Coped seen it from all angles
All perspectives every direction
Able to understand
Trying to make sense of it all
Giving others a chance
No one is interested
Found someone else
Now they try to pry
Had to find yourself
Some where new
Don't always fit in
Moving on don't belong
Not always liked
Matched energy feeling drained
Left what was causing pain
Dropped the burdens
Let go of suffering

He loved his family and wished they'd get along.
He was always distance from people he knows people go through stuff
But have no right to take their frustrations out on others
Killing the fun with bad vibes and bad attitudes
He didn't care to feed egos or deal with their worse while he put out his best
He minds his mouth because his honest made people mad
His mouth got him in trouble and lead to drama
He just wanted to hang out without conflict
Trying to keep the peace while falling to pieces within
Trying to understand while their actions said other wise
He didn't get them while they made everyone uncomfortable
He was done pretending everything was okay.
It was easier to stay away then try to help those set in their ways

Love family but they always make you pick and choose them or what you like and love. Why do you have to compromise yourself to be accepted. No one is against them but they come at you like if you owe them something. Telling you what to do when no one asked for their opinion. The times you needed them they said nothing and no where to be found.
You start feeling better about yourself and they try to knock you down a few levels. Its the worse especially when its family instead of united everyone divided, so much ego and pride; it's easier to walk away.
You forgive and forgive its easier to walk away while they hold a grudge because they made you out to be someone your not painting you out to be a monster. While they keep doing shady stuff. Trying to turn the family on you because you had your own plans and they include you in shenanigans.

She cheated with him
Kept it casual he had no clue
He had been emotionally invested
She talked him out of it
He wasn't ready to settle
Felt like things got worse
His heart broken
Things never got better
He'd give it all up for her
He waited she already moved on
Shattered when he seen
Her with someone new
Once he moved she was mad
He couldn't be with her
But she didn't want him
Or to be with anyone else

On the outside looking in feeling like everything is diluted. someone are real others are lost in their own world. In the mind their safe place. Use to be an open book now selective about who gets to read. Now always interesting, willing to learn dk the answers. Always open to help the stress of not doing enough struggling to get by.
Wanted it more than most it was short lived.
He didn't get his hopes up made the most of things. Adapted and adjusted to the situation.

He had a big heart for life
A passionate soul warming smile
Still caring for others feelings
Even if they did him *****
He meant well no hidden agenda
When things went wrong
A loving heart beautiful soul
Forgiving still kept out
Not forgiven by others
Made mistakes multiple flaws
Most of all not able to forgive himself

Always protecting people
Who don't like you
Betrayed left hanging
Did favors looked out
My fault for having expectations
Being open to all the wrong people
Dropped once something better comes along
Been writing for years
Learning to express without holding back
Not trying to hurt others
Been getting hurt for years
Minding this mouth don't like drama
Taking criticism should've been firing back
Straight up to their face always behind my back

Times have changed before if you were poor you'd hide it. Now a days people ask for money. Always being told if you want something work for it. No one can do it for you but you. I'm big on individualism but everyone thinks they are a brand or some kind of product. Marketing themselves get out there work for it the right people will take you on.

Family don't always get along in conflict challenging one another's standing. Arguments get personal pointing out flaws talking bad about one another. They try to turn everyone against you. All the anger within all the frustration.
Learning to shut it down when there's no reason or compromise. So many lies all these terms conditions and circumstances

They pushed you out
Made up rules in their favor
You went away to keep the peace
Now they are in your world
Talking like you owe them
Acting like their approval matters
He held his head up feeling dead inside
Showing no emotion turning away
Showed them respect
As they disrespect everyone trying to take over
He stayed in his lane overcame the pain
Not much to give but gained strength
Tired of being told no one asked
Being genuine better than being fake
Minded his mouth and business kept them out
Drama and problem able to do without
The consequences waiting as the tab builds up

He was trying to be a lead and move up
Motivating others was not his thing
Being responsible for people
He had trust issues it lead to him doing it on his own
Be better than the original work hard
These are things he told himself
He knew if he wanted her have to go out and do it himself
It was frustrating the current lead did everyone favors and ******* over the hardest worker
What an ungrateful *******
Who would snake around pretending to care
Ask for a favor and leave without a thank you
He didn't like people
Who didn't bother but would float around Because they covered their ***

Sad how some mock others for their believes
Some will toll you trying to get a reaction
The stupid smirk on their face pointing out the problem
That doesn't help how about providing a solution
Once you call them on their misconduct they try to come at you
Trying to be a bully online not saying anything in person
Once you learn who they are and what about you don't bother with them anymore.
Respecting their decisions it's okay to not see eye to eye
Sad how they disrespect everyone and expect respect
Looking down on others like its a right
Not contributing talking acting like the world evolves around them
Quick to place the blame for their short comings
Your way doesn't work for you why would you think it's better for others
From close to distant because no one communicates and thinks they are right
Rather than talk things out they'll make it personal.
Trying to cancel you out erase your existence for being different
Thinking they could beat you up bit not doing anything just running there mouth like always
Trying to turn everyone it doesn't matter anymore use to being alone

Be this way just trying to be himself
Act that way minding his mouth
Mostly his business kept out
Once in it wasn't anything special
He was over people so much betrayal
Who didn't follow their own advice
He anger got the best of him
No one listens but expects everything
Told he had a bad attitude
Frustrated his schedule ruined to fill-in
Last minute notice had prior commitments
Felt disrespected can't do it anymore
Tried to keep quiet being provoked
Just doing all the ***** work
Feeling robbed cheated
COVID making short staff more complicated
Trying to stay physically healthy
While mentally drained burnt out
Working towards new over the old
Usually ignored getting the 3rd degree
Lurking to cover for their own gain
So much frustration and pain from a bad leader
His way dictating work on the team
No other way expects from others
Never looking out dumping the load
Will never admit a mistake
Quick to point out the flaw

He didn't want the responsibility care all the burden all the slack. Picking up his guitar coming up with lyric melodies coming together as the world came apart but rebuilding itself. People leaving never feeling permanent.
Couldn't fight the change occurring. All these weird feelings and emotions learning to cope. Deal with them without losing it over reacting. The music soothed his heart his soul burned without burning out.
The vibration of the strings echoing through out his body. His raspy voice wanting to sing hold a note find a time. Trying to connect relate to the melodies.

Went so hard there's on other way
Dk what to say now
Can't live in the moment
Quick to ask what's next
Going strong going hard
Trying to slow down
The rush won't let up
Took it all in got burnt out
Let it all go feeling free
Staying true focused on the gain
Not influenced by others
Working hard than most

He blocked out the haters they told him NO it made him want it more. He was obsessed eyes locked on his goals his success so many detours he didn't lose faith eventually he got there and was thankful. It didn't happen right away when it did he was grateful never looked back he just sees the people who doubted him and proving them wrong. Shutting down those that mocked him after being injured and depressed anxious to get back on the mats. Being harassed for missing practice because he had to work. Taunted by people that had it given to them while he had to work for his way. Never fit in or cared for gym politics but one who focused on the technique and drills.

Playing many roles all he wanted was to be himself. All he did was give about to tap out but refusing to quit. Trying to honor his commitments it was important to him trying to find balance instead of go over the edge. He fought to be the hero in his story. Made out to be the bad guy depending who's giving the narrative.
Trying to do right things go wrong dealing with the consequences. Things go well no one cares he got ******* over one area is well while another is crumbling trying to restore it all.
Help out others struggling to save himself feeling like a failure over one error one mistake. All the good and effort goes unnoticed.
Setting goals outside of work feeling neglected by those he respected. Preferred to stay away instead of getting close. His feelings hurt trying to stay composed. Never one to judge others he's been down and got back up. Stood in silence still being judged. Always honest told the truth because its easier than lying. Called blunt because most want everything but the truth.

Broke free onto a new job a new chapter fresh beginnings.
Leaving the job you have and job that's loved working at two locations. Now a permanent full time not having to worry about covering or missing one job to fill the void at the other. One job one location one area instead 2 regular or 2 because you cover for those who miss. Well rounded able to adapt and adjust.

You believed in me
When no one else did
Trying to move up to far
Working hard to get better
Always there giving it all
Caring more than most
Fear of missing out dreaming big
Keeping busy from the drama
Lost in the work not obsessing
Overcome doubt cut the toxic cord
Starting over sounds insane
Rebuilding wiser than before

Always looking in
Looked out for others
Excluded worried about others
Not feeling part of the team
They'll forget about you right away
A hopeless romantic losing hope
Romance lost in the distance
Mistaken lust for love
Friendships gone sour
One wants more giving it all
The other emotionally compromised

Forgiving them as they hold a grudge
Focused on work not on conflict
Anxious to ask out that girl
Over the same old routine
Work to pay bills on a budget
Trying to save up inflation is too much
Writing for years thinking about publishing
Anxious to ask that girl out
Scared of rejection and criticism
Always open minded dealing with others
Over made up ideology
So someone can justify their bad behavior
Offended causing negativity ready to strike
They'll try to cancel you twist your words so they can feel in control
Never one to empower anyone
Who tries to mislead or use others

Still can't believe you're gone
Sad to see you go outta my life
Remembering all the things
You gave words of wisdom
I'm honored you taught me
Applying these life lessons to mine
Seeing things in me others don't
Believed in me and gave me hope
When I don't believe in myself
Trying to honor you by being better

Not for everyone okay with that
Cleaning off the rough edges
Doing it myself time feels right
Don't need anyone to do it for me
Too tired to argue with anyone
Doing what I love always
Feeling good to be doing it
Not seeking approval
Made it there without others influence
Over those rules that keep you out
Its different but done with heart
From the young soul that's growing old

They sat across from one another after years of avoiding one another. Things were said out of anger and frustration now living different lives from how they originally knew one another. So much had changed over time. Moving on was hard but had to be done.
Saving the moments even though they are expired. Wanting to fix the problem try to make it right. Learning to forgive oneself instead of carrying the guilty burdens. That chapter is over a forever friend even if we don't talk anymore.