not tied down by possessions
or worried about ways of the world with obsession
my mind is free to be me
while others slaved to be someone they are not
ive been judged and fought for being different
my way of life feels right to me
others tell me stuff i dont care to see
believe in yourself not what others believe you to be
you have the spirit others dont care to hear it
why worry what they have to say
talk about a waste of the day
free spirits roam go where others dare not imagine
the freedom to make the world is alright

Writing a wedding speech
Ive seen engagements been to many wedding
Some end well others end in divorce
Need to say speak the right words
Rejected engagement once encountered
On the opposing side true love gets through tough times thick and thin
I see a bride wearing white
Men wearing suits being supportive
Families unit showing love
This hallmark moment you'll treasure
Don't know what to say yet it's scattered in the mind

Always in my own world
In my mind thinking of things to say
Words to write mind lights up like a dragon fly
See the world through my eyes it could be frustrating
Can't control everything take on what you can handle
You think and wonder but never know till you try
Not giving up or letting go of the dream
They say no but your every being says yes
Treat you like you don't belong prove them wrong
There is no look for the job but yours till you get what's yours
Too many tries not accepting failure till its yours
Moving toward goals and dreams

She's that bad idea that comes up
The one you regret but like it or not
She's left an imprint on my heart
She left memories in my mind
It's hard to find another and replace
You can't always chase what the heart want
From one path to another the environment changes
There are things you like and hate
Somethings are a give and take
You don't lose faith believe its real when it was fake
The day you let go from holding on to find there's nothing left or there to catch the crashing heart
Broken hearts flowing tears trust is gone hatred strong
The heart want to be pure and fir give
Don't torture yourself make it hard to live
Move on and with time away the heart will heal
Beat with out struggle find true love and cuddle
Eyes of beauty smiles of completion souls unite
One day things will feel and go right
New experiences new place new ppl to see smiles on the couples faces

Working on a few projects asking all the right question so an idea can grow.
Collaberating with others has taught me and helped me get a visual.
If everyone agrees and on the same page we can be way more productive.
Developing more as a writer, I don't write sci fi but grown open to the idea.

Life of glory never gets boring
Be a champ never settle for less
Arms raise praise
Wonderful feelings
Your hard work finally paid off
Things pick up take off
Transform to greatness
No more feeling deformed
I'm going to invest
Lose gracefully not protest
Win soak it in thick and thin break out
Time running out gases but not ending this way
Push through the pain
See faces lost haunt you with doubt
Like stone not giving out or goon to crumble

I deleted her number its my way of officially letting go
Ive never been good in relationships but some people go through them like socks
All I did was fall in love now things are over
Ive been holding back but not waiting around anymore
I fear starting over and you decide to come back giving me options with tough choices to make
I have no reason to be mad so I went on with my life
Thinking about this opportunity to do what my soul cries for
Using my lyrics

I don't bother with your lies
You could ask instead of manipulate
I don't need anything from you
Not bothering with your troubles
I needed you no where to be found
You call me when you need something
Half the tome you do nothing
But always caught up on something
I don't want to bother you
Everything is fine issues come from your way
Free of stress I can't complain
Not dealin with you sweet deal without you

Listen to your heart
Pursue your career
Believe and trust your heart
Fix yourself do what's right
Live it do it
don't let anyone keep you Down
Keep a smile on your face keep good spirit
Stay involved don't get shutout
No time to live in doubt
Never give up let it bleed out
Find your way purse the right direction

Wished me away
Guess what I'm here to stay
You'll never change me
You can embrace me and hate
Knocked down but bouncing back up
Head held high you say I'm stuck up
Judge me but you'll never destroy
My charm my Wittiness
Left town came back
Rejuevenated pure turn to the heart
Stay true that's a start
Take on the world make it your own
Get in the zone in the mind your grown

They calk you names you start to believe them
You throw it back in their face and have the nerve to be mad at you.
Call them on their bs and they try to justify it as right.you stay away because your better off without. They come back like theyve done you not wrong. Life is about going forward not back
They arent right trying to tell you how to act
You escape their maze of lies now they play the victim and cries for forgiveness
You wanted their love but got nothing now love is appreciated else where now they act like they care you learn the hard way life is not fair
You chase success and failures try to bring you down with them. Get in shape others hate. You know what you want they compromise you to settle for less when you should be at your best

What we had is great we depart that was our fate
Calls everyday to barely talking
A morning text now I stare at the phone
Hoping its her the silences means its over
No more coming over
A hug for goodbye no kiss
Felt the love but it ended fast
Her rules and naive way had me gased
Moving on not waiting around
Too many false promises
We talked of marriage not going to happen
Kids of her own but not my own
She wants to lust around I wanted her for my own
To fall in love to find true emotions
World collide but not meant to be
Told myself id be great with or without you
Thank you for the confidence boost
Closure and at peace live to be free
Youre in my heart wish you the best
End of this romance time for a fresh new start

You claim to love me why are you leaving
I may not be the one why is there someone else
You hurt me with lies my heart hurts and cries out
Who can I trust when all we had was a lust
You moved on I stay away when I start over you try to comeback and stay
Hou put me in a pickle I just want to be safe
Mess with my mind want what was instead of realizing what's going on now
You go with someone who has money been through so much all I can do is appreciate life
Moving on to better not expecting you to comeback if I said I love you you'll never feel the way I do turns out you were never true

I think about all the girls who rejected me
Lead me on made me feel good and took it away from me
Said on thing but did another
Made me feel like like I wasnt good enough
Because they were insecure or being shady behind my back
Picking a fight with me projecting their wrong on on me
Ignored me when I tried to make it right
That told me I wouldnt amount to anything
Used me and pushed me aside
So many days pass I just want to forget
Let go but I use that as motivation
One day prove them wrong show them im better its their loss.
All I wanted was to get along
Now its time to be my best and move on

Tears of joy tears of pain it feels good to have human connection
Sometimes it means everything turns out to be nothing
The day you opened your heart it feels eymptied out
You trust in the wrong ppl secrets are told nothing worth holding onto
You fight for the lost cause seeking reason
Anxious for closure peace within hope to feel complete not accepting defeat
Your reminded of her but you want to live life to the fullest
Be able to speak without being hated or devauled
Do as you please without being limited
Socialize without others assuming the worse
Be yourself without feeling curse
Less problems more solutions new friends that want to live
Not give into the failed past carrying it around like a labeled scar reminding you of a painful time
All the broken trust restored no more shattered dream

The day you find love it starts in the heart
The emotions grow and you hope the person feels the same
Open up express yourself the only regret is if you end up hurt
You flirt and talk good times are made
The 1st kiss leads to much more
Night spent to get her sharing a bed
Time together made the world much better
Time apart the world feels empty not sure where to start
Protect the heart after being hurt
Eventually you'll open up and find true love in one another
Time away sometimes feels what a waste of a day
You pray one day for that chance mess up and hope for another
If it don't happen it's not meant to be
A whole new world open your eyes and see what it has to offer

sometimes i call the play by play
or call the action before it happens
i add details to what i see
make nothing into something
clever mind with deep dark thoughts
my clear mind makes the world
seem there is more to find
be open and not hide from what you know
or doing what you know you can do
i write to you this might be a clue
whatever you do thats up to you
everyday is a new beginning
never settle for an ending
love the start enjoy the middle
keep the end goin till the day
you end up in the ground
live before you die
try before you end it
the day you die its over not like you have a say

Inspired to write staying up late tonight
Thoughts floating in the moonlight
These games you play I'll never win
Addicted I debate if I shout stay away
Talkin to you makes my day and morning
Sometimes life is boring ever since I cleaned up my act
Taking it slow don't know where things will end
I hope I'm not wasting my time
My heart wants you to be mine
Your flaws and imperfections are okay
Just want us to be happy I pray
Felt a connection make me your selection
My hurt needs protection
Taking the risk was a rush
More then a crush not a game of lust

Starting over is hard but needs to be done im not big on resolutions but new years is around the corner. Ive been goo this year things can and will get better.
Work keeps me going I keep rush to I can get ahead making up for lost time. Im giving my all for ppl who dont appreciate my effort. It feels like a relationship but I get paid.
Not sure how to handle things some ppls attitude and behaviors are beyond me. I could only listen and image. Everyone has their own stories and experiences only they truely understand the best thing I can do is relate or try to understand

Woke up feelin great
No room in my heart for hate
Clear the mind and write
Morning jog sounds right
Be set only cheating yourself
Don't forget today's the day make it
No more bein overlook
No more bein underestimated
It will happen  sooner than later
The wait makes it much greater
Laugh smile live best thing to give
Experience love appreciate this
One day you'll make it there

Went out with my cousin played some pool met some new peeps. I like people not the ones that come into my job. I think people are unique everyone has a story and secrets that's for them because I don't always want to know.
I've learned to hang out sober and that I'm not meant to be the heart of the party more alcohol for those who love to drink. I like being the DD I get to drive different cars and different music everyone has their preference.
Had a great day off enjoyed my time to relax and recover from my job its not too demanding but I give it all I have to offer.  I'm thankful for my job it helps provide opportunity. If not I can do whatever it takes to make it happen.

Been writing stories for my friends sharing my experiences. I'm not one who catches feelings right away. I like to watch comedies I've made all my hurtful moments into a comedy.
I've been good writing consistantly getting my ideas out when I could post them.
I use to be an angry writer attacking others I saw them in front of me and wrote things I wish I could say.
Writing has helped me grow and cope see things from a different angle.
I dare to inspire encourage others to be more and not settle for less. I'm trying to move up and grow being a trail blazer making my own path is hard but its what I want for myself.

I like being the third party perspective
Theses always the ppl involved then there's me with a resourceful insight of the situation
I could tell you he loves her and she treats him bad but in their own ******* up world everything is peachy
They could fight and put me on a side but that's none of my business too bad I win because its not my relationship I could just leave
I don't instigate but end up being the middle man who doesn't know what's going on half the time
I'm single because I don't want to complicate things or tolerate someone who makes me mad leading to me having no feelings toward the person

That moment you think you can't do anymore
You surprise yourself coming back for more
They mistreat you and mistaken to think the have you beat
Over worked but will not accept defeat
They put you down because they part mentally weak
You'd push back but your stronger and know better than to lower yourself sink to their level
Fall into their traps playing their games
You let them win by giving in
Standing tall you let them talk
they don't know what they are talking about
Turn away no need to stay meant for better not settling for worse
They can't hurt you but they go after those that don't know any better

cycling thoughs of insanity
my mind moves thinks faster than i could speak
see things done more than one way
i think of all the possiblies
right or wrong play it safe
no means yes
yes means no
only you know what feels right
you know you way will work best
other might not agree
the truth they fail to see
you said and have done it but thats not enough
you comeback to where it all starts
trying to remain the same not fall apart
the cycle must be broke and the world will feel right
change will come the chain of sanity breaks
no more hate hapiness and the world feels just right
the thoughts start again cycling over and over again

i dont always have the courage for myself
but i find it when it comes to those who walk in fear
i may not be tall or strong but i know
how to stand up for whats right
you make want to do right by your side
when i stand up everyone bails and trues to hide
you make the rules you break the rules
they dont matter as long as you stay true to yourself and heart

Many alter shoes exsist in my mind
There's the rapper side who tells the truth
The ladies man who doesn't want to fall in love
The fighter who doesnt like to lose
The coAch who brings the best out in others
The writer who tells the truth with perspective
All if them unit to make me
They are the characters and roles I play
Beat together like a dumb solo
Different sides many faces
New angles more to a person more than one dimension

Friday night and he feels right
I don't need to drink to fight
You think you know me
Not listenin to bs you told me
Let me be I'll do my think
Never more Will you treat my heart bad
Being around you makes me sad
I'm not mad moving on ignore you and your call
You can't replace me one of a kind
I'm one of a kind hard to find
Healed over broken fueled with hate
I plan to use that be great
Seek for closure seek much more
Glory ahead passion to make it all the bs
Can't take it till I make it

Told to be someone else
All I wanted was to be me
Did a job and ******* over with my pay
Never advancing any way
She claimed to love
but there was someone else
Promising words not honored
Full of broken promises
Do this do that but it went no where
Should've done it or could've done it
Of course it didn't get done
Fake friends bad mouthing
Call them on it they deny and lie
Tired of all the short comings
Short end of the stick
Practiced and worked hard
pulled from the project
Given to the wrong person
Instead of who deserved it the most

from three jobs to no job
change s always for the best
sometimes things go backwards
wondering why or how come we got stuck without comes
rather than sit arround ***** find another way
things can be done more ways then one
i may not be right but im willing to fight
sometimes you choose silence over saying something
speak up or get left behind
sometimes you cant get in right away
but when you do ride that till the wheels fall off
findng a place figuring out your role
its not for anyone to say but find your true identity
be who you are become who you are destne to be
more days pass the more you should want it
its an ugly battle but in the end it should be the way you wanted it or better

Sometimes I'm too trusting all the people I see good in prove me wrong but that's on them. Its disappointing when someone you think highly of doesn't value or care what you think or feel.
I've been knocked down bouncing back keeping a positive head on my shoulders. Sometimes it feels like what I think don't matter I mean well but others think I have a twisted agenda. I shouldn't worry or care what others think but I'm the one recieivng all the heat and hurt.
I've distanced myself from certain people praying hoping this will get better not losing faith. Focused on my goals and future no one can give or provide that for me but myself.

Up late writing another chapter
Another story where I write the outcome
Share and express bottled up emotions
Creating from life sharing my ideas
Always thinking what to write or say
Happy for my podcast makes my day
On the mats release some ruthless aggression
With my friends it's like my family
Use to being rejected going where I belong
Hated for the truth but always being myself
All hate and disrespect I can do without

I think I'm not going to participate in family gatherings I always feel left out or excluded. My aunts take cheap shots you think they'd know better. My cousins bad attitude but they always play the victim. I'm done feeling bad for them especially since they show me no sympathy or remorse. I don't need to feel bad or act like everything is fine but the reality is they **** me off and I want to cuss them off half the time. They aren't any good to me if I can't be myself or enjoy the occasion.
I'm ready to just say forget everyone move on to what's taters and will take me places. My future will be better if I stop fixing the broken because they end up breaking me.

I don't always say everything but I write everything. I'm glad to have a voice I'd like to speak up more but it helps my creative juices for my writing. I think of how I feel and what I'm thinking at the moment.
I always question my thoughts and feeling sometimes I say stuff I don't agree with but I feel it needed to be said that's where my mouth gets me in trouble. I always feel I need to got out of my way to prove myself but I need to do it for me and it has to be meaningful.
I got told I should get a girlfriend it's not going to set me straight or change things. I'd like to find love I had it once but it was a messy ending. It taught me to appreciate life. I never relied on anyone or expect much from anyone.
I like to write it gives my feelings and emotions feeling meaning that makes sense to me. My observations make great stories to tell my friends and the ppl who are willing to listen.

For hating me you seem to talk about me a lot
I don't care  what you do or giving you a second thought
Passed you up now your mad well thats too bad
Deep down you cleanse your soul be better put it all into perspective
Its okay to be selective you walk tall don't let them  bring you down with them
Recover and survive live life enjoy all you set out to accomplish

Burnt out in the mind seeking new
Empty inside want to be restored feel brand new
Things are right should lead to better
Sacrifice and scars that never heal
Pain that knows no limit or holds back
Friendships that betrayal has ended
Live for new but th old is not pretend
Letting go moving forward
Living for the moment
Time wasted lost hours
Memories of the fallen past
Escape the nightmare only to return
Like hot fire feel the burn

Got to watch your favorite team
Wear team colors cheer
Watch your favorite player
Team jersey wear it loud and proud
Nose bleeds good seat
Cheers have a few beers
Hats with team logos
The whole family goes
Good times bonding
Team wins make it better
Team loss has you saying next time
Always a fan alway tuned in
On tv or the radio better when you arrive in person
Show team spurt the great past time worth the time

All I have is writing and pro wrestling I've watched since I was a child. I watch it till this day. Others deny it but I stand tall. I never tried to do it because I'm too short and don't like to fall on the ground. I've always wanted to be the champ win the title represent the company.
On my mind is being the best achieving greatness. I see myself as the face but others will oppose me making me the heel they love to hate and boo.
I don't want to win the title and carry it around I'd be a defending champ.
I love the sport and would like to grow within or make it better make others comeback and want more out of the product. Too many times others burn out fur to short attention spans.

I set out to find love with the right person
I  stayed single because I didn't want to get hurt
Been down found self respect not giving it up
Standing tall hoping the right people come around and stay
Never wanted to get my hopes up so I stopped caring
The reality is it meant everything
For years I was bullied and looked down on for not having a job
Found I can't rely on anyone if I wanted or needed I go do it myself
I got back into the dating world my heart took a beating
Gave her me that's all I can be
Went all in with no regrets or escape route
I give it to god believe something better will come out of the struggle
If not I'm meant for better not settling for less

That moment you block out the world.
You size up your opponent in the path to destiny.
Once you set foot on the mats
You think of your next move
Reactions to the actions
Take downs and escape feel the motion
Dominate grab an arm try for the armbar
Tap them before they beat you
Stop them don't give them the victory
Out smart them control the match
Grips tight aim to win this fight
Jujitsu sets you free once the GI is on
All starts once those feet touch the mat

I quick drinking for a friend others give me ****
I use to lust around now others take pride in it
Just seeing who I use to be *****
Trust me I love achol and meaningless ***
But all you do is drink for empowerment
*** is fun but meaningless
Ive been trying to get to know a person but its easier to have ***
Ive been rejected another reason to drink but im better than that
Ive seen my mistake others are about to repeat ive warned them but they chose to live and learn.
Lots of people **** me off friends get mad at me over a girl that was never theirs
Telling me not to do what I like
I dont care for drugs my brother was killed over them my parent were drug addicts
I want normal but things seem more ******

Staring at the sky on a fresh night
The stars shines bright
Wanting to be among them
Lighting up the darkness
Taking in the silence trying to rest
Find love be positive make progress

They inspire me to draw
Like most I wish
I could be super natural
Seen as a hero
Not have an alter ego
Most want two lives
I could barely live one
Live by a code
Help those in need
Get the girl
Instead of living private
Protecting all not losin faith in humanity
Give until you have nothing to offer
Not taking because a peaceful life
The hear saves the day
Doing good makes his day

Looking a photots wondering what went wrong
I stood my grown I was me but they moved on
I wonder what made them stop loving me
Thinking of how I could've hot them back
Instead let them walk away no communication
I took their dishonest word and got replaced
Asking why but they have no reason
Changed and gorgotten like the seasons
The heart feared to love but once the love was given broken into pieces with lies and false promises
Her time was a waste of mine
My time was wasnt worthy of hers
Loving her was a big regret
Her wicked ways convinced to stay
Can't believe what they say
But their beauty manipulated you everyday

Ready for bed
My bed calls me
So I can rest my head
All the stuff that was said
Block it out stay calm
Don't turn red lose your head
Find peace in bed
Sleep it away
Don't for get to pray
Good night and good day

I do my best to mention names I sometimes think I could embarrass them but they manage to do it on their own! I'm not divorced or a gold digger now I see why your divorce asking why hasn't this happened sooner
You married a many to claim his possessions and you want to look down on others
There's so many ppl with ******* up stories they make you look bad to hide there shame
I could expose you and tell you what you know but I don't feel like lowering myself
You could bully me but your words will come back to kick you in the ***
I'm not fighting with old ppl who should know better but don't I know better and make up for the lack of respect others have

im the friend youd be glad to have
ill protect you with all my being
i want you happy the 1st thing
i want the best i want that for you
im so true thats the golden rule
ill watch out have your back
keep you strong if its strength you lack
ill laugh even when your not funny
i show interest when things are boring
on the way when you dont want me over
no matter what your welcomed over
call me **** is on your mind
i wont let you be blind
help you focus open your eyes
we could hang anytime
you could be my partner n crime
best friend i want you to know you were mine