Sent away trying to find a place
Don't always belong focused on work
Sometimes the people love you
Or times they could careless for you
Sometimes the route is manageable
Other times you show up to do your work
Also do others work on top of yours
More writing not arguing or fighting
This mouth means well but causes trouble
Taking all the blame all the heat
Not even a lead or in charge making calls
Always one minded to more stuck with less
Dk what's deserved but willing to work for it
Never been a favorite just being the anti-hero
Never the same so many moments never again

Haven't had a loyal friend
Hard to trust its been a while
So much hurt within
All the betrayal ended it all
Friendships came to an end
True colors were shown
Relationships like a sinking ship
Broken hearts watery eyes
Hurt within a shattered heart
Reevaluate life choice and decisions
Poor judgement bad decisions
Didn't have many opinions
Branched out took a risk

Solitude at ease
Found inner peace
Avoid those causing pain
Bad memories remain
Focused on being better
Never see you anymore
Wrote a love letter
Thoughts you'll never read

So many made up rules
Insults masked by humor
Silenced for having an opinion
Ignored asking a question
Opened eyes seen bad actions
While others turn a blind eye
The dream so real in the mind
Escaping the nightmare reality
Transitional journey plays out
Emotional waves settles
Levels out over time
Once felt wrong
Count the blessings
Learned from the life lesson

Old enough to know better
Some choose otherwise
Missing youth older now
Work to pay bills getting by
No time for dreams on the go
Trusting the wrong people
Prayed for the right ones
From a young adult to a man
It happened so fast time has passed
Feels too late not losing faith
Others will not dictate fate

Always taking whatever came
Worked with what was given
Use to have a say now takes it
So many years of change
Hard to trust anyone that lies
Should've been next overlooked
Made an effort to be better
Always in the struggle
Did more than most still ignored
Treated bad for having an opinion
Years of frustration thinking people care
Thinking they'll do what's right
Make a difference it's a waste
And doesn't matter the hardest working
Would like to complain vent to management
But say be quiet work harder
So much giving and compromise
What happened where did it go wrong
Can't change the past to fix the present
All these events hard to pin point a moment
Some days are easy others are hard

The weather makes it easier to sleep
It is better to be cold than hot
Blankets and football weather
Not chocolate soothes the soul
Refreshing nights full of comfort
Able to take it all in and enjoy
Everyday with growth
Onto new beginnings
Able to rest and it shows

Speaking from the heart
Always honest makes life easier
Caring too much can have setback
The heart means well doing what's right
This heart and mind in conflict
Logic versus emotions and feelings
Very observant notice things
Helped a friend kept them moving
Some just use and betray trust
Left when times got tough
Left taking the blame fighting their battle
Spoke up made them look good
Now they are dumping their heat
Like if you started it

The world has change
Not for the better
Finding faith and praying
Always had respect for my elders
Never entitled earned a spot
Working for it since its not given
Treat people right they'll do the same
Not looking for trouble
Don't care for drama
Not always liked but respectful
Don't bother others with problems
Quick to find a solution
Can't always settle for less

Why so much hate
Everyone is consumed
Tamed it for years
Now its coming out
Be careful what's said
It came out can't be taken back
Consequences for every action
Be responsible with actions
So many recording everything
On the web spreads like a fire
Don't hurt anyone or get hurt
Respect yourself and neighbor
How you treat others says a lot
Love others how you'd love yourself

Always respected valued education
Quick to share the knowledge inform others
Most collect this information but don't use it
Anything learned is worth talking about
Use to be social trying to understand
Don't communicate but assume others know
Imposed beliefs educate so others can understand
So many dismissive passive aggressive people
With expectations not very open minded
Or accepting for having a different mindset

Haven't had a good friend for a while
Someone who shares a joke
And a smile with enjoy the moment
Call one another on things
Not get mad move on
Be cool like nothing happened
So many get mad can't take a joke
Talk about others but when it's them
Play victims always talking
But can't take it

The cold weather slept most of the day
Praying for others listening to music
Plowed through it all not afraid
Wanted to bring them along
Some got left behind forgotten
Ill always remember the moment
Wanted to be the hero help others
Some don't want to be saved
Everyone departed living another life
From the group some started a family
Some chase a dream that may not happen
Doing what they love but no gain
Some working to invest in their projects

Lots of conflict in turmoil
Can't see eye to eye
Behaviors alter as defense
Broken trust caused by constant lies
Lack of respect for one another
Both have big egos clashing
Consumed by pride everything dies
From ******* face to avoiding one another
So much hatred can't be in the same room
Social with everyone but one another
Mixed emotions gone south hit rock bottom

Writing life if life was ending
What can be said before fate is near
Always faithful and positive
So much negativity around
Adapt and adjust so much broken trust
Sad how things turned out
Really working hard to change
Learned they played out accordingly
An open heart closed out from the world
Closed minds not open to change but expect it
Free thinkers criticized for thinking differently
Always been a chubbs while everyone was lean
Worked hard lost pounds not on drugs
Took more risk got more criticism
Never talk about anyone who does nothing

Always holding back
Not sure how to react
Some deep cleaning
Letting all out cluster over time
Never said but should've been
Concerned for others feelings
While taking shots at mine
Tried to be the bigger person
Thinking too hard and let it go
Not going to sink low
Drop to their level
Use to being above and upbeat
Not sink to an all time low

Showed up to there
Wasn't even acknowledged
Always been supportive
Never played the lead
Left in the open to be a target
Been walking strong crumbling
Smiled to hide the pain
Use to have high expects
Left with disappointment
Always been a doer
Never asked found a way
So many road blocks and detours
Don't do this but it's been done
You can't do this been doing it
You're not alllowed already been there
Just do it without doubt or hesitation
From always on the go to home
From free to work an average Joe job
Seen things done stuff on this journey

Stressing when shes here
Not able to sleep
Up late thinking
Not the best role model
Always looking out
Not a poster child did take risks
Not my kid taking responsibility
Always taking rejects into this family
A group of outcast coming together

The anger grows
Won't be consumed
Writing keeps it from going
Keeps things from going off
Release the tension
Deflate the situation
Calming the nerves
Over the edge about to go off
Wiping away tears
Over coming fears
Spoke up now they are mad
Said nothing being taken advantage of
Feeling provoked trying to be nice
Can't say anything spread rumors
To the masses can't win alone
Trying to change the odds
Making things personal
Not taking it or falling for it
Screaming inside ready to strike
Stronger than most think
Mentally able to block it out
Physically restrain heavy handed
Not trying to fight but write

Darkside of it all feel normal
Once things lighten up
Always wanted to fit in
But kept out looking in
Started ignoring all the hype
Focused on what mattered
Worked harder than most
Wanted it more than others
Been going strong all heart
All in or nothing stay inspired
The cream rises to the top
Said it couldn't be done
Been doing it for years
Went against the haters
Thankful for all the support

Riding fast scared to fall
On the board riding
Feeling free from it all
The fear of rolling an ankle
Not able to brake well
Jumping off the board
The wind feels great
Never too old for a rush
The sound of the wheels
Catching speed rolling along
One shoe chewed up from kicking
Feeling unbalanced trying to stand level
Carry an extra pair of shoes
In a backpack with essentials
Saves money more efficient
Eco friendly being safe

So much change
Missing work mostly the people
Friends so far away
We don't talk anymore
Happy for your marriage
You are blessed with kids
Appreciate your family
Some are wanting that
Yet to experience that moment
The single life could be lonely
Always pursing a career
The degree not quest a struggle
Reading to enjoy stories
Reading for knowledge not used
Collecting hoping to use it
Apply it to life using content
Setting goals chasing dream
Getting back what was lost
Somethings are over
Some left not coming back

Made mistakes that how you learn
Failed that's how you get better
Never gave up finish strong till the end
Came close but not close enough to win
Went the distance working harder
Thought it was easy miscalculated
Growth over time years of encounters
Experiences make a difference
Better prepared not afraid or backing down
Focused on the work not drama
Talk about shop not others work hard
Hard work over politics treat people right

Hard to find peace
In a hateful world
Would rather be building
Than destroying others
Personal growth over self destruction
Never ending process on the go
Flirting with word play
Thinking of ways to inspire
Stay motivated during diverse times
The struggle within fade
Around the right people feeling good
Around the wrong people
Trying not to hate life
Or let them rub their toxic ways
Or send bad vibes in this direction

A minority told to do this or be like that with family. Growing up you learn who not to be.  Don't be a snitch or complain, once you leave home all these made up rules and standards was never heard of.
Was never into drugs so many doing. Grew up around alcohol which was a home wrecker. The line between right and wrong blurred. Instead of doing right so many try to justify their wrong.
Told to speak your mind why is everyone mad? Always questioned things and people are mad. It doesn't make sense, but stuck with that's the way things are.

We use to be best friends
Till it all came to an end
Over a girl that had been around
Who was playing everyone
Said sorry still getting cold silence
How to make the wrong right
Keep things normal or tried
Everyones asks what happened
An dynamic duel always hanging
Brought out the best in one another
The older called  him on the crap
Had one another's back

Hard to find love
Energies don't always match
Love is never equal one sided
One gives unconditionally
There through the tough times
The other with terms and conditions
When it suits personal gains
So much energy positive vibes
The other negative draining life
Trying not giving up to make it work
While the other ready to leave
Making alternative plans to cheat
One fully committed to the relationship
Taking the burdens love shouldn't hurt
One day find someone true to match
Long term journey over a short term

Keep on trying to find inspiration
Sky is the limit should be motivated
Hard to speak up go against my faith
Don't want to be seen as a hypocrite
Spread the word with a message
Been feeling like a mess
Can't go back to that life
Be who I was use to be
So much growth over time
Challenged to write without cussing
Cleaned it up not dating
Want to be the one not one of many
Not talking smack hard to be honest
Don't like to lie don't like holding back
Need to be informed before speaking

Distracted by others hurt
Taken away from it all
Tried to help rise with others
Too much wallowing
Settled for less bad habits
Stuck in a pity party
Saw more ahead stuck waiting
Wanted to take them too
Got stuck trying to understand
Wasn't your pain to take in
Gained more than the person
Who not to be or be like
Sad how it hit rock bottom
Never been through a break up
Transition phase not a shake up
Always been loyal to others
Not bothered by cheaters

He walked into a the building ready to give his all. He worked like a boss but didn't get paid like one. He did all the work and took charge. Along with a useless head custodian nothing more than just a title.
He always went the extra mile above and beyond. Years of bouncing around trying to find a location somewhere to fit in. He didn't match or belong anywhere
He worked hard stayed positive, while the rest settled gave up losing motivation.

Why is it a dream
Why can't it be a reality
Working for it
Nothing comes easy
Never given for free
Only in your mind
It makes sense feels right
Getting it out into existence
Better than imagined
Feeling accomplished
Never satisfied still trying
Not pretending just doing
Hard to find balance
Stay centered focused

Not able to speak always thinking
Mind racing causing a stutter
Feeling frustrated didn't know
How or why this was happening
Compared to others never the same
Told how to act another scolding
A child with a huge sensitive heart
Use to be the funny one wearing a smile
Everyone made it personal
Jokes that were made to laugh
Then the insults came causing pain
Had to have thick skin because of family
Couldn't show feelings or emotions
Seen as weak for caring about others
Transitions are hard from being one way
Then learning you don't have to do it anymore
Growing up being an individual from the rest
Not empowering things that are weak
Being strong to be set free took control
Learned to say no not a yes man
Not what others said or those made up lies
Away from dead weight living a life flying
From those who are not worthy of your time

A fight to make it to the end
Crawling to finish strong
Pushing through the pain
All the punishment to win
Suffering along the journey
Showing no emotions or feelings
Consumed by not expressing
In a healthy manner the silence
A quiet mouth keeping the peace
Connected to a loud enraged mind

In his dream she loved him
He got the job in that world
Working hard it all pays out
Another life without doubt
Became all he set out to become
Done it one way failed
Trying another way
Can't make mistakes
So many details and detours
Road blocks in the way
Starting over once again

Lost in love
Denied yourself
Never again freedom of expression
No need to pretend
Admiring art that came from within
How its created with emotions
What was felt at the time
Going on with the artist
Each stroke from the brush
The amount of pressure
While mixing colors setting a tone
Chapter of life soon to be forgotten
But a moment of life to be shared
Taken in by others to be admire
A picture that says more than words
Stories created hoping to connect
Lost in details with dimensions

College was a new experience
New people from all over the state
New about social groups and social circles
Eventually it would become about life styles
Not use to certain ways of life
Always been accept and respectful
Till others impose it feels like a struggle
Stuck in a conflict that has nothing to do with
So many new labels and boxes to fit into
Didn't care for any of it tried to get an education
Moving into the dorms around the stoners
Wasn't about it but it was more accepted
Drinking on the weekend was a thing
Binge drinking for a week who knew
So much had changed with age
Reading books to write papers
Sometimes it made sense
Other times what the hell was going on
Sharing a room with a roommate
Some were great others a walking disaster
Nice to sleep in a bed without siblings
So much change but missing family
Dating was another new voyage

Coming to terms
Not that person
About that life anymore
Wasn't meant to be
There's no going back
Gone much further
In other places
Started over found new
Developed new skills
Life experiences with gains
Lessons learned gathered
full of encounters social interaction
Open to grow observation and listen

Feels right in one place
Been doing it for so long
Starting over somewhere new
Working from the bottom to the top
Always respectful to those there
And willing to learn from those
Who started it all learn and keep building
Not there to take over or be territorial
Make an effort to contribute