So far from normal
No close to being right
The thought of being wrong
Drove him crazy didn't know it all
Not always going to be right
Can't justify everything
A sober mind after years of haze
An altered mindset had to get away
Cut ties or things that led to the bottle
Letting go of those who threw
The past in his face kept bringing it up
Owned up and confessed to be at peace
All the self destruction to get back at others
Never did anything just led to setbacks
Default back to starting over
Doing it all over again a vicious cycle

In light skinned women feels like a crime with family. Have to hide it feels like a ***** secret grew up with criticism. Told stay with your kind or be judged like you are doing something wrong.

Spoke up had an opinion everyone act like you're again or opposing the family. The family is quick to attack talk down like you dk any better. Stood what was right questioned things. Why does it have to be this way. Why so many rules?

Love for my elders but times have changed. They had a simpler time also had their struggle. Things change some for the bother other times it doesn't make sense. I'll never know everything so much new or new ways of how things are done. Be open to learn and to grow. From your time to the next generations to come

From a child to man hasn't been easy so many outside factors and people talking. Eventually asking what do you want? What are you looking for? Not having a job and going places seeing the world. Now a responsible adult working to invest in the craft.
Pay bills maintain a life trying to work toward well off through the struggle to get ahead. Over settling and barely getting by. Not materialistic just feels like more can be done. Making the most of things, working with what's been given.

Always judged never talk about others
Not worthy of thinking about
Not wasting time on haters
Avoiding negativity bad vibes
Struggling to co-exist with another
Doing things differently getting it done
Never taught learning on the go
New ideas perspective till it's gone
Running solo so much growth
Years of development took time
From a fighter to civil living these role
Always working hard towards what?
Learned to take in the moment

A minimalist with people
Try too hard things go wrong
Made an effort blew up hard
Love too much people run away
Not showing love complicated people stay
More people mad than happy
Not the agenda feeling the judgement
Feeling out of place and discomfort
Just wanted to belong fit in
Always left out or out looking in
This heart means well
Even when treated unfair
Saying sorry is never enough
Not sure how to make the wrong right
Cozy with a pen and pad writing it out
A late night fix to ease the hurt

Full of spirit
Light up the soul
Good vibes go out
Good vibes returned
Feeling it from within
Like hug with love
Never letting go
Tickled from the inside
Laughter full of life

Can't be mad choices got made
Don't always have a say
Can't tell others how to feel
No apologies for these thought
All these emotions hard to cope
Things don't always make sense
Mind and heart conflicted
Trying to process understand

Felt built up right one mistake
Now it's crumbling to the ground
Tumbling down losing it all
Feeling cheated for being loyal
Did right still feels wrong
Can't blame dealing with the pain
The rage implodes within
Said nothing everything spiraling
Spoke up no one can hear
Saying what is wrong
Being ignored by everyone
Need someone to bounce ideas off
So many respond not listen
Seen as over dramatic

Made some moves
Finished strong
Back to the beginning
Stuck in a never ending loop
Rise up to the next level
Still at the bottom
Worked harder than most
Not a brown noser
Hardest worker in the room
Arrive with a good attitude
Most show up with no interest
Progress over settling
A fight to come out ahead
Barely coming out even
Overcome regret minor setbacks
Know too much about failure
Success achieved hard to forget

Need to hustle
All the risks
Come up short
Overcome pain
Staying sane
Earn and gain
Feeling numb
Zoning out

A monster cares for others
Didn't mean to destroy what he love
The beast has emotions feeling
Looks mean but full of emotions
The machine processed it all
Comes together fill with perspective
All these come together exposing truth
A human being under it all
A warrior heart beating strong
Fighting through it all
Hero mindset with a moral code
Pursuing greatness within the layers

Never afraid to try
Not one to quit
Walking away from it all
Come back to it later
Straight shave razor
Cut throat silence the BS
Ruthless always truthful
Don't care for lying cheats
Found away to survive
Always kept out in the end
Always working to get hired
No love appreciation respect
Clear mind full of joy good
Clear thoughts avoid negativity

Having fun writing not much going on
Many worlds I'd like to be part of
I don't belong or fit in one day
I'll find my place, belong for once
Looked through me because I'm short
A giant at heart who keeps at it strong
Not the first pick, once picked going all the way
My skin tone done tell my story
Respect others even if they don't value me
Ignored my opinion, after asking my advice
Tried to gang up, keep me out
Not hurt, everyone turn on one another
Only look up to you because I'm short
So many underestimate, what I can do

Make every line count
Say something deep
Motivate empower others
From the heart with love
Piece of mind full of peace
Overcome struggle everyday
Open to change adapt and adjust
Learn new understandings
Inhale good vibe feel alive
Exhale bad toxic emotions

Talking loud doesn't mean right
Insulting a person over an argument
Doesn't make things better
Alienated for being different
Not seeing eye to eye conflict of interest
Seeing things the same imposing beliefs
Trying to turn everyone get the odds to favor
Can't win or do it alone manipulation
Standing alone not taking sides

In the room feeling invisible
The world blocks me out
Doing my best to fit in
Where I do not belong
Made my voice heard
Energy levels low trying to matter
Sad how no one feels same
Thoughts have changed
Memories remain not afraid
New faces with youth
Older crowd aging

Another sad story
Wanting to help
Not sharing struggle
Taking it on alone
Such a crazy experience
Another moment in time
Laying in bed staring
Not able to cry a tear
Emotions are pending
Feeling catching up
All unprocessed syncing up
Mentally burnt out
Thinking what to say
Physically exhausted
Pushing the limits

Use to like going out
Some would say I'm too loud
Heart of the party without missing a beat
Dancing on a beat moving my feet
The club had an environment I loved
Thought I belong wasn't a match
Same crowd every weekend
As i got older Found peace within
Not fueled by anger
Standing my ground
Even if I stand alone
Gave my all to what I love
Rise above the hate
Told myself keep going strong
Stay away from others doing wrong
Be my own person be great
Only with god my faith grows right
The world will not dictate my fate old

He saw his momma drunk
It hurt him and broke his heart
He prayed she'd change for the better
She smoked no regards for others
Set in her ways loved her flaw and all
All the frustration stayed away
Tears and painful to watch
Blaming himself over her bad habits

Stories from the past
Some are hilarious
Others are embarrassing
Don't want to talk about them
But can't act like they didn't happen
Some are a treasure in the heart
Wishing to be relived
Others be taken out rewritten
Can't look back not going that way
Facing forward on the road
On the go had to leave stuff behind

Waking up next to this stranger
The girl I love blinded in danger
Thought this was love
Turned out to be lust
Another argument then ***
More conflicts that can't be fixed
More pain the thought of her name
Really in too deep can't be saved
Walking away is hard had to be brave
The last time together forgotten
Remember the first day we met
Hard to forget it was special
Now full of regret lost the vibe
Had to say goodbye to survive

So much hatred need more love
So much injustice not peace
Everyone needs closure to move on
Sometimes theirs no reason or answers
Other times conclusions with results
Just love respect one another
Everyone has a struggle
Everyone has their own story
Tell it loud don't be afraid
Don't hurt others in the process
Be open to understand others
And have faith they'll understand
Don't force your beliefs or impose
Educate and inform others
Some might listen be open to change
While others narrow minded
Set in their ways closed off

Getting older
Joint pain
Testing yourself
Pushing the limits
Wishing they'd fight
Just past you off
Can't sleep had to write
Wanted it denied
Onto new not sure
What to expect
Maybe neglect
Mind is racing
Don't want to make a mistake
Passed off left out
Remember the good
Being gone feeling sad

Should've done this
Or could've done that
Somethings didn't happen
Turn out accordingly
Been frustrated with things
No one is helping
Help yourself to be more
Stuck with less
Making the most of things
More downs than ups
Always shutting up to keep the peace
But enraged deep inside
No where to run or hide
Tried to vent told what to do
Said nothing not interested to open up
Hurting inside stress all time high

Being fired bouncing back
A bummed knee over protective
A break up that won't break your spirit
Betrayed by fake friends not surprised
A struggle to be an individual
While groups oppose and label you
Gave it all never enough
Some sacrifices not worth it
While others paid out for the better
Wake up everyday say be more
Tired exhausted digging down deep
Focused on work to aim towards goals
Close to the dream focused on the next level