Everyone has choices to make
Decisions to be made
Everyone has their own life
Sometimes you want to help
Some prefer the hard way
Over doing things easily
Finding another way
Sometimes given it all
It's never enough
While others work with what's given
Making the most of it all
Taking on the struggle
Without accepting defeat
Standing tall going the distance
Making the most of it

Praying for normal
Change occurs everyday
Over the years over come fears
But things change over time
Never going to be the same again
Friendships full of broken trust
Relationships tarnished over conflict
Both right too proud to confess
Would rather fight than forgive
Apologies don't matter due to actions
One is sorry the other still talking bad
The other wont forgive the betrayal
Holding a grudge once a family
Now strangers with a past
No one made effort to keep it alive
Egos let it die than make it right

Where to start
The end is near
Time to start pursue new
Let this heart grow
The soul grows and glows
Praying for strength
Overcome the fear
Shared feelings and emotions
Became an awkward silence
The intensity wasn't reassuring
Made others uncomfortable

Woke up extra from a dream
Now I'm thinking more
What does it mean
What's going on in my head
Can only do so much
Made others look bad
Guess I did too much
Bust my **** can only do so much
Work twice as hard to belong
Still feels not good enough
Send me packing over reacting
Keeping it real everything so take
Things are alright no need to pretend
Told myself things can be better

How do complicated people
Talk about others to take the attention off them
When no one is talking about them
Quick to blame others and make excuses
Instead of owning up very frustrating
Far from perfect
They burden others and expect
Manipulating others with guilt
So they can be set in their ways
Too stubborn to change
Listen to anyone that means well

Haven't had a good friend who's chill
Some always putting on an act
While others pretend
To be someone they are not
A friend where you can open up
Without being judged or criticized
They can do the same
Instead of it being used against you
Some who stands up for you
Has your back times have changed
Loyalty and noble companions
Are no more hard to trust
So many fakes and phonies
Can't connect or get close to anyone

Hands up for praise
Mouth sings the worship
Knee buckles feeling the music
Eyes closed in prayer for family
Everyone's health and needs are met
Open the good book following the word
Scripture speaks to the heart
Always open to learn and grow
Forgiving others for peace
Forgiving ones self for closure
Walk with faith gives inner peace

The plan has changed
Things are not the same
Overcome the pain
Personal growth is gained
The past is over reminiscing
Not talking anymore long forgotten
Or hope of going back facing forward
Remembered the good time long gone
Starting over rise about the wrong
Live life to the fullest going strong
Good deeds positive vibes
Over ***** deeds shady faces
Spiritual recharge soul is alive

Not always able to speak
But can write for days
Not a phase a clear mind
New mindset onto new
Can't do much ready to be set free
The past is over not meant to be
Let me be time to rise
Years of holding up others
Dead inside trying to exist
Rather be living than pretending
Not what others say
Know the truth not listening to lies
Free to think without being judged
Speak without others thinking less of
Have an opinion full of grace
Here comes more criticism
Out of my ear with ruckus
Out of my face not intimidated anymore

Always on hold for others
Working to get hired
Holding down the open position
But it's not guaranteed
Doing extra take pride in work
Glad when others benefit
Making it easy for myself
Don't leave it for the next
Be the one who made it happen
The one who got it done
Smiled liked the tasks
Keeping this mouth shut
When it opens it leads to trouble
Not into the drama others cause
Minding my own business

Trying to stay whole
Filling this hole
Feeling it deep in the soul
Everyday personal growth
Open to learn wisdom
Taking in the environment
Seeing things in a whole new light
Hard to speak easier to write
More than one way good days ahead
Focused on another to get it done

When people tell you
You matter part of their life
Then they stop talking to you
Always reaching out
Using to being ignored
Some cant stay single
Always in a relationship
Partnered up quick to say I love you
It loses value if its not true
When they don't love you back
Some stay single happy alone
Never wanting to get hurt again
Hard to trust cant just let anyone in
Overprotective of the heart
A mind that is always alter

Learned to grow from mistakes
Found outlets from self destruction
Made decisions without influence
Being hurt made changes
Made the most with down time
Practice being better with faults
Felt weak focused on being strong
Calm not overreacting
Center on what matter most
Collected composure a shattered ego
Dealing with a harsh reality

Facing the fears
Can't hide or run
Taking on those challenges
Growing no longer afraid
Overcome the fear of life
Moving onto new
Only if she knew
Woke up strong
With no clue

Learning to be a fan always involved
From a player to a coach transition
Learned what it takes to win
As an athlete listen to coach
Everything is planned for a reason
As a lead coach Make the palyer better
Share years of collected knowledge
Passed on the skills to the next
Lots of repetition to develop
Gained more from losing
Learned life lesson from the sport

Everything encountered
Should be shared to help others
Let them know they are not alone
Growth from within
Put out positive vibes
Deal with bad as well
Use them to inspire
Get inspired by these moments

Listen to comedy for laughs
Love funny stories with friends
Hilarious stories from different angles
Different people how they contribute
Those feelings in the moment
Social gatherings use to be fun
Now people are stuck on their phone
Having a conversation don't care to text
Meeting up for dates or lunches dinners
Getting a number to set up an arrangement

Always looking for love
Find support being creative
Someone in a bad mood
Keeping a distance that's not good
Some days talking it up
Others an intense silence
Not trying to pry or intrude
Wondering what's wrong or going on
Would rather ask than assume
Everyone faces obstacles to overcome
Dealing with a struggle you're not alone
Sometimes the support is there
Just know I care even when things seem unfair

Always lonely
Seeking out people
Good or bad found comfort
Being more selective
Hard to connect
Or relate to anyone
Everything changes
Not the same person
Memories fade
Cant remember names
But able to recall a face
Old friends disconnected
New friends hard to make

Writing to past time
Clear my mind do what's right
Able to share without criticism
Feelings used against you seen as weak
With a pen and notebook feel at peace
Someone is mad always tripping
Keeping a distance not getting all the backlash
Never said anything about anyone
All they do is talk not listening of bothering
Caught feelings ended up disappointed
Shared emotions and treated different
Like it doesn't matter or mean anything
Walk around acting heartless not to get hurt

At a fancy pricy spot
She was into the finer life
He was simple and hard working
She'd order an expensive pasta
He ordered the cheapest appetizer
She told him what she thought
He seemed like the refined type
He was the hard working type
That didn't value material items
She was educated and valued it
With multiple associates degrees
While he was a college drop out
Who knew things read a book or two
But didn't take anything to heart
They'd talk about social manners
And gender roles it helped
Give one another an idea
Of their social standing
He grew up poor and worked for his
While she had multiple chances
But never stayed with them
She was a beautiful girl
Turns out employees expected more
She had morals would not sleep
Her way up the corporate ladder
He had a hard time getting hired
Grateful and thankful to be working
They'd walk around expensive stores
She dreamed of more
While he was barely getting by

Trying to pin point the moment
Where it went wrong
Like if you could go back
Back in time to fix the mistake
Forgiving yourself is hard
Trying to move on to forward
Tired of being in denial
Living a lie compromised outcomes
A series of events
Some loved and treasured
Some regret on the mind
Looping thoughts questioning behavior
The heart starved craving new moments
The old ones fade losing gratification
Detached from the new
Forgetting the old need to move on
Can't go back life's about moving forward

Forever in this hurting heart
Use to be close not friends anymore
I called reached out got ignored
Seen you as my best man
Women came between us
Prayed to be forgiven
Sober because I hurt so many
Clean living clarity of mind
Not making those mistakes anymore
We don't talk so you'll never know
Leading to fading in the background
Saved your place on this end
On your end replaced
Labeled as the bad guy
Not about that life anymore

Growing up child at heart
Growing a part friends to solo
Some get jobs others go to college
Others start a family have kids
Pursue a goal and dream
Trying to make it a reality
Never turns out according
The plan has detours and setbacks
In the mind trying to make it real

Comedy in the heart
Making jokes for laughs
A heart warming smile
Talking about funny moments
Random comments awkwardness
During a serious intense time
Lighten the mood uncomfortable
Sketch comedy fun one liners
****** expression grins snug remarks