My aunt gave me crap about forgiveness but she could only speak up drunk get out of here your wasting my time. My other aunt is a health freak years to late after her husband just because he's dead you don't have to go out of your way to our live him.
My aunt I'd divorced with a bf but she her ex husband around she is everything she said she wouldn't be. I don't have close uncles they bail or divorce my aunts but I don't blame them got leaving. Just because you talk loud doesn't mean your right.
I have a ******* up family on both sides of my decomposing family tree even though I see most of the jerks like weeds bothering the garden ruining the beauty

Family hate that's just great
Aunt cusses out a persons morals
Not believing but full of it
Questioned actions because of th wrong
Turned into a feud like this battle meant to happen
Bros fighting not talking
Got physical before the wall of silence got built
Mother who instigates hates on others happiness
All perfection ruined by one pointed flaw
Sister talks big but cries her way out of trouble
Grandmothe verbal abuse generation to generation and the next cycle of crazy
Alcohol empowers the weak
Drugs to stimulate fake emotions
Sobriety stuck in the war doing good judge like evil coil do no wrong

They left you alone trying to throw heats of shade your way. Only calling you when they need something half the time you treat me different looking down on me. I mind my own don't care to come around. You know me down but I'm back up. What's worse is your my blood instead of backing me up your cursing me for not following. I'm my own person could handle being alone while you all gang up on me. Make me feel over the edge but not jumping off falling you're not responsible for my fate. Walking strong never giving up on my faith focused on destiny. You're not helping me you have no right or no say in my life. My self-esteem builds more confident the less I interact standing talk not letting you hold me back putting doubt in my head not listening to lies these rumors you spread. You'll try to beat me only way is when I'm dead. Deep frustrations coming out not pretending to be your friend I let the drama die not letting you in my head free from you no more dreading the day moving on no need to stay.

Inspired to write staying up late tonight
Thoughts floating in the moonlight
These games you play I'll never win
Addicted I debate if I shout stay away
Talkin to you makes my day and morning
Sometimes life is boring ever since I cleaned up my act
Taking it slow don't know where things will end
I hope I'm not wasting my time
My heart wants you to be mine
Your flaws and imperfections are okay
Just want us to be happy I pray
Felt a connection make me your selection
My hurt needs protection
Taking the risk was a rush
More then a crush not a game of lust

Everyday is a struggle climbing to the top
Over all the disrespect others have
I don't want anyone speaking on my behalf
Betrayed but still haven't lost faith
Mind moving towards ideas that sound right
Others assume crazy instead of different
I'm tired of feeling abandoned crying over love
The one I want I cannot have
She married someone else gave the life I wanted to someone else
Not hurt but moving forward
Once destroyed everything nothing mattered
Trying to pursue the life I see and want
The life that will take to new places.
Moving in the wrong directs
More setback and detours falling is alway easier than climbing back up
The courage and strength lost recreating and rebuilding a new imagine
Take old ideas sometime start with scratch fresh new beginnings forget the old.
Nothing goes right find what feels right and make it work

We cant be friend's because your boyfriend gets jealous
I respect you as a person not a couple
I cant talk to other girls around you because you get jealous
Funny thing is you never wanted anything serious with me
If im happy you dont like that I dont need anyones approval
I thiught the world of you when you thought nothing about my feelings
If I ignore you im the bad guy
You ignore me its justified
The thing that bugs me most is I see potential in others
What i think doesnt matter its what the person thinks thats a major factor

Sitting alone listening to music
Typing it out getting it out of my system
Eyes judgement full of disgust
Not buying or believing the bs
I'm doing my own not worried about yours
Mindin my business not trying to get caught
You talk about everyone else nothing going on with you
Drama and trouble all that's important is the truth
Not trying to prove myself I've already done it
Venting but I've said too much maybe not enough
Feeling the change within not going back
Already know don't tell me how to act
Im doing good your the one who overreacts

Standing tall take on all challenges
Ready to over come this opponent
The next obstacle so I can achieve greatness
Take this test win be the best and better
Every punch you comeback for me
They try to trap you on the mat you escape
Give them your all and some more
The body weak and sore but loves every minute on the mats
They throw a punch you come back with power
Refuse to lose or stay down never quit
Choke outs submissions regardless of pain never give in escape to survive
Gain a win to stay alive

Been writing screen plays learning production. The angles and setting a mood. The editing process is the stressful part.
Turn a vision into reality within a reasonable budget
Learning to do all aspects of the art

He always felt like he was at a disadvantage because he grew up less fortunate. While others had support his family never left the area. He went into the world tried more than most failed but never stopped believing kept striving he always said to his siblings he was the best brother. They didn't believe him and took his remarks for a comedic punchline.
He worked retail and in a family own restaurant he loved his jobs but learned the hard way never to work with family. He worked twice as hard because he didn't want others to say he only got his job because he was related to the owner. He didn't like when others talked about him or had this twisted perspective of how they viewed him.
He would. Move on to retail you treat others right and give your all it's easy to do when others don't take pride in their work. He was willing to learn and grow in the company but can only go so far.
He would spend lots of time writing on his down time trying to make sense of the confusion. Writing was his voice because when he spoke someone was easily offended or upset by his honest. He told the truth not what others wanted to her. All his life he got the truth and valued honesty because lies and fake people are only cheating themselves.
He had many friends some cut him out but he understands kids and marriage family is first. He wished them the best. While others would bad mouth him behind his back and fake to his face. He was honest and told them to their face things got twisted and those phony friends made him out to be the bad guy. He would be a protector of his peeps stood tall for them when it came to him needing them, they are no where to be found. He learned to let go it was hard but he realized all these friends are doing everything they criticized him about.
He quit drinking for a friend but now he does it for himself. He would alter himself for a girl who doesn't like him the way he liked her. Tolerated annoying girlfriends who ended up cheating or dumping these peeps he thought highly of but they never gave him a thought or took him into consideration. He ruined his relationship so he can hang with his friend. His friends never made time for him when they had a girlfriend when the were arguing he was the first person they called and said they'd never go back it was over and that was a lie he heard too many times. He eventually stopped caring and focused on his priorities.

I cleanse my heart of hate I relieved my mind of stress. Doing my thing life is not a protest live it the way you know and hot it suits you best.
I'm not trying to fake it but do it right do everything to the fullest.
Giving it your all is more than enough
Stay true through tough times
Be pure when the rest are tainted
Rest at night not trying to fight
Be alone others attack in a pack
They betray one another instead of watching their back

Woke up and realized it don't matter anymore
He doesn't have to dwell on the past
Living in the moment focused on the future
No more memories haunting his days
Can't remember the past all that is a daze
Free from the burden that weighed him down
All who kept him out are no longer around
Thinking for himself not influenced by others
No more voices telling him he couldn't
Back to doing his thing without doubt
Use to being alone and could go without
Not like the rest that's okay different for a reason
Not meant to fit in made to be different
He seen them weak vulnerable never judged them
The tried to knock him, he was secure confident with himself.
He had a mouth lethal like a weapon
he said nothing they talked provoked him
Once he spoke, shut them up silence was fuel
now they play victim now he's the bad guy
He broke free turned his back waiting for the attack
knifed before not surprised to add another to his collection
Avoiding negative people not inhaling their toxic vibes. Not allowing their poisonous debris seep into his pores
He was immune didn't want to be a virus like them but become the cure.
Rather then hold on he let go of them and no longer saving room for their disappointment. He was not one of them he was from another mold and they were the same never willing to change their ways.
He was open minded positive open to grow and changed believed there was no limited
While they told him no to think realistically. He had traveled the world experienced more than them as they stayed in their bubble like if could control everything. He refused to empower them and focused on his journey being more than he could imagine. He tried more than most he would not be denied and not settled. The cream will rise break through the glass ceiling on many occasions he's touched it been there but now he was ready to make it on the next level.

A friendly wave goes ignored
Flip the bird grab attention
Shake hands to be friendly
Flip them off even closer pals
Pat on the back for sympathy
Hugs that are meaningless
Friends might understand emotions
Family doesn't care to understand others feelings
But their own others dont matter
Treat you rude
Respond with the bird
Flip them off all of a sudden they havesomething to say

The hardest part is letting go sometimes great feelings end sooner then expected. The loss of a love one a broken heart. People loop these events torturing themselves thinking of new outcomes and posiblities.
All you can do is learn, be better for the next. be stronger for the future don't give up on yourself. Times are tough but you bounce back tougher.
As you grow and age time changes, everything what's in is out. What was is no more. Trends fade away new ones begin. Blending in means you don't exsist but you'll find the path so ones dream can become the reality or reach the destination called destiny.

Out and about enjoying nature
Fresh morning scent
Ripples on the lake
Refreshing breeze
Put bail on the hook
Cast you line
Feel a tug and pull
Reel in you catch
Came up short
Try again catching a fish
Well worth the wait
The fish are not biting
Out enjoying the sight
Call it a day make a day of it
Head home clear of mind
Fish swim away
You'll catch them another day

I write because I can't lie or keep making excuses for **** others aren't doing. I'm not going to applause them for **** they should've been doing. I'm sober but ppl treat me like the drunk I use to be I stay away they treat me like its my fault I don't come around. I've said sorry and never forgive. I plead my situation to have it dismissed the most inferior feeling to experience. I forgive others but its rejected. I'm during and hurting inside writing is the only way to get it out. I had millions of friends but once I took on sobriety they left me to walk the line alone. My frustrations burn up inside something fighting to come out and change make a difference. I believe in myself no one ever feels the same way about me

After the break up they had a casual ****** encounter. Things were weird. She accused him of being with someone else. He did not move on he needed time for himself. She would confess to having a fling with another guy. They were broken up and he could not get mad but she would blame him for her seeking attention else where. She was an adult responsible for her actions she knew what she was doing. They had broken up because he was not happy she was controlling jealous and insecure. He was opposite very casual and social trying to be accepted. He was not always liked by her. He couldn't go back and things will never be the same. They failed before why make that same mistake they already know the outcome why repeat this unhealthy pattern.

I deleted her number its my way of officially letting go
Ive never been good in relationships but some people go through them like socks
All I did was fall in love now things are over
Ive been holding back but not waiting around anymore
I fear starting over and you decide to come back giving me options with tough choices to make
I have no reason to be mad so I went on with my life
Thinking about this opportunity to do what my soul cries for
Using my lyrics

Ive always been seen as normal
But damaged just like everyone else
I keep in touch with friends
By things end on bad terms maybe worse
I get seen as a bad guy when their doing wrong
I'm not the scape goat I feel bad for ppl but they show no remorse
I get vibes but wrong about them.
I thought hood it ends bad
Not into this crap or playing
I did this but I'll be the one fixing it
Search for the right answers the solutions
Tired of letting wrong control the good or sneaking by spreading evil in my direction

He loved her but she was always with some else. He was there for through thick and thin. He was always single and she moving onto the next. One time she was single but he was taken. There was no chance of them being together because they always belong to someone else. Years passed she was now a mother, he was still pursuing his career.
She was his crush but most of the things she did was crush him. All he could is let her go and be happy for her but she was never his. She did miss him but never showed any emotions. From friends to awkward, she found him attractive when he was with someone else but he was loyal and faithful. He respected her relationship and child he would not go there, or allow his feelings to get the best of him making the wrong bad decisions. He would do anything but she seen him as a convince to get her way. He was submissive but had to be strong.

Today I woke up with a headache and one plugged up nostril making it hard to believe. I read something about love for the one and walking away. It made me think about things. How did that happen and how far I've come from that person. I did love her I thought she was the one for me too bad I was the one of many that she strung along. Lots of mixed confused feelings I've never felt before. The time together was like trying to get a fix like an addiction that could never get enough of.
Some days we were close other days complete strangers. Never said how I felt but when I did it was already too late. Things were bad and ruined to the point of no return. How that burned deep down within my whole being. Lost in the crowds not just another face part of me fades away. The time has come keep walking and stay away No going back. Over come the lies and see through the act. Those emotions fade till the next comes if it's possible to love again.  The warm within trying not to burn out

The urge to drink not giving
Will not consume or be consumed
Numb to the world hoping to be normal
Past due like the bills feeling cut off
Inner peace turns to rage and hate
You don't want to hurt anyone
Self destruction is no longer an option
You walk away wishing you could stay
The heart and mind conflict the truth is blurred
Mostly denied not the official plan
Only if everything would fall into place

Noticed that smile
Juicy lips covered in lipstick
Her skirt with heels
Classy a little flirting won't hurt
Flower in her hair beauty everywhere
As her name and number
Once you call hard to let her off the Line
Shes short and petite
you want to know
What she thinks
Her colored eyes
Black hair the right length
Not afraid to express what she thinks
Never change her presences make the day

I've been good and working hard
Doing my best to get noticed for the right reasons
There's a ******* my mind
We are both goal oriented
I've been focused and ambitious
Id like to do more for myself and other benefit
Lots of of ideas bouncing around
Id like to make them a reality
Instead of asking what if
As of late I've been asking how
Id like everyone to be happy but that's on them
In over lowering myself to be accepted
Majority of the time I'm rejected
Being sober and straight edge
I like to read use my mind not let tv influence my reality
Writing is my expression so I could be heard and understood
I'm hooked on good vibes not fueled by negativity
Avoiding ppl who don't understand
Praying to be understood

Some days everything hurts
Other days numb mind clear of thoughts
Trying to find the words to express these emotions
Reflected on all the bad memories
Enjoyed reliving the good times
Hard to sleep deep in thought again
Struggled to survive some days feel alive
The darkness inside not always dead within
Not always pure in the mind feeling blind
The heart beats life deep within the core

The emotion poured out no longer holding it in or holding back. He respected others but they treated him like he didn't matter. He did favors but once he said no or wasn't able to they treated him like the enemy like he was going against the family. He forgave them but they continued to hold a grudge no longer taking their drama he was out of the circle. All he wanted was to belong but he realized he was better off without. He hated the fact he had to give up who he was to be accepted. He would not lower himself to be accepted, they denied him and his ideas. He was hated for asking questions and for telling the truth. He thought they'd value and respect honesty too bad everyone was fake living lies. He never criticized but they always judged him for being different. He wasn't a follower and didn't owe anyone anything. They owed it to themselves to be better be more instead off settling for less.

over looking at the bad focused on the good
too bad im motivated to escape the hood
in and out of this ***** im better off without
over letting the haters fill my mind with doubt
im going to be the best i see that for myself
others make excuses learned to go without
ive been there done that i need new ****
you could quit make me look better
while you keep doing bad why you mad
keep on bumpin keep on finding the sound
im going to walk this town head high
well known all around just be myself
shes my type well see what happens
and if i get what i want and like

woke up early better than late
things are change in my mind rearrangin
from bad to good life is not that bad
friends till the end some are fake lets not pretend
smile on my face all the smack talking doesnt phase
in and out of love none of the above
youd make me sick but my skin is thick
i see normal as strange i think its time to pursue change
let you know it lets me know you dont care
im private silent you want to know whats up
im out wishing you good luck
you might hate me oh well that *****
i speak with out a filtered thought
you hurt me but i stop you from going through
im the target you missed now your mad and ******
im over all of this im witty and quick
sharp with the tongue your bell is rung
pierce your heart all the stuff you want to start

She was negative and provoking, he knew she was sensitive so he never took anything personal but she made everything personal. All he could do was stay away mind his own attend to his own struggle. He was always accepting and never judge if he had concerns he'd say it to her face. He is a respectful person thinking highly of others but was upset easily annoyed when he found those people bad mouth him or have no respect having confidence in the wrong people. Trouble about how everyone acts but he's not responsible for them. He was asked to be part of a tradition that was new to him around people who would make him out to be the bad guy. As he got older he could not enjoy things because some made him feel on edge. He didn't like confrontation or dealing with controversy. They joked he joked back and they couldn't hang so they made everything personal. He wasn't playing their game but when he played he was in it to win. He knows people change or go through stuff but he wasn't going to let their negativity be a factor. He cut ties it's hard but if it wasn't making him better he didn't need it.

That moment you start over after another failed relationship
You love the person and do your best to do right by their side
Turns out you mean nothing to them you are on of many she is string along
You respect yourself and stay away but you think of them more
Alone on the holiday when you want to be together
Thoughts of one day having your own Christmas traditions
Hoping to one day find love something meaningful
Money cant buy happiness every year nothing gain a greater meaning

I never mean to get anyone mad
Some aree just not use to the truth
I'm hoping to a balance but all is outta wack
Would make time both on different schedules
She's ben blessed and experienced more
I might be pursing  her and get hurt
I thouht she was the one
I wanted to be her one too many complication
Never treated her bad but I'm on the end of a damaged heart
If it was easy i d say away
Be better if things went my way
For once there's love and feels right

Another fight
Walk away and write
Thoughts get crazy keep you up all night
Clear your mind till it goes numb
Tired of others treating you like you're dumb
You'd set them straight but all they do is hate
Give them something to do
since they have nothing better to do
Always willing to grow learn something new
Staying true to what you love
don't let others envy turn your heart blue
Called you names but unlike them full of pride not shame
Fake to your face talk behind your back no courage
Walk away no need to share their pain
Block out the bad memories forget all the drama
Focused on being a better person instead of sinking with them
Not going under always wonder sound of roaring thunder

She's lost I hope she finds me!
The look from her pretty eyes
those eyes captivating locked on me
Her skin so soft she loves to talk
No jealousy or hate one another
nothing but respect love for one another
You hear her name and smile
Don't read minds not into mind games
Where this girl at in the world
Not in my world someone interested to know me
Don't change me accept me but I'm out if you reject me
Single to mingle so many ppl but so many lonely
Hope to find someone most of all the one

Had a great weekend caught up on my shows and got lots of writing. Thinking what I want to do with my life I'm older wiser made many detours and mistakes most of I learned from them.
Let go not looking back anymore, sometimes you observe what matters instead trying to fix things that are gone and not coming back. You just be better for what's new and the next time around. Looked at what I started and some stuff I need to get back on track with and finish.
I was too quick to run with the wrong crowd because I feared being alone. I work so I can have companionship but I'm focused on my tasks and making money. After a sibling dies you do what to do how to make it right make things better because everything is messed up and feels like it will never be right.
The family torn apart taken away put into foster care. Pursuing an education and can't do anything to help going to college up north a school that is like Mayberry after growing up in an all brown community such a change and culture shock.
During this tragic loss the one you see as the love of your life doesn't feel or see you the same way and bails on you because she has other affairs that don't include you lined up.
The last couple of years in a loop stuck asking wondering why all this happened. The family back together but not the same. The ex married and has kids while you have a hard time interacting with others. College an unfinished task that need to be completed a few more credits. Does this degree matter will it make a difference.
Many twists and turns to figure out my destination. Years of working like a full timer but really a part timer. Got lost on work because it was money to invest in myself but working so much I don't always have time for myself.

Not my story not my life all I can do is listen and wander
I feel for you but can do nothing more
The choice you make have nothing to do with me
The choice I've made I live with everyday
I try to do better not living in shame
No longer repeating the same mistakes
Doing right whatever it takes
Forgiveness within us a start
Others hold them against you but don't fall apart
Tough love is better than no love
Stay above the hate keep working get to the top
Not judging you don't judge me
You may not see it but I see things clear
I know you don't believe or hear me
You'll see I'll prove myself worth be more be more than I imagined

Head up escape judging eyes
They see the change
Try to make you back
There's no going back
The person before no longer here
Take your naive ways else where
Not the same how you precieved
Evaluate yourself before criticizing others
Love one another not coming between us
The life you live nothing to offer
Let it be known
you can't bring me down with you
Not the same don't you get the clue

Feelings of being ******* over
Thoughts of betrayal can't get over
Abandonment feels like punishment
Unworthy of these righteous emotions
Hard to get through
keep the lies from coming true
Stand up to the opposers who turned their back
Taken lightly over skills
Underrated for pursing a career
Overlooked success by underachiever
Slipped over for the next never given a chance
Promised but not given proper treatment
Lies and delays shutdown interest
Cold and dark till it's over
Not sure what to say the day is ruined
Can't compromise neglect
Dishonest words get no respect
But see as a waste of time
Never cross paths in the future

I feel like a freak by choice
But in a good way lead with no voice
I'm different from everyone
I'm the short friend with a massive heart
My piercings make me unique
I'm random but like to laugh and smile
I rock chucks attitude of punk
Wear glasses to read stimulate my mind
Not like the rest I take pride on myself
Being me is my greatest protest
Writing is my way of expression
Not into drinking intoxicated by my music
Fight to be me fight not to lose
In my own freak world
It's the place that makes me happy

the burdens that grasp your heart
you escape no lone apart of you
find out the truth buried in lies
you heart beat free
no more pain deep inside
stand tall no more false pride
you live for justice
no more giving into the oppression
who you are is all you know
not what they make you out to be
they say no but you demand more
to be the best possible for the future
see what is right stand tall and fight
never lose track of what is right
you are born free you live free most of all die free
freedom is the wind blowing in your face
brightness of your face lighting up the day
free speech free love don't give up on anyone of the above

The moment you let go of the pain
You forget about her the hurt is all that remains
Im usually emotionally unavailable but im tired of being closed in
I do it to myself I pull the plug on everything
Im over starting over ive gone so far
My favorite part of the day is when my favorite song plans on the radio
Driving fast wind in my face
Blowing away my frustrations thats the time im free
I feel like me when I work up confidence to be witty
Meet new people grow as a person
Tempted to get a number make a night happen
Get away see what happens

Been in a great mood washed the car
Hung with my cousin and his girlfriend
Had the last to days off
Got my workout done
I like to read and do cardio
Taking care of myself I got my brows waxed
Now I dont look like oscar the grouch
Loud music blasting in my ears
Driving feels right the road is home
Not getting involved with others drama
Minding my business laughing and joking with my cousin who has the same sense of humor
Not dating anymore not seeking love or approval of others
Not writing dark or falling into bad habits

ive been going back to a better time
collecting comics because it was a hobby when i was a child
i got a hacky sack it reminds me off my college days
******* wrestling fan rocking my tees
ready to go back to jui jitsu get my black belt
play a guitar making music release my soul through the sound
write to get it all out since i dont always have some to talk with
i dont quick making the comeback
learned to stay come not overreact
live strong be strong
be tough when things go wrong

not tied down by possessions
or worried about ways of the world with obsession
my mind is free to be me
while others slaved to be someone they are not
ive been judged and fought for being different
my way of life feels right to me
others tell me stuff i dont care to see
believe in yourself not what others believe you to be
you have the spirit others dont care to hear it
why worry what they have to say
talk about a waste of the day
free spirits roam go where others dare not imagine
the freedom to make the world is alright

This year was a good year lots of unique and interesting who treat me well and Appreciate all I've done. Sometimes I hate work but sometimes it could be rewarding. This year had been productive lots of growth and people willing to teach you they help you grow and advance before it felt like people set you up to fail. I always wanted it and it was never given to me. Learn to let go of the toxic people and negative not living up to the hype of others.
The sad part is when it's your own family complicating things. I mind my business and do my own thing seemed like everything I did annoyed and bugged them. I never asked them for help; they had this crazy idea I owed them 0r had to live up to these ridiculous standards they couldn't even match.
I never talk about anyone, if I had something to say I'd more likely to say it to their face. If did value their opinion but they left me hanging after a while I lost interest, I wasn't them or I couldn't be like them because not meant to be.
I'm single and no kids the rest of my cousins and siblings are married with kids or some have kids. I respect that life style; why does my way of life bother you. I'm not judging anyone I've seen these people make mistakes do stupid stuff that's on them. I've done my share of trouble making but with time I've grown and learned to say No because sometimes going along with things are the worse regardless if you're doing a good thing. Focused on what I like which is writing and publishing something.

Idk what it takes to make it but I'll give my all
Breaking through to be on the otherside
If its not what I'm seeking time to keep moving on
I act like I've never had true love or anyone worthy of mine
Deciet has me walking around cold and blind
I had I once hoping this will be mine
Wasn't ready before now I know what it takes
Willing to put in time and work my ***
so I can have my dreams be my reality
I'm happy for others I wish they felt the same

Quiet Friday night feels good and right
Time to get some writing done make it fun
Play the drums make a beat feel the music
Make others dance move on their feet
Tell a joke that makes others laugh and smile
Feels great like running the mile finish strong
Be yourself and you can't go wrong the truth sets you free be who your meant to be
Even if others don't see it for you only if they knew they wouldn't understand if they had a clue
I'd rather write than argue and fight
My expression no need to bite my tongue
Free of all the haters and doubters
That attitude I could go without
Night of peace heart full of easy
The lies you speak what a tease
Stay away from me please please
My Friday night everything is going right

When you apologize and never forgiven
You treasure those old friendships even though they'll never be right again
A mistaken that could be forgotten
Wrongs that will never be right
Make things normal again always a fight
Always in the heart this friendship fell apart
Depart grow apart awhole new start
A friend till the end never forgotten no need to pretend

Told the truth why you so bitter and cold. Holding a grudge now that you are getting older. What's up with the cold shoulder? We use to be friends not we don't talk act like complete strangers. Staying sober, being mildly wild avoiding the danger zone. We grew up together friends since the second grade. Over some girl who was playing everyone like a boardgame.

We aren't friends friends don't use you or ignore you only when they need something you become an idea. You are married leave me alone, I don't trust you or care to share my day or ideas with you. You have your husband to hear your problems. You make problems making me the scapegoat when you are being deceitful.
I did Appreciate or friendship but you have other commitments that you choose to neglect. I will never be us when you make it about you. You are a wife a we with your husband. You're a friend nothing more but now we are strangers because you made me out to be the bad guy. Your jealous insecure husband dk me but assumes the worse. We can't be friends and not associating is a huge weight off my shoulders. Free from you and your drama no more toxic negativity away no longer a friend but it has come to an end.
Many come and go I respect family and their needs come first once I do my own thing. Why can't you be happy for me. I was glad for you now you're knocking me.

I helped with your seed
Never noticed your greed
Think of pay back
Do my best to not over react
My pain and rage festers up
Build up explodes out
Isolated left in doubt
Worried how things might play out
Tired of fixing the wrong
Getting blamed for others
Standing up but stabbed in the back
Escape route of the attack