Solitude at ease
Found inner peace
Avoid those causing pain
Bad memories remain
Focused on being better
Never see you anymore
Wrote a love letter
Thoughts you'll never read

Always respected valued education
Quick to share the knowledge inform others
Most collect this information but don't use it
Anything learned is worth talking about
Use to be social trying to understand
Don't communicate but assume others know
Imposed beliefs educate so others can understand
So many dismissive passive aggressive people
With expectations not very open minded
Or accepting for having a different mindset

Sent away trying to find a place
Don't always belong focused on work
Sometimes the people love you
Or times they could careless for you
Sometimes the route is manageable
Other times you show up to do your work
Also do others work on top of yours
More writing not arguing or fighting
This mouth means well but causes trouble
Taking all the blame all the heat
Not even a lead or in charge making calls
Always one minded to more stuck with less
Dk what's deserved but willing to work for it
Never been a favorite just being the anti-hero
Never the same so many moments never again

Woke up extra from a dream
Now I'm thinking more
What does it mean
What's going on in my head
Can only do so much
Made others look bad
Guess I did too much
Bust my **** can only do so much
Work twice as hard to belong
Still feels not good enough
Send me packing over reacting
Keeping it real everything so take
Things are alright no need to pretend
Told myself things can be better

Writing life if life was ending
What can be said before fate is near
Always faithful and positive
So much negativity around
Adapt and adjust so much broken trust
Sad how things turned out
Really working hard to change
Learned they played out accordingly
An open heart closed out from the world
Closed minds not open to change but expect it
Free thinkers criticized for thinking differently
Always been a chubbs while everyone was lean
Worked hard lost pounds not on drugs
Took more risk got more criticism
Never talk about anyone who does nothing

What does the heart tell you
A soul searching for peace
The mind questions everything
More questions than answers
Full of thoughts and ideas
Wandering eyes that are warm
Also full of fury when angry
A smirking grin when frustrated
Or caring smile that is soothing

Why is it a dream
Why can't it be a reality
Working for it
Nothing comes easy
Never given for free
Only in your mind
It makes sense feels right
Getting it out into existence
Better than imagined
Feeling accomplished
Never satisfied still trying
Not pretending just doing
Hard to find balance
Stay centered focused

Around people that slandered your name
Forgiven because they are family
Others are usually ignored not a time wasted
Never called unless a favor is needed
Always on deck waiting to be included
Not always the favorite or like
Written off till doing more than most
Made the scapegoat had to step away
Cleaned up not the same person
Bad memories others keep bringing up

Can't get close to anyone
Will get abandoned
Can't trust or rely on anyone
Always doing as much possible
Left doing it all and easily annoyed
Trying to make it through the day
Through the shift dealing with people
Not my crowd feels like no allow to say
Or do anything have an opinion just work
Fighting hard going strong things are bad
So many things going wrong
Flirting with all this frustration
Trying to understand
Don't expect anything from others
Demanding too much from myself

Called weird for being different
Told you're trying too hard
For having an opinion called annoying
Seen as a brat for speaking up
Always working doing something
Respectful to others different cultures
Try to understand other's way of life
Personal standards open to learn
Lots of growth new beginnings

Learning to lighten up
Not take life so serious
But live and enjoy each day
Take in the moment
Appreciate what's going on all around
Thankful for each day
Taking in the silence
Releasing the tension within
Everything will be okay

Family might argue
Hoping the bond grows
Brings you closer united
Instead of dividing one another
Disagree see things differently
Some react others overreact
Some get physical striking back
Make it personal get verbal
Some hold a grudge
Not saying anything
At the end of the day
Love one another

The cold weather slept most of the day
Praying for others listening to music
Plowed through it all not afraid
Wanted to bring them along
Some got left behind forgotten
Ill always remember the moment
Wanted to be the hero help others
Some don't want to be saved
Everyone departed living another life
From the group some started a family
Some chase a dream that may not happen
Doing what they love but no gain
Some working to invest in their projects

Always the shoulder to cry on
Can't talk share feelings
Show emotions always strong
Keeping it together for others
Vent not comparing sad stories
Crumbling inside staying composed
Trying to keep it together
Wanting to scream it won't come out
Heart beating in the back of the throat
Never wanted anywhere
Finally feel apart of something
Feels like it will be taken away
Can't win always disappoint someone
Put in an awkward situation
Name being spoken for opportunity
Usually slandered or bad mouthed
Something different and new

Made mistakes that how you learn
Failed that's how you get better
Never gave up finish strong till the end
Came close but not close enough to win
Went the distance working harder
Thought it was easy miscalculated
Growth over time years of encounters
Experiences make a difference
Better prepared not afraid or backing down
Focused on the work not drama
Talk about shop not others work hard
Hard work over politics treat people right

Stressing when shes here
Not able to sleep
Up late thinking
Not the best role model
Always looking out
Not a poster child did take risks
Not my kid taking responsibility
Always taking rejects into this family
A group of outcast coming together

Lost in love
Denied yourself
Never again freedom of expression
No need to pretend
Admiring art that came from within
How its created with emotions
What was felt at the time
Going on with the artist
Each stroke from the brush
The amount of pressure
While mixing colors setting a tone
Chapter of life soon to be forgotten
But a moment of life to be shared
Taken in by others to be admire
A picture that says more than words
Stories created hoping to connect
Lost in details with dimensions

A fight to make it to the end
Crawling to finish strong
Pushing through the pain
All the punishment to win
Suffering along the journey
Showing no emotions or feelings
Consumed by not expressing
In a healthy manner the silence
A quiet mouth keeping the peace
Connected to a loud enraged mind

Keep on trying to find inspiration
Sky is the limit should be motivated
Hard to speak up go against my faith
Don't want to be seen as a hypocrite
Spread the word with a message
Been feeling like a mess
Can't go back to that life
Be who I was use to be
So much growth over time
Challenged to write without cussing
Cleaned it up not dating
Want to be the one not one of many
Not talking smack hard to be honest
Don't like to lie don't like holding back
Need to be informed before speaking

Family changes when money is well
Talking about you for no reason
Once they need something
They friend you for favors
She blabbing in your ear
Trusting all the wrong people
Going back to a cheater
Say one thing get chewed out
So much love for the one
Who treats them bad always forgiven

Hard to find peace
In a hateful world
Would rather be building
Than destroying others
Personal growth over self destruction
Never ending process on the go
Flirting with word play
Thinking of ways to inspire
Stay motivated during diverse times
The struggle within fade
Around the right people feeling good
Around the wrong people
Trying not to hate life
Or let them rub their toxic ways
Or send bad vibes in this direction

A minority told to do this or be like that with family. Growing up you learn who not to be.  Don't be a snitch or complain, once you leave home all these made up rules and standards was never heard of.
Was never into drugs so many doing. Grew up around alcohol which was a home wrecker. The line between right and wrong blurred. Instead of doing right so many try to justify their wrong.
Told to speak your mind why is everyone mad? Always questioned things and people are mad. It doesn't make sense, but stuck with that's the way things are.

Trying to find that joy
A toy from childhood
A show that made your mornings
Always heard father say
It was better before
Never knew what that meant
Till becoming an adult
Childhood gone but full of memories
As an adult memories are earned
Money to pay bills or buy stuff
A purchase translates
Into hours at work

He walked into a the building ready to give his all. He worked like a boss but didn't get paid like one. He did all the work and took charge. Along with a useless head custodian nothing more than just a title.
He always went the extra mile above and beyond. Years of bouncing around trying to find a location somewhere to fit in. He didn't match or belong anywhere
He worked hard stayed positive, while the rest settled gave up losing motivation.

Always seen as crazy
For having a dream
Doing things wanted it more
Took risk only one trying
Never been done before
The bar wasn't set that high
Family in an out of prison
Went to college the first to pursue it
Had a wild life over the years
Learned to be an adult
The transition is hard
Hard to learn one way or another

Miss being young no bills
Just friends being dumb having fun
Stayed single feared having a kid
At a young age dated but started late
Everyone grew up some went to school
Others stayed home got married or had kids
Forced to grow up and others just worked
Drinking was fun underage then it wasn't
Some developed habits others did drugs
No one knows what they want
Even now as an adult still figuring it out
Thinking how close friends use to be
Now strangers no longer talking
Some got clean acting like they did no wrong
Mad over a cheating girl that did them wrong
So many factors that make it hard
Some roll with the punches others take them
Trying to be better than parents
Some end up like them or even worse

Family has changed
Over the years
From the regulars to more
New nephews and nieces
Kids are a blessing
Helping some grow up
Do what's right
Teach them to be better
Always praying for everyone
Some are worse off
While others are well
Opportunity to be made
Some seek it take the day
While others let it pass them up
Set in their ways hoping they'd change
Accepting that's who they are
Love them regardless of the outcome
Everyone had choices
Made their decisions
Warned them looked out
Some like to learn the hard
And some never learn
Sad how some turn out
Most struggle and other rise
Escape their situation

Hard to trust
Dating girls who cheated on her man
Claimed it was over then went back
No shame or self respect
Never asked went with the flow
Friends who move onto your girl
Then have the nerve
To be sad they got rejected
Or try to move in on your crush
So much disrespect frustration
Called them out on it
Told them to their face
Now they are mad playing victim
Broken trust bitter taste of betrayal
Failed friendship gave up on them
Cut the cord no more toxic people
So much shame all their petty acts

We use to be best friends
Till it all came to an end
Over a girl that had been around
Who was playing everyone
Said sorry still getting cold silence
How to make the wrong right
Keep things normal or tried
Everyones asks what happened
An dynamic duel always hanging
Brought out the best in one another
The older called  him on the crap
Had one another's back

Cant do this alone against the odds
This walk is harder without faith
Emptiness needs prayer to heal
Never said a word seen as stuck up
Spoke some truth got the 3rd degree
No one listens to understand
The response is tell and demand
Wanted to argue back held back
Person is stubborn set in their ways
Such a waste of time why even bother
Not empowering negativity anymore
Keep the distances over being denied
Held to a different standard
For not conforming or giving in by
Lowering self respect to be accepted

A heavy heart
Choices to be made
Wanting one life
Had to give up the current
The fork in the road
Single wanting a partner
So much sacrifice another wrong
Compromised for the wrong people
More loss than gain

Don't like to be consumed
By anger and frustration
Dealing with thievery
Not always given a chance
Or an opportunity slim pickings
Making the most of what's given
Praying to not give into temptation
Throw hands with those provoking
Stayed away kept out of the mix
Had to find another place start over
Found new to call your own
Things are better than before
Walking with faith not giving into hate
Praying for wrong doers
Done bad before lived with regret
Begging for forgiveness
Learned to forgive
Not about that life anymore

Being strong for others
Not always confident
Being bold and honest
Some days are up
Others are down
Getting off social media
Appreciating life by living
Mental health finding outlets
Words to share emotions
Drawing to show feelings
Letting go of what's within
Some are good memories
Others toxic not feeding into them
Each line to empower
Texture for dimensions
Sharing what's inside
Stop hiding cheating yourself
Stay loyal true genuine
Hard qualities to find now a days
Be you and yourself
Since its all you know
Time to shine let it show