Never dated in high school
Paired off for a winter formal
Went to prom with a friend
Being the 3rd wheel
My friend and his date had another friend
So I was paired off didn't know this chick
Till that night got to know one another
School was ending never got close to anyone
Before this night asked a few close friends
Got stuck going alone but had fun
Rejection is the worse if she doesn't feel the same
But dating is more than kissing holding hands
High school was about being friends
But you get older grow apart
And realize not everyone likes
Or agrees with who you are
Happening so fast trying to make sense of it all

Backed into the corner
Family member asking
Why don't we talk
A two way street
Not just one
No communication just expectation
More made up rules
False hope expectations
Being myself all I know
Grew up poor working for mine
While you're given everything
Looking down on others
Earned respect nothing is given
Social status everything is divided
Can't stop for anyone
More determined and driven

Laying on the floor
Back pain after work
A rough week need to recover
Got too personal and deep
Explained frustration
No changes made
Avoiding the person
Not crossing paths staying away
Protecting this mental health
More white hairs than normal

Can't be mad choices got made
Don't always have a say
Can't tell others how to feel
No apologies for these thought
All these emotions hard to cope
Things don't always make sense
Mind and heart conflicted
Trying to process understand

An open book to read
Nothing to hide
Always sent aside
Picked once or twice
Being wanted felt nice
Already knew still surprised
Dealing with the cards deal
Learned to fold walk away
Lost it all tried to get it back
Holding onto what's left
Working on new being better
Always thankful and blessed
Grew up with nothing
Can't settle for or be less

Social interaction not sure how to act
Said too much others lose interest
No words spoken seen as stuck up
Showed no interested suddenly involved
Emotionally burnt out rather stay away
Made a joke to be funny only one
Enjoying live living it to the fullest
No one's laughing everyone's mad
Talked serious no one's is joking

A monster cares for others
Didn't mean to destroy what he love
The beast has emotions feeling
Looks mean but full of emotions
The machine processed it all
Comes together fill with perspective
All these come together exposing truth
A human being under it all
A warrior heart beating strong
Fighting through it all
Hero mindset with a moral code
Pursuing greatness within the layers

Woke up took a drive
Back home fell a sleep
Composing thoughts and ideas
Reflecting a life time of moments
The good times glad they happened
Can't have good without the bad
Bad times start sign of change
Lots of growth more selective
Pick something more not less
Choose for the better keep striving

Grasping the moment
Regretting its over
Put in some time
Saying good bye
The past is history
Life going forward a mystery
So much curiosity floating
Taken away by it all
Can't fall a sleep
Calling your name
After math all that remains

Dared to inspire others
Seeking motivation put it out
Inspiration collected projected
Lots of struggle bubbling down
Overtime began to grow
surpassed others with change
Feel the glow starting to show
Straight up with the truth

Embraced the labels flipped them
Made moves in silence
A tarnished rep that is in the past
Being better alone not being tore
Ripped to pieces by negative friends
Not always going to have a support
Staying motivated in a toxic environment
Hardest worker in the room no one wants it
Took pride in efforts while others place blame
Natural leader taking the blame
Trying to help others who don't help themselves
Frustrated for years for caring
Stopped carrying the burden of others
Let go of people who forgot about your kindness
Not begging to be liked or be accepted
Get away from the toxic job
Saved from the sinking ship
Around people who value your heart
Appreciate you as a human being
More to life than being a working machine
Showing no emotions hiding who you are
In the mind processing goals and thoughts
A home that a safe place to focus

A broken heart before we met
Mending a heart of a troubled friend
So much support one sided
Waiting around to make it right
Outside factors ruining a friendship
All burden toxic behavior
Negativity drains the good vibes
Focused on the positive
Over come the struggle

The birdie in the window
Heard the chirps so loud
Saying hi little bird
Flying in from of the window
Landing on the antenna
On the house next door
Flying back to the window
Looking in wondering
Asking are you okay
Chirping thinking of a lost one
Been told birds are loved ones
Angels looking out
Landing on the ledge
Looking out the window still
Wings flapping fast then flew away

Make every line count
Say something deep
Motivate empower others
From the heart with love
Piece of mind full of peace
Overcome struggle everyday
Open to change adapt and adjust
Learn new understandings
Inhale good vibe feel alive
Exhale bad toxic emotions

Feared no man walked strong with God
Told too dark to eat at an establishment
Years later the restaurant went under
Not one to play the race card
Doing what's right, by my moral code
Speaking no one hears my voice
When I write the words bleed out
Not one to judge others
How you treat others says a bunch
Been through the struggle
One who got out for the better
Feels like I got dragged back in
Find closure ready to start over
Did so much, need to make more happen
Forgive or not here I come
Stood still not one to run
The pain within has leveled out
Don't count me out
Never back down from fear

With everything going on
Not sure what to say
How to make it better
Watch from a distance
Everything will work out
Fall into place adapting to change
Adjusting others a making waves
Went on defense since others offend
Use to be offense talking the truth
Seen as ruthless not in over involved
Use to go out prefer to stay home
And write all day and night feels right
Getting back in the groove
Letting it flow feel all the stress
Shrinking not let it grow
Never about race be a good person
Treat others right says alot about you
It's a two way street with respect
No respect for one another
Becomes a road block detour
Would rather go around
Instead of stopped

Heard the news
Family was excited
Brothers soon to be uncles
A sister becomes an aunt
First time grandparents
Awaited her arrival
She was a few days late
Couldn't be there
With all that's going on
Avoiding the hospital
Got the text able to visit
She was a few days old
Happy to see her
Sleeping peacefully
Finally able to hold her
Like all the world BS
Didn't matter it slipped away
Feeling whole and complete
Love so strong and deep
A niece a blessing
The bad fades away

Use to feel at world with the world
Taking on every cause
Got lost along the way
Had to be better found faith
Praying to God can't do it alone
Turned to the word not losing grace
Already at ease fireworks going off
Praying for safety repentance sorry
Not about that life anymore staying sober
A relationship with God over being in a crew
Sad inside can't hide it anymore
Starting to show won't let this anger grow
Avoided being attacked stay quiet
Price to pay for saying the truth

Another day another way get it done
Wavering back and forth till the end
The mind full of frustration
Moved on blocking it out
Finally facing the fear
Okay to shed a tear or two
Going over the top not ready to stop
Faced the backlash mocked provoked
Learned from the lesson

Trying to connect words
This reminds me of
Each piece comes together
Comparing and contrasting
Making something out of nothing
Things to be said at the wrong time
Trying to do right its all wrong
Details that pop out
That catch the eye
Feelings that make your hair standTrying to connect words
This reminds me of
Each piece comes together
Comparing and contrasting
Making something out of nothing
Things to be said at th
A nervous sweat overwhelmed

Never been good with title
Always stuck in the transition
Once it's started don't like it to end
Able to make it work once it's finish
Walk away let it resonate
Comeback later love to create
Work on other projects
Thoughts that haven't been expressed
Feelings explored understood
Emotions balanced out after a while

The sound of rain in the distance
Soothing and comforting
While drinking hot chocolate
Reading a book enjoying the day
Escape reality valuing ones company
Personal time all alone
Appreciating personal growth
Not give into social convention

Sometimes others ask
What's on your mind
Wondering do they care
Or are they using you to pass time
Making it hard to open up
Difficult to trust like a set up
Trying to be genuine
Nothing to hide
Everything out in the open
So many don't care
Not interested
Once it's closed off
Shut down all of a sudden
Some one shows concern

Never afraid to try
Not one to quit
Walking away from it all
Come back to it later
Straight shave razor
Cut throat silence the BS
Ruthless always truthful
Don't care for lying cheats
Found away to survive
Always kept out in the end
Always working to get hired
No love appreciation respect
Clear mind full of joy good
Clear thoughts avoid negativity

Ever deleted a number mad
Wishing you saved it
Or wrote it down
Hoping to see them again
But its better to stay away
She was in a bad relationship
Couldn't help or convince her
To change her mind
Getting hurt over it
It had nothing to do with you
Tried to make the wrong right
Had to cut the cord
Turn your back stopped worrying
To protect your heart

He'd never snitch them out
They are quick to slander him
He had their back
He should've known better
They turned their back on him
They spoke bad of him
While he talked them up
Kept out looking in
Not allow left for something new

Some days are great
Others fueled by irritation
Easily annoyed by everything
Wanting to say something
Not trying to overreact
Crazy actions in the back of the mind
Scenarios hyped up and extreme
Trying to stay civil and calm
Lost so much burnt out
Holding onto the little earned
Thankful to be placed
Doing something contributing
Bouncing frustration unattended
Could've started beef left the bad guy
Wants to speak up tired of the lies
Tired of pretending it didn't happen

Expecting them to go the distance
Finish the race one by one
Flaking and falling off
Going the distances trying finish
Feeling beat up over time
Wear and tear feeling the pain
Smiling feeling hollow inside
Not trying to run or hide
Barely getting by trying to survive