Don't like to be consumed
By anger and frustration
Dealing with thievery
Not always given a chance
Or an opportunity slim pickings
Making the most of what's given
Praying to not give into temptation
Throw hands with those provoking
Stayed away kept out of the mix
Had to find another place start over
Found new to call your own
Things are better than before
Walking with faith not giving into hate
Praying for wrong doers
Done bad before lived with regret
Begging for forgiveness
Learned to forgive
Not about that life anymore

Wanted it and taunted
Why now feeling neglected
Deprived use to going without
Work could be fun or draining
The people some love you
While use to hate and a hard time
Mindful of this mouth
Usually makes it worse
Trying to stay calm not curse
Always the grunt with no perks
Trying to be happy with bad vibes
Never give in or show emotions
Too strong going numb feeling nothing

Not use to help Keep striving
Worked hard Always determined
Self-motivated Showed empathy
Protecting a loving fragile heart
That was broken healing from hurt
Hard to trust a liar never again
No respect for a cheater runaway

Old enough to know better
Some choose otherwise
Missing youth older now
Work to pay bills getting by
No time for dreams on the go
Trusting the wrong people
Prayed for the right ones
From a young adult to a man
It happened so fast time has passed
Feels too late not losing faith
Others will not dictate fate

Feeling bad for the things done
Living in regret for things
Should've asked her out
The thought of no
Or her seeing you differently
In a new light not the same anymore
Not trying to rush see
If it can be much more
Get to know a person not just physical
Be able to open up trust another being
With these emotions and feeling
That could be over the top for caring
Trying to do right by your side
Stop focusing on one problem
Be thankful for good all the blessings

Growing up child at heart
Growing a part friends to solo
Some get jobs others go to college
Others start a family have kids
Pursue a goal and dream
Trying to make it a reality
Never turns out according
The plan has detours and setbacks
In the mind trying to make it real

Never looked at it before
Feel it coming together
So much change over time
Sober living not giving it up
Cut out toxic people no more hate
So much negativity had to get away
Feeling more motivated
Choices without others influence
Been down but not out overtime
Plotting and planning moves
Need to put them into effect

The anger grows
Won't be consumed
Writing keeps it from going
Keeps things from going off
Release the tension
Deflate the situation
Calming the nerves
Over the edge about to go off
Wiping away tears
Over coming fears
Spoke up now they are mad
Said nothing being taken advantage of
Feeling provoked trying to be nice
Can't say anything spread rumors
To the masses can't win alone
Trying to change the odds
Making things personal
Not taking it or falling for it
Screaming inside ready to strike
Stronger than most think
Mentally able to block it out
Physically restrain heavy handed
Not trying to fight but write

Had a conversation with a friend
Talked about things that bug
That made me angry and upset
All those friends
Who talked behind my back
Told them straight up out of respect
All the lazy people
Doing nothing collecting a check
Who said my hard work
Makes them look bad
When I got sober it was a problem
Others got sober expect to be praised
Saying it couldn't be done
After doing it multiple times
Always hustling to get it done
While others **** up brown nose
Know what its like to be broke
Thankful to be working
Excluded looking in
On the inside wanting out
Can't deny myself to be accepted
To be liked by judgemental people
Being myself seen as hood
Even if it means
Beginning called ghetto
All those who laughed for crying
Being sensitive tired of bullies
Giving others the best
While bringing out the worse

Everyone ends up mad
Can't say anything
But won't take crap from anyone
Always respectful to rude people
Minding this mouth staying calm
Some try to provoke to make you mad
**** you off then play victim
Once checked them for acting up
Put them in their place
Not giving in or letting up anymore

Trying to pin point the moment
Where it went wrong
Like if you could go back
Back in time to fix the mistake
Forgiving yourself is hard
Trying to move on to forward
Tired of being in denial
Living a lie compromised outcomes
A series of events
Some loved and treasured
Some regret on the mind
Looping thoughts questioning behavior
The heart starved craving new moments
The old ones fade losing gratification
Detached from the new
Forgetting the old need to move on
Can't go back life's about moving forward

What does the heart tell you
A soul searching for peace
The mind questions everything
More questions than answers
Full of thoughts and ideas
Wandering eyes that are warm
Also full of fury when angry
A smirking grin when frustrated
Or caring smile that is soothing

Everyone has choices to make
Decisions to be made
Everyone has their own life
Sometimes you want to help
Some prefer the hard way
Over doing things easily
Finding another way
Sometimes given it all
It's never enough
While others work with what's given
Making the most of it all
Taking on the struggle
Without accepting defeat
Standing tall going the distance
Making the most of it

The birdie in the window
Heard the chirps so loud
Saying hi little bird
Flying in from of the window
Landing on the antenna
On the house next door
Flying back to the window
Looking in wondering
Asking are you okay
Chirping thinking of a lost one
Been told birds are loved ones
Angels looking out
Landing on the ledge
Looking out the window still
Wings flapping fast then flew away

Woke up late
Barely made it on time
Thinking what to eat
Emotions running deep
Everyone is mad in their mood
Not walking into that trap
Block it out by cleaning
Listening to favorite tunes
Feeling the groovy vibe
Memories that take you back
Avoiding others to reflect
So much change from before
New beginnings full of growth
Forgotten endings letting it all go
Not meant to be the same

Trying to connect words
This reminds me of
Each piece comes together
Comparing and contrasting
Making something out of nothing
Things to be said at the wrong time
Trying to do right its all wrong
Details that pop out
That catch the eye
Feelings that make your hair standTrying to connect words
This reminds me of
Each piece comes together
Comparing and contrasting
Making something out of nothing
Things to be said at th
A nervous sweat overwhelmed

Lost in love
Denied yourself
Never again freedom of expression
No need to pretend
Admiring art that came from within
How its created with emotions
What was felt at the time
Going on with the artist
Each stroke from the brush
The amount of pressure
While mixing colors setting a tone
Chapter of life soon to be forgotten
But a moment of life to be shared
Taken in by others to be admire
A picture that says more than words
Stories created hoping to connect
Lost in details with dimensions

Always treated differently
Held to a different standard
Single life responsible for own happiness
Working being to contribute a share
Had dreams seen a crazy for believing
Spoke truth made out to be weird
Trying to live a normal life being positive
Growing up around negativity
Trying to be functional around dysfunctional
Life was tough sometimes hard
Doesn't mean let it **** or remain the same

Use to wake up drink
Other times with a black eye
Not knowing what happened
The night a blur can't remember
Waking up at home no clue
Drank too much hiding in a bottle
Couldn't get enough numbing pain
Remember everything trying to forget
Block it out not sure How to deal
Deal with all these emotions
Never felt ot been this way before
Losing a sibling wanting love
Thinking the one is found
Never was meant to be
Not sure how it happened
From confidence to doubting
From a whole feeling complete
Once it ended a bottomless hole
That couldn't be filled feeling numb
Consumed by it all spiraling down

Always focused on the dream
Some got married
Didn't want that right away
Others had kids
Family is forever
Not ready to start my own
Creating and making it happen
Part of the plan lots of detours
Close to them still cant settle
Haven't found the one
Still single looking for love
Friends faded away
Still doing my own thing
Seen as crazy no one is doing it
A wild heart growing
Into much more than before

A broken heart before we met
Mending a heart of a troubled friend
So much support one sided
Waiting around to make it right
Outside factors ruining a friendship
All burden toxic behavior
Negativity drains the good vibes
Focused on the positive
Over come the struggle

The sport changed over time
From one art to multiple
Legends retire hard to let go
Thankful for memories
For changing the game of it all
Standards set high for the next
New generations coming in
Analyzing the strengths
Noticing weakness need work
Room for improvement
The sport has evolved
From underground seen as brutal
State regulations standards

Never dated in high school
Paired off for a winter formal
Went to prom with a friend
Being the 3rd wheel
My friend and his date had another friend
So I was paired off didn't know this chick
Till that night got to know one another
School was ending never got close to anyone
Before this night asked a few close friends
Got stuck going alone but had fun
Rejection is the worse if she doesn't feel the same
But dating is more than kissing holding hands
High school was about being friends
But you get older grow apart
And realize not everyone likes
Or agrees with who you are
Happening so fast trying to make sense of it all

Closing always *****
The last one leaving
Setting the alarms
Making sure the building is secure
Hustling to invest in a dream
Pens and paper to create
A day without writing
Feeling complete doing it
Thinking about it twenty four seven

Always seen as crazy
For having a dream
Doing things wanted it more
Took risk only one trying
Never been done before
The bar wasn't set that high
Family in an out of prison
Went to college the first to pursue it
Had a wild life over the years
Learned to be an adult
The transition is hard
Hard to learn one way or another

Writing life if life was ending
What can be said before fate is near
Always faithful and positive
So much negativity around
Adapt and adjust so much broken trust
Sad how things turned out
Really working hard to change
Learned they played out accordingly
An open heart closed out from the world
Closed minds not open to change but expect it
Free thinkers criticized for thinking differently
Always been a chubbs while everyone was lean
Worked hard lost pounds not on drugs
Took more risk got more criticism
Never talk about anyone who does nothing

So much change
Missing work mostly the people
Friends so far away
We don't talk anymore
Happy for your marriage
You are blessed with kids
Appreciate your family
Some are wanting that
Yet to experience that moment
The single life could be lonely
Always pursing a career
The degree not quest a struggle
Reading to enjoy stories
Reading for knowledge not used
Collecting hoping to use it
Apply it to life using content
Setting goals chasing dream
Getting back what was lost
Somethings are over
Some left not coming back

Trying to empower others
Motivate to grow
Be much more than before
Never settle for less
Be the best you possible
Making it happen with drive
Don't wait for the moment to pass
Ready for this or ready for that
Over prepared came too easy
In the moment making it up on the go
Heart and soul make or break it down

Being pulled in all directions
Trying to stay a whole
Earned respect fades away
Redemption not feeling worthy
Proving self worth without loss of value
A vicious cycle for others approval not seen as an equal
Hard to show emotions under frustration
Not let feelings get the best of everything

Waking up next to this stranger
The girl I love blinded in danger
Thought this was love
Turned out to be lust
Another argument then ***
More conflicts that can't be fixed
More pain the thought of her name
Really in too deep can't be saved
Walking away is hard had to be brave
The last time together forgotten
Remember the first day we met
Hard to forget it was special
Now full of regret lost the vibe
Had to say goodbye to survive

So many try to change others
But never want to change themselves
All the double standards
Made up rules for injustice
History repeats itself not erased
Hard to speak always attacked
Judged for having an opinion
Prefer to be neutral not get involved
Dealing with family that never gets along
Someone has something to say
Never looking at themselves
Try to make an example of others
Instead of being an example
Always talking but can't take it

She smiled at him he smirked back. Who knows if this friendship could be and lead up to much more. He was shy and she was confident with a bubbly personality. They felt the tension among them full of life positive vibes in the air.

She asked him how his day was and they both had an interesting conversation between one another. He didn't expect much but willing to put forth an effort if they could match seen as an equal.

He wanted to ask her out just need to make that moment happen. Find an opening, so that he could ask her out, take her to eat, somewhere get to know one another.

This was all new to him, the girls he dated liked him or seemed interested. Most of the girls he dated in the past. This one caught his eye actually held his interest

He was shy and nervous he had been rejected and denied before but didn't like the feeling. He played it safe since it was the worse

Forever in this hurting heart
Use to be close not friends anymore
I called reached out got ignored
Seen you as my best man
Women came between us
Prayed to be forgiven
Sober because I hurt so many
Clean living clarity of mind
Not making those mistakes anymore
We don't talk so you'll never know
Leading to fading in the background
Saved your place on this end
On your end replaced
Labeled as the bad guy
Not about that life anymore

Metal head mind set banging hard
Punk rock attitude lots of *****
A rock song in the works
A rebel not a follower trail blazing
Spoke truth called out fakes
Heart beats like a double bass drums
Music that makes you drive fast
From still to hauling *** over the limit
Took one for the team stayed away
Earned those wings to fly away