As a writer I have so many mind sets writing comedy and lyrics started writing scripts.
I'm trying to master my art and skill even though I keep things basic. My days feel long lost after being fired from a job I loved over an idiot who got to me and in my head.
I've been mad at my friend she breaks up and goes back with her idiot boyfriend. Shes a smart and pretty girl who settles for less. I'm always treated different I'd rather be doing my own thing it means everything to me.
I get involved with crowds I take on their drama even though it's not mine good friends stick around about you can have their back once they move on it makes things easier. You had plans but they never went accordingly that the problem with the film industry

Know the level and skills of talent within
Not given a chance opportunity cut short
Risks taken others think he is mistaken
Not meant for this gig or meant for the part
Counted out brfore things start
Booed off not the stereotype
don't care to live up to hype
Different not the same trying to shame with guilt
Told never amount to sh•t
Just give up quit
Working hard to make it
Be legit with The passion
Doing all that was said
Backing everything up with truth

I don't think in going against anyone all I want is to be happy. I've found love in doing things even though others hate on me or judge. I haven't been writing but it kept calling me to do so!
I think about how I stick my neck our and get ******* over but that's got to change. I don't hang out with many ppl but the ones who are their for me I truly appreciate. I BBQ'd on Friday ppl like the grub so that made my day, I practiced with my cousin I help her get better with get softball skills. We could play all day but she got tired it was a change of pace.
I enjoyed wrestlemania my cousin and I had fun bonding with one another. We watched classic cartoons from our childhood. Life's good I'm avoiding the ppl who **** me off and don't do anything for me and have the nerve to be judging me.
I'm enjoying classic music I got myself a chuck berry album. I want to get ray Charles next! I watch YouTube videos for music

So back in the days when I was a wild college student. I loved to drink and be very social, according to my coworker who was a high paid secretary said I was a wild child. On my down time when I wasn't being studious my peeps and I would have fun drink and meet girls. I'm over protective of my friends but did be a wing man for my Bros. I had a friend who liked a girl was not too tolerant of her but did down play my ego for my friend. Drinking is fun when people don't hate life or going through a break up feeling sorry for themselves. (Been on both sides) anyway one day the boys and I were drinking with this girl and her friends one was nice dating my friend now that I  recall. and the other was a pain in the *** wanting to be the center of attention. It was easy to block them out alcohol made things fun. Sober me disagrees but what does he know he's a loner. We drank at my friend's apartment a real **** hole but it was better than living in the doors. We would drink jack and coke fun times with the fellas. We got pretty wasted no one ate yet not like we could being struggling college students. This annoying girl decides to say let's get food. Most people don't drink in the morning but this was breakfast of champions. She says "let's get Dennis" everyone puzzled looking at one another *** is this girl talking about. She responds with "you know that place that serves breakfast all day." Ohh.... You mean Denny's sounds good. Let's go....

Idk my purpose or destiny
Ive always felt I played a major role
I can change the world make it a better place
Not trying to be anyone but me and much more
Everyday I surpass negative people I dont let their attitude bring me down.
I dont let my struggle consume me
I've always been me rise above it all
Im fighting back flipping off those doubters
The haters who tried to keep me down
Those who told me I couldnt I see them and plan to destroy them with my success.

my heart beats like a drum
raw emotions come from the music
the sound makes me move my feet
on the stage my soul lights up like a fire
fussion nothing like it everything else is confusing
the style doesnt define you but shares who you are
you move to the sound of your creation
starting a trend is your way and foundation
part of something great you sooner maybe late
keep playing the gig cant fight fate
leave it out when the words come out
stand all shout loud and be quick
your music in the mind the hook starts to sit

She was saying I love you to another person now she's around you using you to get over that person. She was engaged he took the ring back this was the story you told it made you sad. The day she kissed him he did not feel right or know how to feel since she talk about them keeping it casual but later saying they could not date or be a couple. Her mind with many ideas that made her indecisive made he jump to conclusions without consideration for his thoughts and feelings. She would do whatever and use anyone so she could feel better about herself. He didn't see the worse in her but he didn't expect her to be at her best.
He was confused about this fling she would come on to him talking seductive. He was respectful because he knew once *** was involved it would make things complicated. He was open with her while she played games using ****** favors as manipulation. Things were not clear but once it got too deep things would eventually become awkward a close friendship with mild ****** benefits would become nothing two trouble with relationship issues would become complete strangers once again.

Put on gloves did some rounds
Put on mitts did some more
Trying to remember it all came back
After a while the passion within woke up
Technique and form bounced back
The combo count hands placement on mitts
Don't care for macho ego or favoritism
Got tired of the back seat on the back burner

She cheated with him
Kept it casual he had no clue
He had been emotionally invested
She talked him out of it
He wasn't ready to settle
Felt like things got worse
His heart broken
Things never got better
He'd give it all up for her
He waited she already moved on
Shattered when he seen
Her with someone new
Once he moved she was mad
He couldn't be with her
But she didn't want him
Or to be with anyone else

She rest her head on his chest
He'd never been in love before
She was a dream come true
He couldn't believe the met
The live towns or two
From one another so close
Yet so far from one another
Two worlds not meant to be
Both ending up on different paths
Departing on bad terms beyond repair

Living through tragedy
Moving through the dark times
Progress made going forward
Mindset changing overtime
Finding strength to rise overcome
Another fake smile talking bad
Not giving into negativity
A new life changing it up
A new vibe trying to survive
Doesn't appear to working avcordingly
Coming up with something new

The voice went silent
Observed took in the scene
Tried to make sense of it all
Thinking about life
Appreciating the struggle
Growth from the turn of events
Personal development individualism
Spiritual growth a heart filled with light
A cheater playing the victim full of lies
A liar trying to change the truth
Manipulator playing dumb
Trying to pounce take advantage
Selfish pretending to care
In it for the love all pain and shame

When a family member passes
You will miss them with all your heart
Remember the good times
They all taught you something
Helped you grow as a child
Never thought it would happen
So soon thank you for playing a role
Well meet again in heaven once again
Reunited with one another
For all eternity

Clicks are broken grown apart
Families made starting a new
The days are long never ending
From a comfort zone to insanity
Trying to cope no reaction
Holding it all in
Not sure where to start
Starting over again
A huge fall letting go
It seeps out hard
Survive this pademic
Praying for love so much hate
So many loved ones lost
Can't pay respects
Avoiding the crowds
Be saved praying for all

Asking who you are
When you're not in the crowd
When you're not at work
Love your family even
If you don't agree with them
Tempted to quit where do you go
Where will you end up over time
Stuck in the transition some change
A whole new life path
Changed by circumstance
Find reason and purpose

Got tired of living a lie
Things aren't any better
Trying to stand find foundation
Starting over is hard
Doing things to pass time
Believed in love from the heart
Looking at all the wrong people
Trying to be happy
Around toxic ppl
Who steal your peace
Drain your joy
Happy for them
No emotions for you

Just a dream so many memories
Came and went like a wave
Praying to find true love
Random thoughts and ideas
Hiding behind the scenes
Dk if it means anything
Thoughts of her and us
Seeing through one another
Thought I knew this person
Now distant stranger
The dangers of falling in love

He admired her with his heart
When he observed her
He took the moment in
She had a loving smile
Her mocha brown skin
He held her close with passion
With all his being full of love
And gave her a tight hug
He thought he knew her agenda
He thought he knew her heart
Felt empty alone they grew apart

The internal struggle is real
Thoughts that make sense
Some eat you up internally
Forgiving yourself praying
Leaving it at the cross
Not losing faith
Saved by God's grace
In the name of Jesus
Amen

He wanted to write comedy
But lived a crazy life a series of events
Stay positive though it went wrong
He tried to come up with a new plan
Didn't mind the current situation
He began to reevaluate his life
Made decisions with what was given
With limited options provided
Made the most of things
Hard working coming up short
Thought about going back to school
The fear of having a degree
Without applying it to a career

Writing had been therapy
Cant say much most grt offended
Or they try to twist your words
Able to cope show emotions
Without them being used against you
Usually say the wrong thing
Trying to do right no hidden agendas
Hard to open up to others
Someones sad story is a contest
Just trying to vent bounce ideas
Come to terms from within
Find a solution to the problem

Thankful for my loved ones
Appreciate life and family
Everyday is not promised
Prayed for love with peace
Overcome heartache misery
Hoping to find the other half
Be a whole with feelings
Filling this hole within
New beginnings forget the past
Get out into the world
Be a go getter
Rise above overcome

If been writing for years and asked, "what are you going to do with it?" It started out as an outlet then it became my voice. A way to express myself without my feelings and emotions being twisted. The worse feeling is when you talk to people, and they give you a blank stare because they aren't listening, or don't care.
Looking at my bass guitar. Praying I had the patients to learn able to read tabs. Thinking of my grandpa; he tried to teach me to play by ear. It was fun but he's impatient with and expect perfection.

The athlete within wants out lots of wear and tear over the years. Conflicts with being responsible; trying to find a balance. Work takes away from training, but money is needed to invest in your skills/talent.