Waking up getting ready for the day
Writing always sets me straight
Thinking what I have to get done and what needs to be done
Growing and changing I've given myself a chance to do so
I'm thankful for the ppl who have faith and believe in me
I hate to disappoint them so I have to make it happen
I want my own talk show that would be awesome
I saw myself being a sports radio personal as well
It feels I don't fit the mold but planning to make my own

Tears of joy tears of pain it feels good to have human connection
Sometimes it means everything turns out to be nothing
The day you opened your heart it feels eymptied out
You trust in the wrong ppl secrets are told nothing worth holding onto
You fight for the lost cause seeking reason
Anxious for closure peace within hope to feel complete not accepting defeat
Your reminded of her but you want to live life to the fullest
Be able to speak without being hated or devauled
Do as you please without being limited
Socialize without others assuming the worse
Be yourself without feeling curse
Less problems more solutions new friends that want to live
Not give into the failed past carrying it around like a labeled scar reminding you of a painful time
All the broken trust restored no more shattered dream

Pushed through the pain
Body not use to jogging
The fear of inurying a bad knee
Music at the right tempo
Deep breaths to give the muscles oxygen
Clearing the mind focused on the jog
Stopping is quitting
Slowing down is showing weakness
Push to get fit take back your endurance
Find discipline reshape your body
Get fit do it right make everything tight

I took a late night jog
It cleared my mind pf insanity
Listening to loud music
Memories burning and crashing
Free my mind and body of imprisonment
Stressed and over worked attending all I've been neglecting
Blinded by love other distractions I have no control over
Meeting fast easy women trying to settle down
Now im moving forward avoiding all the wrong
Not the scapegoat for my friends who leave their families to blame me
Back to the single life only I can make myself happy I know better then to rely on anyone
Confidence in myself is more important then finding it in another person
Sharing worlds is hard becoming one means giving up part of yourself

Silence in the night feels alright time to write
In late hours I create many untold stories
I write on thi page Facebook and journal
The voice in my head always knows what to say but speaking my thoughts is a weakness
I've thought of all the possiblities and outcomes but not sure what path to pursue
I've noticed bad behavior is rewarded but if It was me there would be consequences or I'd be let go for my actions or remarks.
I've been treated unworthy of respect but earned my way showed I'm worthy but always start back at step one not exactly where I see myself being.
The ppl I've admire self discipline respect not my crowd but looked past their differences where mine are used to hang me playing factors against all the good.
I gave up trying to please ppl and being someone I'm not has made things easier for me. It's dead weight off my shoulders. I left things but will return its not my time yet. I've always had confidence just pacing rushing burned me out.
The next level I know and feel I should be there but maybe I was there but so focused on my mistakes and setbacks.

The cat eats and sleep
Very selective you could be sad
No where to be found
When the cat gives you attention
They are hungry or decided they like you
You pet the cat they leave
The cat hides out you forget you have one
The cat meows for attention
They want you on your terms
The claws scratch when they play

I got inspired to tell stories and see how many ppl relate
Also know what I'm talking about lots of sub cultures are out there and exsist many catch phrase and different ways to do things but the same.
I grew up in a tough environment others did the same maybe worse.
Everyone has their favorite activities and hand out spots! I'm sober to me that way better than drinking feeling sorry for myself drowning out my sorrows to feel better about myself. I'm a soda drinker who loves to drive usually the DD
I like to read gives me insight for writing I tweak it or write stories that are similar but aim to be better.
I've always been a rebel but feared being alone so I tried to fit in found out I'm better off with out! I created the cool guy table anyone can sit with me just don't bring an ego or act like your better when your clearly not. I might hang with the rejects or ppl who are misunderstood but it feels good to belong somewhere

Years of verbal abuse
Mentally damaged to get the lesson
Emotionally detached from pain
Treated as an outcast trying to survive
Stay alive people leave
Feel abandoned never coming back
Not standing in the way
Depart wondering will paths cross another day
Reach out no answer
Many questions left unanswered
Change has begun for the better
Deep down something is wrong
Cries for help not answered
Learn to make it out of the clutch of guilt

Kind of annoyed always straight up and forward open to talk but making me out to be the bad guy because you are overwhelmed. Being two face won't get you anywhere but you make problems and don't deal with them. I help try to provide solutions Im not permanent but work like a fulltimer because it's the right thing to do you knock me down but I'll comeback show you how it's done. You expect too much but never give or make an effort to talk about your concerns. You lash out bark but no bite I respect your calls even if you are wrong. Ive made mistakes and owned up while you act flawless and careless towards others

When you see someone you love in a whole new light
The memory not corresponding to the current action.
All the good times turned to bad, failed but glad it happened
From a leader to a follower not the person I use to know
Seen you as strong, we use to bond. now you are weak and submissive.
When it came to me I got the third degree and tough love
Now you crumble before my eyes in my mind asking why
The person I once knew is no longer you
As I grow no longer the same person you once knew
From single to married mother of two
I always wanted you but never saw our future in that light
Failed and broken at the end of the night
When I was single you always belong to someone else
The time I was in a relationship you were single and expressed interest
Put in a situation leave my current relationship
Leave for someone who gave me a chance
For someone I wanted now it could be a reality
Is it meant to be or would guilt consume me over desire that could later scar burnt by misery
Always in my head fear of making the wrong decision both felt right but sometimes things that felt right could lead to making bad a decision.

From close to distant
Love to loveless
Passionate kisses to no kiss
Warm huges to cold emotions
Glares of love to emotionless stares
Talking aad sharing feelings
now complete strangers
Include now left out forgotten
History is there but not remember
A friendship left in the past

Worked hard still not done even when I make it I plan to keep going forward. Been hurt before and couldn't say it so I refuse to let it happen again. I protect my heart act like I've never been hurt before. Gave my life to God, things have changed for the better. I'm doing right and staying positive.

Interview for the job told I was wanted to be the guy. Turns out it was a lie, loyal to the wrong people. All the anger and frustration wanting to spread the hate. Meant for better not going to over react walking away the noble way meant for something better.
Finish old tasks get back on track lots of projects that need to be finished fond peace and close. The person who did me ***** acting like I'm the one who did wrong.
All the humiliation and shame feeling mocked like everyone laughing at my pain. Choosing peace over sinking to their level staying in my lane. Working my time slot going home doing my part going home.
The new person incharge dk my work but quick to call me inexperienced. I was doing more than the lead now I'm at the bottom ready to start over somewhere new.
All the lies spread to knock me down quick to bounce back from this detour. So many lies causing setback rise up with the truth.

Made it through th 2nd job interview one more. I hope I get this job after all I went through. I've been good and hope things get better. Sometimes things are not what you imagine but being able to grasp and hold on makes things worth while.
I've been writing and trying to escape this writers block I want to say it but saying it with impact is the best way to go.
Thinking about why things got ******* up but focused on the good and change coming my way plus my bday is a week away the one day that makes me happy the most every yeah. I've been good and deserve better thankful for things coming my way.

The boy that loved a girl, they shared a moment. He would do anything to get that moment back. They grew a part from friends to strangers. Things would never be the same his heart said yes even though she wasn't right for him. She moved on married and kids while he thought about her life. He grew up with tough love and she was always the center of attention.

It's easy to quit but hard to start
You could do anything
when you have heart
A giant feels equal in size
Speaking the truth is a prize
Most obstacles bevome conquered
Fear is a limitation
dominate with strength
Have the honor to better yourself
The courage to make it happen
Stand up for a reason full of purpose
Define yourself find truth within
once you've discovered how to redefined
Utter the truth speak words rich of knowledge

Rich or poor doesn't matter when you dk who you are anymore
Love and live life Sometimes you fail and wander lost not my cause
Keep trying but so far from where I set out to be
They want you to argue for them but they are the ones talking about you
My skin color doesn't come with a stereotype
My reality is not taboo my way of life is changing from child to man
My *** and gender are not to keep me superior
Don't care for labels
My beliefs and religion are not the same

why do you cheat on the one you claim to love
you play the victim when you get cheated on
the courage to say i love you is the lie
say what you mean not what the person wants to her
you wake up alone false talk about being grown
she gave you her heart and you tore it apart
looked in to those loving eyes now they see hate
only if the love was true everything would be great
you claim this love but have another mate
one love is true while the other is a lust
with broken hearts how could anyone trust
cheat on the one you love cheat on the one you dont love
you think this way is okay in the end youll be exposed
wearing the label be forever know as a cheater
oncw you get cause you know its over
but keep tryin living forever more in your cheating ways

Thankful for my personal growth
Focused on my routine
Not dating anymore
so money and dont even know it
Not looking for it but doing what I love
Loud music at the gym
Reading while doing my cardio
Taking care of myself
Not being to hard but on the right path
Im writing to stay sharp and focused
The new me is meant to be

Like a bolt
Thoughts are like saving bonds
You eventually cash them
Get your way the proce is right
Come out even end up broke
Find out the ppl talking are a joke
They bully but can't fight mad at others
Turn out they can't act right
Words on fire burning passion
Melt them down to ash
Nothing left thats how they feel
Hate on you because you come real
Beat them at their foolish game
Don't get your way ain't that ashame

The day his daughter was born he changed he knew it wasn't about him. he would put her and needs first. He loved her mother but it was not meant to be. The ex loved him only because they had a daughter together other than that she moved on. His daughter is the reason he grew up, he wanted to give her the life, he never had.
Life was more meaningful and had more purpose. He did it for her took more responsibly no longer about himself.
The little one changed the world he smile and curly hair. Her grandmother not ready to be one but was a better grandma than a mother but that's the son being bias. His siblings became uncle's and sister was now an aunt. It brought the family together since everyone was distant. Everyone grew up trying to survive live their own life. The family was uniting after all these years of holding a grudge, being divided over the past. The future was now times were changing.

Put it out of course others have doubts
Twist and turn the meaning of words
Right or wrong it needed to be said
Real emotions cantle expressed
Too many jerks shut down the topic
Accuse or trying to understand
Try not to be sensitive but feel dumb
Rude bullies talk like they know but have no clue
Emotions beat black and blue
Thoughts to strike overeact that the trigger to help them win
Loss of temper feels like a sin
Mouth burns a hole in their heart
Can't handle the lynch they started on others
Being honest is the code
Truth is cold not trying to hold on
Or give them the upper hand
Thumbs down check them no more messing around

I don't write for money I write for freedom to express myself. I think what I have to say and write it. I don't seek approval or want to be praise for my work. It's stuff I feel and believe sometimes other ppl oppose me and that's alright as well.
I've been writing for about 10 years its my form of sanity. It helps me get out what needs to be said I'm straight to the point and wish I didn't respect others feelings so I could say it to there face. If I could address my situation without ppl being so sensitive. I don't think I'd write as much as I do.
After my brothers death I have a hard time trusting ppl some know the truth behind my mystery but not saying anything.
The silence is infuriating the show loyalty to a ****** than my brothers family. Even though my family doesn't have much we help out as much as we can. I've come to terms but that won't bring the fallen back even if all the right answer were provided

He use to get nervous when she would talk to him. He feared rejection and how she viewed him and seen him differently. He always dated the wrong women but with her things felt right. He never trusted his gut when it came to giving his heart to others. He was weird and different part of his charm. He cared for people even though they never treated him right or fair. He was always positive how he seen the world looked for good when most things were bad or went wrong. He would mind his business and did his own thing. He would worry for others but they didn't want to be helped or saved he prayed for them even though he wasn't a priority his friendship was an option even though it would be turned down because everyone got older focused on relationships or getting married plus having kids. He wanted that life but it was not the time. He wanted to make the most of life and enjoy his youth while time passed it would slip away.
He was not driven by money but did want to make a career and money off what he loved. People always inspired him or made him be more because he can't do it all by himself.

Knew her as strong wondering where it all went wrong
She was stuck in drugs not the same anymore
Her personality hard to forget her addiction so much regret
Trying to help find a lost friend this made her cut you off as a friend
It was her choice to get clean she clumps you with the bad
All the fears and tears not much could be said or done
Only time will tell commitment detoxing is hell
In and out of my system, out of myself not feeling the same

Always writing wondering, how my words could inspire. Striving and surviving work hard feel alive no more being dead walking numb emotionless.
Thankful full of life feeling alive and revived
Not making the same mistakes or giving in all in for the win. Been going strong pray nothing goes wrong. Stay focused, finish strong.
Overcome many struggles fighting to stay on top
Did it many ways and failed will faith and strong will all prevails.
Clean mind staying sober, being alone and write it feels right. Avoiding negative people focused on my goals and task, no more drama or pain
Healed clear sight, walking strong, no need to fight it will be alright

its great to take control
say what you want
set goals achieve goals
become the leader of destiny
no more detours or road blocks
change your ways make things better
youll one day love yourself forever
never give up on your heart
believe in love d what you know is true
mind my own mind your own
clear mind sharp mind one day ill find my own

He woke up to get his haircut at the shop with the fellas seeing them makes his morning.  he cleans up well so he decided to get his uni brow waxed. He went and heard all the gossip in the salon. Around lovely women made his morning since he's usually shy. As he gets old he knew it was important to take better care of himself. His groom days was his way of socializing even though he did meet people at work. Majority of the time he preferred to be alone. Times has changed and he did as well.

Starting over is hard but needs to be done im not big on resolutions but new years is around the corner. Ive been goo this year things can and will get better.
Work keeps me going I keep rush to I can get ahead making up for lost time. Im giving my all for ppl who dont appreciate my effort. It feels like a relationship but I get paid.
Not sure how to handle things some ppls attitude and behaviors are beyond me. I could only listen and image. Everyone has their own stories and experiences only they truely understand the best thing I can do is relate or try to understand

Not an ordinary face got back in the crowd
Not making a scene or backing down
Introduced to new faces new ppl different routine
Would like to give it my all but the time will come
Don't run or be scared good things come to those who wait
It doesn't happen over night but when it does things will be great
A good day to meet new everyday hope the good comes my way
Overwhelmed things have changed its a blessing
I wanted it not its happening can't do everything at once but will fall into place

Feeling insecure don't bring others down
Sleep deprived workin the night shift
There for others also the oldest brother
Trying to survive stay alive making a living
No time for living it up not giving it up
Deep in though and what not
Writing is like a drive mid way through
The wind blows away the thoughts
On the road emotions roll off the road
Never too late haters always make time to judge
Heat of passion old school music and fashion

Being a coach has is responsiblity
When the team wins they celebrate
But you keep them focused for the next game
You push them to be better prepared
The coach takes on all the weaknesses making them a strength
When the team fails the coach know the job wasn't done right
A loss means the coach needs to push and not fail again
If the coach hates losing the team should feel the same way
One common goal and work out the kinks everything will fall into place
No hard work goes unnoticed so earn it and it will get a positive outcome

Change of pace
Blessing that makes the heart race
Been to different places before
Seen the world so much on the mind
Trees of green cold air breeze
Clouds hide the sun what a tease
Weather sets a mood of ease
Travel the work by the seas
Sun rays through closed eyes
Apply to nature
Temper controlled like a thermostat
On the road is where it's at

Like the cold makes it easier to sleep
Cold weather reminds me of football season
Layers keep you warm and beanies can be worn
The fresh cold breeze in my face so relaxing
Hot chocolate taste just right especially at night
Jacket and sweater weather makes things better

You fight to be on the other side and find there's not much going on regardless of where you stand
I've always seen ppl unique and interesting even though there's not much to them when you hang around
I'd rather find my own way stand my own ground
Others test you but don't even test themselves
They ask you to be a certain way and they can't even live up to that hype
I've been on my levels the only level that matters is the one that makes me happy and rewarding most off all beneficial
It's not what I want or doesn't offer what I'm looking for so why bother
Too many times I'm detoured thinking I mean well but it's not good in my direction
Learning to say and decide on my own doing everything that makes sense and has a meaningful with logical reasoning
Not trying to be the hero or get applauded for stuff that should be doing or needs to be done

He was a funny guy his best friend always had his back. Till the day he got a girlfriend. Things changed but he would pursue his dreams get on a stage tell a joke or two with the stage light on his face. He would approach the Mic thinking what to say how to say it. He would share moments and things that occurred in his life. He things of material comedy is the main reason he writes. On the stage blinded by the light only seeing darkness but could barely hear the crowds reactions. Did his time not very long but felt like an eternity. Prepared the time was over in the snap of a hand.

They inspire me to draw
Like most I wish
I could be super natural
Seen as a hero
Not have an alter ego
Most want two lives
I could barely live one
Live by a code
Help those in need
Get the girl
Instead of living private
Protecting all not losin faith in humanity
Give until you have nothing to offer
Not taking because a peaceful life
The hear saves the day
Doing good makes his day

The more I do the less things ****
I do great and go unnoticed
Make one tiny mistake everyone knows
I pour my heart and soul in what I do
If its not enough eventually ill get fed up
Take myself where I can be appreciated
If its not with her or my friends
I always wonder where I can go and be
A place to call my own
A place that feels like home
I like to have fun blow off steam
Tired of feeling kept out
busting my *** to be in the same spot
It feels like I have nothing but working hard
Break through so my greatness will shine
Tired of being overlooked for something less
Underrated meant to be the best stuck with less

I'm older looking for a healthy relationship if I ever start dating again. I've had my share of crazy and wild girls. There are different type of relationships casual dating, friends with benefits, the person you argue with and rely on make up *** to masked things right.
I'm looking for someone with common interest and I could communicate with most of all able to be myself don't go trying to change me now. I've been open and honest s great quality but its wrong because I guess the girl I dated use to like being lied to
It's easy to have *** with a person the hard part is getting to know a person and being able to understand them. Communication is the key because I don't read minds

Waking up care free enjoying the day off. So much to do so many adventures to go on. Stuff to read and ideas to write. Most of all rest and recharge compose find balance be centered. Sleep in wake up late that all sounds great my interal clock wakes me up early but realizing no work back to sleep deep slumber back in bed. Wake up recharged full of energy. Clean mind free of bad memories. Doing things that haven't been for a while feels good to laugh and smile. Make time for yourself ask what you really want instead of giving into demands putting others first. You like to help others racing the time, so much building up in the back of the mind. Days off free of a routine you get old see things differently. Friends come and go the true ones stay. You'd like to share the world with all but it's your experiences are for you take it to heart but it's not always going to be a part of you. Learn to go without and recompose and adapt to the new never settle always be ready for change. Never settle or get comfortable be ready for the day. Listen to the body mind and soul make time to heal can't always be on the go. Rest is the best once you're compose back at it again. Be free enjoy life for once do not listen to others but set out for your passion let your heart free be you and who you are meant to be. Cut the bad let go of the negative. Your world your way keep focused do what's right your way do what's right time for rest so good nite.

New day new **** the struggle continues
Fighting for change hoping to be understood
I've been good doing all I should
Not trying to rep anyone but myself
Taking pride in what I do feeling alive
Writng gets out my frustrations
Helps clear the madness make sense of confusion

I tend to dwell I thought I did everything right turns out things are beyond my control. Im not into the party life or use ppl id rather be doing my own thing.
I dont need anyones approval im doing what makes me happy and matters most. Ive always been a nerd judged for being different. Ive come a long way from where I was.
I use to be alchy but now I wont touch it. Even though temptation is everywhere. I had so many drinking buddies I had to find a new crowd. Dating is fun but kind of would like to settle down.
Bouncing back from injuries my biggest problem is time since I dont make time for things. Im learning to balance everything out

I think about how km going to die I'm thinking heart attack I have a hard time expressing myself. I feel the anger and rage implode within. I think about what I want to say but when it comes into putting the plan to explode.
I feel the power drain and shutdown I end up mad at myself it sounds awesome in my head but when it comes to speaking it I lose my train of thought or say stuff I never thought of saying.

I judge no man because I've been judged
Accept others flaws because I'm not perfect
Silence is a way for the world to speak
All you do is observe and listen
Respect your environment it will treat you right
The pain you cause others will be experienced
With age comes wisdom and knowledge
Think before you speak think of the consequence
No person is the exception or given ranks its earned
It's better to work your way to the top
Life is not a debate talk for the right reasons
Ask don't manipulate have consideration
Others have feelings dream to achieve greatness as well

Do it because you want it
Great to be inspired to get it and get it done
Motivated fuel to a burning
fire smoke heavy hard to breathe
One way or another
gonna happen like it it not
Love isn't overrated hasn't been found
Relationships don't ****
all the wrong girls no luck
Take the pad lock off the heart
if you don't love learn to trust
Open up its a start make a comeback
after your world has fallen apart
Favorite place one day share love
Share the world with one another
Live it love it do what feels natural and right

He went to work and wanted to be left alone. They assumed he was mad and assumed he was mad or upset it would annoy him. He just wanted to get his work done not in the mood to socialize half the time he tried to mingle and got ignored. He always was in good spirit but didn't want to be settle asking where should he be or go if they wouldn't make him full time. He was hard working put in more effort than the hired on full timers. He was willing to make a difference he worked like he was a boss but not paid like one. He acted like an owner to his area and gave his all.
He always did what he loved and made work even when it wasn't. He didn't like cutting corners or half *** the job. He wasn't treated fair but he thought positive he would wake up everyday a new person a better person. He was scared to fail but he came up short. He kept saying tomorrow will be a better day. He was over the lies false promises where they did nothing with him but get his hopes up. He worried ready to walk away find something new so he could add more skills to his talents.
He didn't like to settle deep down he had this urge to break his routine try something new move onto a new chapter in his life. He tried so many things but have found a match. He felt it was right but got proved wrong. He hated being wrong so it was hard for him to make a move. He was more annoyed because when things went well he got no love or perks. If something went wrong everyone was quick to point that and hold that burden over his head thinking they had say or control over his actions.

Thinking about my social life or lack of one
I hide with work keeping busy my job gives me enough hours but not enough to make me full time
I jumped into the vicious circle I called dating
Ive met beautiful women but their insecurity makes me doubt myself
Ive lost so much respect I admire ppl but if they dont think highly of themselves why am I praising them
Everyone has a struggle take on the fear dont play the victim just know someone else has it worse
I respect what I do why should I give and settle for less. I was never 1st pick why should I settle I found away things arent always in my favorite. Ive done things others have never tried been place othets have never been
Its just mind blowing how others try to tell me or look down on me.
I bust my *** for mine while others are handed everything I work for.  I'll never kiss *** or give up alwaus detoured or side tracked with bs that has nothing to do with me
I walk away because I might say something I might regret so I do mind my mouth I dk the situation or the whole story so why jump the gun.

I remember ex telling me she wants someone who takes control. It wasn't me at the time but I've learn to pick and choose before I was open and all the wrong ppl came into my life.
As I get older i realized ppl would blame me but that's cool I had to stop that others faults are not mine. I can't please everyone job or no job I found others are not fond of me because I keep it real and fakes can't handle that so they try to ruin my image and slander my character.
Now I don't bother or give ppl reasons to talk if they are running their mouth it's on them.

Im not dating because it gets to me
Others think im depressed im fine
Ive been reading and in the gym
Those are my fixed aldo loud music
I dont think or talk about the ex
People who betray me are dead to my heart
I dont bother with them and hope they dont come into contact with me ever again
Ive always been open and honest
Not making time for phony people
Its hard to keep things situated but manageable
Work is for work leave home troubles at home
I understand everyone has a struggle but dont let it consume you