Should've stepped in
Your happiness mattered more
My gut said this isnt right
Seen you in love
Couldn't come between that
Thought things were well
Turns out things crumble
Watched this wedding
Deep down knew it was wrong
Bit this tongue smiled
Happy for a friend
Faded out let it be
Couldn't be the third wheel
Find out its over years later
Not sure how to act or feel
How to respond just there
Comfort an old friend
But can't sit around
You have a family to support
Be strong for them
If you can't do it for yourself

Closing always *****
The last one leaving
Setting the alarms
Making sure the building is secure
Hustling to invest in a dream
Pens and paper to create
A day without writing
Feeling complete doing it
Thinking about it twenty four seven

She was light skinned
Long brown curly hair
The way she stares
That look in her eyes
Feeling unworthy of her
Trying to hard lost in thought
Holding back messing up
Feels like she's slipping away
But things have yet to happen
Once they do not sure what's next
Short term relationship
Life time burdens on the heart

Staring at a blank page
Dk what to say
Or what to write
Always on the mind
The right pen to fill the word
Find the feelings within

Talking truth with others
So hard to do
Someone is always mad
Or gets offended
Had a group discussion
Felt responsible
Most dk how to debate
So things get rough
Turn into an argument
An opinion was asked
Not taken to heart
Or used to hold a grudge
Seen or treated different
For having a new point of view

How did this happen
Who knew this might work
Didn't want to fail it was expected
Dreamed of being more stuck with less
Working with what's given
Thankful for the applause
Working twice as hard
Not looking for a hand out
Told to get a make over
Clothes don't make the person
Hard work shouldn't be ignored
Not about ******* up to get ahead
Earning a nights from the day
Every cent worth it earned
All the sacrifice will learn to something

Never talked about anyone
Said it to their face straight up
Never give them a reason to talk
Talk smack to matter knocking others
Doesn't make things right
Or make you a better person
So many trying too hard
Feels like a lost cause why bother
Thoughts that stand out
Bouncing around shouldn't be said
Different tone when written down
Writing before work block it all out
Some days are great made it through
Others are overwhelming getting by
Can't wait for them to end come home

Learned to grow from mistakes
Found outlets from self destruction
Made decisions without influence
Being hurt made changes
Made the most with down time
Practice being better with faults
Felt weak focused on being strong
Calm not overreacting
Center on what matter most
Collected composure a shattered ego
Dealing with a harsh reality

Why so much hate
Everyone is consumed
Tamed it for years
Now its coming out
Be careful what's said
It came out can't be taken back
Consequences for every action
Be responsible with actions
So many recording everything
On the web spreads like a fire
Don't hurt anyone or get hurt
Respect yourself and neighbor
How you treat others says a lot
Love others how you'd love yourself

Always saying let it go
But some stuff won't come out
Like it will cause contraversy
That what it felt like at the moment
What I went through at that time
How is a person going to say it's a lie
Tell you how to feel after mistreating
How to think trying to influence others
Because the wrong doing got exposed
Can't win alone forming alliances
Took them on and still not backing down
Always stayed loyal true even lost for them
Made moves made it happen with or without

Being pulled in all directions
Trying to stay a whole
Earned respect fades away
Redemption not feeling worthy
Proving self worth without loss of value
A vicious cycle for others approval not seen as an equal
Hard to show emotions under frustration
Not let feelings get the best of everything

Distracted by others hurt
Taken away from it all
Tried to help rise with others
Too much wallowing
Settled for less bad habits
Stuck in a pity party
Saw more ahead stuck waiting
Wanted to take them too
Got stuck trying to understand
Wasn't your pain to take in
Gained more than the person
Who not to be or be like
Sad how it hit rock bottom
Never been through a break up
Transition phase not a shake up
Always been loyal to others
Not bothered by cheaters

Searched for answers
Reflected on life
Many moments encounters
Experiences helped with growth
Faced challenges overcame stuff
Some stayed in the way
Many needed to be moved
Walked away from that life
Never looked back
Didn't fit in or belong
Tired of ridiculous high standards
Fit into a box denying myself
That strips everything down

Feeling betrayed reached out
Got ignored not looking to be lectured
Don't want to talk avoiding people
Not one to take it out on others
Frustrated taking a time out
Hate feeling depressed ups and downs
Nothing is wrong just feels like it
Lacking inspiration very emotional
Trying to stay motivated
Wanting to speak dk what to say

Sobered up all the crazy
Not phasing anymore
Made some changes
Cut off old friends
Toxic with negative vibes
Learned to say NO
Always taking over
Someones drama and problems
Doing someone's work
Always willing to work
Care way too much
But can be too overwhelming
Doing the job can take it's toll

Thought about being on a stage
Writing an inspiring books
A creative mind with a heart
Making people laugh feels right
Seeing people smile is better
Always in this mind a fantasy world
Would rather be there than face reality
Always feeling disrespected by family
Work uses and abuses this kind heart
Always a worker no time for play
Done wasting time with people
Who don't care faking the cause
Use others their for personal gain

She smiled at him he smirked back. Who knows if this friendship could be and lead up to much more. He was shy and she was confident with a bubbly personality. They felt the tension among them full of life positive vibes in the air.

She asked him how his day was and they both had an interesting conversation between one another. He didn't expect much but willing to put forth an effort if they could match seen as an equal.

He wanted to ask her out just need to make that moment happen. Find an opening, so that he could ask her out, take her to eat, somewhere get to know one another.

This was all new to him, the girls he dated liked him or seemed interested. Most of the girls he dated in the past. This one caught his eye actually held his interest

He was shy and nervous he had been rejected and denied before but didn't like the feeling. He played it safe since it was the worse

Haven't had a good friend for a while
Someone who shares a joke
And a smile with enjoy the moment
Call one another on things
Not get mad move on
Be cool like nothing happened
So many get mad can't take a joke
Talk about others but when it's them
Play victims always talking
But can't take it

The anger grows
Won't be consumed
Writing keeps it from going
Keeps things from going off
Release the tension
Deflate the situation
Calming the nerves
Over the edge about to go off
Wiping away tears
Over coming fears
Spoke up now they are mad
Said nothing being taken advantage of
Feeling provoked trying to be nice
Can't say anything spread rumors
To the masses can't win alone
Trying to change the odds
Making things personal
Not taking it or falling for it
Screaming inside ready to strike
Stronger than most think
Mentally able to block it out
Physically restrain heavy handed
Not trying to fight but write

When people tell you
You matter part of their life
Then they stop talking to you
Always reaching out
Using to being ignored
Some cant stay single
Always in a relationship
Partnered up quick to say I love you
It loses value if its not true
When they don't love you back
Some stay single happy alone
Never wanting to get hurt again
Hard to trust cant just let anyone in
Overprotective of the heart
A mind that is always alter

Not trying argue
Stop trying to dictate
Quit comparing with others
Be thankful for what you got
All that negative talk
Stop being toxic live life
Sending out bad vibes
Knocking everyone for their choices
It's their life be happy for them
Work on yours be better
Love yourself be positive

Speaking from the heart
Always honest makes life easier
Caring too much can have setback
The heart means well doing what's right
This heart and mind in conflict
Logic versus emotions and feelings
Very observant notice things
Helped a friend kept them moving
Some just use and betray trust
Left when times got tough
Left taking the blame fighting their battle
Spoke up made them look good
Now they are dumping their heat
Like if you started it

Riding fast scared to fall
On the board riding
Feeling free from it all
The fear of rolling an ankle
Not able to brake well
Jumping off the board
The wind feels great
Never too old for a rush
The sound of the wheels
Catching speed rolling along
One shoe chewed up from kicking
Feeling unbalanced trying to stand level
Carry an extra pair of shoes
In a backpack with essentials
Saves money more efficient
Eco friendly being safe

Don't assume just ask
Different times from the past
Mind racing so fast
Staring out in the distance
So much resistance
Seen some crazy stuff
Too much to process
Made tough had it rough
Bounce back not overreact
Another road block in the way
Detour taking longer to get there
All in everyone flakes left alone

Woke up extra from a dream
Now I'm thinking more
What does it mean
What's going on in my head
Can only do so much
Made others look bad
Guess I did too much
Bust my **** can only do so much
Work twice as hard to belong
Still feels not good enough
Send me packing over reacting
Keeping it real everything so take
Things are alright no need to pretend
Told myself things can be better

In the crowd watching the game
Not use to this view
On the field or involved
Once coached the game
Once was a player
To become a spectator of it
The love for it never fade
Desires to go back
Participate by giving pointers
Help the next generation
Times have changed
Athletes grow old
The heart never give
Talent fades with time
Wear and tear on the body
Working towards a goal
Practice like a champ
Listen to the coach
Push limits dig down deep

He called her sent to voice mail
He texted her and no response
He thought she was the one
He seen her in his future
She didn't feel the same way back
He asked her to be his gf
She talked about a career
A future of her own without him

Hands up for praise
Mouth sings the worship
Knee buckles feeling the music
Eyes closed in prayer for family
Everyone's health and needs are met
Open the good book following the word
Scripture speaks to the heart
Always open to learn and grow
Forgiving others for peace
Forgiving ones self for closure
Walk with faith gives inner peace

Hard to find love
Energies don't always match
Love is never equal one sided
One gives unconditionally
There through the tough times
The other with terms and conditions
When it suits personal gains
So much energy positive vibes
The other negative draining life
Trying not giving up to make it work
While the other ready to leave
Making alternative plans to cheat
One fully committed to the relationship
Taking the burdens love shouldn't hurt
One day find someone true to match
Long term journey over a short term

Writing life if life was ending
What can be said before fate is near
Always faithful and positive
So much negativity around
Adapt and adjust so much broken trust
Sad how things turned out
Really working hard to change
Learned they played out accordingly
An open heart closed out from the world
Closed minds not open to change but expect it
Free thinkers criticized for thinking differently
Always been a chubbs while everyone was lean
Worked hard lost pounds not on drugs
Took more risk got more criticism
Never talk about anyone who does nothing

So many made up rules
Insults masked by humor
Silenced for having an opinion
Ignored asking a question
Opened eyes seen bad actions
While others turn a blind eye
The dream so real in the mind
Escaping the nightmare reality
Transitional journey plays out
Emotional waves settles
Levels out over time
Once felt wrong
Count the blessings
Learned from the life lesson

Not a boss working like one
Wanting to get paid like one
Pushing the limits not holding back
Called the man getting it done
Not use to thank you or complements
Don't care for the game or glory
Use to being a walking target
For being different doing what's right
Told not to do it doing it more
Trying to get hired so many get fired

Why is it a dream
Why can't it be a reality
Working for it
Nothing comes easy
Never given for free
Only in your mind
It makes sense feels right
Getting it out into existence
Better than imagined
Feeling accomplished
Never satisfied still trying
Not pretending just doing
Hard to find balance
Stay centered focused

Sent away trying to find a place
Don't always belong focused on work
Sometimes the people love you
Or times they could careless for you
Sometimes the route is manageable
Other times you show up to do your work
Also do others work on top of yours
More writing not arguing or fighting
This mouth means well but causes trouble
Taking all the blame all the heat
Not even a lead or in charge making calls
Always one minded to more stuck with less
Dk what's deserved but willing to work for it
Never been a favorite just being the anti-hero
Never the same so many moments never again

Why can't this be true
Always evil and cruel
Tried to show one another up
Competing with one another
We should be a team
Getting the best of each other
Another love story ends sadly
Treat each other badly
Should grow together united
Now bitter divided
Wanting different things
Had other plans with someone else