Trying to focus on the good
Let go of all the bad
Just be free from the mind scheme
Plotting and planning should be living
Cleaned up the damage within
Letting go of the sad moments
Not mad but glad it happened
Pushed it out feeling empty
Need to have fun feel full
With new moments
Replace the old memories

Don't like to feel this way
Not about acting this way
Forgiven with faith and grace
The way of the world market
People won't forgive or forget
Sorry isn't enough treated different
Begged to be forgiven not fair
Had to cut ties and stay away
Dk how to make it right
Died inside tore this heart open
Broken to help make the wrong right
Breaking myself over you
Values your friendshipl
Your tender heart
So you could be a whole

She said she had my back
Turns out she was the first one to go
All the lies that kept coming
Not ready to be in a relationship
A week later she was with someone new
Got placed in the friend zone then forgotten
She would get mad when you don't answer
Now she rejects calls not responding
Sent a text now she hates texting
Cut off communication can't even talk
When in the same room it all went sour

Sharing old stories
Lost in memories
Parts of life
That caused growth
Another way of living
Felt like much more
Now it's passed
It doesn't matter
Onto the next
Way more selective
Over trusting was a mistake

Must be close
Some thing good near by
Bad days over others negatives
Sent out good vibes got shut down
Wanted to help cant help
Those who wallow in misery
Not into the petty party
Living life to the fullest
Made the most of everything
May not have it all togrther
Working with what's given
Made the most of it all

How do complicated people
Talk about others to take the attention off them
When no one is talking about them
Quick to blame others and make excuses
Instead of owning up very frustrating
Far from perfect
They burden others and expect
Manipulating others with guilt
So they can be set in their ways
Too stubborn to change
Listen to anyone that means well

Dared to inspire others
Seeking motivation put it out
Inspiration collected projected
Lots of struggle bubbling down
Overtime began to grow
surpassed others with change
Feel the glow starting to show
Straight up with the truth

No longer friends over a girl
She played them both
Now they are blaming on another
One had love for her
The other lusted with her
Can't change the past
Ruined the future lots of false hope
Broken promises nothing more
A failed relationship beyond repair
A childhood friendship diminished
Brotherly love turned into hatred
Broken trust no longer a couple
Lost respect everyone divided

Forever in this hurting heart
Use to be close not friends anymore
I called reached out got ignored
Seen you as my best man
Women came between us
Prayed to be forgiven
Sober because I hurt so many
Clean living clarity of mind
Not making those mistakes anymore
We don't talk so you'll never know
Leading to fading in the background
Saved your place on this end
On your end replaced
Labeled as the bad guy
Not about that life anymore

Stopped waiting on others
Do it anyway eventually
It's dumped on you
Skip the middle man
Hired or not working hardest
Not afraid to get *****
Push even through the struggle
Roles are established
Harder worker aim to get it done
Dealing with a titled lead
Abusing power and can't hang
It's at every job trying not to complain
Don't care for politics
Used or not still doing something
Had to pray get lost in the word
Not into the ways of the world
Finding faith and believing

Reaching out
Don't always know
How to make the wrong right
The words one come out
Thought of this moment
Played in the back of the mind
Trying not to hurt others
Trying not to get hurt
Protecting this heart
This mouth a weapon
Silence can be empowering

Grasping the moment
Regretting its over
Put in some time
Saying good bye
The past is history
Life going forward a mystery
So much curiosity floating
Taken away by it all
Can't fall a sleep
Calling your name
After math all that remains

A new mindset
Can't hold onto the past
Like a trophy on a shelf
An old accomplishment
Time to pursue new glory
Find new ways to enjoy life
Love life to the fullest
Holding back doesn't help
Thinking too much
Doesn't change anything
Sequences and scenarios in mind
Where your at doesn't always have
What you seek
Easy to focus on writing

Not trying to argue
Clearly wrong trying to justify
This nonsense as right
Another fight over ignorance
Messing with others thinking it's funny
When the tables are turned
You are mad making faces
Huffing and puffing the frustration comes out
Acting like everyone owes you
You owe it to yourself stop blaming others
Just because someone has more
No need to belittle make them small
Sorry you're going through stuff
It's no one's fault but your own
So own up, shut up
Stop talking over your bad vibes
How you going to cheat
Think you're a prize believing the lies
Misleading and decieving good people
Friends to their face mouthing behind their back
Playing it calm when you're the one trying to BS
Get called out on the drama
Now you want to start something
Waste of time it goes no where
All this talk leads to nothing
You push people away with your bad attitude
Have the nerve to say they walked away

Feared no man walked strong with God
Told too dark to eat at an establishment
Years later the restaurant went under
Not one to play the race card
Doing what's right, by my moral code
Speaking no one hears my voice
When I write the words bleed out
Not one to judge others
How you treat others says a bunch
Been through the struggle
One who got out for the better
Feels like I got dragged back in
Find closure ready to start over
Did so much, need to make more happen
Forgive or not here I come
Stood still not one to run
The pain within has leveled out
Don't count me out
Never back down from fear

Embraced the labels flipped them
Made moves in silence
A tarnished rep that is in the past
Being better alone not being tore
Ripped to pieces by negative friends
Not always going to have a support
Staying motivated in a toxic environment
Hardest worker in the room no one wants it
Took pride in efforts while others place blame
Natural leader taking the blame
Trying to help others who don't help themselves
Frustrated for years for caring
Stopped carrying the burden of others
Let go of people who forgot about your kindness
Not begging to be liked or be accepted
Get away from the toxic job
Saved from the sinking ship
Around people who value your heart
Appreciate you as a human being
More to life than being a working machine
Showing no emotions hiding who you are
In the mind processing goals and thoughts
A home that a safe place to focus

He denied his feelings
Bold to say what he thinks
Never coped with loss
Always on the go
Processed emotions never had control
Didn't always have an opinion or say
If he liked or didn't like stuff
Didn't complicate went with the flow
Kept it simple wrong tainted the way
Didn't let others down cared too much
Faced disappointment felt set up
On a daily basis needed change

Showed up to there
Wasn't even acknowledged
Always been supportive
Never played the lead
Left in the open to be a target
Been walking strong crumbling
Smiled to hide the pain
Use to have high expects
Left with disappointment
Always been a doer
Never asked found a way
So many road blocks and detours
Don't do this but it's been done
You can't do this been doing it
You're not alllowed already been there
Just do it without doubt or hesitation
From always on the go to home
From free to work an average Joe job
Seen things done stuff on this journey

Work and back about the hustle
Can't go out staying sober
Everyday is a struggle
Throwing a punch
Doesn't make it right
Talk about things like adults
Treat one another like humans
An insult and yelling
Doesn't mean your right
Everyone wants to be Unique
Why does everyone get lip for it
Respect one another's differences

So much change
Missing work mostly the people
Friends so far away
We don't talk anymore
Happy for your marriage
You are blessed with kids
Appreciate your family
Some are wanting that
Yet to experience that moment
The single life could be lonely
Always pursing a career
The degree not quest a struggle
Reading to enjoy stories
Reading for knowledge not used
Collecting hoping to use it
Apply it to life using content
Setting goals chasing dream
Getting back what was lost
Somethings are over
Some left not coming back

Metal head mind set banging hard
Punk rock attitude lots of *****
A rock song in the works
A rebel not a follower trail blazing
Spoke truth called out fakes
Heart beats like a double bass drums
Music that makes you drive fast
From still to hauling *** over the limit
Took one for the team stayed away
Earned those wings to fly away

Long curly hair like curly fries
A smile could make you do the same
Sharing laughter melted the heart
Good spirit and company together
Not use to love always conditional
Her soft hand in yours feeling united
The scent of coconut was intoxicating
A nerdy ****** not use to being chosen
Lost in the moment feeling loved
Loved for others spreading it thick
Never enough left over running low
Hugs and kissed feeling rewarded
Cuddling keeping one another warm
Body heat close to someone special

Seeing her with another guy hurt like hell
But showed no feelings or emotions
It gets worse she told him about the new guy
She told him how it happened how they met
He just wanted to fade away disappear
He was happy for her and denied his feelings
When the roles switch hell was raised
She seen him with another girl
She caused a scene wanted to know the details
It was just talking nothing happened yet
He was hurt getting back into the dating scene
It was all new to him hard to open up
Get close to anyone everyone left
So many life lessons changes occuring
Focused on a healthy relationship
Be happy with someone without feeling hopeless
Be able to grow closer with each other
Instead resenting one another over time

Writing for hours
Want to leave the house
Being safe only for essentials
Work and back this numbing routine
Keeping a distance everything on hold
Hard to focus feeling isolated
Overwhelmed by it all
Feeling stuck limited on moves
Not many options desiring change

Stop crying
Don't be a *****
Things a young boy heard
A sensitive child would become angry
Not able to express emotion
Not able to express feelings
Hard to open up no one to tell
Be a man like gender is a factor
Grew up with very little
Working hard for everything
A late bloomer that did more than most
Told No but seen it as a challenge
Refuse to quit regardless of difficulty

On the train
Looking out the window
Scenery passing a rapid view
Thinking of a new plan
Living two lives
One with family
The college living
A failing relationship
Home friends an old life
College colleagues new beginnings

Love that's intoxicating
And addicting can't get enough
Love too much it's smothering
Play hard to get full of regret
Her love on and off selective
Her mood hot and cold manipulation
When she doesn't get her way
The things she loves turns to hate
Use your insecurities against you
Get you to open up then bail
Make you her world then take it
She'll smash your heart as you watch

Some days are great
Others fueled by irritation
Easily annoyed by everything
Wanting to say something
Not trying to overreact
Crazy actions in the back of the mind
Scenarios hyped up and extreme
Trying to stay civil and calm
Lost so much burnt out
Holding onto the little earned
Thankful to be placed
Doing something contributing
Bouncing frustration unattended
Could've started beef left the bad guy
Wants to speak up tired of the lies
Tired of pretending it didn't happen

He loved her but always shy
Said once he got hired
He'd take her on a date
Still talks to the girl
Still didn't get the job
A part time worker
Working full time hours
He'd like to honor his word
Life always throws that curve ball
Another outcome than expected