Destruction of property
Homeless people living in filth
From a classy town
Now in the slumps
Grew up on the ghetto side of town
Many had respect and thankful
Before mental health was hidden
Now people use it as a crutch
Life style choices had consequences
Taboo topics respected
All these movements
No plan of operations or outlines

Wake up can't sleep starting to over think
Things are okay what do you say
Missing out always kept out
Fought to get in now everyone's mad
Dealing with heat greeted by defeat
Not always a role model but standing tall
With those who are rejected and denied
A leader when needed to help others
Sometimes scared not backing down
Walking with faith fear no man
Can write words down not easily spoken

Those rejection letters
Use to **** him off
All he does is work harder
Prove them wrong
Been doing it for some time
Never one to **** up
But **** it up plow through
Not staying down anymore
Tired of holding back
Mindful of others feelings
No regards respect in return
Over feeling ******* over
Burned with betrayal got the truth
Not accepting defeat called ruthless

On the rise with new beginnings
Always praying for everyone
Through thick and thin forever
Good and bad times part of life
Growing old being told by elders
Some grow up and some never do
Tough love to be seen as an adult
Treated like a child as an older man
Never given a say trying to be heard
Another path on the way
But true love for family

Focused on his blessings tired of taking on people that wasted his time. They didn't help him and he didn't owe them anything. He put his life in hold so many distractions doing things that he didn't have to do. He thought it matter turns out it wasn't him and it didn't do him any favors.
Happy for others when he made moves, or planned things no one got behind him. He was always supportive but when he had ideas they'd be shut down told he was crazy making what he wanted seem pointless like a waste of time.
He was always determined at work but thought use that energy to finish school. He wanted to learn and apply it. Always writing made him happy he got lost in it. Staying positive creating wanting to publish his work. Shared many thoughts ideas.
Started to draw using colors and paint another way to get out all the stuff within instead of being self destructive. Like a bomb ready to explode imploding within. Trying to do what's right not take anything personal.

Finding inspiration to write
Thankful for ideas those moments
Getting inspired to put out work
Deep from within not holding back
Pursuing a dream setting new goals
New standards honoring the original
Turn the negative into positive vibes
Learning open to grow into more
Lost in the process feeling productive
Made changes without toxic influence
Trying to be better improve over time
Over being misunderstood treated bad

She rest her head on his chest
He'd never been in love before
She was a dream come true
He couldn't believe the met
The live towns or two
From one another so close
Yet so far from one another
Two worlds not meant to be
Both ending up on different paths
Departing on bad terms beyond repair

From an alcoholic to a workaholic
Always distracted lost in work
Use to drink drown out misery
Not able to cope or understand
So much lost and taken away
Only if one could get it back
Do it differently make it right
Always moving forward back at one
Can't seem to get ahead so much bad
When things are well it's short lived

Writing has been a comforting companion and music has been an outlet to escape reality. Enjoying the person interviewed or topic on the latest podcast. Remembering all the joy things I use to be passionate about. Haven't had that joy for a while now. Being able to get lost in it not feel like its a chore or forcing things to get done. Feeling bad for people that don't care but talented. Always working harder than most to prove you want it and belong.

Loyal to all the wrong people
Working in the landmines
Dealing with BS not obsess
Raging attitude coming out
Giving it to God he'll provide
Dealing with devil full of lies
Bring things down falling hard
Explaining frustration
Not a follower roaming solo
Or lead doing my own thing
Coming out like hate
But not about that

Life goes on live to the fullest
Away from the wrong
Focused on doing right
Pen and pad just write
Best feeling day or night
Stopped with ex thoughts
Being a better person
Sober living clarity of mind
Learning to be patient
Not responding for others
Responsible ones actions
Be the guy make it happen
Don't leave it for the next
Limited time for the assignment
Clock is running out for the journey
On borrowed time an adventure

The odd couple a younger man anxious
One leads always active the other barks orders
Working with an older gentleman
One was working hard trying to make it
While the other gentleman coasted
Both focused on the job one took it serious
The other bored set in his elderly ways
Conflict of interest the bond is lost

Talking real to the fake
Hard for them to understand
Called names regurgitate the pain
Let it go set free best way to be
Being genuine giving the best
While receiving the worse
Not taking in the bad
Or becoming immune
Breaking the curse

Always sore and tired
Long days restless nights
Monday thru Friday
Working harder than most
Down time is relax time
At the bar taking in the scene
Talking to the bartender
A recovering alcoholic
Chatting with a friend
She lit up the bar
A dim dark room
He admired her
Her warm smile
Perky personality

Someone is always mas
Easily offended
It's like you can't say anything
Be yourself since others
Made you out to be someone
You're not quick to take the blame
Live with the guilt claiming it's fine
Acting different holding a grudge
Giving the best and get less in return
Had to stay away can't fix the pain
Always slandering one's character
Violating this name with a purpose