Sadly overworked feeling worthless
Clashing with the lead trying to right
From fun to lifeless told bad attitude
Same BS feeling burnt out
From the inside out insulted
Can't change a stubborn mind
Older gentlemen set in his ways
Spoke up seen as talking back
Carrying the load setting boundaries
Trying to make it to the end
Fading out showed love by others
One bad week feels it all slipping away
The wild one doesn't care anymore
Easier to be a rebel watching it sink
Trying to talk no one wants to listen
Now its not important anymore
Make it right focused on the wrong
Built up emotions over time seeping
Can't hide them anymore feelings hurt
An animated face showing emotions
From good to bad now it's too bad
Changing the tone ready to go
Tried to make it work it blew up hard
Took on too much came up short
Failed feeling like a **** at work
Never enough trying to find balance

Having time to think what matters and what doesn't overthinking thoughts. That have looped and go no where. There's always someone that has nothing going thinking they have the right to mess you. The question is always why?
I'm a very social person I do speak up. Always judged for being different that's okay because I'm not worried about you since you're going out of your way to be heard. I'm not wasting my time or energy on you. I got way more important things going on.
So what a person is heavy your not helping them why are you mad and complaining. A person is articulate with words you think he's fruity for it. Take time to better yourself instead of knock people thinking you'll bring them down to your level.
Step it up stop using others to cater to your not willing to grow or being open minded to learn something.
If you took time to understand to make sense. If its not for you easily walk away. ***** with so many labels and ideals you do what you like and what makes you happy. Just because you like something should make you a target

He didn't like to let people down but when he did he felt bad. He tried came up short hated when people he cared for looked at him like he didn't matter or he was useless. The worse feeling ever some things were out of his control he had no say. He quit flirting with drama avoiding others troubles. Fading out everything becomes a blur not the same anymore.
Just because we don't see eye to eye or agree doesn't mean there is hatred not forcing it anymore. Wasting a lot of energy with someone who's not putting forth any effort. Had an opinion because it was asked not a debate. One sided mind trying to shut you and your world down.
This life is not an option can't just pick and choose when to be involved. Full time or nothing use to selective minds trying to throw a monkey wrench in this dream.
Set goals and doing the work to be told you aren't doing it right. Can't live for two barely getting by as one.
Didn't have help working for this didn't happen right away staying strong trying not to fold growing. Refuse to close this heart off let it go cold. Working to survive while others hate trying to bury you alive.

Growing up with tough love. People being nice is genuine. some do it without terms or conditions. A whole new vibe and experience from the people who care. It feels right without it being thrown in your face or held over your head. Things are not always what they appear to be. Learned to not expect much or ask but to do it yourself if you'd truly like to make it happen.

Tired of fighting an uphill battle
Don't want to walk away, no reason to stay
Not one to quit, beyond fed up
Annoyed how lazy are given more opportunities
Working hard ignored determined to move up
Can only go so far limited movement
eventually looking something new
Wanted it more then most denied
Now I'm leaving all pretending to care
Made my presents known gave my all
Now I'm gone the change start a new chapter turn the page

Looked out now being pushed out
Told you she cheated still surprised
Had your back you turned it to me
The knife in mine already the pain
Not one to get even return the favor
Went against a friend mind made up
All this for an unfaithful love
Ditched friendships for a relationship
Hard to trust pursuing lust mistaken
Addicted to the toxic can't get a fix
Mind clouded not able to focus
In denial about the truth believing lies

That never made since to me when a person has way more going on. And taking shots. I never seen that person as a challenge we both do our own thing.
I stay in my lane and my number got called why can't you be happy for me instead of trying to shadow my success. I had your back and supportive. It ***** you're the one trying to derail my success.  Knock my efforts. I never said anything unless asked.
I spoke the truth now you're mad because it's not what you want to here. I'll never be a yes man or let you bully me to do things your way. I've been doing my own thing if I have to deny myself to be accepted it's not worth it or my time. Too many rules that are not right. Sad how two faced a person expects you to be honest with them but will lie to your face.

Too strong showing no emotions
Those feelings going numb
So much betrayal from the deceitful
He couldn't look at them anymore
Never the same there's no going back
On a lonely journey chasing a dream
Healing from trembling aches within
They made him out to be a nobody
Tarnished his rep without redemption
He didn't defend himself or he was guilty
Walked away from lies because he knew the truth and what he wanted
Tired of being buried alive just trying to live be an individual without others trying to bring him down. Like if it's their call or like their say matters

Mom's blaming everyone but herself
Son is a thief always mad at something
Running her mouth over nothing
All this talk no do mad at the truth
Called ruthless blunt not holding back
Writing this story from the people
Who's drama ruins my day
Healing from pain ******* up memories remain
Sober living getting cussed out by a drunk
Confronted the hunger over not talking anymore
Always on trial for being myself
While others are praised for being fake
Talking about others doesn't make you better
On the way one day it will all fade away

Always helping others
End up ******* over
Didn't get the job hardest worker
Wasn't good enough gave it all
The girl chose someone else
Felt lead on given false hope
Betrayed by so-called friends
Over a girl who was never loyal
Others quick to blame than own up
Cant vent or talk to anyone
Writing to make sense of the insanity

He cared when no one else did
Went out of his way and kept out
Smiled when everyone was bitter
Insulted by others frustrations
Tried to look out but got ignored
Looked past the flaws at inner beauty
He made one mistake got over it
Never heard the end of it
It was held against him

He could feel his brothers pain and torment as he talked about those who wronged him. He would tell him don't talk about them they aren't worth it. Don't waste a thought or let them Rob you of your peace disturb you by robbing you of your sanity. The brother would claim it didn't bother him but his tone/demeanor would change.

The athlete within wants out lots of wear and tear over the years. Conflicts with being responsible; trying to find a balance. Work takes away from training, but money is needed to invest in your skills/talent.

He was over the lies and manipulation. He cut the cord. He didn't care that they had kids or got married. He was annoyed that they made out anything he did to be a bad thing. He never talked about anyone but they always had stuff to say behind his back. He respected them enough to say it to their face. Most of the time; he ignored everyone, and minded his business; most of all his mouth.
He was pushed out for being singles; he hated to be around couples. All they did was argue make things awkward. Then because of their bad communication blamed him. He was frazzled, how is so called friends; called him family then cut him off; what a way to treat family.
He warned his friend about her past, but love conquers all, so it didn't matter; what he said, or what he thought. His chapter ended he faded out and went away a lone rebel on his way.

He was tired and sore tired of everyone talking about everyone. He gave his all while others act like they do everything acting like they help everyone. Its for their own selfish gain. Doing way more than the person running their mouth.
He didn't care for all these made up rules others made. Be this way do that and they don't even do it. A bunch of noise being made that doesn't help others benefit. He just focused on the work he didn't care about gossip or work politics.
He was thankful and grateful for his job. It was very demanding. He busted his **** took pride in his work. He didn't speak Spanish so he got the 3rd degree. Being Mexican born in the US they see you as privileged and lazy.
He did those impossible jobs and jobs no one wanted to do.

Always had their back
Now they are turning on you
Bitter taste of betrayal
Tried to make it right
Living all the wrong
Now trying to throw the pain
Spread the toxic vibes
Keep it alive to survive
Place the hurt on others
Told to move on but squatting
Left behind now trying to catch up
From lovers to a fling know as the ex
Friendship lead to brotherhood
The bond was like family cut ties
Now strangers cross paths
Memories of what use to be

The things aren't the way he imagine
Another outcome dealing with backlash
The love he gave everyone lashing out
Trying to be there getting cut out
Fading out not meant to be there
Everything changed drastically
Had no say or control holding on
Everything is gone never the same
Everyone grew up got married
Now divorced or have kids and still together
From no job to a career still single
Working nights to pay the bills

He felt stuck trapped in his own body. Hard to make moves; can't say or do anything because it's made out to be a bad thing. His life wasn't bad but crossing paths with others they attacked his flaws made him feel worthless. Arguing they play the victim he took their criticism said be better. He prayed for them and walked away. Ready to start a new chapter. Negativity didn't help the cause he chose to be positive as those crucial words tormented his being.

Trying to be normal it's always a fight
Working harder than most seen as weak
Not a lead doing lead roles standing out
Want a healthy relationship everything so complicated
Health issues just want to enjoy life
Eat without worrying
How it will effect the body
Self destruction has taken its toll
Doing more positive and creative things
Tired of arguing with others tired
Trying to get along they are holding a grudge

He wanted to date but remembered his exes and women from the past. He coule never make them happy or they wanted all the perks of a relationship. Some tried to fix him and make him better for the next why not try to make it work since so much effort and time was invested. Learning to get to know a person is more important ***. Being around and living with a person was an eye opener people lived another life at home from work on a date was another part of the person but there's more to it.

Writing about love and life so complicated when it shouldn't be that way. Feeling like the past has this death grip squeezing the life out of him. He was sorry but never forgiven. Not able to make those wrongs right. When he does better why is no one happy for him.
He's not a target when they come at him; why are they mad when he checks them for coming at him sour. He didn't let himself to anyone; most come at him with a vengeance once he checks them they are quick to play the victim. Years of holding it in time to let it out. All this burden weighing him down a distraction from the creative process.

He didn't give into the personal attacks they expected him to overreact or make a fuss. He never said anything about anyone. They gave him an ear full. He was sorry he couldn't live up to their demands and expectation he moved on with his life. Thankful for the talk and motivation.
He didn't always fit in but he gave his all took pride in whatever he was doing. He was anxious and more determined. To get it right do it his way since he didn't always have a choice or a say. He found joy outside of work ready to take step make moves in the right direction pursuing everything that he neglected without others interference/influence he knew the hard part was starting and staying on track.

Trying to make moves feeling stuck and trapped he was a polished time he did have a chip on his shoulder. Trained by many since he was open to learn and grow. Helped out many but feeling betrayed have his all lately feeling like it's not good enough or he wasn't living up to the way he was seeing himself.
It felt like the world was against him and like he couldn't get it right something always went wrong while he was trying to do right.
Another argument with the power trip trying to stay quiet but annoyed they assume instead of asking assuming planning his evening treating him like a nobody but covering for everybody.

Before you made it they dk you
Didn't bother to call on for favors
From friends to foes biggest haters
Trying to slander you
Because things are right with them
Fathers addicted to coke
Instead of showing their kids love
Blaming them born in the wrong life
Neglecting the child to party and drink
A sober coward in check
Liquid courage getting bold
After a few drinks loud disrespectful

He missed her and his chance
She was married to someone
Who made her happy made it work
A mom with kids such a blessing
she told him no and wasn't ready
He wanted to call but it was too late
There was no going back only forward
It would never be normal again

He stopped empowering the crazy that fueled the family hatred. Everyone wanted him to be or act a certain way. Focused on his goals and dreams he stopped making excuses anxious to get it done make it happen. He could see himself graduating with his college degree its part of his journey he started but life took him away from it. Working part time but doing fill time jobs.
He met so many people on his journey met the right ones. That would connect him with the right in the right direction. He got support instead of trying to prove himself to be accepted. Learning about mutual love and respect instead of everything being so one sided. Working hard waking up sore with lower back pain. Trying not to stress out over things he has no say or control over.
He always had writing to see it put things into context sometimes things would happen and didn't always know how to act or respond. He learned to walk away instead of carry the burdens of the world on his shoulders.
Someone was always mad or holding a grudge he wasn't responsible for their happiness. They chose to behave and act that way. He did his best to not hurt others or get hurt.

He worked harder than everyone
All they did was cause heat with hate
Throw shade causing a dilemma
All he wanted was to master his craft
Stay out of all the scandalous politics
Made up rules full of corruption
Contradicting double standards
Focused on the work with pride
Not saying anything words get twisted
Clear mind head on his shoulders
Getting older no time for games
Not causing others pain staying strong
Walking away from toxic peeps
Washing away the past breaking free
A cleansed heart from tough love

He talked to her everyday it was easy because he didn't want or expect anything from her. Till one day he wanted to ask her out but he didn't want to make things weird. He like their friendship, but didn't want to cross lines causing her to think less of him. He was already weird this would make it seem like a bad thing.