I'm here and you ate there
We formed a love that was kept apart
Opposite sides of the state
Goon places without our mate
The time together was great
Not meant to be
Love started in person
Phone kept us connected
But it all ended during one phone call
I could not be there
so you replaced me with someone else
A future we talked
But all was spoken faded into nothing
Two people separate world
Made they could be in one
Maybe that would bring them together
Now it's over hopefully for the better
No more letters in the mail

On the train going home an eleven hour ride
Could be a drain on the body. Thinking about all the things that matter
Mind is focused while the heart wants more
Wrote deep thoughts in lyrics
Thinking of ways to be open
Don't want to be judged or feel obligated
Only want true love but no one to be true
Or show me love
Easy to open up sexually than for a person to open their heart
Too many times lust is mistaken for love
Mixed signs emotions hard to let go
But staying the pain starts to show
Stay and love me or you could hate me but you have to go
If it feels right you'll show me love
If you truly love you'll treat one another
Equal do it right not trying to fight
I'll fight for you but don't pick a fight
I'll defend you but don't offend me
Well figure it out together give me a choice

I think of revenge when I should focus on being awesome
The ppl who never gave me the time of day
Or the ones who wasted my time
The ppl who lied or made feel I wasn't who I thought Or saw myself being
It's frustrating who my family wants me to be about them
But don't give a **** when it's anyone else
I've gone out of my way efforts belittled
Not appreciated because I can't live up to their standards
They can't even live up to their own standard
They want you to be at your best but they can't even be at theirs
Tired of double standards and contradiction
I'm angered by it I call them on it they soil my noble name with lies and my side of the story is never heard.

Happy for change even though things are beyond my control
Over the heartache feeling like me again
True friends stay while fakes bs comes to an end
Im learning to mind my mouth since my crazy thinking is too much for others.
Everyone set in their ways respect my choices
My mouth gets me in trouble so I cant voice my opinion.

This love was broken from the start
The world around you falls apart
Cheating ways and lovely days
Gone too far now stay away
Restoring love not an option
Like an outcast no going back
Make it else others react
With or without seeking outcome
Never forget who you are and where your from
Stay you late moments lives on
With time it all begins to fade
Your evil ways trying not to hate
Manipulation doesn't work
The world you know taste of decay

Been a while since I've posted been writing scripts and trying to get my ideas out. I'm thinking about making shorts because I feel I'm the only one who can dictate my stories and find the right people to play these roles. Learning to make my visions a reality. I've been sharing my ideas for my production company we'd like to get the ball rolling and started. Giving dimensions to all thoughts sometimes I write serious and it ends up being comedy.

We never say sorry but get along
My family proud makes them strong
We are talking no apologizes needed
You apologize it's mistaken for weakness
So you learn to let it go
If you admit your wrong
They think they are always right
Only if things could be done right
Love family alway eve thought they bring you down
Closer to friends but in the end they are there for you
You might agree let them be

you claim to be my friend
you pursue a girl that i once had
you slander my name
thinking it will win her over
you come to me and act like you have never spoken wrong
in your ingorant head you think you are right
departed over your insecurity
i can care less what you think
you judge a friend
you are no long alive to me
dead in my heart not a friend

The best feeling is escaping those feelings
Not letting them consume me or run me down
I've seen worse and thankful that's not me
I'm stuck in a cycle of obsession I want to break out
The world in front of me if full of surprises
While the past full of failed out comes I can't change.
I'm into creating but not moving in the present
Too much anger and hate keeping me from seeing the good
I waste my time fighting and arguing with idiots because I want to be right
going out of my way to prove they are wrong even if it means losing track of what matters
I felt a weight and burden life off my heart
I'm happy and deserve even if others try to take it by ruining my day or taking shots at my bullet proof self esteem
My mind likes new and different oppose to just being here waiting time or observing others
It's become my fix since I don't drink human behavior interests me theres always a reason to every answer but that's just my opinion
I'm normal not any different then the average **** walking the street
Ppl bully but that's the defense to the insecure
I'm not that person I was as a child I've grown and seen much more my experiences are lessons I've learned from.

In my room I feel safe
I protect my heart from being hurt
Not tall accept in short
My eye lashes long give me beauty
my smile goofy makes someone's day
Love yourself before you love anyone else
change because you want
not because they told you
Critics judge try to fix you
because they can't re-invent themselves
Be happy do what feels right and nature
Be open dont shutdown or be closed off
Be secure with who you are

Tired of starting on the bottom
Knocked from the top
Work hard not given what's mine
Everyone pampered and handed theirs
You may not like me but I'm best for the job
You won't have me motivated by the rest of the insecure opposed
You say jealous but tired of being ******* over
You talk big but when I confront you
Your very small you over look me because I'm not tall
You hate me but I don't need you at all
Wasted day wasted night everydays a fight
Give me what I've earned stop taking what's mine
Take my chance but I'm not done

I never mean to get anyone mad
Some aree just not use to the truth
I'm hoping to a balance but all is outta wack
Would make time both on different schedules
She's ben blessed and experienced more
I might be pursing  her and get hurt
I thouht she was the one
I wanted to be her one too many complication
Never treated her bad but I'm on the end of a damaged heart
If it was easy i d say away
Be better if things went my way
For once there's love and feels right

That do you ask what the hell is going on? Keep working hard going strong still feels like its in the wrong.
One minute they give you and award next minute they are putting you down
Hyped you to knock you down, they talk about respect but always disrespecting. You did your part and more one minute they give the next they take.
No time for the blame game keep making those wrongs into a right. No time to fight so I'll just write make sense of this madness let go of the stress all your frustration taken out on me. I'll walk away thanks for trying to dump your pain bad memories remain. Sick of your disrespect not your scape goat never the one chose someone less that's on you'll I won't always be there to save the day.

Tryin not to lose it stay true to myself
Wasn't meant to be refuse to see the truth
Living in denial not taking lies the extra mile
Loyal but still seen as a flirt
Accused of being someone I'm not
Just being not changing for anyone
Just changing to be better
Not trying to go back
Be me and brand new
Mind my own so I'm seen as cruel
Id like things to be the same
Don't even know your last name
I'm not playing games with love
Be true or be on your way
I wish you'd stay be my girl
I want to be your man

It was the 1st date in year
My mind full of fears
I wait under the street light
Hoping things go right
Her eyes and red lips grab my attention
We talk and watch a film
After we sit and talk
Getting to know one another better
Sharing personal stories
Feeling a charged connection
The night ends with a kiss
She is missed in the heart

From our 1st kiss to our last date
Everything reminds me of you
I wanted to be your number one not one of many
Remember seeing the passion in your eyes
As time passed that love turned to hate
All the hurt made everything fade away
Reminded of the good times and wish you stayed with me
Bad times burned the good away
From friends to strangers
Eyes tell a stories sad or mad that's how others read it

i write because it makes the word seem right
everything makes sense through words
ive been one to shape and scrap out all the bad
my mind is clear no more fear
all i want is to get out live the moment and write about it
my senses and feeling released hoping my readers end up pleased
i may not be a favorite but ill do right by your side
im always open with nothing to hide
ive done wrong not living with guilt
my eyes kind and caring with lips full of truth
im not looking away but focused on my path
im going towards what i want and know what i need
doing me and my greed not selfish but doin my thing

Think about her every day and night
Wondering what I can do to make it right
Her eyes and smile light up when together
Her voice soothing when she talks
You play with her hair
Let her know that you truely care
Hold her hand and understand
You feel her but she feel this way
Wish nothing came between the two
She shares her heart to build trust
She shares her body there is a vibe of love
Her love or her hate both deep
Piecing the heart set in case things fall apart
Her kisses light and warm with passion
Hold her close never let go
Always a fresh start together
New moment with one another
Souls together on another level
You stare she stares back
Kiss her she kisses you back
Hug her and she huge you tighter
She plays rough licks your face
Bites your shoulder playful love
Someone to kiss and trust

My best friend has grown up on me
She's a mom and a beautiful person outside and inside
I remember we dated kissed it could've been much more
We have so much love and respect got one another a relationship just complicates things
She attracted to me when I'm seeing someone
I'm noble to her if the girl don't get along with her the girl has got to go
I remember one night we hung together and my ex was there ******* us together ruining the night
These two could not get along even if I wasn't in the picture.
So to make my ex leave or **** her off my friend plants a juicy kiss on my mouth a mild make out session.
Next moment we notice the ex is gone
We have had many good times together
We don't live close but do keep in contact with one another
Much love and respect for one another
I'm a couple if years older but age doesn't matter

Waking up getting ready for the day
Writing always sets me straight
Thinking what I have to get done and what needs to be done
Growing and changing I've given myself a chance to do so
I'm thankful for the ppl who have faith and believe in me
I hate to disappoint them so I have to make it happen
I want my own talk show that would be awesome
I saw myself being a sports radio personal as well
It feels I don't fit the mold but planning to make my own

I don't like disappointing ppl
Or being disappointed
I walked away but going back
Things are not the same or will never be normal
I've grown up in two cities not sure where the heart belongs
I've had many lovers but only one has my heart
I do things because they told me I don't belong and I deserve to be there I busted my *** to get there.
Leaving always feels like part of me is left behind
I don't like to leave on bad terms
I don't like burning bridges even though I leave to the point of no return.

I don't want to mess this up doing wrong won't make it right
Feelings so strong to focus is hard not trying to fight
Over the double standards I'm enslaved at the heart
While you roam free work through frustration that's crushing me down
Giving it to god not losing faith or being consumed by hate
Your past shouldn't control your future break the vice grip
Start over new something worth while not wasting time
Once its out  everything will be fine

Sometimes I feel detached and don't belong
Hoping to find that place to call home
Be on my own without feeling I have to be someone I'm not
I remember what I loved others saw as crazy
Now I stopped they call me lazy
Those hypocrites no longer phase me
Back to doing what I love
Reading books and add my spin of ideas
Thinking of how I could've written things
Writing out my ideas I've stopped complaining and started doing something about it
Not holding on letting go if it's meant to be it wouldnt of walked out or I'd still have it
Praying things go right but not getting my hopes up

Have you ever loved someone youd do anything.
You treat them well and everything they do destroys you
You love them but they dont love themself
Give it your all trying to do right by their side
You want to reach out by theyll reject you like if they are so righteous
All you ever did wrong was care and want their companionship

Ride alone into the distant
Resistances leads to loneliness
Not hurting anyone
Not trying to get hurt
Get to know a person learn to trust
One light stand is lust
Open up but blocked out
Shut them out anxious to get in
Share yourself become true
Unite as one don't rush
It's over once you start lying
Make it work keep trying
Broken trust communication is the key
Aim for the best not a protest

Went to buy comics and though of creating my own
With witty characters and villains who might one day take over the world
I have an inner nerd and want to get it out
Society is always a joy **** you be what your saying and ill do what suits me best
I'm one who could relate to my collects two best friends goofing off and the hero of the day
I'm creating many new dimensions for character give them a world and home before they enter the main plot of the story
I'm in my mind creating a world that makes sense and feels right for my characters the comic would be a fun adventure everyone would enjoy.

Hard to sleep too much on my mind
The rage makes me go blind
Stare at the wall left alone
This place not my own
Hate what I know secrets meant to be know
Not into the tone Leave me alone
Music speaks to the heart
Tv entertains my mind
Reading brightens my days
My soul sings the blues
Passionate humor
Leave the world escape the rumours

Not trying to change you I only care for you
I've made the same mistakes
Life can be sour let's get through the hour
Stress and obsess over things beyond your control
I'm here for you even though your set in your ways
See you the same regardless of contradiction
You've always had my attention no need for self destruction
Too much alike you hide behind malfunction rely on beauty
Distracted by seduction not the best way to function
I see you setting up to fail all I want for you is to prevail
I found closure and peace within happiness is not a sin

Feet hurt back pain
I want to be numb to it all
I'm enjoying work clear of trouble
someones bad attitude screws it up
I don't ask or care why your upset
It ruins my day  so I'm not bothering
I've helped you and you turned your back
Now I avoid you we are not friends
Let me work while you enjoy your pitty party
I do right while you cheat and cut corners

They tell me to day within the race
I prefer interracial
Makes me want to do it more
Approval or not it's what I like
My happiness they cannot take
I'm hoping to make it work
The only one who gets hurt
I feel it deep within my heart
My world torn apart
don't know where to start
Love is a drug
Get that fix
Hope to one day find the right one
The girl who's in my life
My family will accept
Good or bad I won't regret

Turn nothing into something
Bad into good
Mood changed today
Sobriety or drunk feeling the gunk
Lie and truth seen as the same **** shame
Ticking of the clock time expires
Take back make it right
Bad overlooked while good is stripped down
Praised for bad conduct
Achievement no luck or applause
Merits earn should be respected not neglected
Salute the good not reward the bad

Once you loved me if you hated me it wouldn't bother me
What hurts most is you forgot about us
The tme we share laughter everywhere
We share moments together in the heart forever
Heart of gold times get cold without her
Thought of forgetting leave the heart regretting
Hard to trust the worse is when its lust
Good times bad times remember time together

I got inspired to tell stories and see how many ppl relate
Also know what I'm talking about lots of sub cultures are out there and exsist many catch phrase and different ways to do things but the same.
I grew up in a tough environment others did the same maybe worse.
Everyone has their favorite activities and hand out spots! I'm sober to me that way better than drinking feeling sorry for myself drowning out my sorrows to feel better about myself. I'm a soda drinker who loves to drive usually the DD
I like to read gives me insight for writing I tweak it or write stories that are similar but aim to be better.
I've always been a rebel but feared being alone so I tried to fit in found out I'm better off with out! I created the cool guy table anyone can sit with me just don't bring an ego or act like your better when your clearly not. I might hang with the rejects or ppl who are misunderstood but it feels good to belong somewhere

Feel censored can't be
Blocked out from true emotions
All that's right feels wrong
The story being told grow old
Not holding a grudge
Friendships end grow apart
Don't care to be tied down
Single life no need for a wife
Not a parent of kids can't afford
Angered to hear others negative words
Talk comes from someone else
Power packed come backs
Moving forward not going back

Why do ppl want who they can't have
And reject the ones whom want them
human behavior amazes the eyes by others actions
Shocks the ears by the words utter by the mysterious
Most say one thing but do oppose
Or contradict themselves by saying
"I would never"
Sometimes you want to say something but it's never anyone's job but the persons to be responsible or do the right thing
Questions bubble in the mind
Why or how come that person is given more opportunity after man ***** up.
Others walk eggshells and follow rules still come up short

We all have that person who admire from a distance
The fear of getting to know them because you think highly of them
what if those feelings fade or not what you made the person out to be the fear of disappointment
Or what if you can't live up to those needs and those desires
Saying hi makes your day, making eye contact feeling those vibes
Nervous not sure what to say but look forward to the social interaction
Know in an environment but outside of that world be interesting
The fear of rejection but being accepted and mixed emotions hard to set straight.

I've been working on character development and dialogue. It feels like Im talking to myself. The plot of one of my projects is a group of losers come together for a greater cause. I write monologues of cold stuff that's funny because it's true. I could be seriously funny! I've sad some shocking stuff but others find my truth to be amusing. I don't like to lie it's a moral thing I also dislike having a guilty conscience. I've got most of the hate and anger out of my system. I dont hold on or hold back. Letting go of the burdens so I could focus on what needs to be done. Not listening to ppl especially if they don't have what I want or doing what matters most to me.

Still escaping this hurt my friend
Forgiving myself no more counting my mistakes
Letting go of the past not reliviant to my future
Dealing with hurt sobriety won't let me drown it out
Coping with these unsettling thoughts
Not much I can do you don't want  with anyone else
But you don't want to be with me
Once I move on something keeps trying to pull me back

In a mustang driving fast
**** the price of gas
Riding with my guitar
Lets see how far we go
Blasting loud music
Feeling the beat
Go for a ride along the coast pch
Cruising clearing the mind wondering
Hoping thing change
find what I'm looking for
Days are fresh but nights more refreshing
Write and ride freedom and expression
Finish up feeling much better
Getting there going to the place meant to be

When it comes to an end you wake up realizing
You don't need to do it anymore or be that person anymore
Sometime you become someone you don't understand
Being let go set free from something that was not right
The beginning was tough but it got better always a battle
The struggle that lead to no where moments that made you stronger
That chapter has come to an end a new beginning
Don't look back or try to pick out the positive
It's not meant to be so move forward no going back
That mindset did nothing before and nothing now
Open to change let go of the past live within the moment

Rocking and ready to rumble
Moving forward trying to stay humble
Laugh hard hard enjoy life
Smile always don't have time to hate life
It might **** but not afraid to live it up
Back from the dead my soul feels alive
Doing all the things that made me happy
Gave it up but taking it back up
Haven't been the same keep getting better
My clear of bs not letting others fill it with doubt
I'm ******* myself I could do without others
Judging pointing there fingers
saying I'm doing wrong when they aren't right
Standing tall back in the fight not staying out
Push me be prepared to be pushed back
Now you're stopped lets see how you like being told how to act
No reaction but your going to overreact stand tall or stand back

Writing is the best way to get it out
Alcoholic fathers crying over daughter
Weak divorced husbands drinking so they could speak
Failed relationships denying the truth trying to make it work
Stupid baby mama drama should've left long ago
Suffer for someone else doesn't makes sense
Someone's misery is another mans treasure
Trying to find love in broken trust just a lust
Marriage overrated that's why couples be cheating
Find the scapegoat soil their with the blame
Kids see bad thinking it's alright
Wonder why people do wrong and still seem as good

Told the truth why you so bitter and cold. Holding a grudge now that you are getting older. What's up with the cold shoulder? We use to be friends not we don't talk act like complete strangers. Staying sober, being mildly wild avoiding the danger zone. We grew up together friends since the second grade. Over some girl who was playing everyone like a boardgame.

Keep your head up don't let up
Things will change get better
Change my life in the form of word
They fly away with the bird
The great escape keep working don't fight fate
One day love your soul mate
find love that would be great
Lost in those eye lost in the truth
no more living in denial
Sleep good at night
Things feel right only getting better
Work for a living giving back
You have no right telling others how to act
Make a joke get a laugh not random remark

That moment you know it's wrong and try to make it right
The fight that can make or break your world
The struggle within deep the fear of hurt equals pain
Took its toll no going back not holding on
Focused on the future start a new chapter once it ends
Never the same even if you have it your all
Somethings come and go without reason
Life can change come and go like the seasons
Dream big empty emotions turn nothing into something more

Walked away instead of being pushed out
Much respect but had many doubt
Parents love but hate for their kid
Only know one side
don't know the crap they did
Threats on the phone
We broke up she won't go home
There's no love leave them alone
Daddy's girl not grown the guy
he warned her about mommy two times daddy
Don't know why others are mad at the daughters x
Family ruins family in ruins

You stack the wood
Light the fire
Time spent with close friends
You talk of good times
Friendship full of memories
You feed the fire
Keep it alive
So the night could continue
Keeps you warm
Able to make fire treats
Fire burns till the sun comes up
Stories by the fire for entertainment
Next day you mad a bond
That keeps everyone strong

My mind is occupied with thoughts of you
My heart skips a beat when we speak
I don't want to ***** this up
I only wnt to do right by your side
Being loyal and share the truth
I don't want to hurt or hurt you
You're always on my mind
Do you feel the same
Things keep us apart but everything feels right
I love every minute we spend together
Make the world brighter when we are together

Night alone my mind starts to roam
Leave me alone I'm not answering my phone
Writing gets me in the zone
I say what I think in words
Don't care for confrontation get out of my face
Talk about me behind my face you disgrace
Pain in my heart the mean things provoked to say
You made me go there that's not fair
You don't care how I feel mean mugging cold stare
My fun ruined I can't complain waste of my time
I'm not who you make me out to be
I break free stand up to your terror mentalist
Rebel in protest you can't judge me
Your dead to me get out of my head