Someone lied about me
Now people believe
Causing hate to hold a grudge
This bad impression
Never knew just what's spoken
Dk anything about
Not sure how to make it right
Can't find the words
Felt controlled trying to escape
One movement seen as wrong

Never want to feel that way again
Put myself in that situation
Trying to be a better friend
Guard down not so defensive
Trying to understand others
Always misunderstood
Dk how to react to others
Outbursts or remarks
Shutting down to be liked
Being quiet to be accepted
Don't like the feeling
Can't be myself feeling pressured
hide in this head to be safe
Crammed in a box trying to escape
Who others made me out to be
Lies that are not true
Focused on work can't get close
Always impersonal can't get attached

Told a bunch of lies
Growing up was hard
Doing what's right
Still getting *******
Got an education now in debt
Tryin to move up to the next level
From low income to well off
Never about materialism
But how you treat others
Hardest worker still not full time
Don't always get the girl
But came close was not the one
But one of many lead on
Learned from failure than success
Lots of trial and errors
Gained from experiences
Many strange encounters
Hoping it all comes together
To move forward and progress

Her blonde hair
Blue eyes like the sky
Got lost in them
He was loud and open
She was quiet and shy
He admired her persona
He tried to charm her
She covered her smile
Her made eyes show emotion
He covered his a bandana
His wild brows dull of character

Don't like letting people down
It bugs me to my soul
Gets to my heart causing ache
Drains my strength and energy
Taking on weight getting crushed
Helping others with burdens
Caring too much overwhelmed
Being careless is hard
Carrying an empty heart
Feeling lifeless like a ghost
Going through motions
Can't win doing what's right
Able to write able to pursue
One dream no say or control
Over the rest of the world
Made the most of it all
Sitting alone in the break room
People don't want to get hurt
They detach themselves
Feeling exclude from the rest
Nothing to give or offer anymore

Another day another in the sun
Not funny or fun anymore
I'm over growing and dealing with people is part of life
Not sure how to act or respond
To everyone and their nonsense
Try to be good do what's right
Another argument not trying to fight
I'm not worrying give it to God
Going to help with opening the church
We'll see how it goes down
What happens trust in God
Move towards him forget the rest
Always getting the backlash
Don't want to take it anymore
Or do it anymore
It destroys me inside and out

Meeting people for the seasons
Onto the next a whole new chapter
Can't stay for long will be sent away
Making all the wrong right
Silence and hard work going strong
Hoping to make it home and stay
On the road on the go for years
Can't get close or attached
Hate the feeling but it's the norm
Showed love got hurt stayed genuine
Walked away better growing strength
Gained for the experience and journey

Hard to love
It goes away
Or taken
A hole in the heart
Use to feel while
Now feeling incomplete
Hard to fill the void
Watching others change
Not sure how to feel
Mistaken identity left confused

Never afraid to try
Not one to quit
Walking away from it all
Come back to it later
Straight shave razor
Cut throat silence the BS
Ruthless always truthful
Don't care for lying cheats
Found away to survive
Always kept out in the end
Always working to get hired
No love appreciation respect
Clear mind full of joy good
Clear thoughts avoid negativity

Protect this heart
Loving others
Always get hurt
One sided love
Always giving loving
Never get it back
Or seen as an equal
Expected more got less
Gave up on it

Had a conversation with a friend
Talked about things that bug
That made me angry and upset
All those friends
Who talked behind my back
Told them straight up out of respect
All the lazy people
Doing nothing collecting a check
Who said my hard work
Makes them look bad
When I got sober it was a problem
Others got sober expect to be praised
Saying it couldn't be done
After doing it multiple times
Always hustling to get it done
While others **** up brown nose
Know what its like to be broke
Thankful to be working
Excluded looking in
On the inside wanting out
Can't deny myself to be accepted
To be liked by judgemental people
Being myself seen as hood
Even if it means
Beginning called ghetto
All those who laughed for crying
Being sensitive tired of bullies
Giving others the best
While bringing out the worse

She hugged and kissed him
And thought it meant something
A few dates with memorable moments
The first kiss full of sparks very intimate
Spent time together for lost in that world
When he seen her with another guy right away
He was crushed wondering what happened
Where it all went wrong to make it right
He wanted to be the one not one of many

Haven't had a good friend for a while
Someone who shares a joke
And a smile with enjoy the moment
Call one another on things
Not get mad move on
Be cool like nothing happened
So many get mad can't take a joke
Talk about others but when it's them
Play victims always talking
But can't take it

Hard to trust
Dating girls who cheated on her man
Claimed it was over then went back
No shame or self respect
Never asked went with the flow
Friends who move onto your girl
Then have the nerve
To be sad they got rejected
Or try to move in on your crush
So much disrespect frustration
Called them out on it
Told them to their face
Now they are mad playing victim
Broken trust bitter taste of betrayal
Failed friendship gave up on them
Cut the cord no more toxic people
So much shame all their petty acts

Trying to be positive
Avoid toxic people
Showed empathy
And remorse
Got used taken for granted
Used up doing ***** deeds
Chewed up trying to stay calm
Spit out grinding through

Actually being understood
Not being judged
Or treated differently
Going with the good vibes
Fighting the good fight
Love to write from the heart
Put it all down on paper
Showed love for others
Got hate from many
Still working to survive
Still thriving to get ahead
Staying humble slowing down
Always giving it all everytime
Who knows what's next
Where the future will end up

Always some kind of road block
Another detour to get there
Able to focus without distractions
What if getting the girl worked
Get the job on the first time around
Worked so hard burned out
Don't want it anyone just drifting
Want more stuck with less
Didn't want to settle
Working with what's given
Made the most of things
Learned to be humble
Made the most of things

Letting it flow out
From the mind to the page
Been toughing it out
Mixed emotions maybe its time
To move onto something new
Change it up expected too much
Left with disappointment
Been going strong
Masking fears and frustration
Use to be fun made the most of it
Don't want to do it anymore
Past due and owed tried to claim
Came up short got nothing in return
Feel betrayed and burned over it all
Always doing favors trying to help out
Just want to be left alone disappear
Fade away easier to than stay
No reason to stay the world goes on
Can't say or do anything about it
Not wishing bad but full of regret

Always detoxing had to get away
Needed to be sober
Had to take a chance
Stayed away from the party crowd
Couldn't be around alcohol
Can't be tempted or be around it
From the heart of the party
The wild child to being responsible
A rebel breaking rules
Now enforcing them

Growing up child at heart
Growing a part friends to solo
Some get jobs others go to college
Others start a family have kids
Pursue a goal and dream
Trying to make it a reality
Never turns out according
The plan has detours and setbacks
In the mind trying to make it real

All this drama not involved
All this hating going on
Slowing down taking it in
Feeling disconnected from it all
Lost the vibe not the same anymore
Don't like liars
People should honor their word
Not make promises
If they won't be kept

Not into feeding egos
Struggling with confidence
Hard to trust anyone
Confine in others broken trust
Looking for a true friend
Haven't been connected for a while
The single life can be lonely
Living it to the fullest
Haven't found the right person
Like a turtle in a shell
A safety space the comfort zone
Giving it all not the best
Doing what's best
What needs to be done
Trying to find it within
Confidence to be better
Strive towards excellence
Letting the heart grow
The words flow from within
A quiet mouth with a loud mind