Not trying to blame
Feeling annoyed
Feeling ashamed for trusting
All the wrong people
Didn't make anyone mad
Dealing with their bad moods
All kinds of bad attitudes
Quick to flip the script
Trying not to flip
Dk what to say or how to say it

He failed at his first relationship
Loving a female friend
Who didn't love him back
His heart was crushed
Over protective of the heart
Moving onto the next
Not sure how to act
Or who to be with her
He just wanted a healthy relationship
To be himself is all he knew
He never cheated accused of it
Lots of them projecting toxic traits
On him to clear their guilty conscience

Writing has been a comforting companion and music has been an outlet to escape reality. Enjoying the person interviewed or topic on the latest podcast. Remembering all the joy things I use to be passionate about. Haven't had that joy for a while now. Being able to get lost in it not feel like its a chore or forcing things to get done. Feeling bad for people that don't care but talented. Always working harder than most to prove you want it and belong.

Buying the next round for all
Loved for the night
Will wake up broken
No other moments of communication
Once last call is made
Rushing for the next drink
The tab is closed out intoxicated
Not sure how to get home safe
Low on funds paying for the fun
Realizing it wasn't fun anymore
Alone pondering all the destruction

Work ***** ready for a change
Dealing with a lazy lead
The kiss *** number 2
Finding excuses a bunch of talk
Instead of doing the work
Not settling or being held back
Spoke up now being excluded
Being kept out still doing the work
Never talking about haters
Quick to change the subject
Not worth my time or bothering
Never giving into the hype
Someone you looked out for
Betrayed your kindness broken trust
Did favors now seen like ***** ups
Aligned with the rivals on the outside

Always looking in
Looked out for others
Excluded worried about others
Not feeling part of the team
They'll forget about you right away
A hopeless romantic losing hope
Romance lost in the distance
Mistaken lust for love
Friendships gone sour
One wants more giving it all
The other emotionally compromised

Talking to an older a friend about their youth for the a better and simpler time. I could see them smile their eyes light up talking about those times that made them shine. When life was fun appreciation for those moments.

Sleep deprived mentally over it
Physically pushing through
Giving it all even when exhausted
From wild child to responsible adult
Remembering lost youth of moments
Wondering why it ended so quick
Treasured in the heart escape reality
Full of memories some good
Most ended bad with no say
No reason just a change in the seasons

They'll hate you for speaking up he thought about the consequences. Just because you bully everyone doesn't mean you are right. Mind your business stop telling people how to live their life.
No one owe you or has to explain themselves to you. This argument plays out in the mind but the words won't come out. Makes sure you are right before you talk about anyone.
What hurts most is the people you valued and respect; don't see or treat you the same.
He was tired of the lies when he was honest. He seen them as an equal and they want nothing to do with him. They try to make him feel bad but he's been disappointed for year.
They like to get a reaction of people he learned to not give in show any feelings or emotions.
If others seen him overreact they'd assume he was making a scene or had the problem. Being provoked by them was a waste of time he'd walk away. They expected him to change and they made no effort to treat others right.

When it feels like something is wrong
Everything is okay very unsettling
A clear mind use to overthinking
Not dealing with anyone's drama
Seen like family the betrayal
Caused anger now divided
Friends cold and distant enemies
One did wrong justified it as right
The other Spoke up now being judged
Both with agendas opposite views
One choosing to do right stay true
The other quick to cut corners and lie

Don't like being told what to do
Always open to learn grow and listen
Use to speak without thinking
Asking does it matter need to be said
Talking with a good friend
Its rare now a days
Id rather be criticized to my face
Than hear someone said behind my back
Can't trust anyone or open up
Anything said will be twisted
Used against you taken outta context
So many unique attitudes and behaviors

He cleaned up after everyone it was his job. He had seen the world, knew there was more out there. Felt like a failure for his short comings. He wasn't down but not out.

Trying to come up with a plan so that he could advance forward. He wanted his degree feared not using. The plan in his mind didn't match the outline at the college.

Years of experience did things he hated and lowered himself. He told himself never again be better. Doesn't like to argue but stuck on a side Not afraid or backing down.

Stood up for them and they don't have his back. The anger over the years trying to let it go. Instead of give into it, dk everything still open to learn and grow.

Able to open up
Not be closed off
Growth over time
Unexpressed emotions
In the open at ease
Feelings making sense
Without others influence
Emotions not seen as weak
After being turned away
Walked away on the journey

The clock says 11:11
Making a wish
Praying things will be okay
Dreams become a reality
Living life not feeling numb
Able to share show emotions
Feel without being judged
Not seen as weird for the truth
Show love feel equal
Tired of holding back
Denying one's self to be liked
To be accepted by people
Who struggle within not a peace
Finding closure by forgiving
Moving on by forgetting

Woke up rested
Thankful for another day
Staying alive all alone
Not feeding bad vibe
Reached out pushed out
Trying so hard
Barely getting by
Why or why
Not able to speak
Thinking of ways to show
Explain with words
Can't draw the story
Doesn't translate from the mind
Onto the page full of missing concepts

Been in a foul mood
Got jury duty in a couple of weeks
HR is useless with aiding peoples
But when they need favors
All of a sudden your concerns are heard
Calls when they need something
Dealing with a lazy leader
Who dumps his work on others
Not interested in being friends
The virus is taking its toll
On a family member
Praying giving it to God
Everyone expects for their selfish gain
Can't rely or depend on anyone
Walking around with a bad back
Hiding pain and frustration
Can't say or do anything
Ready to walk away
Trying to be a full timer
While half *** workers get hired

It all fades away
Filling each page
Every line with emotions
Feeling it simmer out
Coping with things
The moment has passed
Made a stand it all went away
Can't fake a smile or pretend
Avoiding toxic behavior
Over all the negativity
Leaving the past going forward
Trying to fix a lost cause
Beyond repair onto new

Destruction of property
Homeless people living in filth
From a classy town
Now in the slumps
Grew up on the ghetto side of town
Many had respect and thankful
Before mental health was hidden
Now people use it as a crutch
Life style choices had consequences
Taboo topics respected
All these movements
No plan of operations or outlines