Always some kind of road block
Another detour to get there
Able to focus without distractions
What if getting the girl worked
Get the job on the first time around
Worked so hard burned out
Don't want it anyone just drifting
Want more stuck with less
Didn't want to settle
Working with what's given
Made the most of things
Learned to be humble
Made the most of things

On the train
Looking out the window
Scenery passing a rapid view
Thinking of a new plan
Living two lives
One with family
The college living
A failing relationship
Home friends an old life
College colleagues new beginnings

Stopped waiting on others
Do it anyway eventually
It's dumped on you
Skip the middle man
Hired or not working hardest
Not afraid to get *****
Push even through the struggle
Roles are established
Harder worker aim to get it done
Dealing with a titled lead
Abusing power and can't hang
It's at every job trying not to complain
Don't care for politics
Used or not still doing something
Had to pray get lost in the word
Not into the ways of the world
Finding faith and believing

Hands up for praise
Mouth sings the worship
Knee buckles feeling the music
Eyes closed in prayer for family
Everyone's health and needs are met
Open the good book following the word
Scripture speaks to the heart
Always open to learn and grow
Forgiving others for peace
Forgiving ones self for closure
Walk with faith gives inner peace

Social on the podcast
Sharing an opinion
With out judgement criticisms
Same with writing
Pushed it out of this system
Not arguing with others
Doing ones own thing
So many detours in the way
Multiple road blocks
Bounce back from mistakes
Many friends became foes

On the road hauling ***
On the go with music
Favorite band feeling the vibe
Trying to beat the traffic
Bad drivers on the freeway
Being careful insanity everywhere
Trying to make it home safe
Thinking about life
Focused on the road
Driving at night
Bright lights blaring

Rewiring the mind
Learned bad habits
Reprogram the mind
Plugged in no connection
Unplugged to reconnect
Learning to speak up
Taking on others burdens
Dropped the dead weight
Love can't be replaced with hate

Where to start
The end is near
Time to start pursue new
Let this heart grow
The soul grows and glows
Praying for strength
Overcome the fear
Shared feelings and emotions
Became an awkward silence
The intensity wasn't reassuring
Made others uncomfortable

Sometimes people talk to hear their voice
After a while it's just to be a smart ***
Or their talking feels like a waste of time
Sad how people change for the wrong reason
Being a badass but hurt over a girl
A bad attitude over not getting your way
The tone changed because of someone else
But everyone gets all the backlash
Sooner or later crash and burn
Talking loud doesn't mean right
Making people look stupid
Doesn't mean you know it all
Hiding behind alcohol relying on a bad rep
Which cause credibility to lose value
So much contradiction going on
Looking out gave advice to be ignored

Always stayed humble
Know what it's like to share clothes
Being the oldest and sacrifice
A nice home is great
Don't make you a better person
Much respect for the hard work
How you treat others says more
Been around tough crowds
Beat up for caring too much
Trying to make a difference
Made fun of still smiling
Learned to be thankful
Around ungrateful people
Who had it all spreading misery
Thankful to be working earning it
Nothing is given everything is earned
Keep working to maintain
Passing and sharing good vibes

Talking it out
Defuse the frustration within
Silent after a few moments
The mind racing need to decompress
Pent up emotions bubbling up
That need to be expressed
Spoke kindly got ignored
Spoke directly with a tone
Suddenly the vibe became livid
So much taken in lack of respect
Now returning the vibe so intense
No need to run or hide
Once the foot hits the ground

Only in the movies
Love was hard to find
Felt right and real
Turned out to be the wrong person
More than holding hands
A kiss on the cheek to show appreciation
Quality time together should've grown close
Thinking it would get better
Only got harder and more complicated
Giving your all it's never enough
She's always mad killing the vibe
Not able to read minds
Or figure out what's wrong

Motivating others as the coach
Pushed them to work
loved to practice
When they won
He let them celebrate
When they lost he has to regroup
Come up with a new plan
A strategy turn weakness into strengths
It was a way to improve
Better for the game
Lots of repetition
Stretches to prevent injuries
Warm up throwing the ball
Running the bases
Sliding drills staining red dirt
Batting practice get the swing straight
Timing down bat contact with the ball

Long curly hair like curly fries
A smile could make you do the same
Sharing laughter melted the heart
Good spirit and company together
Not use to love always conditional
Her soft hand in yours feeling united
The scent of coconut was intoxicating
A nerdy ****** not use to being chosen
Lost in the moment feeling loved
Loved for others spreading it thick
Never enough left over running low
Hugs and kissed feeling rewarded
Cuddling keeping one another warm
Body heat close to someone special

A visionary mindset
Heart doesn't always agree
Got to put in work
Make it happen finish strong
Nothing is free or given
Every page filled clear mind
Time spent on the mats rolling
Open books reading those pages

All this drama not involved
All this hating going on
Slowing down taking it in
Feeling disconnected from it all
Lost the vibe not the same anymore
Don't like liars
People should honor their word
Not make promises
If they won't be kept

The plan didn't work
Been winging it over time
He thought long term it ended shortly
He thought it would never happen
But went the distances surprised himself
The day he said he loved her
She looked at him with paranoid
Then they never spoke again
He moved onto the next
Why did the ex the past come back
Claiming to miss him she let him go
He tried to recover and found another
She loved him but he knew his past
He was not emotionally available
The confusion lots of bad choices
Fears he'd make another bad decision

Just do it not thinking too much
Let it flow out what's on your mind
What is your heart telling you
Showing love is easier to do
Than actually say it
What if they don't feel the same
Or like you that way
But just a friend that changed
Feelings can bond or cause hurt
Emotions can grow or be broken
Make it more or end up being less
Losing value conflict of interest
Maybe start a new chapter together
A new directions closer with one another
Maybe cause distance further apart

Everything happening so fast
Moving forward
Not stuck in the past
Change without say
Without a choice
Not making a scene
Feeling fed up bad communication
Dk anything out of the loop
Maybe being letting go
A blessing instead of stressing

At a fancy pricy spot
She was into the finer life
He was simple and hard working
She'd order an expensive pasta
He ordered the cheapest appetizer
She told him what she thought
He seemed like the refined type
He was the hard working type
That didn't value material items
She was educated and valued it
With multiple associates degrees
While he was a college drop out
Who knew things read a book or two
But didn't take anything to heart
They'd talk about social manners
And gender roles it helped
Give one another an idea
Of their social standing
He grew up poor and worked for his
While she had multiple chances
But never stayed with them
She was a beautiful girl
Turns out employees expected more
She had morals would not sleep
Her way up the corporate ladder
He had a hard time getting hired
Grateful and thankful to be working
They'd walk around expensive stores
She dreamed of more
While he was barely getting by

Use to wake up drink
Other times with a black eye
Not knowing what happened
The night a blur can't remember
Waking up at home no clue
Drank too much hiding in a bottle
Couldn't get enough numbing pain
Remember everything trying to forget
Block it out not sure How to deal
Deal with all these emotions
Never felt ot been this way before
Losing a sibling wanting love
Thinking the one is found
Never was meant to be
Not sure how it happened
From confidence to doubting
From a whole feeling complete
Once it ended a bottomless hole
That couldn't be filled feeling numb
Consumed by it all spiraling down

Always focused on the dream
Some got married
Didn't want that right away
Others had kids
Family is forever
Not ready to start my own
Creating and making it happen
Part of the plan lots of detours
Close to them still cant settle
Haven't found the one
Still single looking for love
Friends faded away
Still doing my own thing
Seen as crazy no one is doing it
A wild heart growing
Into much more than before

Had a conversation with a friend
Talked about things that bug
That made me angry and upset
All those friends
Who talked behind my back
Told them straight up out of respect
All the lazy people
Doing nothing collecting a check
Who said my hard work
Makes them look bad
When I got sober it was a problem
Others got sober expect to be praised
Saying it couldn't be done
After doing it multiple times
Always hustling to get it done
While others **** up brown nose
Know what its like to be broke
Thankful to be working
Excluded looking in
On the inside wanting out
Can't deny myself to be accepted
To be liked by judgemental people
Being myself seen as hood
Even if it means
Beginning called ghetto
All those who laughed for crying
Being sensitive tired of bullies
Giving others the best
While bringing out the worse

The anger grows
Won't be consumed
Writing keeps it from going
Keeps things from going off
Release the tension
Deflate the situation
Calming the nerves
Over the edge about to go off
Wiping away tears
Over coming fears
Spoke up now they are mad
Said nothing being taken advantage of
Feeling provoked trying to be nice
Can't say anything spread rumors
To the masses can't win alone
Trying to change the odds
Making things personal
Not taking it or falling for it
Screaming inside ready to strike
Stronger than most think
Mentally able to block it out
Physically restrain heavy handed
Not trying to fight but write

Always treated differently
Held to a different standard
Single life responsible for own happiness
Working being to contribute a share
Had dreams seen a crazy for believing
Spoke truth made out to be weird
Trying to live a normal life being positive
Growing up around negativity
Trying to be functional around dysfunctional
Life was tough sometimes hard
Doesn't mean let it **** or remain the same

What does the heart tell you
A soul searching for peace
The mind questions everything
More questions than answers
Full of thoughts and ideas
Wandering eyes that are warm
Also full of fury when angry
A smirking grin when frustrated
Or caring smile that is soothing

Lost in love
Denied yourself
Never again freedom of expression
No need to pretend
Admiring art that came from within
How its created with emotions
What was felt at the time
Going on with the artist
Each stroke from the brush
The amount of pressure
While mixing colors setting a tone
Chapter of life soon to be forgotten
But a moment of life to be shared
Taken in by others to be admire
A picture that says more than words
Stories created hoping to connect
Lost in details with dimensions

Trying to pin point the moment
Where it went wrong
Like if you could go back
Back in time to fix the mistake
Forgiving yourself is hard
Trying to move on to forward
Tired of being in denial
Living a lie compromised outcomes
A series of events
Some loved and treasured
Some regret on the mind
Looping thoughts questioning behavior
The heart starved craving new moments
The old ones fade losing gratification
Detached from the new
Forgetting the old need to move on
Can't go back life's about moving forward

Woke up late
Barely made it on time
Thinking what to eat
Emotions running deep
Everyone is mad in their mood
Not walking into that trap
Block it out by cleaning
Listening to favorite tunes
Feeling the groovy vibe
Memories that take you back
Avoiding others to reflect
So much change from before
New beginnings full of growth
Forgotten endings letting it all go
Not meant to be the same

The birdie in the window
Heard the chirps so loud
Saying hi little bird
Flying in from of the window
Landing on the antenna
On the house next door
Flying back to the window
Looking in wondering
Asking are you okay
Chirping thinking of a lost one
Been told birds are loved ones
Angels looking out
Landing on the ledge
Looking out the window still
Wings flapping fast then flew away

Don't like to be consumed
By anger and frustration
Dealing with thievery
Not always given a chance
Or an opportunity slim pickings
Making the most of what's given
Praying to not give into temptation
Throw hands with those provoking
Stayed away kept out of the mix
Had to find another place start over
Found new to call your own
Things are better than before
Walking with faith not giving into hate
Praying for wrong doers
Done bad before lived with regret
Begging for forgiveness
Learned to forgive
Not about that life anymore