im the friend youd be glad to have
ill protect you with all my being
i want you happy the 1st thing
i want the best i want that for you
im so true thats the golden rule
ill watch out have your back
keep you strong if its strength you lack
ill laugh even when your not funny
i show interest when things are boring
on the way when you dont want me over
no matter what your welcomed over
call me **** is on your mind
i wont let you be blind
help you focus open your eyes
we could hang anytime
you could be my partner n crime
best friend i want you to know you were mine

I said I love you
so it must be true
I accept you
but your alway changing me
You claim to love me
And want to share me
But I refuse to share you
Only of you knew how your moods
Ruin my day everything you say
I'd rather get away than stay mad
I'd fix and help anyway I can
I can't change you imperfections or flaws
I accept you no need to change
I wish you'd accept me
Let me be the one who you once loved
Not some emotionless being you feel
Is not worthy of you and your love

I remember ex telling me she wants someone who takes control. It wasn't me at the time but I've learn to pick and choose before I was open and all the wrong ppl came into my life.
As I get older i realized ppl would blame me but that's cool I had to stop that others faults are not mine. I can't please everyone job or no job I found others are not fond of me because I keep it real and fakes can't handle that so they try to ruin my image and slander my character.
Now I don't bother or give ppl reasons to talk if they are running their mouth it's on them.

I want everything that bugs me and annoys me to go away so I can focus on what I need to get done. Be at my best be myself not letting other stupid factors distract my choices.
I help everyone even if I dislike what im doing but doing the right thing is hard the intentions are good even though others make them seem bad

Losing that edge but pursing something better
Feels more natural then a fight
For once I could say things are going right
Ablr to smile not feel guilty because others have it worse
Laughed because the humor hit the heart
Expressed myself without doubt
Things have changed not giving up on what I've started
There's always a way do what makes you happy
Find a way get Involved with the right people
That like mindedness more of a strength
Never give into weakness be more not settling for less

Working the night shift mind on over drive
Work hard to survive thinking what to write up most of the night.
Thinking what to say the next time we see one another.
I hope I'm the one not just some other fling.
I like when you share everything on your mind
happy to hear what you say
You smile makes my day
I get excited when you say hey

I dont know why I feel the way I do
Told myself one day I'll be great
Don't know how to get there but know what it takes
Been to ******* myself no one seems to care
I do my best to be loyal and fairs
Emotionless I stare off in the distance
As far and long as it takes to achieve greatness
I think highly of myself barely getting by
Id cry but tears flow make want to get away do better
I'm simple but this are complicated when I thought it would be easy

Thinking about life on my lunch
Hunger for adventure one day at a time
One day my time will come and shine
Focused on my task everyday working hard busting mine
In the end all will be fine
Only a matter of time
Not the same memories remain
Heal the broken no more pain
Hard to be normal use to insanity
Lost in a dream blurry reality

Changed my mind new mind set
Only if you could forget the past
The future is happening pretty fast
Master your goals achieve your dream
In and out of your comfort zone grow for the best sometimes you feel at your worse
Stay positive beak the negative curse
You can't do it all take on what you can handle
Get out of the darkness see better in the light
Stop with struggle doubting yourself
Only you can get there don't look for it in others
If not today or the next the opportunity to make it happen will allow you to live it

Had dinner with my family
Today I celebrated my birthday
Aged today and things are looking up
Got hired new job thankful
New music to hear stimulate the ears
An exciting movie to watch lights up mind
Writing in a new notebook
A clean look new haircut
Chance and opportunity came my way
Thankful for today and everyday
Clean mind straight edge avoid alcohol
Kourpt ppl I escaped on my way

Control means you made it
Add to a new environment might not make it
Hard to survive rigged games and tricks
You have the skills but no heart
Others tell you your great but you ****
Years of anger frustration
Xcon praised for doing good **** should've been done long ago
Graduate trade school still no job
Degree not working the procession
Chech your story before trying to fix others
No one asked so back up
Times are tough chane of luck

It's easy to quit but hard to start
You could do anything
when you have heart
A giant feels equal in size
Speaking the truth is a prize
Most obstacles bevome conquered
Fear is a limitation
dominate with strength
Have the honor to better yourself
The courage to make it happen
Stand up for a reason full of purpose
Define yourself find truth within
once you've discovered how to redefined
Utter the truth speak words rich of knowledge

Woke up listening to the blues
The weather gray not feeling blue
Sleep the ways away live the night away
Write so much the sun doesn't seem do bright
Not more sad endings pretending they could be altered accepting things not meant to be
Only if they could see or understand
Music is that happy place brings a smile to the face
Rude ppl go away stay far back
Supportive and loving welcomed to my life
Changed time and time again to later feel the same
No more bad memories that remain failed dream brought back to life
Goals and standards set on your own no ones influence live somewhere call it home
Not into the bad all your negativity makes me sad
No one is bad they just make bad choices
Listening to all the wrong voices that cause chaos
Find your way discover yourself no more walking around lost

From close to distant
Love to loveless
Passionate kisses to no kiss
Warm huges to cold emotions
Glares of love to emotionless stares
Talking aad sharing feelings
now complete strangers
Include now left out forgotten
History is there but not remember
A friendship left in the past

Grew up with my best friends
made my own family
Don't like the way things are so I change them
Holes in my chucks trying to make a buck
Moving forward with life
no more being down on my luck
Girls always hate
the consequences for dating
We had a thing you denied us
now i moved on you cried not a lust
Not sure what to say
Live life no regret anyway
It's over not trying to stay
Small town called the crown
Full of brown in this town
Nonsense talk about being down
Circle city formal race trace
History lesson take you back in the day
Hometown I grew up
Heart is in to places different faces
Different phases cleaned up my act

Its another holiday doesnt feel like much
Got invited to go out but dont like to be around ppl who drink
Its awkward being the sober one in a social circle where eveyone is intoxicated
They feel bad for not drinking I dont like to feel obligated to others
I dont expect much of others but they demand the world of me
I like to be alone i gather my thoughts not sure how to process others twisted thoughts and point of views. Over those who claim to be one way but act another.
I try to have confidence in others but they let me down over being setback and disappointed. I have to be responsible for me not others. If I ever become a parent that kid will be my world
School for my degree work to pay my way through jujitsu so I cant prep my mind and body to be tough. I hope to one day find someone who loves me for me until tjen im focused on being bettter its in the works

i may not be the biggest but on the mat i become someone greater
you could try to beat me down but ill comeback for more
you punch ill kick you down chopping you down with all i got
standing taking the punches fighting this fight not backing down
you take me down not waitin for you to make the first move
not over till you tap out
not over till i dominate all the training hard work
the road block that will be taken down
i aim for the prize working for this moment
not tapping out or giving out even though my body aches
giving all it takes tap out lights out my victory this is the moment

Got a rejection letter that hurt like hell
Got an acceptance letter life was just beginning
Dated the dream girl who was a nightmare
Rejected by the nightmare gutted by life
Got hired gave it everything and more
Now fired never to return feeling burned
Met some good people true colors seen proved wrong
Never talked about anyone staying away
Slander spoken by everyone avoiding drama
A mindful mouth dealing with deceit
Not involved astuck in the middle
Instead of hating on others life
Do what makes you happy better yourself

Loved family but not like them
Some can't be alone bad mouthing others
Always stuck on the wrong person
Why be with someone if they are not a match
If you don't like them why pretend to love
Some able to handle their own company
While others look for it in other beings
Hoping they'll be complete one another
Cheating with an ex claiming to move on
Some are dark and twisted playing victim
Getting caught up actions have consequences
It came back around full circle

Another night talent goes unnoticed
Close your eyes but no one sees the vision
Felt great about the outcome still fell short
Worried about being forgotten
Never remeber for all the effort
Laughed at not made for it or suppose to make it
Try other ways even if they don't make sense
Body and mind fight to change
The norm not made for the outcome seeker
Hard to breathe headaches that never end
Pain everywhere could free of the vice grip
Only one level but meant for the next
Hard to sleep the images flash before the eyes
Always on the mind too much trying to block the view sleep would be a reward
Still so much needs to be done

Change of pace
Blessing that makes the heart race
Been to different places before
Seen the world so much on the mind
Trees of green cold air breeze
Clouds hide the sun what a tease
Weather sets a mood of ease
Travel the work by the seas
Sun rays through closed eyes
Apply to nature
Temper controlled like a thermostat
On the road is where it's at

One day the fuel of hate runs out what do you replenish your body with. Change bad habits focused on doing good being much more old friends don't know you. New people are getting to know you while you learn much more about yourself.
Writing always puts this crazy world in check your own perspective instead of others. What mattered before don't mean anything now. On to new letting go with no regret still doing what makes you smile pursuing happiness.
Always different from the rest even though they make you out to be more or less. Done much more than the rest don't need to brag or prove yourself worthy you you what. You can do only if they knew. All you is to be loyal and true.

If I told her how I felt would it matter
Would It make a difference would she come back
The moment she walked out replays
She never had any reason just bailed
Never made it better but seem much worse
Prayed for forgiveness ask the pressure on a wounded heart would ease up
You forgive yourself for whatever was done for her to hate you
never treating or looking at you the same
Let go move on only if it was that chance to escape
Memories that haunt which is history that won't stay in the past
Keep wondering how come the heart wants what it can't have
Escape the grasp to find your only a prisoner to the heart

I woke up early changing my routine
In bad at a reasonable time not up too late
Stay clear of those who hate
Start to feel great about yourself
Find away another way to get it done
Writing eases the thoughts
A jog that makes the body push through
Play games to sharpen skills
You live in the city prefer the quiet hills
Over easy girls cheap thrills
Not plotting or scheming just life life
White hairs on the head
Be thankful for life overlooked death

i got with you because of your style so dont let that go
dont give up on your body because you think everything is right
i want to treasure and not fight with you anymre
we could be best friends but you could also be my biggest rival
play with me right i will not bite everything feels right
my hand in yours our time together i write this feel life is getting better
ask me nice and ill do right by your side
dont lie to me because that means you have something to hide
i dont play games when it comes to love i want to hold you above me
show me your true i wont be cold but everything i say is true

I wish I could show how I felt without others viewing me differently. I use words to get out how I feel. I'm not always able to get it out but I can see what I write about. I know there's always something I forget or wish I could've said I sometimes relieve the moment after it passed.
I remember everything I see smell and feel thinking about the moment. I'm one who thinks way too much instead of feeling with my heart opening up.
The only time things feel right is when I'm writing I go into my own world exploring emotions. If I'm not writing I'm playing with my guitar the soul and spirit comes out since humanity mistakes happiness for weakness.
My heart has so much to show but the fear of loss keeps it from being hurt. It craves to be loved but it feels everything is under terms and conditions.
The mind a protector keeping the overwhelming feelings from being misled by the heart.

Feel the rage as you read the page
Counter act overreact rivals fear a comeback
Crossed the line said you were in the wrong
Expose them for being ****
Their luck had run out
Standing tall now they want a bail out
Let them expect a sneak attack
Knock them flat on their back
Truth be told your bs got old
Feelings grow deep and cold
Took a crush suppose to be a best friend
Betrayal brought that to an end
Must be told not holding on to secrets

When your Dave song come out
You can't help but Cruz
The tempo is set
You get put in the mood
Not in a hurt other drivers are rude
going from point a to b
Slow or fast doesn't matter
As long as you get there with grace
Driving isn't always a race
Get there at a steady pace
Alway ready to give s lift
Road trips get you lost in a drift
Curves and turns stay on the road
Regardless if the weather hot or cold
Make it there just go anywhere

A time progresses change always occurs
Noticing what wasn't there before
Winkles on the forehead
Youth slipping away
Hair of black a white hair stands out
A wild life takes a toll on an aging body
Bags form under the eyes
Cheeks wrinkle when a smile comes way
The mirror doesn't lie
Seeing different from once was remembered
The aching body changing over time
From limitless to limited
With age comes wisdom
The experiences fade with time
The moments that remind of a better time
Happiness is not a time line
All the time of life makes elders more refined

Looking @ my phone hoping she calls
Wishing shed text I miss her company
Only if I could make it right tired of it being wrong
She saw something in me when I don't believe in myself
She came in my life and now she's gone
Went all in.and she baled out
I loved her flaw and all her silence gets to me
Its hard to walk away when she pursued you
Its over one more chance to find closure
Id like to be friends  but you cut the cord
If I could get you back id find away
Departing ways wishing to find love together and stay

I don't give props to stuff you should be doing
Don't torture yourself over someone who doesn't want or respect your feelings
Do the right thing stop the bs and making excuse
Formal beauty queen now a mother
You lived your life stop controlling your kids
Faces of those who opposed and judged
Success will be the pay back
Breaking the mold redefining and changing ideals
The anger and rage influencing change for the better
Adding names to the list of ****** bags that need to be proved wrong
Destruction swims in the veins ready to do right
The body conditions to go further than the distance

Running wild in the hot sun
At night howl at the moon
Making sure the stars hear as well
Wolf in the pack wolves hunt and attack
Creatures that are wild at home
Moonlight sparkles in their eyes
Furry coat that shines
eyes that glows in the light

Life of the blue
My experiences true
Only if you knew
All the things I've been through
Not starting over
Finish what I started
Left with pain
Turn it into greatness
With or without you
Love for you slips away
Praying for better days
My love for animals
Warm blooded mammals
Lost it all working to get it all back
New generation raging emotions

Alway thing about change my ways
Feel like things keep getting better everyday
New thought and ideas streaming fast
A whole new world unites with another so fast
Not trying to focus on the past
Leave the hurt behind find something new and real everything works out will be fine
You can't buy happiness you can only live it
Keep on trying don give up or quit on it.
New ppl with like minded friends same goal and similar agendas
Looking for more ppl who feel the same instead of keeping you down and out
Stay focus drown out the hate find the truth have some fate

I have many judges but feeling like a failure in my parents eyes is common. I could be a success and perfect but they'll point out flaws or quick to remind me of mistakes. They make me feel like I could never surpass them even though I've showed them up on many occasions. It's not the greatest feeling but its what I'm dealt.
I just want to be me and be accepted tired off feeling like an outcast a reject who gets used then kicked to the curb
Many days get better but someone always ruins it because their life ***** and they have to **** with mine

You take what's not yours look a person in the eyes and lie
No respect for others possession when asked you tell more lies
In your selfish mind no means yes
You think there are no consequences to your actions
I've heard both stories your lie filled with more lies
You dumped your girlfriend for another girl
Only because that's what everyone else wanted
You have bad habits chewing chew and drug alcohol all the things that damage your body
You could only be young and immature for so long!
You hurt those around you by convincing them your lies are the truth
Lies get you caught up and continue to bs your way out when you have been caught up
No one hated you but you crossed the line and offended those who oppose you
You blame others for your mistakes own up shut up consequences come with wrong

No longer fueled by contraversy, living life to the fullest.
Let go of the past looking forward not going back
Good or bad always judged without being know
Writing takes me a way blocks out the world
Focused on what matters lost in my world only thing I know.
From fighting to inner peace healing no longer babying a broken heart
Changed for the better no more self destruction thinking others will feel your pain
Sacrifice that matters gain love and respect those who matter
Let go of those who waste your time and bad mouth you for being different
Not like the rest I can accept share love with those that appreciate you
stay loyal to your heart never give up on your goals and dreams
honest living not giving up work hard stay legit

Grew up in a small town
Moved to a smaller town
I've been up and down Cali
Visited three states
Still haven't found what I seek
The place to call home
Meet my one true love
Create my world i see
how I visioned it
One day have a dog
My one true friend
Go for walks
The world is ours

A late night walk to clear my mind
Things my not be right but will find my way
Not sure what to say or do but can't stick around
I've been up and down California
I don't know where I belong but I belong somewhere
Somewhere I belong making it on my own again
The fear of failing has faded failure is more common
Moving up is easy but falling hard is tough
Getting back on your feet finding momentum
Fighting to make a difference have privacy
Invite friends over and not worry about anyone saying anything

Woke up without worrying shout out
Not living with guilt or doubt
Helped those who look out for me
Honor your word or my respect will be lost
Tried if its not enough put forth an effort
My struggle is my battle don't hate me because you're fake
I'll be true while you are rude and cruel
Everything I like you hate don't try to take it down
No one cares what you like or do I've always been true
You know what I can do that's why you are talking
I called you on your talk and you walked away
I'm working hard not expecting anything its my job and what I love
Writing keeps me from going off the edge
Training keeps me fit so I won't quit
I want to see good in others but they show me their worse
I want to be the best not like the rest
Seeking more hoping to get there soon

That feeling when your heart beats in your throat
Making it hard to breath gasping for air
Random thoughts from everywhere
Can't think of what to say everrythings confusing
Feels like I'm losing it been good not abusing it
Fear being an option I should be next
Make you look good and treated bad
I don't get mad betrayal makes me sad
Disappoint is common but moving on keeps me from being buried alive
Its like fighting to survive near death and revived
Feels like I'm taking on the world made into the bad guy
My intensions were good sometimes I can't and would do so if I could
Don't make me feel like I'm no good been my best and more
If things went accordingly you wouldn't see me anymore

When you apologize and never forgiven
You treasure those old friendships even though they'll never be right again
A mistaken that could be forgotten
Wrongs that will never be right
Make things normal again always a fight
Always in the heart this friendship fell apart
Depart grow apart awhole new start
A friend till the end never forgotten no need to pretend

Making the most of the situation
Times are tough body sore
Mind us burned out stressing
The thought of not know
Growing old and showing
Reflect is someone new
Not who one was or use to be
Things change with time
Once love than hated
Liked again nit worthy if hurt and pain
Over the bad memories that remain
Been a while but it feels alright
Stay away the thought of going back nit an option
Find another way else where

Lots of confusing emotions
Aimed for success achieved it
No one seemed to care
I've rushed ready or not
Made the most of things

A face that stands out in the crowd
Someone to trust not a lust
Things were great
Steal of the mind
Poisoned the pure spirit
Used the sacrificed body
Feed the urges of instinct
Find another prey
One day the hunter becomes hunter
All the actions fade
Roles begin to switch
Time goes on ready or not
Everything is not what once was

Not my story not my life all I can do is listen and wander
I feel for you but can do nothing more
The choice you make have nothing to do with me
The choice I've made I live with everyday
I try to do better not living in shame
No longer repeating the same mistakes
Doing right whatever it takes
Forgiveness within us a start
Others hold them against you but don't fall apart
Tough love is better than no love
Stay above the hate keep working get to the top
Not judging you don't judge me
You may not see it but I see things clear
I know you don't believe or hear me
You'll see I'll prove myself worth be more be more than I imagined

Hard to sleep not sure, whats next
Thoughts flowing mind is racing
Don't know what's next started pacing
Figure it out dig down deep no more going with out
Come and go like the season not interested in the reason
Broken hearts you didn't break
When love turns to hate
Hot and cold emotion good or bad its something
Accepted to reject part of yourself
Denied once things didn't go your way
On the way no need to stay set in those devious way
False love to no love meant to be more like never gonna happen
Everything you loved becomes what you hate
Now its over too late no more second thought or debate
Go forward not back over the act
Be on the way never coming back

Can't sleep decide to write
Helps me get through the night
I get pushed around but standing tall
I may not have it all
But willing to be my best give it my all
Not easy to love but has so much to give
Its a struggle not always easy to live
Ppl come and go like the seasons
More go then stay so I don't get too attached
Id open up but can't always live up to the demand
Be humble not angry with ****** hands

Be honest no need to lie
Don't care doesn't mean there's no understanding
No out put demands results
Taken risks filled with failure
Use what's given
Play the cards dealt
No real emotions felt
Wonder what its like
Walk in those shoes
Not your path to be walking
Feel for others lack of sympathy
Try to relate not your fate
Dont let others inspire hate