Embraced the labels flipped them
Made moves in silence
A tarnished rep that is in the past
Being better alone not being tore
Ripped to pieces by negative friends
Not always going to have a support
Staying motivated in a toxic environment
Hardest worker in the room no one wants it
Took pride in efforts while others place blame
Natural leader taking the blame
Trying to help others who don't help themselves
Frustrated for years for caring
Stopped carrying the burden of others
Let go of people who forgot about your kindness
Not begging to be liked or be accepted
Get away from the toxic job
Saved from the sinking ship
Around people who value your heart
Appreciate you as a human being
More to life than being a working machine
Showing no emotions hiding who you are
In the mind processing goals and thoughts
A home that a safe place to focus

On the train
Looking out the window
Scenery passing a rapid view
Thinking of a new plan
Living two lives
One with family
The college living
A failing relationship
Home friends an old life
College colleagues new beginnings

Expecting them to go the distance
Finish the race one by one
Flaking and falling off
Going the distances trying finish
Feeling beat up over time
Wear and tear feeling the pain
Smiling feeling hollow inside
Not trying to run or hide
Barely getting by trying to survive

A new mindset
Can't hold onto the past
Like a trophy on a shelf
An old accomplishment
Time to pursue new glory
Find new ways to enjoy life
Love life to the fullest
Holding back doesn't help
Thinking too much
Doesn't change anything
Sequences and scenarios in mind
Where your at doesn't always have
What you seek
Easy to focus on writing

Kicking back
Not sure how to act
Might have a heart attack
Someone talking behind my back
Mad I said it to their face
Need to be doing something
Mind starts racing
Driving myself crazy
Should've done that
Could've done this
The moment past
Everything happened so fast

Showed up to there
Wasn't even acknowledged
Always been supportive
Never played the lead
Left in the open to be a target
Been walking strong crumbling
Smiled to hide the pain
Use to have high expects
Left with disappointment
Always been a doer
Never asked found a way
So many road blocks and detours
Don't do this but it's been done
You can't do this been doing it
You're not alllowed already been there
Just do it without doubt or hesitation
From always on the go to home
From free to work an average Joe job
Seen things done stuff on this journey

Always on hold for others
Working to get hired
Holding down the open position
But it's not guaranteed
Doing extra take pride in work
Glad when others benefit
Making it easy for myself
Don't leave it for the next
Be the one who made it happen
The one who got it done
Smiled liked the tasks
Keeping this mouth shut
When it opens it leads to trouble
Not into the drama others cause
Minding my own business

Always focused on the dream
Some got married
Didn't want that right away
Others had kids
Family is forever
Not ready to start my own
Creating and making it happen
Part of the plan lots of detours
Close to them still cant settle
Haven't found the one
Still single looking for love
Friends faded away
Still doing my own thing
Seen as crazy no one is doing it
A wild heart growing
Into much more than before

He'd never snitch them out
They are quick to slander him
He had their back
He should've known better
They turned their back on him
They spoke bad of him
While he talked them up
Kept out looking in
Not allow left for something new

Gave up the reputation
A silent mouth so many provoking
Compromised so much stuff
All the compromise a one way street
Sacrificed so much died within
A journey that needs to be finished
Suppose to get hired to take her out
Never happened missed opportunities
She found someone else happy for her
Stayed home to be sober faded away
Can't be around temptation or crazy
Trying to stay in control but losing it
Wanted job didn't get hired
Still working for it not giving up
Scared it will never happen
The people talking never tried
Easy to talk about everyone
Never said anything about anyone

Showing emotions through words
Able to feel come alive
Never felt this way before
Not the same person anymore
More than a face in the crowd
Behind the scenes making moves
Saying it's time to produce
No one can tell your story
Or see what your eyes see
Get out the raw emotions
Show emotions in story form
Strong and deep what does it all mean

Staring at a blank page trying to create
Wanting to draw out these ideas
A wild imagination doing other stuff
Seeing it vividly before these eyes
Trying to recreate on the page
Draw it holding a pencil
A blank mind set with art
Staring at a blank canvas
Able to write for hours
Hard to shade for dimensions
Give it texture to pop off the page
Story board comes to live while writing
Drawing for fun one liner comics
Hoping to make others laugh
Brighten someone's day with humor

Always writing about work
Or failed relationships
Sad to say it's a comfort zone
All the would've and could've
No say or control losing a grip
Things turned out accordingly
Bouncing around to get paid
Dating all the wrong people
A waste of time focused on writing
Helps with the stress frustration
Trying to live in the moment
Always thinking what to write
Asking what's next how to rise
Get to the next level stuck in transition
Always questioning this role an open position
Always thinking about everything
Every angle different perspective
More selective years of being betrayed

Slowing down time is taking it's toll
Lost so many on the journey
Got tired of waiting holding back
Friends turn to foes not talking anymore
Over shady girls who just wanted tonparty
Girlfriend turned into an ex
With her felt like an idiot couldn't do right
Even when she was clearly wrong
Working a job that doesn't get easier
Gave everything it's never enough
Wised up learned everything possible
Can't rely or depend on anyone at work
Hard to show emotions seen as weak
Have an opinion everyone is offend
Jokes turn to insults it got personal
Wanting to speak but it's easier to write

Changing the mind set
Coped with the regret
Broke up not going back
Anxiety death grip on how to act
Observed in silence said be better
Another protest for rights
Depression an internal fight
More chaos than peace
Anger making heart rate increase
Old norms from child youth
New noise prefer old school
So many rules made in the mind
Broken rules with cruel intensions
Life lessons and many more
Life blessing are worked for

Thinking what to write
A notebook with a blank page
The blue pen in the right hand
Feeling the words give them emotions
A moment in time comes to life
The mind seeks memories
Time heals the past fades away
Learn to live in the moment
Enjoy company of others
More time in public trying to socialize
Use to working behind the scenes
Shy nervous easily misunderstood
Trying to connect with others
after years of being disconnected

Growing up child at heart
Growing a part friends to solo
Some get jobs others go to college
Others start a family have kids
Pursue a goal and dream
Trying to make it a reality
Never turns out according
The plan has detours and setbacks
In the mind trying to make it real

The memories fade
Able to live life
Enjoy the moment
Not easily distracted
Sober living staying away
Avoiding temptation
Making others laugh
Sharing a smile
Focused on the new
Forgetting about the old
Letting the soul shine and glow

Use to be excited about life
Waking up to work
From fun to a routine
Hiding emotions not get hurt
Being genuine being ****** dry
Fake friends fade away
Seeing through the act
Isolated staying away
Writing a safety net

The heart pours emotions
Rain drops hide the tear drops
Cold weather over a cold heart
An old life focused on the new
Unwind this heart withering down
Unload these feelings from within
Dreams to escape the nightmare
Working a job not vibing it anymore
Feels like I can be doing more
Not too late to pursue a career

Never been one to brown nose or kiss ***
A natural leader but not first pick
So many think they are boss material
Not able to do the work but want the fancy title
Some excel in other areas while others struggle
Talking bad about people doesn't make you better
If some one ***** tell them how to be better
Show them if you are not helping the problem
Never had a job long enough to grow
Tried to make a difference care more than most
Some collect a check do nothing mostly complain
While others don't care with another job lined up
Most think short term instead of long term
You are the problem people need leaders
Not a boss that walks around feeling important

Music in the heart
The soul feeling the best
Able to relate connect
Unexpressed emotions being sung
Bottled up feelings released
Not alone sharing a moment
Years of experience changing
Encounters filled with growth
Melody flowing through
Heart begins to heal empowered
Magical sounds taken away

Always protecting others
While they are quick to sacrifice
A friendship telling lies cold shoulder
Being two face over some lush
Said straight up to their face
All that talk behind this back
Came back around now in denial
Had your back backed you up
Now you're knifing mine
Trusted hard got betrayed
Don't want to hear it so ashamed
Disgusted can't be in the same room
Can't breathe the same air
Called you a friend seen you like fam
Blew up in this face so much regret
Hit hard and deep heard a loud BAM
Friends come and go like the season
Some with out reason wished they'd stay
Learned to let go not get attached
Hard to get emotionally invested
Detached from everyone lost in words
This notebook is a true friend
Just listens without criticism
Able to feel safe with thought
Tell secrets share feelings
And know they won't be used against

Comedy in the heart
Making jokes for laughs
A heart warming smile
Talking about funny moments
Random comments awkwardness
During a serious intense time
Lighten the mood uncomfortable
Sketch comedy fun one liners
****** expression grins snug remarks

Never want to feel that way again
Put myself in that situation
Trying to be a better friend
Guard down not so defensive
Trying to understand others
Always misunderstood
Dk how to react to others
Outbursts or remarks
Shutting down to be liked
Being quiet to be accepted
Don't like the feeling
Can't be myself feeling pressured
hide in this head to be safe
Crammed in a box trying to escape
Who others made me out to be
Lies that are not true
Focused on work can't get close
Always impersonal can't get attached

Had to leave
Get away from the drama
Blows over with time
Everything fades away
So many talking
Dk the whole story
Stop budding in
Mind your business
Sorry you have nothing going
With all your meddling

A late bloomer open to grow
Never knew just went without
Wasn't in a rush to grow up
After a few failed relationships
Learned to appreciate being single
Jobs in bad work environment
He appreciated working alone
Working to get paid wasn't born rich
A full heart of nothing in effort

Falling hard
Falling fast
Not afraid to hit
Rock bottom
Dk anymore
Not sure what to say
What to do only if
Missed opportunity
Another chance to bounce back

Inspired to be more
Family tells you NO
Trying to strip you
Of all that makes you unique
Telling you to be this way
Or do that but not happy
Don't have much but thankful
Traveled seen stuff lived
Stuck being average Joe
Set out to be much more
Life doesn't make sense
Getting lost in writing
Able to feel not seen as less
Show emotions without judgement

How can a person be married
Say I love you to an old going
Why would a person cheat
And have the nerve to blame
For their actions
Tell someone who loves them
They got with another person
Your so called best friend
Hooks up with a crush
Did wrong never forgiven
Wrong doers given multiple chances
Forgive yourself for peace
Not always going to find out the reason
Get closure for someone else
The problem can't be fixed
Walk away learn the lesson
Focus on a new life count blessings

Writing to come up with a plan
Posting different mindset
From the pen and the pad
Thinking about family
The struggle is real and hard
Life can change hit the core
Other times not phase
Dazed up and crazed up ride
Trying to go the distance
Before it ends without say
More unexpected delay
Praying pays off for others
Not about you get over yourself
Parent role passing it onto the next
Not a role model but trying
No a mentor but gave pointers
Advice trying to help when asked