Faced with choices
Hard decision at a crossroad
Voice mutes hard to speak
Trying to do what's right
Everyone notices wrong
Quick to point out the flaw
Stayed professional worked hard
Kept home life and work separate
Always working no personal life
Asking and wanting something new
Change for something new with meaning
Something better worthy of pursuing
Down time reflecting not on hold
A chance to reset not pause life

Infused with motivation
Don't say much got others confused
Been doing it not saying anymore
Woke up with an adrenaline rush
Most of the time deep in thought
Not paying attention to whats going on
Usually observant people watch
Not sure how to feel anymore
Catch a conversation be social
Tough times dk how to act

Sleep patterns all jacked up
Up all night sleep all day
Not trying to get burned up
The heat wave draining
Running out of stuff to write
Comes more natural at night
About to start another notebook
70 or more bone yard collection
Not sure what to do with it all
These thoughts so deep from within
Raw emotions unexpressed
But written down sharing this talent

Years of holding back
Once I let go everything feels right
Not arguing with my ignorant sister
Taking on a brother who flexes on everyone
Lack of social skills doesn't justify negativity
Another brother lusting in a loveless relationship
Seen this before and lived it but wised up
Doing my best to grow change for the better
Cleaning out my angry mind opened my heart
Open to god and positive vibes life change

Being the voice of reason is hard when people have selective hearing. Usually straight forward will tell a person. Whats up and not tell them, what they want to here because as a friend you

Don't lie to your friend.
Being honest should be the best feeling because you don't have to remember anything. People who lie end up having to be, or act like someone they are not.

Never understood, how a people date when its one sided; meaning one is all in giving love. While the other waiting around till something better comes along. How and why are partners jealous of one another, instead of trying to function as a unit. Never understood the relationship concept being the 3rd wheel around certain couples.

She was one of a kind
Hard to find over time
He was going through heartache
Not sure if he had it anymore
She was light skinned
He was normally tanned
Together he was dark
They would chit and chat
She was easy to talk with
He thought of ways to hang out
In a social gathering
Outside of the routine
He was shy not confident
Asking her out fear of rejection
Till he offered to pay for lunch
Arrangement was made
Plans were set for Wednesday
He didn't know what to wear
Wanted to make a good impression
Stared in the mirror talking to himself
The day would come
He thought what to say
Where would they go
They met up at the location
She made a choice it was her selection
Happy to see one another

Standing tall
Without compromise
Open to others ideas
Staying true compromised beliefs
Being loyal sacrificed morals
Protected heart with lost feelings
Learning to love again
Starting from within
Loving your own
Not the best crowd
Better than being alone
Growing playing another role
Unfamiliar with always trying
More than most still striving
Being the person that's needed
Didn't have growing up
Always helping trying to be better
An outcast helping the rejects

Set out to be great
Stuck with hate
Positive vibes sober living
Changed behavior not the same
Unaccepted apologizes
Still being better than before
Open to change personal growth
Open minded to new experiences
Reflecting and coping with things
Processed feelings and emotions

Up early still dark
Quiet not so much chaos
Time to wake rather be sleeping
Thoughts not so loud
Moment of blissful silence
Not making things worse
But focused on better things
Felt taken for granted
Now things are better
Overwhelmed with joy
Not distracted by bad behavior

Woke up got ready for work
Stopped to get a breakfast sandwich
An energy drink to power through the day
Sat with the lead would rather be working
Wondering what's on the agenda
Stopped with the small talk
Picking up the slack
Too many followers not enough leader
Being an example who take pride in work
Not make an example of others
Never been around good leadership

Tired from being on the go
Looking for something
Found nothing worthy
Over wasting time
Going blind to the world
Trying to get what's mine
Years of loss refuse to settle
Friends come like the seasons
Most leave without reason
Not one to beg to be accepted
Fighting for my spot to stand
From friend to foe someone Idk
So much going on in life
Feels like no one notices
People act like they don't care
Working hard for change
Too bad things remain the same

She hugged and kissed him
And thought it meant something
A few dates with memorable moments
The first kiss full of sparks very intimate
Spent time together for lost in that world
When he seen her with another guy right away
He was crushed wondering what happened
Where it all went wrong to make it right
He wanted to be the one not one of many

This nightmare is reality being safe
Its on the new and everywhere Everything is real such a scare
Happy thoughts in a depressed world
Gazing out the window at the blue sky
The fresh air through an open window
Times have changed never the same
Normal to weird sounds about right
Praying hoping God hears
Staying indoors wanting out
Writing has kept things sane
Reading to past time
Watching shows to be distracted

She was short
With a warm smile
Freckles on her face
His heart skipped a beat
A good feeling about her
Both led different lives
Talking before their class
One focused on success
The other on getting by
Lots of false hope
Friends nothing more
Broken promises
Lust mistaken for love
Mostly assumptions
Friends to strangers
Hidden agendas

Actually being understood
Not being judged
Or treated differently
Going with the good vibes
Fighting the good fight
Love to write from the heart
Put it all down on paper
Showed love for others
Got hate from many
Still working to survive
Still thriving to get ahead
Staying humble slowing down
Always giving it all everytime
Who knows what's next
Where the future will end up

Not throwing it in anyone's face
Protecting others lots of betrayal
Who snitch throw you under
So many negative mouths talking
Tuned them out only about themselves
Helped a friend who was down
Lived in his car now throwing shade
Not one to judge anyone everyone has a struggle
Respected the situation tough times happen
All the complaining point the blame
Been growing on the low figure it out alone
Minding this mouth it causes trouble
Not in anyone's business keeping a low pro
Never know the who story only heard one side
Not one to talk tried to lend a helping hand
All this heat the third degree burnt up inside

All these rants on this page
No one is listening
Projecting it out in words
Only cares about themselves
Did favors now playing the victim
Pretending to learn but don't care
Never gonna change forever bitter
Slanderous remarks to a girl
Who didn't like you always hating
But she crushing on a friend
Never happy for yourself
Just knocking others to matter

Looking for that love
Natural organic feeling
That grows into something more
Real to the heart no making excuses
No need to justify a lie if it's true
Become one for each other
Build a dynasty from the ground up
Hustle in the world come back together
So that our world can be hold
Future together rising to the next level

Going through the motions
Just got over being sick
Love for the rain weather
Don't like being in the cold
Writing to express emotions
Able to share a story
Not compete with sad stories
Or who is more petty
Bouncing off ideas or vent
Nice to be heard instead of a shoulder
A shoulder others cry on
Not one to turn down others
Easy to be ignored in a room full of people
From friends to foes only one side is heard

Everyone ends up mad
Can't say anything
But won't take crap from anyone
Always respectful to rude people
Minding this mouth staying calm
Some try to provoke to make you mad
**** you off then play victim
Once checked them for acting up
Put them in their place
Not giving in or letting up anymore

The two siblings
Always in conflict
Both prideful egos
Too proud to apologize
Trying to look past this
One still holding a grudge
Silence with intense hostility
Awkwardness louder than love
Not equal to one another
The way it should be
One works hard struggling to get by
The other given it all not grateful
Never enough being complicated
Making it tough causing chaos to be heard
Should be civil respectful talk it out
Not about being right
But doing what's right
Family is forever blood or not
Love one another with respect
Loyalty through the dark times
Not just when things are well
Even with conflict of interest

At that cross roads
Always helping others
Not sure how to help myself
Or where to start with things
A list of started things
That need to be finished
Putting others first helping
Before your own personal needs
Start doing things seen as selfish
Hard to be well rounded
It feels like it's crumbling
About to collapse hard
Come crashing down
Losing sleep wise awake
Eating too much or not enough
Fit to fat so much change going on
Something wrong within
Not feeling right on edge at ease

Another chapter new beginning
Old songs that connect to the heart
Make you feel like a teenager
Remind you of a good time
Better times are ahead yet to come
New people who make you better
No hidden agendas being genuine
Laugh without someone being offended
Smile without bitter people ruining the day
Trying to wipe the joy off a face
Positive vibes over bad moods
Not bothering with toxic negativity
It's always around but not welcomed
Being open minded without imposing views
Come to terms without abusive perspective

Went to college went the longest
Everyone quit or went home
Almost made it but came up short
Went home a failure started something
In the back of my mind
A voice keeps saying "finished what you started"
Trying to survive, contribute to society
Be proud of myself so many keep knocking me
Did more than most not waving it in anyones face
Trying to balance out work and school
Not about being cool anymore
Stopped caring what others think
They are not supporting my goals or dream
Time keeps flying by thought I had time
Never too late making the most of the situation
Things are falling into place
Another hater will not wipe the smile off my face
Been punched not hard enough to keep me down
Still standing tall coming back for more
Good to people even if they don't treat me fair
Not worried the ignorance will come back around

One to get annoyed
Usually blame myself
When others ignore me
I don't mind you changed
Bad mouthing my name to others
Need new friends in my life
The old ones hold a grudge
Said I was sorry
Now they deny knowing me
Treat me like I don't matter
Called I'm done doing my part
Over a girl who don't want you
I respect you changed
Doesn't make you better
See you at your worse
You use to be better
Now you hide from those you hurt
Acting like you can do no wrong
I'm just as bad maybe worse
Not pretending to be someone I'm not

He was a nice guy
Loved to make people laugh
His kindness was seen as weakness
Once he spoke up against the bashing
Once he checked them for getting out line
He was the bad guy for caring
They said he took life too serious
Turns out they didn't take him serious
He took it as disrespect and shut it down
Blocked it all out showed no emotion
Walked away from the BS
Depends on who's telling the story
He was seen as bold stood tall

Expressing with words
Feels right onto better
If it's all taken away what's next
Forced to stay home over a virus
Not able to work or sure
If there's a chance of a return
Wear a mask or no service
So much chaos over cleaning products
Insanity over groceries items
Hoarding causing a shortage
Church online walking with faith
Has all this become the norm
Will things ever be normal again
Missing people all divided
What's the new normal
With new rules and regulations

In light skinned women feels like a crime with family. Have to hide it feels like a ***** secret grew up with criticism. Told stay with your kind or be judged like you are doing something wrong.

Spoke up had an opinion everyone act like you're again or opposing the family. The family is quick to attack talk down like you dk any better. Stood what was right questioned things. Why does it have to be this way. Why so many rules?

Love for my elders but times have changed. They had a simpler time also had their struggle. Things change some for the bother other times it doesn't make sense. I'll never know everything so much new or new ways of how things are done. Be open to learn and to grow. From your time to the next generations to come

From a child to man hasn't been easy so many outside factors and people talking. Eventually asking what do you want? What are you looking for? Not having a job and going places seeing the world. Now a responsible adult working to invest in the craft.
Pay bills maintain a life trying to work toward well off through the struggle to get ahead. Over settling and barely getting by. Not materialistic just feels like more can be done. Making the most of things, working with what's been given.