Should be a sleep
Too hot to do so
Listening to music
Singing off key out loud
To all my favorites song
One playlist with memories
Laying in bed restless
Writing down ideas from within
Coming up with something deep
Empowering lyrics to share
Thoughts to motivate others
Stories to tell from the heart
Moments locked in the mind

Made out to be the cheater
She's the one creeping
Trying to flip the script
Always told the truth
While she spread lies
Called her out on them
She's mad making a scene
New people to manipulate
Never cared what others thought
Emotionless like a robot
Doing what's right no debate
All this hate not losing faith
Never dictate others fate
Walked away not talking
All this talk not listening anymore

Time alone to write
Clears the mind
Day or night
After a writing session
Things are better
feelings change to alright
Another pen dries out
Time to switch it up
Start a new notebook
To finish is the goal
A cycle of improvement
Lots of personal growth

An old life forgotten
Living in the moment
At the beach an escape
Taking in the scene
Favorite place to be
Warm sand in the toes
Walking into the water
Standing at knee level
The waves building up
Some hide others low
Forgetting about work
Wanting to start over
Some where new
A fresh start pondering life

Toxic charm intoxicating
Blinded by beauty
Lost love manipulation
Playing with the heart
So much love
Had to stay away
An addiction hard to quit
Once it's out of the system
Recovery to figure it out

Never understood
How some have it all still miserable
Ruin a good thing definitely blessed
Quick to point out others flaws
Notice everyone's mistakes
Never looking at themselves
They are just as bad or worse off
Always been thankful working for it
Didn't have much growing up grateful
Don't care for drama focused on work
Why be in a relationship just to cheat
If you can't stay loyal stay single
Friends talking bad your hyping them
Use to have a crew prefer to roll solo
Dating again looking for serious
Old relationship is not the standard
Fear of making the same mistakes

She called him perfect
He was far from it
She wanted him to change
Being himself was all he knew
She was an only child got her way
He was the oldest of six
He knew about sacrifice
She tried to change him
But it was never enough
When she didn't get her way
She made life tough and hard
Quick to play victim playing games
He ended it she said NO
He stayed with her
Till she decided to end it

The look of love turned to hate
Repulsed by his smile
She cheated and got cheated on
He got played and lost
Eventually moved on
Doing better than expected
They couldn't stand one another
Not able to be in the same room
Departed on bad terms
Never talked it out made it right
Grew apart no remorse
Different people not meant to be

She always belong to someone else
Always in a relationship
Couldn't be single or alone
She knew he had a crush
He knew it would never happen
Leaving for college a better future
Sharing an emotional hug
He'd come home to visit her
She was finally single
He was seeing someone
They caught up over drinks
He was happy to see her
She was too a kiss on the cheek
He was confused by gesture
She never showed him affection
Didn't give much thought

Feels like time is running out
Racing time time to get ahead
To get it done so many distractions
So many detours trying to get done
Get done in a timely manner
Coming up with new ways
Change it up all time other ways
Some days are easier
Others pushing through

Let go of old hurt
Playing with old emotions
Feelings change not the same
Personal growth continuing
Asking question what's needed
How can it be done better
Living in the moment
Can't block it out or hide anymore
Tried to blend into the background
Meant to stand out be up front
After being kept out looking in
Shoved to the back without reason
Lots of change every season
Learned to say No without doubt
Stand on solid ground against the odds
After being provoked found courage
Confidence to speak up to others
So many assumptions made up lies
After being ignored being better

A happy accident
Not about that life
Don't miss the taste
The smell of bad times
More regret than promise
Made an oath can't break it
Did it for others
Hard to forgive
Learned to get over it
Made many mistakes
Friends to strangers
Now for ones self