Always wanted to make it
Can't take it but work for it
Not worried about others
Stopped comparing competing
Working on a solo projects
Sharing with others for feedback
Like to bounce around ideas
Use to be more confident
Overcome all the smack talking
Rise about above all the doubt

When your mentor goes
You carry take the knowledge
Apply it to life use it to help others
People come and go like the seasons
Some without out reasons
You'd fight to keep them
Other you let them go
watch them leave nothing said
One last hug and say good bye
After many kisses of passion
This will be the last one
Drunken nights with fun stories
Memories some good and treasured
Along with the bad that helped the bond
Hoping to meet again another time
Some good riddance stay far away

The plan has changed
Things are not the same
Overcome the pain
Personal growth is gained
The past is over reminiscing
Not talking anymore long forgotten
Or hope of going back facing forward
Remembered the good time long gone
Starting over rise about the wrong
Live life to the fullest going strong
Good deeds positive vibes
Over ***** deeds shady faces
Spiritual recharge soul is alive

Should've done this
Or could've done that
Somethings didn't happen
Turn out accordingly
Been frustrated with things
No one is helping
Help yourself to be more
Stuck with less
Making the most of things
More downs than ups
Always shutting up to keep the peace
But enraged deep inside
No where to run or hide
Tried to vent told what to do
Said nothing not interested to open up
Hurting inside stress all time high

Use to being ignored
Overlooked by many
Stayed loyal and true
Don't bother with the cruel
Respect for all earning it still
Focused on work not worried
Doing work and extra took it on
Trying to get hired and still denied
See the bad choices made
They regret the day a huge loss
Looking at life with so much to gain
From nothing trying to become something
Much more than before

Always defending the wrong people
Lying to myself justifying the wrong
Not always accepted
Why welcome their bad ways
Use to being turned away
Finding away to be better
Something to call your own
Waking up seeing clearly

They went ice skating together
As friends others thought a date
He never had luck with women
Always passed notes to one another
Trading notes before or after class
A few phone calls with a friend
He went of to college came back home
She would do the same but progress From close to further apart lives
From each other have spoke for year
Thoughts of her trying to remember
Does she remember their friendship
Not able to connect so he wonders

Isolation not by choice
Use to being alone
Rested not working
Missing that same old routine
Something to do kept busy
Now anxiety is acting up
Things got better now on hold
Paused for the moment
Thought about dating
Was scared to try
Hard but ready to move on
After a toxic relationship
Glad to be working making money
Know what it's like to have no job
Being broke another emotional ride
Always thankful and grateful

Disappointed nothing new
Over the crew rolling solo
Went hard the first time
Working harder the second round
Prefer loyal underground
Over the fake mainstream
Smaller venue more intimate
Big crowds big payday
Doesn't matter the moment on stage
All the rage short lived
Worked to get in not staying out
Working to stay like rent its due

When will things go back to normal
So much sleep and sleep patterns are off
Can't go out full of energy
Ready to go for adventure
It's all been lacking something
Wipe down the door handle
Before couldn't be social
Many bad moods stayed away
Changed up the tempo more up beat
Altered behavior made it fun
So much more told truth
Being more honest seen as ruthless
Stayed humble through it all

Another sad story
Wanting to help
Not sharing struggle
Taking it on alone
Such a crazy experience
Another moment in time
Laying in bed staring
Not able to cry a tear
Emotions are pending
Feeling catching up
All unprocessed syncing up
Mentally burnt out
Thinking what to say
Physically exhausted
Pushing the limits

All these rants on this page
No one is listening
Projecting it out in words
Only cares about themselves
Did favors now playing the victim
Pretending to learn but don't care
Never gonna change forever bitter
Slanderous remarks to a girl
Who didn't like you always hating
But she crushing on a friend
Never happy for yourself
Just knocking others to matter

Not big on change
Thinking what to write
So many styles and views
Trying to be genuine
Stand out stay loyal
Be true to the audience
Told stories about moments
Shared a funny situation
Made the most of things
Changes might not be right
Another dramatic argument
Not lose faith walk with grace
Over come struggle and pain
Gain strength not be consumed by hate

Not trying to argue
We both got our own life
Don't use this friendship
As a scapegoat stop blaming own up
Because you aren't doing right
Had your back when needed
Roles flip no where to be found
Called to catch up got the worse
Gave the best advice same problem
No change set in those ways
Kept those ***** secrets
Don't want to do it anymore

The worse is showing no emotions
Hurting inside refusing to shed a tear
Hiding feelings not easy to express
They'll get the best of you
Like trying to defuse a bomb
Trying to be better rise above hate
Not fall into bad habits
Not lose your temper over others
A smirk to hide the frustration
Minding your mouth not going off
Keeping out of others business
Too bad they can't do the same
They'll throw you under
Because they have nothing to show
Trying to tarnish your reputation
So they can feel better so insecure
Another act pretending to be pals
Trying get into not spilling the beans

Grew up with tough love
It doesn't come easy or natural
Always a sacrifice to be accepted
Denying yourself over living a lie
Use to rejection can't force it to be
Open to change personal growth
Expected to be someone else
Can't live or be the person
Someone else made you out to be
Trying to be loved hating yourself
Working to be accepted being denied

Writing to come up with a plan
Posting different mindset
From the pen and the pad
Thinking about family
The struggle is real and hard
Life can change hit the core
Other times not phase
Dazed up and crazed up ride
Trying to go the distance
Before it ends without say
More unexpected delay
Praying pays off for others
Not about you get over yourself
Parent role passing it onto the next
Not a role model but trying
No a mentor but gave pointers
Advice trying to help when asked

Striking a nerve not worth it
Crawling under the skin
Been going strong
Losing sense of self
Walking with fists
Released the grip at peace
Looked for the fight took a beating
Not bothering with any negativity
Killed all the positive vibes
Striving to survive be alive
Not in that place anymore
Changed mindset no regret
Thought process everywhere
Connecting dots it comes together

See you with a bottle
Assuming you started drinking
Around a slob of a cousin
Who doesn't clean up after himself
Get why his baby mama left him
Why his parents kicked him out
Some people are stubborn
But it's on them
Stop blaming everyone
That's why they are alone
With their passive aggressive ways

Darkside of it all feel normal
Once things lighten up
Always wanted to fit in
But kept out looking in
Started ignoring all the hype
Focused on what mattered
Worked harder than most
Wanted it more than others
Been going strong all heart
All in or nothing stay inspired
The cream rises to the top
Said it couldn't be done
Been doing it for years
Went against the haters
Thankful for all the support

Had to leave
Get away from the drama
Blows over with time
Everything fades away
So many talking
Dk the whole story
Stop budding in
Mind your business
Sorry you have nothing going
With all your meddling

Trying to stay whole
Filling this hole
Feeling it deep in the soul
Everyday personal growth
Open to learn wisdom
Taking in the environment
Seeing things in a whole new light
Hard to speak easier to write
More than one way good days ahead
Focused on another to get it done

Not about politics
Don't care about labels
Not trying to be like anyone else
Might share common interests
We are not the same or a like
Old school with things
Respect my elders don't talk back
Stand for the flag respect the flag
Praying believe in God walk with faith
Follow rules don't make trouble
Times have changed getting older
Trying to understand the new ways
They don't make sense don't always agree
Not impose on others

Solitude at ease
Found inner peace
Avoid those causing pain
Bad memories remain
Focused on being better
Never see you anymore
Wrote a love letter
Thoughts you'll never read

Always defending others
While they come at me
No longer the scapegoat
Walked away from the drama
More negativity than positive vibes
Always took time to understand
While facing judgement and criticism
Always welcomed to my circle
Don't ***** up my world
To satisfy your destructive ways

She said she had my back
Turns out she was the first one to go
All the lies that kept coming
Not ready to be in a relationship
A week later she was with someone new
Got placed in the friend zone then forgotten
She would get mad when you don't answer
Now she rejects calls not responding
Sent a text now she hates texting
Cut off communication can't even talk
When in the same room it all went sour

Inspired to be more
Family tells you NO
Trying to strip you
Of all that makes you unique
Telling you to be this way
Or do that but not happy
Don't have much but thankful
Traveled seen stuff lived
Stuck being average Joe
Set out to be much more
Life doesn't make sense
Getting lost in writing
Able to feel not seen as less
Show emotions without judgement

Looking for that love
Natural organic feeling
That grows into something more
Real to the heart no making excuses
No need to justify a lie if it's true
Become one for each other
Build a dynasty from the ground up
Hustle in the world come back together
So that our world can be hold
Future together rising to the next level

This is stupid stop holding a grudge
Why we don't talk anymore
Use to be best friends for year
But it came to an end holding back tears
A relationship over our friendship
She lied and she cheated taking all the blame
Sorry you're angry so much pain
From the same circle to separate crowds
Both doing dumb stuff over time
Negativity doesn't make it right
Told you to your face out of respect
Talking behind this back **** disrespect
Felt the knife of betrayal sharp and deep

Writing everyday not sure anymore
What to do with it who will benefit
Thought there was an audience
Doing it to help pass the time
Sometimes a moment replayed
A rewind to the moment trying to repeat
Always wanted to get personal and deep
No one cares or feels the same
Unless you're doing favors or taking crap
Tried to connect feeling more disconnected
Sent away even though this heart wants to stay
The mind said ***** it be better
Find yourself be better somewhere else
One day make great money for the future
Be able to own a house achieve another goal
Should be living in the moment living for now