Sometimes others ask
What's on your mind
Wondering do they care
Or are they using you to pass time
Making it hard to open up
Difficult to trust like a set up
Trying to be genuine
Nothing to hide
Everything out in the open
So many don't care
Not interested
Once it's closed off
Shut down all of a sudden
Some one shows concern

Make every line count
Say something deep
Motivate empower others
From the heart with love
Piece of mind full of peace
Overcome struggle everyday
Open to change adapt and adjust
Learn new understandings
Inhale good vibe feel alive
Exhale bad toxic emotions

Embraced the labels flipped them
Made moves in silence
A tarnished rep that is in the past
Being better alone not being tore
Ripped to pieces by negative friends
Not always going to have a support
Staying motivated in a toxic environment
Hardest worker in the room no one wants it
Took pride in efforts while others place blame
Natural leader taking the blame
Trying to help others who don't help themselves
Frustrated for years for caring
Stopped carrying the burden of others
Let go of people who forgot about your kindness
Not begging to be liked or be accepted
Get away from the toxic job
Saved from the sinking ship
Around people who value your heart
Appreciate you as a human being
More to life than being a working machine
Showing no emotions hiding who you are
In the mind processing goals and thoughts
A home that a safe place to focus

Another day another way get it done
Wavering back and forth till the end
The mind full of frustration
Moved on blocking it out
Finally facing the fear
Okay to shed a tear or two
Going over the top not ready to stop
Faced the backlash mocked provoked
Learned from the lesson

With everything going on
Not sure what to say
How to make it better
Watch from a distance
Everything will work out
Fall into place adapting to change
Adjusting others a making waves
Went on defense since others offend
Use to be offense talking the truth
Seen as ruthless not in over involved
Use to go out prefer to stay home
And write all day and night feels right
Getting back in the groove
Letting it flow feel all the stress
Shrinking not let it grow
Never about race be a good person
Treat others right says alot about you
It's a two way street with respect
No respect for one another
Becomes a road block detour
Would rather go around
Instead of stopped

Never afraid to try
Not one to quit
Walking away from it all
Come back to it later
Straight shave razor
Cut throat silence the BS
Ruthless always truthful
Don't care for lying cheats
Found away to survive
Always kept out in the end
Always working to get hired
No love appreciation respect
Clear mind full of joy good
Clear thoughts avoid negativity

Ever deleted a number mad
Wishing you saved it
Or wrote it down
Hoping to see them again
But its better to stay away
She was in a bad relationship
Couldn't help or convince her
To change her mind
Getting hurt over it
It had nothing to do with you
Tried to make the wrong right
Had to cut the cord
Turn your back stopped worrying
To protect your heart

Kicking back
Not sure how to act
Might have a heart attack
Someone talking behind my back
Mad I said it to their face
Need to be doing something
Mind starts racing
Driving myself crazy
Should've done that
Could've done this
The moment past
Everything happened so fast

Going back to a moment
That made you smile
Thinking such a good time
From bad to good not the same
Asking how I made it through
Not mad for coming up short
Still focused on my goals
Haven't given up on my dreams
More determined than ever
Always looking for reason
Trying to find purpose
Writing has been my life
My thoughts my feelings
Making sense of these emotions
Podcasting gave me a voice
A stage to explore and share
Found out others don't always care
Doing what I love all that matters

Stressing out over it all
Messing up about to crash
Hit hard been her before
Didn't like it trying to be better
The struggle is real finding a way
Unreal hard to feel
Dealing with the struggle
Trying to cope not lose hope
Don't want to lose or fail
Holding onto the little
Never about material possessions
Forced to grow up feeling old
Child at heart mind so wild
A bunch of ways of life

How can a person be married
Say I love you to an old going
Why would a person cheat
And have the nerve to blame
For their actions
Tell someone who loves them
They got with another person
Your so called best friend
Hooks up with a crush
Did wrong never forgiven
Wrong doers given multiple chances
Forgive yourself for peace
Not always going to find out the reason
Get closure for someone else
The problem can't be fixed
Walk away learn the lesson
Focus on a new life count blessings

Hard to get close
End up denied
Showed feelings for once
Use to hiding emotions
Want to be true with you
Genuine not someone else
Others made you out to be
Stares in the distance
Deep in thought for truth

No longer friends over a girl
She played them both
Now they are blaming on another
One had love for her
The other lusted with her
Can't change the past
Ruined the future lots of false hope
Broken promises nothing more
A failed relationship beyond repair
A childhood friendship diminished
Brotherly love turned into hatred
Broken trust no longer a couple
Lost respect everyone divided

Changing the mind set
Coped with the regret
Broke up not going back
Anxiety death grip on how to act
Observed in silence said be better
Another protest for rights
Depression an internal fight
More chaos than peace
Anger making heart rate increase
Old norms from child youth
New noise prefer old school
So many rules made in the mind
Broken rules with cruel intensions
Life lessons and many more
Life blessing are worked for

Some days are great
Others fueled by irritation
Easily annoyed by everything
Wanting to say something
Not trying to overreact
Crazy actions in the back of the mind
Scenarios hyped up and extreme
Trying to stay civil and calm
Lost so much burnt out
Holding onto the little earned
Thankful to be placed
Doing something contributing
Bouncing frustration unattended
Could've started beef left the bad guy
Wants to speak up tired of the lies
Tired of pretending it didn't happen

Dk if I make sense but let the words flow
Passing ideas and thoughts to be written
Each page some thoughts and emotions
Not always she how to feel or how to act
Made many moves to improve so much effort
The people doing nothing talk the most
Rather be alone learned to stay away from drama
Can't come around be  involved with toxic ways

She was one of a kind
Hard to find over time
He was going through heartache
Not sure if he had it anymore
She was light skinned
He was normally tanned
Together he was dark
They would chit and chat
She was easy to talk with
He thought of ways to hang out
In a social gathering
Outside of the routine
He was shy not confident
Asking her out fear of rejection
Till he offered to pay for lunch
Arrangement was made
Plans were set for Wednesday
He didn't know what to wear
Wanted to make a good impression
Stared in the mirror talking to himself
The day would come
He thought what to say
Where would they go
They met up at the location
She made a choice it was her selection
Happy to see one another

He'd never snitch them out
They are quick to slander him
He had their back
He should've known better
They turned their back on him
They spoke bad of him
While he talked them up
Kept out looking in
Not allow left for something new

Loud music for inspiration to feel it
Feeling the vibe to see in this mind
Writer's block blind to everything
Able to connect or relate feeling out of the loop
Human behavior always observing
Disappointed trying to reset recharge
Going through the motions over it
Grinding through don't want to do it
Just to be doing something keeping busy
If writing could write the golden ticket
Working hard to get hired still a part timer
Working harder than the full timers
Always taking pride in work
While others collect pay doing nothing
Respect for the elders most waiting to retire
Retired years ago just holding on to their spot
So they can have better benefits

The heart pours emotions
Rain drops hide the tear drops
Cold weather over a cold heart
An old life focused on the new
Unwind this heart withering down
Unload these feelings from within
Dreams to escape the nightmare
Working a job not vibing it anymore
Feels like I can be doing more
Not too late to pursue a career

Expecting them to go the distance
Finish the race one by one
Flaking and falling off
Going the distances trying finish
Feeling beat up over time
Wear and tear feeling the pain
Smiling feeling hollow inside
Not trying to run or hide
Barely getting by trying to survive

Always showing love
Even when excluded
Respectful not about the hype
Don't really have a type
Always down to mess around
Miss being home always on the go
On the road outta town learned to say no
Always doing favors can't do one thing
New hater not playing or going along
Remember the good time fade away
Not good with goodbye time is up
Wanted to stay no learning
Not gaining anymore

Being the voice of reason is hard when people have selective hearing. Usually straight forward will tell a person. Whats up and not tell them, what they want to here because as a friend you

Don't lie to your friend.
Being honest should be the best feeling because you don't have to remember anything. People who lie end up having to be, or act like someone they are not.

Never understood, how a people date when its one sided; meaning one is all in giving love. While the other waiting around till something better comes along. How and why are partners jealous of one another, instead of trying to function as a unit. Never understood the relationship concept being the 3rd wheel around certain couples.

Never in the inner circle
Had crowds and groups
None with goals or dreams
Most just wanted to party
Have fun get laid be cool
After a while it got old meant nothing
Needed to find more like minded people
More goal oriented not just working
Be able to invest in yourself
Those goals and dreams have value
Never talked about anyone
Why does everyone think they can look down
They are more important knocking others
Never been about material possessions
Some see lust as love but don't love themselves
A job doesn't define you, you're easily replaced
So many life lessons learned and walked away

Always wanted to make it
Can't take it but work for it
Not worried about others
Stopped comparing competing
Working on a solo projects
Sharing with others for feedback
Like to bounce around ideas
Use to be more confident
Overcome all the smack talking
Rise about above all the doubt

All these rants on this page
No one is listening
Projecting it out in words
Only cares about themselves
Did favors now playing the victim
Pretending to learn but don't care
Never gonna change forever bitter
Slanderous remarks to a girl
Who didn't like you always hating
But she crushing on a friend
Never happy for yourself
Just knocking others to matter

Sleep all day
Up all night
So many ideas
Love to write
Wild imagination
On the go
Tried to draw
Mind goes blank
Staring at a plain page
Can't sleep begin to pray
Things would be normal
Talking to myself to fall a sleep
Use to pretend love was near
Heard a noise feeling fear
Day or night room feels the same
Would shed a tear show emotion
Able to escape this loneliness
Pride protecting the heart
Mind overwhelmed missing others
Thought of calling not answer
The phone works two ways
Sent a text no response
Wondering if all is well or okay
So many ways to communicate
Yet no one can connect
Begged for forgiveness
Never going to be forgiven
Things are not the same
Had to stay away to avoid the pain
A one time mistake not a life sentence
Sober and clean doesn't mean anything
Did it to help our friendship
Now doing it to be better find strength
Move away to heal gave up on a dream
Starting over finding another path another way