Only if I could draw
what I see in my mind
Pencil to paper
Shade for dimensions
Fine lines dark and light
Giving life to the imagination
A look into another world
Showing the vision created
Creatures of another place
Life redefined Come to life
Through the lead point
Paper the foundation
Emotions and creatures alive
Before the eyes

We met in high school and time has flown by. You are married and have kids. You came to me in a dream. You put your arms around me saying, "how long has it been?" You got close to my face this temptation not right and waking up from my slumber; my mind racing fueled, by wander. The glow in her eyes, but not meant to be. This love forbidden only in a dream it cannot be.

I've been having dreams that came true for you
I dram you had my kid but you did that with someone else
In another dram you wore a wedding dress we just got married
I had no clue found out through a friend
you're happy that's all that matters
We weren't meant to be that was hard for me to see
Not going back but moving forward with someone new who is true

New thoughts new day hoping everything
Turns right side up another day
I keep saying on day ill make it
I believe in myself always open to change
Change anyway I can new ppl
Change the way things are done
Can't always be fun but something worth my time
Full of gain not into the same old thing
Like to experience and see new feel free and true
Identity is me not trying to be label or be someone I'm not
In the world freedom of speech pursue of happiness
Not your American dream but want mine over the nightmare you think I don't care back to the road of success over the time consuming detours

Sometimes I feel like I don't belong
Looking in from the other side
Once I'm in still not so close
So many obstacles to overcome
You seek a home always on the roam
Trying to find where I belong
keep moving strong going forward never back
Hard to get close to anyone broken trust
Be me wander the world be free

Everyday I find my way
Im glad you stay away
In the gym I restore my body
Write to clear my perspective
how I see the world
I cant be everyones friend
Not going to save the decomposing society
The best thing for me to do is mind my own
Do my thing better myself

Can't sleep not doing anything feels like I should be doing something. Thoughts are there so who to tell will anyone care. Looked at different treated unfair don't care to fit in anymore. They dk me anymore or what I've done so far to be happy with the person I've become. Days are brighter being alone no one to judge or accepting negative people down talk.

I joke around but don't make me a joke
Laugh with me not at me
Show me love stop with the hate
You may not see it
deep down I'm meant to be great
I'd rather be friends stop staring me down
I'll make you better this time
next time around not trying to keep you down
Let me do my thing
I haven't forgotten you
Idk why my accomplishment has gotten to you
Money fame doesn't matter
Make a living being true

Cold touch no more love
Hatred bass in the voice
Silent treatment does no favors
Strength brings the weak
Pent up frustration goes on for too long
Too strong won't shed a tear
Show emotions be weak
What it takes to be or seen as human
Down and damaged disgusted faces
Past you by judging like that couldn't be them
In there moment of doubt
Minded your own kept out
Stupid ****** expressions
Getting rewarded didn't do right but given more

Can't have the love its forbidden
She left you saying good ridden
Win her back it can't be done
She found someone no married
Her mixed signals got carried away
You thought she could be the one
But not today or any other
Formal liver forgotten in the past
No more love leaves a rotten heart
Starting over finding a new
The heart could use a jump start
Knowing she's gone but hoping she'd come back
Grew up with very little not sure how to act

Moving through the motions the voice within
Screams to set the record straight
Keep pure love is strong true to the heart
Don't turn to hate blinds you from fate
Tired of living and settling with hate
Rise to the top feels the world is against to you
Be a man stand alone face the problem
Stare back with fired passion lit eyes
No more bad habits change for the good
Be better and stronger stand up for your moral beliefs

Why do we care what others think? Most of the time we are trying to please people who don't care or don't think to highly of what you think most of all what you feel.
Sometimes you avoid them for the sake of keeping the peace but they provoke and taunt while you respectful walk away minding your mouth while they run theirs like if you are the one starting something.
You'd like to argue fight back but lowering yourself to their level is what they one. Trying to make you look and feel bad since they failed bring down the world because they know you are better than them. They expect more but give nothing while others give everything but expect nothing in return.
That moment someone in authority disrespects you all respect is gone. You should be a leader lead by example instead of making example of others because you expect so much remember its a two way street.

My day off feeling goid relaxing listening to music
Doing what feels right and what makes me happy
Work always frustrates me trying to make money
Do my time hoping to move up instead staying stuck
Over feeling used and taken for granted
I say the cream rises to the top
I've always been honest and *** heat for it
I spoke the truth and got excluded forgotten
Its hard to forget now I'm on the level
Its not where I want to be
on a level of my own feels right
Where I belong it feels right
I don't care who you know
Or what your last name is
I told my coworker id be associate of the month
I see that for myself others bs and should take pride in themself

More wrinkles on this face
White hairs standing out
****** hair with white patches
Wisdom with time
Letting go to get over things
Use to remember everything
Lost in the daze of life
Another phase with age
The heart melts in love
While the mind avoids
Being consumed by rage
Love for other more than ones self
Feeling complete can be deep
Losing it all can't cause numbness
Eventually the vision becomes real
If not you find another way to achieve
What the mind heart body desires

Shared a few moments
Thankful they happened
Not meant to be hard to see
A chapter of life that ended
Some nights pretending
To be able to feel that way
Once more the heart flutters
New encounter and experience
Can't look back going forward
Head down plowing through
Should be living taking it all in
Treasured the moment
The past losing value over time
Embraced the future open hands
All new suspense to face over come
Grow and learning never ending
No limit dream big live it
Holding on goals to be achieved
Open the heart is a great start

Buying the next round for all
Loved for the night
Will wake up broken
No other moments of communication
Once last call is made
Rushing for the next drink
The tab is closed out intoxicated
Not sure how to get home safe
Low on funds paying for the fun
Realizing it wasn't fun anymore
Alone pondering all the destruction

Always striving through
Fighting to make it to the end
But it's never over from fast pace
To slowing down taking in the good
Leaving the bad behind
Not going that way anymore
Learning to say NO can't be a YES
Being pulled in different directions
Feeling ripped apart by many
Trying to stay whole be solid

Always wanted to write comedy
So many offended and sensitive
Told the truth got a laugh
Made a joke got blank stares
Meant to make people laugh
Make a person smile
Forget about the bad
Not get chewed out or offend
Stop over analysing live be free
Forget about the everyday routine
Be free from stress lost in the show

Able to open up
Not be closed off
Growth over time
Unexpressed emotions
In the open at ease
Feelings making sense
Without others influence
Emotions not seen as weak
After being turned away
Walked away on the journey

Sleep deprived mentally over it
Physically pushing through
Giving it all even when exhausted
From wild child to responsible adult
Remembering lost youth of moments
Wondering why it ended so quick
Treasured in the heart escape reality
Full of memories some good
Most ended bad with no say
No reason just a change in the seasons

Had lots of friends
Did lots of favors
Said no once
Not acting like they dk me
Growing up ****
Sometimes working too much
Other times no money
Figuring it out is hard
Some get married that takes work
Some have kids start a family
A whole lot of responsibility
Life doesn't always turn out
Accordingly how the mind sees it
How the heart wants it to feel
Lots of detours and road block
To make it to your destination
Sometimes on the journey
Take in the scene and appreciate
What's going on or you'll miss out

A smile that's genuine
Not faking it or pretending
Always thankful for the blessings
Stopped expecting the worse
Quit being set up to fail
Learned to love ones self
Trust your heart keep it safe
Listen to those gut feelings
Learned to be alone
Not rely on others to please you
Or depend on them to make you happy

Only the wanted to success
No where to go on the road
No place to call home
More negative vibes than good
Failed relationships
Broken beyond repair friendships
Feared being alone
Seeking company in toxic people
Trying to help those
Who didn't want help
Different dreams from the rest
A vision only these eyes could see
This heart feels and means well
Moved on not quick to rush
Not quick to settle for anyone