Being pulled in different directions. Staying loyal and true find balance
About to go over the edge
Had to cut toxic family
Love them keeping a distance
Falling into bad habits trying to chill
Trying to chill therapy sessions
Always the scapegoat getting the hate
Working at two locations
Not enough time barely getting by
Backed into a corner everyone happy
Building up foundation in the struggle
Trying to communicate be fair
Winning on one end giving it all
Losing on the other neglecting
****** expression showing frustration

He walked on the pier thinking about his life. Staring at the sunset so he can forget his worries and be free for the moment. Life wasn't bad but he wanted to be better. He missed and thought about his grandpa. Trying to live life for both be better something was missing on the outside looking in.

A confession to cleanse the soul
Protecting others taking the bullets
Helping family made out to be the villain
Taking one for the team working hardest
Soon to be a future lead tired of settling
Hated for being a shooting star
Working hard striving in life
His name slandered by friends
Other quick to believe the lies
Staying loyal seen as a threat
Standing tall with moral standards
The social rep ruined by people
Who don't try but expect everything
Spoke the truth it's the right thing to do
Called people on the nonsense

You love family but they'll throw you under slander your name. Make you out to be the bad guy because you're  not there to defend yourself. Eventually  you. Fade out it will catch up to them because they'll remain doing the same stuff and catch up to them.
Soon they'll have to own up for their wrong doing. Being cussed out by an aunt was deep changed your life perspective. Uncles that say you visit grandma for money when you dont ask or expect anything from anyone. Cousins that talk but not doing anything to make it better.
Instigating trying to manipulate  how others see you. As you get older you stop caring what others think especially if they don't help or do anything for you.
Having fun with life while they hate on you because your doing what you want most of all your own thing.

sometimes you'll love a girl who doesn't love herself. you got intimate and fell in love while she was lusting around. not caring who she hurt. broken hearts and broken trust over a lush. you felt special, but other guys are getting the same treatment. you wanted to be the only one while everyone treated her badly. you treated her well, and she dropped you like the rest. God's not done with you. thinking of going back to school to get back in the medical field. learn all that you can. you have a good memory tired of playing dumb pretending, not care. Mostly afraid of being judged by people who don't know me. No matter what I do, they are going to judge me. look down on me or say something bad about me. major in psychology, and become a counselor to helping people. I'd get them into writing for therapy so they can express their feelings.

After being called delusional
Staying quiet avoiding the drama
His opinion would make things worse
Staying quiet is just as bad
Trying to mind his mouth
Being provoked was hard
They wanted him to over react
So his anxiety would get the best of him
Poking at him hoping others would see him strike
They tried to set him up to fail
He didn't need them taunting
He knew the consequences if his actions
Taking a time out from it out
Missing his kiddos on the outside looking
Tired of terms and conditions to be accepted
They labeled him but he was over people
Holding on to the past over head
Like it was going to matter in the future
He changed his ways that's how he apologized
While they remained the same never changing
More made up rules loops to jump through to amuse their boring life
Thinking too much didn't help
Scenarios playing out and possibilities

Wrapping his fist taking breaths getting mentally prepped for the drills. Clearing his mind getting in the zone. Focused on foot work and throwing punches efficiently. Telling his older body to move his feet don't be flat footed. Be your best help your cousin prepare for his next fight.
Working hard to be prepared for this combat battle. Every strike must be precise. Landing kicks to chop down this opponent get inside and out keeping a distance. Punches that connect breaking away from the clench throwing strikes that cause the hands to drop then react in a strategic manner.

He was asked "what happened to your ****?" He didn't know how to respond. He didn't know if he was being sexually harassed or being checked out. He found motivation to work out since all he does is write.
He was over his life being on hold and tired of waiting on others. He loved people but can't get motivated from negative people. He seen good in them, too bad they didn't see it in themselves.

Worked to fit in but kept me out
They wanted me to change, made no effort
Gave my all, it was never enough
Gave my all, pointed out the flaw
Closed my mouth hoping to be liked
Burning within because I didn't agree
Seen them do wrong, trying to justify it as right
Spoke my mind everyone got mad
Said the truth and called them on the BS
Now they hate me think less of me
Trying to tell me how to live, but they've done nothing made no effort
All this talk is annoying just do it already
More nonsense stop waiting everyone's time

Coped seen it from all angles
All perspectives every direction
Able to understand
Trying to make sense of it all
Giving others a chance
No one is interested
Found someone else
Now they try to pry
Had to find yourself
Some where new
Don't always fit in
Moving on don't belong
Not always liked
Matched energy feeling drained
Left what was causing pain
Dropped the burdens
Let go of suffering

He was tired of arguing with everyone
Someone is holding a grudge keeping tabs
Talking about everyone
Being a two faced phony
He didn't have the time
The energy for all that
He was loyal and true
Dealing with phony and fake
He kept his mouth shut stayed away
They raided and imposed his area Acting like they did more not even close
Talking like they actually contribute
He was tired of all the bad mouthing Everyone was loud talking not right
Never to each other rambling on
Behind one another's back
Quiet once they entered the room
Mumbling the things they said
To someone else never to the person

Tried to figure out
Where it went wrong
Only if going back was an option
Change things but it's been done
Everything happened moments passed
Turned out accordingly
Over the time period given
Live to forget the past trauma
Learn to grow with someone new
A new partner move on
Dump the exes standards
Not all relationships are the same
Meet new people with common interests
Find more like minded people
Not all friendships are one sided

Not arguing just focused on work
Don't care for drama
Not looking for trouble
Doing as much aa possible
The assignment is about to end
Things will get better
Riding out the tough dark times
Made the most of what's given
Met new people and new crowds
Don't always fit in or belong
Just glad to be involved part of something

Sharing yourself with another being
Doesn't mean you become one
Sometimes you expect the best
Stuck with the worse of them
Trying to shine and rise
While sinking being pulled under
Now where to want to be no blame
Had to move on get away
From the pain not meant to stay
Struggle to find a way free
From this twisted way of life

You gain wisdom but lose your youth
Living in the present Observing the new
So much has changed over time
Heart on Golden daze treasured pleasures
The past has rich memories
Success should be rewarding not a punishment
Tired of living in regret got overlooked
From a broken home now married
A hard working man not given any credit
Educated walking with open eyes
Hated for having an opinion
Speaking your mind gets you canceled

Ready to pounce
Just needed a reason
Fuel to the burning fire
Already had it mind
Ready to tell others
Never listening ready to argue
Assuming they are in the right
Looking down rather than help up
If you're not doing favors kept out
Have to act or be a certain way
Denying yourself to be accepted
Not breaking up the fame
Divided from the pack
The black sheep looking in
Staying away doing his own thing
Tired of pretending it okay being dogged
Over the third degree feeling robbed
Making his own way happen in peace

Some people complain but don't contribute anything
While others pay for everything and never complain
How does a one who relies on another person treat them so bad
Some bs others and have the nerve to get mad
Once you question their logic they start to treat you different
Exclude you because their dictator ways don't work on sharp minded individuals
These bullies are sensitive but act tough especially when they try to manipulate others

Still writing scared to be alone
A people person not always favored
Still pursuing a dream short lived
Over being side tracks constantly
The detours feeling close but farther away
Use to be annoyed by missing it now
Onto better but stuck on the same old
Trying to achieve the American dream
Some have lived it happy for them
Others struggle pursuing opportunity
Learning to forgive to move on
Find inner peace within this thick skin
Somethings are hard to forget
Can't change the past live in the moment
The future has yet to happen