Sharing yourself with another being
Doesn't mean you become one
Sometimes you expect the best
Stuck with the worse of them
Trying to shine and rise
While sinking being pulled under
Now where to want to be no blame
Had to move on get away
From the pain not meant to stay
Struggle to find a way free
From this twisted way of life

Thick skin through these tough times, it's hard, but with time they get better. Work harder instead of being all up in the drama. Lazy employees telling you NO or it's never going to happen for you. Don't be discouraged believe in yourself when others make you feel worthless.
Making it seem like what you do doesn't matter or mean anything. Sometimes it's all you know helping you progress and grow.
Being strong and tough eventually wanting to break down shed some tears take moment to compose yourself then bounce back, keep building on what's given. Making the most of things thankful for all the blessings. Tired of facing family because everyone's ego and pride is more important than blood.

The heart of a warrior fighting through. Always a struggle to get by. Use to talk smack seen it like a rap battle. Can't say anything without words getting twisted. Made out to be the bad guy. Always thinking holding back the words.
Some are wrong still talking like if they in it for everyone. Only their own selfish gain. Holding back to keep the peace while they make everyone unsettle and uncomfortable.

He could feel his brothers pain and torment as he talked about those who wronged him. He would tell him don't talk about them they aren't worth it. Don't waste a thought or let them Rob you of your peace disturb you by robbing you of your sanity. The brother would claim it didn't bother him but his tone/demeanor would change.

He asked her out she agreed but they needed to plan the time and place. He was anxious to go being patient trusting everything would work out part of the plan.
The last time he dated was college. He met people and didn't commit because it was never an option. He wanted more struggling to find balance while pursuing the career. He didn't end up doing any of it just an average Joe working a job back home a lifer resident in his home town.
Wanting to escape his city had his heart. Hated being home missing it while he was away. Thought he was missing out showing it love not getting any back in return. At the local dive bar with the regulars some left home and others never been outside of the circle the neighborhood the only thing known.

The athlete within wants out lots of wear and tear over the years. Conflicts with being responsible; trying to find a balance. Work takes away from training, but money is needed to invest in your skills/talent.

Stuck on a thought, running with ideas that might or might not work. Telling the truth should lead to good feels like things got worse. Not sure why it becomes a conflict of interest maybe being around the wrong people doesn't help.
Use to be a wild one life was different after sobriety. People stop calling when you don't drink anymore.
Made efforts to keep a friendship going it soon became one sided. Stopped caring let go of those people. Sad to see them go, but a way to stay true and grow.

The things aren't the way he imagine
Another outcome dealing with backlash
The love he gave everyone lashing out
Trying to be there getting cut out
Fading out not meant to be there
Everything changed drastically
Had no say or control holding on
Everything is gone never the same
Everyone grew up got married
Now divorced or have kids and still together
From no job to a career still single
Working nights to pay the bills

The problem with being up beat and positive so many negative people try to make you a target so they feel better about themselves. You can't have an off day because they assume something is wrong.
Some days its better to be alone and compose your thoughts. Easier to be alone but do like when people aren't being consumed by their frustration and acting weird over a problem they have no way or control over.
It's easy to be yourself when you don't have others assuming, making you out to be someone you're not.

He respected his elders
Even though they had no respect for him
His mistake seeing them like an equal
He accepted them flaw and all
He knew his breathe wasn't minty fresh
When she'd talk loud with yuck mouth
Dealing with an annoying laugh
It's not genuine it drowns out the silence
An opinion spoken no one asked
Everything leads to a random story
That makes everyone uncomfortable
He saw good in the wrong people
Disappointed once again proved wrong

Great up poor hard working
Help out or get out of the way
No longer seek your approval
Or care for others thoughts
More lies and rumors being said
Listening to negativity putting out good
That BS ruins the day focused on work
Busting **** to live the best life possible
Going hard all in or nothing
Trying to be somebody treated like nobody
Talked about hated on made out to be the bad guy
Doing what's right following this heart
Minding this mouth it will ruin everything
Destroyed everything gave it to God things got better
Staying sober saving mental health
Physical health body scared and recovering
Not afraid of self destruction struggle brought me down
Bounced back with faith detailed not afraid to do great things for others

Too strong showing no emotions
Those feelings going numb
So much betrayal from the deceitful
He couldn't look at them anymore
Never the same there's no going back
On a lonely journey chasing a dream
Healing from trembling aches within
They made him out to be a nobody
Tarnished his rep without redemption
He didn't defend himself or he was guilty
Walked away from lies because he knew the truth and what he wanted
Tired of being buried alive just trying to live be an individual without others trying to bring him down. Like if it's their call or like their say matters

A few back on a train leaving college
A college drop out heading back home
This burden over head family criticism
The struggle to get ahead feeling stuck
Not sure how to act in a crowded room
Anything but over react with emotions
Feelings overwhelmed ready to explode
Trying to grow better this situation
Find a leveled ground steady foundation
New mindset to that shows maturity
Wiser with decisions more selective
Young and careless to responsible reliable
Failed love now chasing success
Became obsessed lost in the progress

Trying to be normal it's always a fight
Working harder than most seen as weak
Not a lead doing lead roles standing out
Want a healthy relationship everything so complicated
Health issues just want to enjoy life
Eat without worrying
How it will effect the body
Self destruction has taken its toll
Doing more positive and creative things
Tired of arguing with others tired
Trying to get along they are holding a grudge

Kept a distance to heal from the hurt
Takes a long time to recover
After my whole being was rejected
Denied by the ones I love
That hurts most deep down to the core
Because they don't have my heart
Or see the world the way I do
Seen them as an equal with value
Viewed as a joke not taken serious
Told how to act just being me
Who to be instead of living life

One day it will come back to those fakes. Making everyone deal with their work and burdens. Made them look brilliant as they dumped on everyone stealing the credit. Everyday another person placed in the spot the value fluctuating some times its easy other times complicated. Could be the lead no superior sees the potential but has no problem letting one do the work

Writing about love and life so complicated when it shouldn't be that way. Feeling like the past has this death grip squeezing the life out of him. He was sorry but never forgiven. Not able to make those wrongs right. When he does better why is no one happy for him.
He's not a target when they come at him; why are they mad when he checks them for coming at him sour. He didn't let himself to anyone; most come at him with a vengeance once he checks them they are quick to play the victim. Years of holding it in time to let it out. All this burden weighing him down a distraction from the creative process.

He didn't give into the personal attacks they expected him to overreact or make a fuss. He never said anything about anyone. They gave him an ear full. He was sorry he couldn't live up to their demands and expectation he moved on with his life. Thankful for the talk and motivation.
He didn't always fit in but he gave his all took pride in whatever he was doing. He was anxious and more determined. To get it right do it his way since he didn't always have a choice or a say. He found joy outside of work ready to take step make moves in the right direction pursuing everything that he neglected without others interference/influence he knew the hard part was starting and staying on track.

Looked out now being pushed out
Told you she cheated still surprised
Had your back you turned it to me
The knife in mine already the pain
Not one to get even return the favor
Went against a friend mind made up
All this for an unfaithful love
Ditched friendships for a relationship
Hard to trust pursuing lust mistaken
Addicted to the toxic can't get a fix
Mind clouded not able to focus
In denial about the truth believing lies

He was tired and sore tired of everyone talking about everyone. He gave his all while others act like they do everything acting like they help everyone. Its for their own selfish gain. Doing way more than the person running their mouth.
He didn't care for all these made up rules others made. Be this way do that and they don't even do it. A bunch of noise being made that doesn't help others benefit. He just focused on the work he didn't care about gossip or work politics.
He was thankful and grateful for his job. It was very demanding. He busted his **** took pride in his work. He didn't speak Spanish so he got the 3rd degree. Being Mexican born in the US they see you as privileged and lazy.
He did those impossible jobs and jobs no one wanted to do.

He felt stuck trapped in his own body. Hard to make moves; can't say or do anything because it's made out to be a bad thing. His life wasn't bad but crossing paths with others they attacked his flaws made him feel worthless. Arguing they play the victim he took their criticism said be better. He prayed for them and walked away. Ready to start a new chapter. Negativity didn't help the cause he chose to be positive as those crucial words tormented his being.

Always working for his tired of being denied
Hard to grow when everyone stays the same
Doing his thing they made it about them
Working hard to maintain an uphill bad
No one talking about anyone massive tension
Trying to stir the *** full of resentment
Able to go out not married single no kids
Not liking the guilt trip able to explore
See the world travel not feeding an ego
Not letting them dull this shine
Kills the spirit positive vibes only
Learning to cope deal with family
They'll dismiss, reject everything about you
Make differences out to be the complicated

He learned quick he's not everyone's favorite person or going to be liked. He got more heat for having an opinion but it ate him up to be silent turn a blind eye. He failed and made mistakes but didn't like others holding guilt over his head. It already burdened him from the inside out.
He knew saying something would get worse but acted out of frustration. Took time to process and cope with things. Somethings he would work on others he disagreed. He didn't care to open up if he didn't trust a person. Everything was made personal felt like an attack for speaking but didn't care to be superior wanting to be an equal but learned he didn't have a place so he was more open mind to change

Don't let your assumptions hold you back
Sometimes you need to start your own traditions
You can't keep alter yourself to make others happy
Haters will continue to talk about you Some minds are made up why bother
Don't waste your time on the head strong
Always proving one's self worthy
Tired of fighting because playing those games
Push to hard roles switch the bully becomes the victim
Taking the bullies misconduct to keep the peace doesn't stop
Love for others and his people
Being genuine with others
This idea of who you think they are is exposed
Giving the benefit of the doubt once exposed it's a lie
Pretending to be someone they are not is disheartening
But human behavior is twisted heart Broken dealing with those wicked ways