He loved her but it was over. She didn't believe in his dream. She told him he wasn't good enough it tore him up from the inside out. The anger didn't resonate with him. He did what he loved while everyone else gave up on their dreams.
He was pursuing it behind the scenes working his craft. Getting better educating himself trying to apply what was being learned to better his situation. His family didn't get or understand him since he didn't listen to NO or like being told that he couldn't do it. Giving his all even though it wasn't good enough staying positive working it from all angles and directions eventually it would work out fall into place.
He wanted to write stand up and sitcoms tell his story. He took those steps shared with friends and did his podcast that gave him a voice. He broke free of his family they called him delusional and kept him out for being single and not having a family. He was smart didn't want to do that with just anyone.

He was over the lies and manipulation. He cut the cord. He didn't care that they had kids or got married. He was annoyed that they made out anything he did to be a bad thing. He never talked about anyone but they always had stuff to say behind his back. He respected them enough to say it to their face. Most of the time; he ignored everyone, and minded his business; most of all his mouth.
He was pushed out for being singles; he hated to be around couples. All they did was argue make things awkward. Then because of their bad communication blamed him. He was frazzled, how is so called friends; called him family then cut him off; what a way to treat family.
He warned his friend about her past, but love conquers all, so it didn't matter; what he said, or what he thought. His chapter ended he faded out and went away a lone rebel on his way.

Went so hard there's on other way
Dk what to say now
Can't live in the moment
Quick to ask what's next
Going strong going hard
Trying to slow down
The rush won't let up
Took it all in got burnt out
Let it all go feeling free
Staying true focused on the gain
Not influenced by others
Working hard than most

He spoke his mind they called him crazy. He had an opinion since he didn't always agree. They made him out to be the black sheep for not going along.
They tried to slander him beat him in numbers. Turns out they'd turn on everyone because they couldn't control or get their way. Telling people how to live their life; how to act, who to be. Couldn't they just be happy for people.
Rather than vilify everyone for being different for their efforts belittling everyone because they think their way of life is righteous. Looking down on family like if they did favors but quick to impose an opinion no one asked for.

They sat across from one another after years of avoiding one another. Things were said out of anger and frustration now living different lives from how they originally knew one another. So much had changed over time. Moving on was hard but had to be done.
Saving the moments even though they are expired. Wanting to fix the problem try to make it right. Learning to forgive oneself instead of carrying the guilty burdens. That chapter is over a forever friend even if we don't talk anymore.

He was over his phone no one called unless they needed something. He didn't care for texting anymore people got bold with messages but would never say it to his face.
All the frustration dealing with others it ****** he had to be watered down. Tired of being quiet and smiling because others had their unsatisfied egos that needed to be stroked.
He didn't have the time or energy to make people who made him miserable happy. He bit his tongue because he knew opening his mouth would make things worse.
He didn't talk or think about those people showed no feelings or emotions focused on his life and work.   Departing due to conflict of interest living life his way with others influence. He took their loathing remarks into consideration. He had changed so much over the years now others expected him to be someone else some false persona he couldn't live up to. He knew his worth while he bounced back from struggle setback and failure.

He loved his family and wished they'd get along.
He was always distance from people he knows people go through stuff
But have no right to take their frustrations out on others
Killing the fun with bad vibes and bad attitudes
He didn't care to feed egos or deal with their worse while he put out his best
He minds his mouth because his honest made people mad
His mouth got him in trouble and lead to drama
He just wanted to hang out without conflict
Trying to keep the peace while falling to pieces within
Trying to understand while their actions said other wise
He didn't get them while they made everyone uncomfortable
He was done pretending everything was okay.
It was easier to stay away then try to help those set in their ways

Tried to figure out
Where it went wrong
Only if going back was an option
Change things but it's been done
Everything happened moments passed
Turned out accordingly
Over the time period given
Live to forget the past trauma
Learn to grow with someone new
A new partner move on
Dump the exes standards
Not all relationships are the same
Meet new people with common interests
Find more like minded people
Not all friendships are one sided

Always praying for good
Trying to do what's right
Another to rise above
Another internal struggle
To overcome over time
Trying not to get in trouble
Crumbling to stay sane
Racing insanity through the pain
Fading away gone a long way
Thinking of other ways to get it done

Not quick to judge others flaws
A body and face with scars
Made up stories due to the appear
I know what it's like to not have a job
Don't like to hurt others or get hurt
The hero in my story the villain in others
Told the truth and got hatred
Got told lies feeling disrespected
Stayed loyal to the wrong people
While the right moved onto better
Use to wait thinking they'd return
The last one standing from the crew
Single and no kids parents worried
Trying to grow up sad to see them age
Appreciate the times together memories

Family don't always get along in conflict challenging one another's standing. Arguments get personal pointing out flaws talking bad about one another. They try to turn everyone against you. All the anger within all the frustration.
Learning to shut it down when there's no reason or compromise. So many lies all these terms conditions and circumstances

He had a big heart for life
A passionate soul warming smile
Still caring for others feelings
Even if they did him *****
He meant well no hidden agenda
When things went wrong
A loving heart beautiful soul
Forgiving still kept out
Not forgiven by others
Made mistakes multiple flaws
Most of all not able to forgive himself

Still writing scared to be alone
A people person not always favored
Still pursuing a dream short lived
Over being side tracks constantly
The detours feeling close but farther away
Use to be annoyed by missing it now
Onto better but stuck on the same old
Trying to achieve the American dream
Some have lived it happy for them
Others struggle pursuing opportunity
Learning to forgive to move on
Find inner peace within this thick skin
Somethings are hard to forget
Can't change the past live in the moment
The future has yet to happen

Seeing people be fake is the worse feeling. Has you wondering are they being true and genuine with you. To see them fake a smile, pretend to show interest but the truth is they could careless.
Has you questioning humanity and where you stand. Your trust for people wondering about your own judgement.
Use to be very welcoming learning to be more distant and selective about those who are welcomed into your social circle. Been a tough few weeks doing work for the lazy. Job titles mean nothing just pass the grunt work onto the person trying to get hired.
Sometimes things are easy others complicate them it gets annoying. Very frustrated with the outcome turn of events. What happened? Why? More questions and less answers.
Not doing things the same changed up the format and woke up tired not anxious to go. Still moving don't want to completely stop

On the outside looking in feeling like everything is diluted. someone are real others are lost in their own world. In the mind their safe place. Use to be an open book now selective about who gets to read. Now always interesting, willing to learn dk the answers. Always open to help the stress of not doing enough struggling to get by.
Wanted it more than most it was short lived.
He didn't get his hopes up made the most of things. Adapted and adjusted to the situation.

That internal struggle within fueling the words to write. The internal struggle losing sleep refusing to accept defeat. Doing what's right not trying to argue or fight.
Praying others would try instead of campaign to justify their lazy. Holding a job hostage because you don't get a raise or not doing the work why expect change. Be the change make a difference so over all the nonsense all the defensive behavior because deep down they are wrong.
Too many people are proud to admit they are wrong and say sorry. It might not fix the problem but change comes from understanding. Trying to create lost in those moments. Over all the negativity and hate. Disconnected about to recreate those moments can't go back trying to give life to my imagination.
Scared go gain all the pain when it's taken away. Feeling unworthy too many did me *****. Sorry if I get too wordy. Learning to tap into the heart. Writing it becomes an art of what's floating around in this determined mind.
Asking what matters how can you do things without driven by hate insulted because others can't debate trying to bully you because of your beliefs. Not imposing trying to understand. I might disagree no reason to make me a target.
I'll keep being me something. I'll never regret because your mad you'll forget all the good that was done. Emotions like a loaded gun ready to go off.

Clicks are broken grown apart
Families made starting a new
The days are long never ending
From a comfort zone to insanity
Trying to cope no reaction
Holding it all in
Not sure where to start
Starting over again
A huge fall letting go
It seeps out hard
Survive this pademic
Praying for love so much hate
So many loved ones lost
Can't pay respects
Avoiding the crowds
Be saved praying for all

Times have changed before if you were poor you'd hide it. Now a days people ask for money. Always being told if you want something work for it. No one can do it for you but you. I'm big on individualism but everyone thinks they are a brand or some kind of product. Marketing themselves get out there work for it the right people will take you on.

He was stressed and an emotional eater stuffing his face. The bad news made him depressed. He was still working with bad health because so many milked a doctor's note.  He did the work while most made excuses.
Staying active while most chose to be lazy. Anything he said or did made him out to be crazy. Having an opinion and being hard working got him hate. The lazy tried to blame him because he made them look bad since they didn't take pride in their work.

Always helping others
End up ******* over
Didn't get the job hardest worker
Wasn't good enough gave it all
The girl chose someone else
Felt lead on given false hope
Betrayed by so-called friends
Over a girl who was never loyal
Others quick to blame than own up
Cant vent or talk to anyone
Writing to make sense of the insanity

Not for everyone okay with that
Cleaning off the rough edges
Doing it myself time feels right
Don't need anyone to do it for me
Too tired to argue with anyone
Doing what I love always
Feeling good to be doing it
Not seeking approval
Made it there without others influence
Over those rules that keep you out
Its different but done with heart
From the young soul that's growing old

Finding inspiration to write
Thankful for ideas those moments
Getting inspired to put out work
Deep from within not holding back
Pursuing a dream setting new goals
New standards honoring the original
Turn the negative into positive vibes
Learning open to grow into more
Lost in the process feeling productive
Made changes without toxic influence
Trying to be better improve over time
Over being misunderstood treated bad

He watched his brother be buried part of him went in the grave.
He didn't trust anyone he wanted justice
Who executes another being in cold blood
More bad than good at that moment
Hard to trust anyone his failed relationship
Brought out the hatred trust issues he no longer wanted to be that person anymore
He stopped caring what others said or thought since he had his own agendas
All those distractions he stopped empowering them. The loud noise went mute white noise it didn't matter anymore.

Life after the transplant
My story was used against me
Working hard to move up
Got stopped and setback
Another detour to another destination
Working hard to be independent
Impatient and hate waiting on other
Hard to trust most of all rely on people
A scar healing up from the betrayal
Dealing with a false friend pretending to care
Getting stronger everyday focused on growth
Taking charge staying out of drama
Over useless leads taking the credit

Mind playing tricks
Ready to argue not that person
Why bother the person doesn't listen
Dealing with a one sided
Narrow minded individuals
One starts the drama
The other interjected an opinion
No one asked but received
These blindsided tactics
Disrespectful remarks from fake ppl
No longer empowering or acknowledge these people
Family hurts you more than a stranger

Wanted to keep them whole
But things crumbled on your end
No one to blame hard to explain
Change is always occurring
All the pain and memories remain
With time and space it fades away
Stayed strong for them rare they do the same
Bouncing back not staying down
Leaving town one had your heart
The other will always be apart of life
Memories the mind treasures hard to forget
Grew up became an adult all on big jolt

A confession to cleanse the soul
Protecting others taking the bullets
Helping family made out to be the villain
Taking one for the team working hardest
Soon to be a future lead tired of settling
Hated for being a shooting star
Working hard striving in life
His name slandered by friends
Other quick to believe the lies
Staying loyal seen as a threat
Standing tall with moral standards
The social rep ruined by people
Who don't try but expect everything
Spoke the truth it's the right thing to do
Called people on the nonsense