're going through something you have issues. Have an opinion with truth its considered talking smack. Showing emotions called emo or overreacting. Share feelings called sensitive for coping dealing with things instead of bottling them up. You start to open up everyone ends up mad or defensive. Rather than own up for their actions. Acting like you're the bad one when they've done worse

Swimming in this cluster coming to terms set free from it all. Can't change the past been focused on the present make a better future. Not always going to be liked, or agree with one another. No ones talking about you, stop talking about everyone. Not listening to bad vibes disconnected from negativity. Not trying to manipulate others for a selfish gain. Always giving even when there's nothing left. Working hard trying to maintain.

Walked away stayed away from it all. Let them think they won all they do is talk. You set the bar no tried or went that far. Provoked can't stay on top forever takes a lot to get there. Receiving so many haters and doubts ready to pounce on your spot. Knocking you once they to that moment you aren't bothered and don't care anymore. Always the person they blame always focused on the work. Doing what matters not into all the talk or drama causing excuses.

He was called a player but she was the one messing around on him. His friends would talk bad about him. The girls would find him more interesting than the guy pursuing her.  He got called weird for being himself while others pretended to be someone they are not.
So many sick twisted labels by others. He had trust issues the girl he liked said no a week later ended up with hid best friend. The same girl who made out with his brother. His family with their tough love his efforts never felt good enough.
He loved to jog but the stress was too much causing him to lose interest. Gave it up for a girl who tried to change him. He was tired of making her happy when she was always mad making him feel it was never good enough.

Older now asking where the time went. Yet to be in a healthy relationship. Dated all the wrong girls. Always creating pursuing a dream that makes sense, instead of having kids then settling down. Called crazy for trying told, it's never been done. Did things that have never been done quick to get backlash if something goes wrong. A chip on this shoulder growing older feeling bolder cozy in this thick skin.

Played with the bass thought of grandpa inspired to learn. Play the songs played with the band. Feeling connected figuring it all out starts to feel natural as it comes together. Each riff comes together from the tabs trying to make them proud. Believe in yourself since everyone doesn't always believe. Keep bring open to learn and grow. Over grieving from the hurt. The pain vibrates up feel it in those bass strings. Writing lyrics to share a story. Show emotions after being criticized for caring. Feeling it all melt away each strum nice and slow starting to play faster.

Use to talk to other writer all they do is make you feel good or make you feel like you can't write. Asking you to critique their work help them get better, it's their life their story. Who am I to correct their work not fond of critics. You've done the work put in the time, how are they are talking. Tell you it's like something else, or try to take away from the efforts made. Another day another up late writing they can't take that away. Pushing out all this anger by fake phonies. Will not be consumed by their hatred that infected them.

On the mats they don't take you serious. Making them work for the submission short means nothing. The sport is not about strength, but technique form. Being able to take the lessons put them together. Find a sequence or pattern to stay in the match. Its about a balanced offense and defense. Eccentric and concentric motions playing off the opponents movement.

Use to being alone noticed some have it all, and not happy. Always on the outside looking in accepted not always going to belong, or fit in. Always try to understand before coming to terms with that's how things are with certain people, or events.

He laid in bed wondering if he'd find the one. After one day relationship he decided to do what he loves. He was happy not looking for approval. He just did when all he received was criticism. Feeling like he couldn't do anything right. Someone was always mad or offended. He always took shots from his loved ones the truth came. It feel like another enemy got close to hurt him so much betrayal. Instead of owning up they'd blame him for play the victim because others neglected them or ******* over stuck receiving the backlash.

Doing it making the most of it all. Woke up sore that's the best feeling. Just work it earn it no one is going to do it for you. Nothing wrong with being happy over all the guilt trips. Caring for all the wrong people. You empower them to do good be great, but chose to be bad at their worse.

He had been betrayed by friends how can he trust anyone. The women he loved were never loyal didn't love him back. Some how it was his fault for their actions. If he made a messed up, he would own it. Most of all be held accountable. Never hearing the end of his mistake. Things are not the same he worried for others that allowed it instead of doing something about it

He welcomed her into his world hoped, she wouldn't ruin him. All the things she liked about him that she'd try to change or it all turns into hatred.
He didn't read minds, she was passive instead of talking about things with him. She would be supportive instead of doubting him. Making him feel bad because her values and focus was different from his.
He wasn't the same in the relationship barely able to focus on himself, how can he function for two. He didn't get complements so he wasn't use to giving them out.

Learned to work from the bottom and rise up so many want to start on top. Put in the time work for it there's way more to it. Sometimes its technical other times physical. Building yourself up for each level prep for every step. People come and go the right ones have your back. Regardless of conflict of interest. Some get mad and hold a grudge. That's the end of the chapter after being cut off. Moving on is the hard part once you let go it gets easier. Be open to learn grow and new experiences.